[First time] Burn it, brother-in-law!

Both mother and stepfather believed Jessica and Monica's statement that they were "just curious about what is stuffed in Chinese toys", and the two sisters were not punished in any way.But when I twisted their plastic doll's head off and threw it into the tomato soup, the explanation of "curious about how British toys taste when boiled" was not forgiven. My stepfather directly dragged me to see a psychiatrist. I think I have serious violent tendencies, but fortunately the doctor doesn't think so-at the age of seven or eight, a boy is normal as long as he doesn't blow up the house.

That night, my mother talked to me alone for two hours.She told me that she had already prepared another stuffed bear and asked a friend to give it to Ah Ci.Remedial measures are always more meaningful than revenge. Fighting evil with evil will only make yourself the most hated person.She also specially emphasized that in Ah Ci's eyes, I who destroy other people's toys are as hateful as the murderer who cut up the blue rabbit.

"I know you care about Ah Ci very much, and so do I. In fact, I often contact my neighbor, Mrs. Chen, and ask her how Ah Ci is doing. I feel relieved for his growth and want to tell you these things, but you seem to only care about him. I'm interested in pranks." I have to praise my mother's conversation skills, first she beat me with a sap, and then released the bait, I had no other choice but to take the bait obediently.

Finally, she told me earnestly that her stepfather was a loving gentleman.Her basis is that a 6-year-old girl in England was recently beaten to death by a black-hearted stepmother in the abdomen. This shows that my stepfather is kind to me, but I don't think so.That night I had a nightmare. In the dream, Ah Ci was killed by my father's mistress, and his body lay quietly in the trash like a blue rabbit.

After that day, I completely followed my mother's wishes and tried to make myself as sensible as she expected.Although my stepfather and his daughters were still wary of my unexpected revenge, my mother believed that it was enough for me to sincerely reform.She also told me about Ah Ci as promised, such as: growing taller, getting an A in the final grade, joining a football club, and so on.But whenever I asked if my father had remarried, she would suppress her smile and bluntly answer that she didn't know, which made it impossible for me to escape the nightmare of Ah Ci being abused.I watched him helplessly cry for help, unable to do anything except wake up from the dream.I hated this feeling, so I started planning to run away from home, naively thinking that I could go back to China to rescue my brother soon.

But it is not an easy task to win a home, and it is even more difficult after the failure - my stepfather moved my bedroom to a storage room without a window, which actually confirmed the rumors that the oil bottle was abused, and my stepfather's reputation was damaged. The relationship between me and them has also reached an impasse.

The repeated failures made me gradually realize that even if I fled back to China without the ability to survive independently, I would not be able to rescue Ah Ci from the fire pit.Only when you are successful in your studies and financially independent can you truly bring happiness to your loved ones.I finally turned my obsession with running away from home into a motivation to study, and my relationship with my stepfather's family also slowly changed during this period.

I never thought about it, my rebellion and obedience all stem from my desire to protect Ah Ci.When I was in college, my mother told me that Ah Ci went to study in Japan.This is good news, but I feel disappointed—Ah Ci actually ran away before I could save him!Do I still need to go back home?Maybe he never needs me, but I need to be needed by him. I am used to using this persistence to cover up the loneliness of being away from home and the depression of being dependent on others.

I lost the motivation to support myself to go back to China, so I could only look for a new sustenance—trying to integrate into the new family like my mother, because there was no family member waiting for me to go back to the home on the other side of the ocean.But I would still ask my mother about Ah Ci's new news. It has become a part of life like having toast in the morning.When I meet foreign students from Japan, I will also take the initiative to chat with them and learn some basic Japanese.Maybe at some point, Ah Ci and I were learning the same pronunciation.I like this subtle feeling, as if it can transcend the limitations of space.

In the psychology class I took, I realized for the first time that Aci was more important to me than normal, but it was too late.In order to hide this secret, I designed a normal relationship for myself.In other words, I was betting myself that I would devote myself to this relationship within half a year.After half a year, if I fall in love with Cong Hui, I will get engaged to her and enjoy the most normal life in England.Otherwise, I won't delay her youth any longer, break up happily, and resign to my fate to finish this life alone.

The result is obvious, I failed.As long as I face the mirror, I can't help but think of Ah Ci, there is no way to fall in love with others under such circumstances.Although I kept telling myself that I should love Cong Hui, every time I said it, I would refute in my heart - if I love her, there is no need to deliberately emphasize it like this.When love words become lame lines, this kind of life makes me tired, but I am not as comfortable as a person, at least be honest with myself.

