absurd life

Leaving the cage surrounded by love, leaving the embrace that was imprisoned by care, I suddenly felt relaxed, as if the heavy shackles had been removed.

It was another night like this, it was still early, but the cold air still made me shiver.

He came out in a hurry, the clothes were still thin short sleeves and a thin coat, and the shoes were just the pair of home cotton slippers.Walking down the street I feel like a bum even when no one is looking at me, except for the dirt on my clothes.

"Hoohoo!"

Bursts of cold wind kept blowing past my ears, and the piercing voice was like the roar of death.

At lunch today, Chris Tao told me that the temperature will cool down in the evening. In the afternoon, I changed into thicker sheets and quilts with them. In the evening, I also prepared the coat for Ouyang Ze to wear tomorrow...

It's just that now I still have to suffer from the cold, and I still can't feel the soft touch and temperature of the quilt, and I still can't put on the coat for him...

But these are nothing compared to freedom.I would rather choose the cold, I would rather choose to wander, I would rather choose to abandon love, and I will stick to the freedom I pursue!

The road leading to the city center is like the road leading to heaven. In order not to let Ouyang Ze find me, I deliberately didn't take the avenue, but headed towards the city from the narrow path in the woods.

I don't know where the courage came from. I was so scared to death walking on the road that night, but I didn't feel scared at all walking on such a small road today, and it was even a little exciting.

The bright moonlight has filled every corner of the road. It is time for dinner, and the road is deserted during the day. At this time, there are several vehicles heading to the city.The cold moonlight urges them to drive faster, urges them to miss their families, and urges Ouyang Ze to find my pace...

I don't know that car is driven by Ouyang Ze, but even if I know, I don't want to be found by him so quickly.I want to enjoy the moment of freedom to the fullest, enjoying this rare pleasure.

The road in the woods is difficult to walk, broken branches and leaves are all over the narrow path, and in the dark night, it is even more difficult to tell where is the road and where is the grass.

At this time, it is the best choice to call Krista and ask her to take her in. Otherwise, when I arrive in the city center and have no place to go, then I will really become a homeless person.

I habitually fumble in my jacket pocket, but the empty pocket is laughing at the mobile phone that I forgot to carry and has the only connection with the world.

What should I do, I don't have my phone, and I don't know where Chris Tao lives, so I want to go back the same way, back to that love trap, back to Ouyang Ze's embrace?

Gusts of cold wind kept stroking my arms, so I had no choice but to keep rubbing them together, hoping that the temperature from this rubbing could bring me some warmth.

Dirty, disgusting, vile... The moment my palm touched my arm, these words kept popping up in my mind...

Yes, I am very dirty, I have been touched by countless people; I am disgusting, I sold my soul for money; I am very lowly, so humble that I am willing to imprison my freedom...

I don't want to go back, even if I freeze to death outside.Even though my heart is full of love for Ouyang Ze, my filthy body is no longer worthy of his noble status, and cannot bear the happiness he bestows on me.

Walking on, walking on aimlessly, this is the behavior of a lowly tramp like me...

After today, where can I go tomorrow... My passport, my luggage, and everything I have are in that cage. When I escaped, I only took my broken body with me. Where should I go tomorrow...

After walking for an hour, I felt the hustle and bustle of the bustling city. The colorful neon lights were very similar to my past life of feasting and feasting.It's just that the current me can never go back to the past, and my downfall can no longer be the focus of attention...

What is not available is the most beautiful, and what is held in the palm of your hand will never be as beautiful as what you expect.

In this noisy city, I am like a headless chicken, walking aimlessly through the streets and alleys.Passing by one store after another, and one restaurant after another.The hunger in my stomach and the cold in my body made me unable to continue walking. Finally, I succumbed to the pain in my stomach and fell on the road.

My stomach is still so unsatisfactory, even though Kristao does everything possible to treat it well, at the critical moment, it still brings me physical pain as always.

Leaning on the electric pole, the cold air on the ground is like poisonous snakes, rushing towards me from all directions, using their poisonous teeth to leave the cold venom on my body.

What I admire most about Americans is their "meddling their own business" attitude.

When they saw me lying on the ground, almost every pedestrian came to me and asked me about my situation.In less than 20 seconds, my surroundings were completely surrounded.

None of them were watching the show, and they all conveyed their little care to me.Although the physical pain made me break out in a cold sweat, the warmth of human feelings made my heart feel warm.

He was already in enough embarrassment, he couldn't be sent to the police station and then brought home by Ouyang Ze.This will only lower my social status and stimulate my self-esteem even more.

"thanks..."

In order to disperse the crowd, I tried my best to smile at them, pretending to be safe and sound.Only in this way can they leave and give me the right to restore my self-esteem.

I said I just fell accidentally, but no one seemed to believe such an excuse.Beads of sweat on my forehead are the basis for their suspicion.

Someone still came over to support me, even though I really need a shoulder to lean on and someone to support me, but I still choose to stay away.

"no, thank youi' mok..."

I repeated this sentence to everyone around me. Although they still looked worried, they could only let the stubborn me limped away.

Everyone's love is the same, there is no difference in national boundaries, there is no difference in human nature...

Although I escaped from that warm home, I still felt the warmth of humanity and the care of people from other countries in this cold night.

It was getting darker and darker, and the pain in my stomach was torturing my body and nerves a little bit.Going down aimlessly is undoubtedly going to hell, to the cliff, but dragging my "dirty" body, I have no other choice but to go down...