[Master Pirate] I just want to live a peaceful life

Thinking through things at night will always give people the illusion of "I can do it, I can do it" - last night I wanted to confess my love to Estanne tomorrow morning, if he accepts, he will get married in two years, if he can't, he will catch up He promised so far.

Positive thoughts made me lean towards the former, so I thought about the name of the child, and when I opened my eyes, I found it was a dream.

In the morning, Ace, who no longer avoids me, greets me generously, and sits next to me for dinner.

The breakfast made by Sachi today is my favorite, even the honey and lemon are carefully prepared, but I am sorry for this kind chef.

Because I put all my eyes on the cooking, Ace next to me occupied all my attention.

He looks delicious when he eats. Ace, who is not picky eater, always stuffs food into his mouth, chewing food with puffy cheeks like a chipmunk. The rice grains on the corners of his mouth will stick to his fingertips after he swallows the food. Get up and roll it away with your tongue.

Looking at it, I can't help but think, if I can also become food, I can touch Ace's mouth and tongue, and I want to be eaten by Ace.

The thought made my face heat up.

With a plop, Ace fell down on the table, buried his whole face in Sach's carefully prepared dishes, and held a half-gnawed chicken leg in his hand.

"Poison, poison killing?!" I stood up abruptly, calling out Marco's name and shaking Ace's shoulder.

Everyone else looked at this scene amusedly. I panicked and scolded them for what they were looking at. Sach came over, touched my head soothingly, turned around and punched Ace on the head.

"You kid actually ruined all my cooking!!"

"Sarge, what are you doing..."

Ace stretched out his hand to scratch the place where he was beaten, and sat up slowly, his black pupils were still foggy and confused: "What happened?"

I looked back and forth in shock, at Sage, at Ace who was gasping and eating chicken legs, and at Sage again, he shrugged and said, "This is a common thing, Ace has a problem of falling asleep while eating."

"...He didn't do this when he ate with me before."

Sage said with a smile: "That's not because he treats you like a child, he is like this, always behaves seriously in front of people who need care."

After listening to Saatchi's words, I have mixed feelings.

It’s a good thing that Ace doesn’t treat me like a child, and it’s also good to show his true side in front of me. The question is, what does he think of me now?How can I become special in his heart?

Love is a double sword, it can make people strong, but it can also make people vulnerable.

One day I went to Marco and said, "I'm going to the Chambord Islands."

"Want to earn money again? The Whitebeard Pirates don't need your food expenses."

"I'm going to the Chambord Islands," I repeated verbatim.

He accidentally put down the medical book, looked at me, looked me up and down with his eyes under the lens and said, "What happened all of a sudden?"

"It's nothing." I asked him back: "I took the initiative to come out, aren't you happy?"

He chuckled and said: "As a doctor, there is no better medicine than self-improvement, and I shouldn't ask the reason behind it, but from the standpoint of Marco, I care about all your changes. "

"Tell me about it, Beja."

His infinite patience and gentleness took off my armor, and I spit out all my thoughts, and finally summed up the conclusions I had been thinking about these days and nights: "I love Ace, I want him, and for this I want Solve your own problems first."

I have never loved anyone other than my family and friends. I am unfamiliar with the road of pursuing love. I rely on my own groping, and these days I finally came to a conclusion-that is, people who can’t even solve their own problems, what is there? Qualified to love?

What a despicable, weak, and hateful person I am, I can’t really hate Charlotte who took the life of Beatrice and 'her' parents. She said she wanted to die, but she is still alive today, living like the past He scoffed at himself.

That’s how I was, hopelessly, I met Ace and fell in love with him violently, and I couldn’t stand it more and more, this half-dead self loved Ace.

Kuroro is right, I want him.

Shinichi is right, I love him.

So I can't let go, I want, I want, I want Ace.Loathing myself and wanting to love Ace deeply, these two contradictory emotions are fighting to the death in my body.

In the end, human beings' longing for beauty overcame self-loathing—I killed myself in order to be able to love him.

"I am guilty. I am willing to bear everything after death, but when I am alive, I want to be with Ace."

After I said it, my mood calmed down, and looking at Marco's thoughtful face, I said: "I know, I may not be worthy of Ace, and you will object to me and have no complaints, but I don't Will give up, only Ace and I..."

Marco raised his hand to interrupt me, he rubbed my head in a funny way, and said, "Why do you have such an idea? No one will think that you are not worthy of Ace, let alone object. On the contrary, we all I look forward to your coming together, Beja, don’t always belittle yourself, you are fine.”

"Your parents gave their lives to protect you, not for you to avenge, but for you to live freely and happily." He said: "Go ahead, you and Ace deserve happiness."

I bit my lip and said nothing, Marco's blurred face gathered into water droplets, which silently slid down the corners of his eyes.

On that day, everyone knew that I was going to the Chambord Islands, and they all said that if it was not too conspicuous to meet the red hair, it would cause me trouble. They really wanted to send me there in person. I was thinking in my heart, how long will it take to get lost? When Chambord Islands.

Marco said, "Ace, you can send Beja there."

I was surprised to see Marco's smiling eyes.

At this moment, the image of Marco in my heart suddenly became taller.