After breaking up, I often spend very late in the research room, and my heart becomes simple when I get busy.I think I'm pretty sensible, at least I don't have the idea of ​​going to Japan to find Aji.If I went, I'd go from being a nuisance who stole the blue rabbit to a nasty pervert.But when Yuechun showed me the photos he took when he returned to China during the vacation, I actually laughed—all my feelings for Ah Ci turned into a joke.The well-behaved boy who played house with the blue rabbit in his arms disappeared out of thin air, and was replaced by a man with a cigarette butt in his mouth, cold eyes, and a hostile look all over his body.

I have always admitted that these years are my own wishful thinking, but I never thought that even the object of wishful thinking is an illusory imagination.

Maybe I never knew the real Ah Ci.I tried to recall the things before going abroad, and also analyzed my mentality.Why do you like to bully your brother so much?I thought about it for a long time, and concluded that I didn't want to be mischievous, I just wanted him to play water gun with me.The building blocks and the blue rabbit were obstacles between us, so I used the most clumsy way to push the obstacle and Aji far away—for me, who was also a child, this mistake was unavoidable.At that time, even his parents thought that Ah Ci, who liked plush toys, was obedient and weak, but the reality was just the opposite.He hugs the blue rabbit to sleep every night, not because he needs company, but because he thinks that the blue rabbit should be protected.He has a strong sense of responsibility since he was a child, and he likes to protect the weak most. However, I, who is running around with a toy pistol all day, is too strong and is not in the scope of his interest.

So, is this Ah Ci, who has a temper and personality, within the scope of my interest?I quickly realized that this was a rare opportunity. I went back to see him and became disillusioned. Maybe I could cut off the sprout of abnormal love that was intolerable in the world and get myself back on track.But there are always some inseparable emotions that prevent me from doing so.I was hesitant until I graduated, and after my job was stable, I didn't put returning to China on the agenda.But the death of my mother made me lose the last reason to stay in the UK-I traveled with my mother and Blue Rabbit for 17 years, and finally I came back alone.

The moment I saw Ah Ci, I was sure this was the beginning, not the end—I had never been so anxiously searched for by anyone.

When I hugged him, he said "it's over, go home".I realized right away that he was taking pity on me.This completely confirms my guess that he is a very protective person.As long as I can get closer to him, I don't mind showing weakness.Of course, at this time, I dare not have any unreasonable thoughts, but simply want to get close to my relatives.

In the first few months after returning to China, everything was going in the best direction. Ah Ci had a good impression of me, and even kissed me actively in full view.No one can refuse such a temptation, I greedily wanted more, and began to delusional to stay with him in a deviant way.But no matter how beautiful the dream is, there will be a time to wake up. I deliberately ignored the fact that his kiss was from game punishment, but I couldn't escape the fact that he has a girlfriend.

I thought he would like the innocent and harmless type, but his girlfriend is a shrewd policewoman - always like this, whenever I think I know Ah Ci well enough, he will suddenly become difficult fathom.Like the wind, people can't catch it, and they can't see it through.Maybe he is not difficult to understand, but my heart is confused.Once a person is moved by emotion, he is in a cocoon.

Originally, coming out of the closet and incest is a small and narrow path, but adding unrequited love is simply pushing yourself to a dead end.I decided to compromise with fate, put my thoughts about Ah Ci in the corner of my memory, and tried for the second time to return to a normal life of marrying a wife and having children.My marriage partner, Ya Shu, was originally Ah Ci's fiancée.She may have liked Ah Ci longer than I did, but Ah Ci never meant that.I still envy her very much, at least she can confess her love, even if she is not accepted, she can cry wantonly, but I don't even have the right to be sad.We fell out of love at the same time, and no one understands her feelings better than me.I tried my best to persuade her to let go, and at the same time persuaded myself to let go, but I didn't expect that the two of us would come together.I can't believe that Ya Shu, who has been in love with Ah Ci for nearly 20 years, will move on in a few months, but if it is used as a substitute, I am an excellent candidate.Such a combination may be a good choice, at least we have something in common, and we love the same person in our hearts.

I just held my former rival in love like this, and promised things that I was not sure of in front of my relatives and friends.Ah Ci didn't come that day, but just called to express his blessing.Fortunately, he didn't come, so I was able to read my lines and finish the play.

