absurd life

Looking at the tears in the corners of his eyes, I don't know what to say... He also maintains that cold expression all the time, but from his eyes, the sadness is still clear...

I got out of the car, but Wu Yao didn't say anything. When he closed the car door, he started the engine and left the gate of the community quickly...I know that my words hurt him a lot...but I don't want him to suffer more harm in the future , long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, I hope he can know this.

Although his tears moved me a lot, the moment I opened the door, I saw Ouyang Ze's sunny smile and Wu Yao's sad expression instantly disappeared in my mind, even small movements like eyebrow shaking , nor disappeared without a trace.

Perhaps, Ouyang Ze's sunny and cheerful personality can really shatter the dark side of my heart and blow away those bad memories.He may really be my reliance for the rest of my life...

"Why did you come back so soon? Didn't you go to class?" Ouyang Ze saw me with a surprised face when he saw me enter the door.

Without saying anything, I ran over to him and cried loudly. At this moment, his shoulder is my last support.I don't want to say anything, I just want to feel his temperature and his heartbeat.

"Why don't you speak?"

"I don't want to say it. Just hold me like this and let me be quiet." I buried my head on his shoulder, not wanting him to see my sad expression.

He patted my back lightly and rocked me gently like a baby.How I wish I was really a baby, and I could just feel this warm moment in his arms all the time...

That day, I was really too tired...I was so tired that I didn't want to say a word...My friend, my ex-lover...It actually brought me so many blows in just one morning, and it was less than one morning... Oh my god!How did I mess with you!You are going to treat me like this!

I just lay in bed like this for a whole day.Didn't sleep, just looked at the ceiling quietly, recalling many past things in my mind...

Ouyang Ze is also considerate, seeing that I don't talk or sleep, just quietly dazed, so he didn't bother me.It was already noon after he finished cleaning. When he saw me lying on the bed like a dead body, he also took off his coat and lay next to me. left my face.

"Ruirui, it's been a day... still don't want to talk..." After the sky had turned from white to black and his stomach was growling after a day of hunger, he finally couldn't help asking me.

"I don't want...you go eat when you are hungry, let me be alone for a while..." I don't want him to starve just to be with me, after all he is innocent in this matter...

"Forget it, I'll stay with you." He smiled at me foolishly, even in the dark his smile warmed my heart like the sunshine in the daytime...

He groped to find my hand in the dark, separated my tightly closed five fingers and intertwined with mine, and put our tightly clasped hands on his chest, so that I could vaguely feel the beating of his heart...

I turned my head to look at his happy face like a child, and the love that had been dusty in my heart for many years finally broke out. "Will you be nice to me? Will you love me forever?"

"Yes, I, Ouyang Ze, can swear to God that in this life, I will definitely treat you well and make you happy forever!" Looking at his swearing expression and the three fingers stretched out on his other hand, I believed it ...I believe it from the bottom of my heart...

I moved my body excitedly, and when I moved to his side, I suddenly pressed him under me, and looked down at the man who said he loved me all his life.

"You said, if you dare to abandon me, I will eat you!" As I said that, I leaned on his shoulder and took a light bite.

"Why don't you bite hard?" He still teased me with a playful tone.

"Since you don't bite, then I will." Ouyang Ze turned his body over and pressed me back under his body, looking like he wanted me to eat him.

I fixedly looked into his eyes, looked at the me in his eyes, looked at that I looked so haggard... I raised my head and kissed his lips lightly, feeling his lips Soft to the touch.

My kiss is like a signal.A signal for a lingering night.

He slowly lowered his head and gradually shortened the distance between us. The moment he touched my lips, the moment he stretched out his hand to caress my back, that deep love* *Totally ignited by him, makes me look forward to this lingering night...

His movements were as gentle as ever, not too big, just moving his body slowly.I hugged him and pressed our chests tightly together. Although there are still beads of sweat in the gaps between our skins, we can still clearly feel each other's heartbeat, close to the distance between our hearts...

"What's the matter today?" After finishing the work, he still panted heavily and leaned on my body, his fingertips still gently sliding on my body.

"I... want to tell you something... about my past... but... it may make you feel sick..." I said to him guiltily, because in my opinion, these things really make me feel ashamed...

He rolled over and lay beside me, his arms wrapped tightly around my shoulders, letting me lie on his chest. "No, I don't care what happened to you in the past. If you don't want to say it, you don't need to say it."

"No, I want you to know about my past..." I said, looking up into his eyes.

Seeing him still looking at me tenderly made me feel even more ashamed...

In this way, I lay on his chest, listening to his rhythmic heartbeat, while telling my past...telling my experience from childhood to adulthood, telling...my past with Wu Yao...I didn't tell him Wu Yao Yao's name, because I don't want this name to affect our lives in the future...

Ouyang Ze has always been listening to me seriously, and occasionally frowns and looks at me affectionately, as if he is sympathizing with my miserable experiences and my "tragic" life...

"That's it...hehe...it's unbearable..." I lowered my head again, not looking into his eyes...

"I've said it all, I don't care about these things. Although your past is unbearable, but with me in the future, I will definitely give you a bright future." He stretched out his hand and raised my head again, looking at me firmly, It's like making a promise to me.

I feel fortunate... I am glad that I can meet such a right person... Then I think of what Wu Yao said, "He is not a good person." I just feel ridiculous...