absurd life

That night really got the result I expected before: Wu Yao left my world, left my life, left me forever...

If it was before, such a result would definitely make me so happy that I couldn't sleep for several days and nights, as if I had been injected with chicken blood, and I would use up endless energy every day.But now, after living in Wu Yao's house for a month, everything is not going the way I thought.

He is like a glass of slow poison. When I first drink it, it will not cause any harm to my body or spirit.But as time went by, when mine didn't get the antidote, his toxicity began to attack, which made me restless and frightened.

I don't know what I'm afraid of, but it's just a strange feeling.It's like walking on the edge of a cliff without rope protection, and the sense of crisis that may fall at any time threatens me.

Is the dead heart alive again?Is the heart that has removed its love for him beating again like before?

"Ruirui? Don't be dazed, ready to come out to welcome the guests."

Ouyang Ze stood at the door and gently knocked on the door and said to me.

Through the reflection of that mirror, I can clearly see Ouyang Ze's joyful expression, and I can even count the exposed small white teeth.

Well, today is my wedding day, the day I've been waiting for so long.But I happened to think of that person, Wu Yao, and my past on such an important day...

"okay."

I replied and continued to lower my head and arrange the decorations on my clothes.

The wedding of two big men is definitely different from the wedding of men and women. I will not wear a white wedding dress like those vulgar fans, and Ouyang Ze will not wear a black dress like most men.Our wedding dress is world-class, and our future must be bright and infinite.

Compared with the bought clothes, the custom-made clothes are much closer to the body, and you will not be bound by the rigid clothes even if you wave your hands and kick your legs.The surface of black velvet also looks gorgeous.

"hislover (his lover)" "hislover"

These two identical labels were placed on the table. I originally wanted to have a Chinese-style wedding, but I felt that the words "groom" and "bride" were a bit clichéd, and the red big red flowers were scumbags.So Ouyang Ze designed two labels himself, two labels for our future identities.

For some reason, looking at these two labels at the moment, I just feel that they are dazzling, and I just feel so strange, as if the person who will use them later will not be me, and I have nothing to do with them...

Two months ago, when my wound had completely healed but my heart was still empty, Ouyang Ze proposed to me.

The location of our proposal is so different, not at the seaside, not at home, there is no warm scene, and there is no romantic music... Some are just the white walls of the hospital, and the strong smell of alcohol...

That's right, it's the hospital, and it was in this hospital that Ouyang Ze proposed to me.

I didn't know what I was thinking at the time. When I saw the huge diamond ring and my name engraved on the diamond ring, I accepted it so vaguely and gave up the struggle for several months. accepted him.

Maybe, I should really go back to the past, back to the time when I didn't know about that, back to the time when I still loved Ouyang Ze, to continue the love between us, to continue the life I want...

But in the past two months, my feeling for him has never been the same as before. Looking at him is no different from looking at a stranger.Although he greets me with a smile every day, our "sex/blessing life" is still complete.But the feeling for him really can't go back to the past...

Every time I look at him on my body, his expression of enjoyment and his low growl in the dark, I always feel that he is no different from the guests I have received before, and there is no difference from them in any way, including My favorite part of him...

"Ruirui? Come down quickly, the guests will be here soon."

"Oh, here we come!"

While tidying up, I accidentally fell into a daze again.Waking up again was also because of Ouyang Ze's cry.Under his repeated urging, I quickly slapped the folds on my clothes twice, grabbed the two labels on the table and ran down.

Before going out, when I accidentally caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror, pity arose in my heart. I felt sorry for the person in the mirror, and for his unknown life in the future...

Our wedding was held in a castle in another city, and the owner of the castle was a friend of Ouyang Ze.When he heard that we were going to get married, he generously vacated his house for us to use as the wedding venue, and he also took the initiative to help arrange all the decorations in the castle. He looked as happy as if he was getting married .

"Tack..."

This is the first time in my life that I walked the stairs in the castle. The long and winding stone steps are like singers who have been sleeping for hundreds of years. When I stepped on them, they began to rest for many years. singing.

Walking downstairs a little bit, the noisy voice also intensified a little bit.Although the guests haven't arrived yet, the servants in his friend's house have been busy for a long time, using bouquets and various decorations to play battle songs for the wedding, and Kristao also served as their captain, using that Fluent English commanded them to do things.

"Chen Rui, come here quickly, and get ready to pick up the guests."

Seeing me coming down the stairs, there was a smile on Christa's nervous face, but the words that came out of her mouth were so harsh.

Even when she came to pick me up, she didn't forget to tell the people around to continue to decorate. The back and forth between English and Chinese made me feel dizzy, let alone someone who "speaks".

"Uh...um."

Seeing Christa's hasty expression and flustered movements, I really don't know what she is in a hurry or what she is busy with.I'm obviously the one getting married, so why is she so nervous?

But it's no wonder that people who care and love me will naturally pave the way for me and prepare everything that should be prepared before the wedding...

Without saying a word, Christa pulled me to the door, pulled me to the closed door, to the outside world where Ouyang Ze was.

I'm not ready yet, I'm not ready to face those people outside, I'm not ready to face the upcoming life, let alone Ouyang Ze who still loves me deeply.

Although I wanted to tell her "Stop, I'm not ready yet", but it was too late, I was pushed out of the door by Kristao himself, into the wedding of my dreams, into the endless abyss...