I thought this marriage was the only way out, but later I realized that I was completely lost.We didn't go on the honeymoon. Ya Shu thought that only being in love with each other was worth celebrating, and she was willing to postpone the honeymoon until she reached this state.We have always treated each other as guests after we got married, and I gradually felt her love, but I never felt the throbbing of happiness in my heart, and guilt and anxiety followed me everywhere.However, Yashu's affection did not receive an equal response, and she felt pain because of this, and became sensitive and suspicious.When she discovered Cong Hui's email to me, the cold war and quarrel inevitably broke out.

I was completely lost in my efforts and didn't know what I was doing every day.During those days, it was more difficult than the 17 years in the UK.When I was at my stepfather’s house, I at least knew that my home was on the other side of the sea, and I could go back after buying a plane ticket; but when I returned to my own home, I was like a reserved guest, carefully playing my role.

Sometimes it's very late to socialize, and I will move to Ah Ci's room to sleep on the grounds that I don't want to disturb Yashu's rest.It was only here that I could unmask, let my emotions unleash, and admit that I was a complete failure.My father seemed to have noticed the clue, so he simply converted this room into a baby room, so as to stop my thoughts.But if the relationship can be severed by a sharp knife, why did he bother to stalemate with his mother for so many years?I learned from Ah Ci later that my father's private life was very chaotic, and I only sorted it out when I returned to China.Ah Ci thinks he changed his mind just to impress me, but I think it's his mother's death that makes him lose the meaning of being romantic-no one will be hurt by asking neighbors about these things anymore Excited.

When Ya Shu gave birth to two children with difficulty, I had a sense of responsibility as a husband and father.Maybe the protective desire that made me lost at first can be transferred from Ah Ci.The whole family was immersed in joy because of Ai Zhong Aihua's birth, completely unaware that disaster was coming.

On the day of Ai Zhong Ai Hua's full moon, Ah Ci and his girlfriend had a car accident, one was injured and the other died.Father received a call from the hospital and learned of Ah Ci's condition, and suffered a heart attack on the spot.I tried to stay as calm as possible, but my hands shook uncontrollably as I gave him chest compressions.Ah Ci once joked that I was useless, if the two of them needed to be rescued, they couldn't count on me at all.Unexpectedly, it turned out to be a prophecy.After all, my father could not escape this disaster.I often wonder if I could have been more calm at the time, would there have been a different result?

On the other hand, Ah Ci's injury is not optimistic. The moment I saw him in the operating room, I suddenly remembered the blue rabbit that was cut up and thrown in the trash can.After so many years, I am still the same person I was back then, dragged away by fate, unable to protect everything I cherish.

The result of reluctantly parting love and silently blessing is so tragic.Facts have proved that it is a mistake to abandon him at all-hoping on others to bring him happiness, nothing can change except meaningless prayers.When my blood flowed into Ah Ci's veins, I suddenly didn't want to be passive and bear it anymore. The arrangement of fate should not be like this.Blood is thicker than water is not the divide between us.Instead, it's fate's direction—we're meant to be one.Whether he can accept it or not, I will never let him go again.This bastard has driven me crazy, as long as he survives, he's mine!

But when he turned the corner, I was shaken again.What lies between us is more than blood relationship?I have lost the qualification to say love loudly, which is unfair to my wife and children, and it is also unfair to Ah Ci.I hope no one gets hurt, but this indecision hurts just as much.Yashu saw my words and deeds, and finally discovered my secret.She could tolerate me hiding someone else in my heart, but she never thought that this person was Ah Ci.She broke down and cried in the ward, sickened by forbidden emotions.That's right, she used the word "disgusting" to describe her feelings, which also reminded me that maybe Ah Ci felt that my feelings for him were dirty and disgusting.I have been afraid to confess to him not because I am cowardly, but because I am afraid of being hated and disgusted by him.

Yashu and I's marriage has obviously come to an end, we went through the divorce procedure on the first seven days of my father's life, and Aci's girlfriend's eldest brother came with her.Ya Shu told me that this is not love at first sight, it can only be regarded as the revival of old love.When she was Ah Ci's fiancée, she had secretly dated her senior - her fiancé was far away in Japan, and he didn't understand the style.Driven by loneliness, everything goes with the flow.It's just that Ah Ci never noticed this, which shows how heartless he is.

I smile wryly.In any case, I owe her what I can only make up with the inheritance my father left me.This is not what Yashu wants, but I can't make it up in other ways.Ai Zhong Aihua must not follow my old path and live with his stepfather's face.

