absurd life

Human energy is limited, and it is impossible to do many things in a certain period of time.At the same time, God is also fair. When you give your all, He will definitely give you back, but this is just a simple aspect...

For a long time, I was so busy with Chris Tao's affairs that I didn't have time to accompany Ouyang Ze every day.I thought that if two people didn't say anything for a period of time, there would be no change in their relationship, but I was wrong.Ouyang Ze is not a toy waiting for me to caress, he is not a puppet without spirituality, he also has feelings and temper, and he will feel sad because of my neglect.

"I'm really exhausted these few days. Krista and the company's affairs really annoy me to death..."

Stretching on my back on the couch is the only "physical activity" I can do every day, and I don't have time to go to the gym, so it's a lot of relaxation for me.

The tense fingers and tired body have tortured me and I don't have the energy to continue competing with them. I just want to have a good rest and feel the care Ouyang Ze gave me.

There was a time when Ouyang Ze would wait on the sofa every night when I came back from get off work. When I lay down, his hands would naturally rest on my shoulders to relieve my fatigue.Every day, I enjoy the love and care he gives me as I should, but I never pay, so that now I can't get anything.

Today, when I lazily walked towards the sofa again, Ouyang Ze sat at the dining table with a newspaper in his hand. He just quietly read the boring content in the newspaper, but he didn't even say a word to me.

"Ze, my shoulder hurts, come and help me squeeze it."

I shrugged my shoulders slightly, but he still sat there motionless, not even moving his eyes.

Maybe he's tired too, after all, his work is more complicated than mine and he has more things to deal with than me, so it's only natural that he doesn't have time to deal with me.But he didn't even give me a concerned look, and he felt a little uncomfortable.

"The rest will be fine, come and eat quickly."

He didn't say much, but slowly folded the newspaper in his hand and put it on the side of the table, then stretched out his hands to the knives and forks on both sides of the dinner plate, without paying attention to me from the beginning to the end.

Eyes are the windows to the soul, I am used to having someone look at me when I speak, at least it will give me a sense of security, let me know that my words can still touch him.But once the other party chooses to remain silent, there will be an inexplicable sense of emptiness...

"Oh…"

I don't know how to continue what Ouyang Ze said, there is no topic, no eyes, just as indifferent as treating a stranger... I have been with him for so long, and I can see his subtle changes , not to mention his obvious indifference...

At the dining table, none of us said a word. Although the candlelight in the center of the dining table was flickering with warm orange light, the atmosphere between the two of us was still cold.

"Crack..."

The joyful conversation in the past is now replaced by the friction of knives and forks against steaks and plates, and the room that should have been noisy has become deserted, as if two strangers are sitting at the two ends of the table .

Even though I sometimes look up at Ouyang Ze, signaling for him to speak the first sentence, he still ignores it and just eats the cut beef on the plate with his head down. filled with blocks.

I don't like this kind of atmosphere, I don't like him who is so indifferent, but what can I do?

In same-sex love, there is no love without sex. If there is a reason for our relationship to fade, all I can think of is "pleasure in bed".Perhaps, I neglected his body, so that he, who has always been "hungry and thirsty", would feel a little emotional after being hungry by me for so long.

That night, I deliberately took a shower early and went to bed to wait for him, preparing to give him a big surprise, preparing to make up for him tonight, so that his body that has been tense for a long time can also relax...

"Shhhh..."

The sound of running water can be heard from the bathroom from time to time. Ouyang Ze is a person who pays attention to maintenance. After all, he is already in his thirties, so he should pay more attention to his body, so he spends extra long in the bath.

The waiting time is always worrying. I have never been a patient person. Even after working, my restless personality has not been improved. After waiting for a long time, I will still become impatient and my mood will change little by little. bad…

When Ouyang Ze came out of the bathroom, although his patience had been worn out by him, I still tried my best to show a slight smile on the corner of my mouth so as to make the atmosphere less awkward.

Maybe it's really because I haven't paid attention to him for so long that when he came out of the bathroom, I actually had the feeling of seeing a "new guy", and the whole person gave me a different feeling.

There was a bath towel around his waist, and there were drops of water on his chest and shoulders that hadn't been wiped off, which looked extraordinarily crystal clear under the light behind him.

Lighting is always the most useful PS tool. The hazy effect produced on his abdominal muscles only makes me feel his charming, and also makes my eyes keep looking at the mysterious area below.

"Ze, I thought about it..."

I moved my body towards him little by little on the bed, as much as we did when we met for the first time, instead of just lying on the bed blankly waiting for his "care" like an "old man".

The scent of the shower gel exuding from his body is so tempting. Although it is not a special fragrance, it still makes me a little emotional when I smell it.

Little by little, I reached for the towel around his waist, trying to tear off the white covering.But the moment my hand touched the muscles in his waist, he seemed to be on fire, and he took a few steps back, with a very surprised expression on his face.

"I do not want."

He replied coldly and rejected my request...

what happened to him?The methods that had been most effective were not working for him now.It was as if he had suffered chemical castration, and lost the "**" that a normal person should have...

He has really changed, he has really become different from before, I don't know why, I don't know what made him become like this, but I feel a sense of inexplicable terror...

What love fears the most is the indifference of two people. When one person starts to become silent and speechless, then the relationship between the two people will also start to deteriorate...