After Ah Ci was discharged from the hospital, he learned that I was divorced, so he was so angry that he wanted to talk to Ya Shu.He hadn't recovered yet, and he had just suffered the blow of his girlfriend and father's death. I couldn't be stimulated anymore, so I temporarily decided to pretend to be sick to hold him back.At that time, Ah Ci became very obedient, for fear of accidentally making me angry and having a heart attack.I knew that this was the shadow brought by his father's death, but there was no turning back when I opened the bow. I took advantage of this weakness and forced him to submit step by step.

Having said so much, I hope you can understand the relationship between me and Ah Ci.If you feel disgusted like Yashu, I don't force it.But it's all because of me that it has developed to this point, Ah Ci is innocent.At the very least, don't look down on him.Because you have no other relatives, except him and two children.

99th year six years

In psychology, 7 is an incredible number. Many people's short-term memory capacity is only 7, and if it exceeds 7, they will forget.For me, 7 is a limit, and I can't always touch it.When I was six and a half years old, I started that foreign trip; when I returned to China for six years and three months, I was diagnosed with a brain tumor.During the two six years that I got along with Ah Ci, we both faced separation due to sudden changes.But this time, I'm not sure there will be another six years.

Maybe the new six years belong to you.

I'm often described as a businessman with a good hand and a good hand.Now that the cards are in your hand, it is up to you to decide how to play them.But for a person who has lost his memory, it may not be easy to make the right decision.It is my duty to give you some advice, which is the most practical part of this letter:

1. I believe you have read the archives, but people will change, this part is for reference only.I advise you not to rely too much on this information, so that you lose the ability to identify.

2. Another document is my diary for the past few years.Read more, maybe it can help you adapt to the living environment faster.

3. The fewer people who know about your amnesia, the better, so as to protect yourself to the greatest extent.Confessing your situation may avoid some responsibilities, but it will allow people with ulterior motives to find an opportunity to take advantage of it.There are no absolute bad people in this world, only those who are tempted by interests to do bad things, so don't challenge human nature and create opportunities for others to become bad.

4. I like to deal with smart people. Without bothering to explain, it is easy to promote mutual benefit and win-win results.But if the other party is ridiculously stupid, anything can happen when he is impulsive, and if he doesn't make it right, he will be dragged into the quagmire.Of course, this is just my point of view. Ah Ci likes to be friends with people with low IQ. The reason is that people with IQ below 80 need his help more.

5. Both you and Ah Ci are rare RH-negative type A blood, and the blood bank reserves are limited, so don't do it if you have nothing to do.

6. Ah Ci doesn't like being controlled, even the nicotine that has controlled him for 16 years has been quit neatly, so don't try to suppress him with the status of the eldest brother.When you have time, you may wish to observe Ai Zhong and Ai Hua, and you will find that even children don’t like this set.If it is convenient, accompany Ah Ci to sing KTV more.He needs that release, and you get to know him better.

7. Any difficult situation can be resolved with a smile, because an indifferent smile will give people the illusion that you have penetrated the overall situation, and this strong sense of oppression is enough to make the opponent mess up.Special attention should be paid not to smile too brightly, otherwise it will have the opposite effect. It is recommended that you practice more frequently in front of the mirror.

There are many more things I want to tell you, but listing them all would lose the point.Considering the limitation of memory capacity, it is more appropriate to control it at 7 items.If you can do the above, you can basically guarantee that the family and business will go smoothly.Of course, this may make you feel not free, even bound by my will.But now is not the time to be rebellious. Deliberately vetoing my opinion will do more harm than good.I believe that you are a smart person and will not try to be tough on yourself.

That's it, I sincerely wish you happiness in your life!

Once you

2014. 6, 10

……

After reading the letter, Ah Ci's eyes were blurred by tears—he finally understood Ah Chu's love that was as long as a century.

At this moment, he felt unprecedented panic.

"Uncle, don't cry." At some point, Ai Zhong walked into the study, stood on tiptoe and stretched out her little hand to wipe away Ah Ci's tears.

Ah Ci came back to his senses, choked up and couldn't speak, so he hugged this caring nephew,

"It's okay, uncle." Ai Zhong comforted him, "Don't worry, we can ask Uncle Ah Si, maybe he knows how to turn off the computer."

"No, I will turn it off." Ah Ci wiped his face with the palm of his hand, then patted Ai Zhong on the shoulder, "Uncle has entrusted you with a difficult task. Go downstairs to find Uncle Ah Si and tell him that I need to use the car now." .”

"Yes!" Ai Zhong received the order and immediately ran to perform the task like a well-trained little soldier.

Ah Ci stayed in the room, and cut the entire folder to his mobile phone memory card with a data cable.Then he turned off his laptop and went downstairs.

Ah Si was wandering in the living room, saw him and hurriedly asked, "Second Mister, what happened?"

"No, I just want to go to the hospital. You can take me there now."

Ah Si looked at his flushed eye sockets, feeling that something was wrong.He was worried that something was wrong with the boss, and in a hurry, he forgot what Ah Chu had told him, and stepped on the accelerator and drove all the way.

Ah Ci sat in the back seat, quietly flipping through file 3 in the phone, which was Ah Chu's diary.

cloudy on October 10

Today, my mother's spirit is much better, but I am not happy.It is clear to me that this situation is only temporary.After being in the hospital for a year, I am no longer optimistic about my illness.Anything can happen in this world, only miracles, few people have seen.She finally let go of her strong pretense and admitted that she regretted it.If time could go back, she would definitely not choose to divorce, let alone leave Ah Ci alone.But until now, there is no room for change, and she will never return to that sad land in her lifetime.I admire her very much. After realizing the mistake, it is also a kind of courage to make the mistake and make the mistake.And I didn't even dare to make the wrong decision, I just passively avoided the problem.

Rainy February 10

When I closed my eyes, I couldn't sleep at all, but I felt like I was dreaming——Mom had left me for 2 days.I guessed half right, her last wish was to be buried in England, but she asked me to resign immediately and go back to China, so that the heartbroken man could see the son she raised.In fact, without her reminding me, I would never forgive my biological father, even though I have the same blood as his in my veins.What makes me hesitate is, am I really ready to face the real Ah Ci?

Sunny September 10

Ever since it was confirmed that Ah Ci would come to pick me up at the airport, I have been in a state of tension.I imagined many possibilities and designed many sets of dialogues, but I was still retreating in my heart.In the end, I decided to observe Ah Ci in the dark first, and then consider whether to go to meet him or buy a plane ticket back to England quietly.Fortunately, the reception hall is surprisingly lively and easy to hide.I hid in a corner, watching with cold eyes a long-lost reunion happening in front of my eyes. They embraced or shook hands, and their faces were filled with the joy of reunion, but none of this had anything to do with me.I felt like the pillars beside me, unable to comprehend the hard-working and hypocritical performances of these strangers, until Ah Ci appeared in my sight—he was late.It was unknown what had delayed him for half an hour, but it was not important anymore.I saw him asking the staff anxiously, and pointing at his own face to describe my appearance, so frank and persistent, he spared no effort.I can't describe the feeling of being touched at that moment. This is probably the sense of belonging.There was no more hesitation, and I couldn't help but use a way that I thought was hypocritical just now to get closer to my heart——give him a tight hug.

According to my observation, Ah Ci is not as indifferent as in the photo.Apart from smoking, there are no other disadvantages.

Sunny September 1

This trip to Huashan was rewarding, and Ah Ci was quite patient with me.I set a multiple-choice question between myself and Huashan, which he was thinking of, but he chose to stay with me and gave up the chance to climb to the top.Although, he seemed a bit annoyed.Another find was that he was popular in the unit and we were pulled over by 6 policewomen for a big adventure.It stands to reason that everyone's winning probability is 1/8, but I am twice as many as them, and Ah Ci's card is also mine, and it turned out that he really got a fake card!Although I had expected this situation, when his lips came close, I was disgracefully broken——I am really not suitable for being passive.

Cloudy on September 3

Seeing Ah Ci's injured knee, I understood why the old man insisted on changing his job so much.For a person with RH negative blood to become a criminal policeman, how self-willed must he be to dare to act like this!And in order to get closer to him, I ignored this sensitive issue with a fluke mentality!But even if I persuade him, will he listen?In his eyes, I was a peer who was born a few minutes earlier than him. I disappeared for more than ten years and then suddenly appeared at home to stay at home. I am not qualified to discipline him at all.Now he has to bargain with me when he asks for sick leave, and it is impossible for him to accept the suggestion of transferring work.It seems that when necessary, some extraordinary measures must be taken.

July 3 Breeze

Thanks to Ah Ci's leg injury, all the birthday surprises I had designed were cancelled, and I could only celebrate his birthday with him in the hospital.Given his aversion to bitterness in his coffee, I doubled the sugar in the cake and he sure loved it.It seems that after quitting smoking successfully, we have to arrange for him to quit sugar.I have to say, he was naughtier than I imagined, and he was not honest when his leg was injured. He didn't watch for a while, and he rocked the wheelchair to surprise me.But last night when he was blowing out the candles he was quite devout, I don't know what he wished for.But my wish is that I can always look at him like this and realize his every wish in the future.

The old man also loves him very much. He went to their unit early this morning to deliver beef noodles to him, and the hospitalization was just a waste of time.It is also a good thing that Ah Ci was discharged from the hospital. I was really afraid of Xia Yuechun's broken mouth. Last time, I almost left out the fact that I can play billiards.Let him chat with Ah Ci a few more times, and the image I have worked so hard to create will be completely ruined.

As soon as we got home, Yashu came to kill us.She is so pitiful, chasing so closely, but she doesn't know that the more she is like this, the more annoying she is.To my surprise, Ah Ci even dared to say "I love you" in order to drive her away.He deliberately expressed in Japanese, and even distorted the meaning of the sentence to fool me.I followed my plan, forced him to teach me, and asked him to look me in the eyes and say it seriously three times.

Sunny September 4

Today, Ah Ci had a big fight with the old man because of work, and even got into a fight, and finally slipped away through the window.It can be seen that he loves this profession very much, and I should help him.But the risk factor of the criminal police team is really too high, I don't want him to have an accident.If everyone takes a step back and transfers him to an administrative department, he can still be a policeman and stay away from danger, but he may not agree.So I had to hide it from him and convince my dad first.

I thought the old man would like this solution, but when he learned that I was willing to take over the company for Ah Ci, he immediately changed his face - we all understand Ah Ci's determination to defend his career. It seemed very unconvincing.He was doubting me, his eyes seemed to see through the unbearable feelings in my heart.I panicked, and the most credible excuse I could think of at the time was that I was greedy for money, so I said so.He seems to believe it, and because of this, he is even more worried about handing over the company to me.Looking back now, I made a big mistake!Why set yourself up as a profiteer fighting for family property?At that time, it was time to play the bitterness card, emphasizing the lack of family affection since childhood, and cherishing father and brothers even more after the loss of mother. Nothing is more important than the harmony and safety of family members!It's too late to regret it now, he will definitely persuade Ah Ci to beware of me.But it doesn't matter even if he said it, Ah Ci trusts me quite a bit these days, he must have thought it was my father deliberately smearing me in order to force him to inherit the family business.

cloudy on October 4

Ah Ci didn't return all night, so I went to look for him in the morning, but I caught him chatting and laughing with Ronghua, and even staring at Ronghua's back in a daze.I was still consoling myself, I must have thought too much, if he was interested in Ronghua, it would have been her who kissed Ronghua on the train three months ago, not me.But he admitted that he climbed out of the window yesterday not for work at all, but to confess his love to Ronghua!They are already together!And there is my "credit" in it, not only did not stop him from arranging the house, but even provided a safety rope!

I had expected this day to come, but it really happened, but I couldn't calm down.If Ah Ci just made a girlfriend, I can understand, but he has hostility, even hatred towards me, and I don't know where this hatred comes from!Maybe he listened to the old man's advice, went to Chunhe Hospital to investigate, and found out that I was running the business.But even so, there shouldn't be such hatred. He even deliberately emphasized the presence of Ronghua to stimulate me.There was no doubt that he had seen through me, and that this unrequited love was to him nothing but frivolous blasphemy.

……

Ah Ci didn't continue reading, and turned his head to look at the night outside the car window.It's too late to regret, and the future is still bleak.He felt chills, rubbed his arms, and called Ah Si to turn off the cold air.

It was July, and the car was a bit stuffy after turning off the air conditioner.Ah Ci closed his eyes and meditated, and suddenly remembered Xia Yuechun's words - "You hate him for failing your expectations, and you hate yourself for being ignorant. Maybe at first, you hoped that he would come back for you? If you refused to face Back then, I would be stuck in the same place by those old things, misleading others and myself.” Only now did I realize that those duplicity explanations only deceived me, and the thoughts hidden in the corner were so obvious that even an outsider could understand .

Walking into the observation room, Ah Ci sat on the chair beside the hospital bed, stared at Ah Chu who was in a coma, and said softly with tears in his eyes, "Brother, I'm sorry... I didn't fall in love with you before you loved me."