Sage urged: "Remember to eat on time, take good care of your body after hard work, and don't toss about it again."

I nodded obediently, but he was still worried and prepared some dry food for me.

Carrying a backpack full of dry food and the crew stuffed snacks, I boarded Ace's boat. Ace, who knew nothing, wanted to apply for a small sailing boat with Marco, but Marco rejected it .

"What's wrong with Marco, is Beja crowded?" I sat on the bow, leaned back against the bulging backpack, raised my head and blinked, and said happily: "It's not crowded at all, it's very comfortable to sit on." of."

The words were for Ace, but the eyes were for Marco behind him. He leaned lazily on the rail and was waving at me. The captains showed their thumbs from behind him.

My Superman, the Whitebeard Pirates.

I put my hands together in my heart, full of admiration, and embarked on a solo journey with Ace.

For two years, Shanks won't be waiting for me in the Chambord Islands, but don't worry about not seeing me.We all know that as long as I want to see him, the phone bug or the life card can bring me to Shanks, and I just don’t want to see him.

Considering that I was sitting on the bow, Ace's flame spray/shot was not large, I leaned on the backpack comfortably, closed my eyes and enjoyed the sea breeze blowing on my face, and the raincoat on my body blocked the splashing water droplets, I could only A rustling sound was heard.

This bit of Mercury still can't hurt me.

Ace and I were separated by a backpack, and he helped me block the glare of the sun above my head, so that I could paint him with my eyes unscrupulously under the shadows.

Bare/bare chest/chest/upper, with compact muscles, smooth and graceful lines, the skin exudes a healthy luster in the sun, making people want to poke it.I stared in a daze, Ace gradually couldn't hold back, a faint blush floated up, he lowered his head, and said angrily, "Don't keep staring at me!"

"They don't have it~" I hugged my knees, blinked my eyes and pretended to be innocent: "It's obviously Ace who is looking at me, otherwise how would you know I was looking at you?"

Ace laughed angrily, and the flames behind him suddenly exploded. Before I could react, I was thrown into the cold sea water. With a raincoat, I couldn't hurt me naturally, but some salty water stars splashed into my mouth, fishy. The salty bitterness almost sent me away, and there were several bah bah bah bah, the taste in my mouth hadn't dissipated, so I hurried to find the snacks in my backpack and stuffed them into my mouth in pain.

The goal was achieved, Ace laughed like a child who succeeded in pranking, I had a snack in my mouth, and under threat, I only dared to stare at him.

You waited to go ashore.

It is two days away from the Chambord Islands, and we rested on an uninhabited island that night.As soon as I landed on the island, I jumped down first, grabbed a handful of sand and threw it on Ace's face. Seeing that he was also in pain, I laughed gleefully.

Ace plunged his head into the sea to clean it. A few seconds later, he shook his wet head, wiped his face, and turned his head. The smile on his face made my heart skip a beat.

"Beja, we need to talk, peacefully, friendly."

"Don't talk, we have nothing to talk about!"

I took a big step back, turned my head and ran towards the forest behind me after speaking.

Ace roared from behind to make me stop, and I turned my head proudly to make a face: "Try to catch up with me, idiot!"

Speed ​​and strength used to be my pride, until I was pushed up by Ace, pressed on the beach, ate a mouthful of sand, tickled and laughed so hard, and doubted life.

We quarreled until both sides' stomachs were growling, and then we started to live and look for food.

Ace ran into the forest and came back with two big wild boars in a short while. He took the dagger/sword and peeled/skinned them neatly. I took out the seasoning that Sachs gave me before leaving, spread it on the pork, and put it on the pork. They are skewered and grilled by the fire.

The light of the fire and the aroma attracted some large beasts. Ace tore at his legs, glanced over, and after a few pitiful whimpers, there was no more movement.

Without the noise in Moby Dick's restaurant, the two of us faced each other to eat pork that was crispy on the outside and tender on the inside, and there was no conversation for a while.

When he was almost done eating, Ace took out two handkerchiefs, one for me and the other for himself. His etiquette in a place like this is admirable.

In order to completely abandon the shadow of "Charlotte Ningning", I cut off my long hair, put on men's clothes, and threw away all the etiquette. Only in this way can I feel a little more at ease, and will not doubt myself in half-dream and half-awake Have you escaped yet?

At this time, Ace said: "I heard Marco talk about you and the red hair, Beja, I think you are very brave."

I was a little flustered, and then his tone sank, under the flickering firelight, his eyes were filled with indissoluble darkness.

"You are much braver than me. Sometimes I really envy you. I heard Marco say that your father was a great man. I also admire him, he is a good father, a good husband, his famous name will bless his wife and daughter, if not for Charlotte, you will spend your life like a star."

For a moment, there was only the crackling sound of the flames devouring the firewood. Half of Ace was in the firelight, and the other half was hidden in the darkness, solidified like a statue. I sighed softly and said, "I still envy you."

His body trembled, his slightly wide-open eyes were full of surprise.

"Sometimes, I wish they weren't as good as me."

This is a distorted thought in my mind, in order to make myself not condemned, if Gavin and Rosalie are bad parents, if they are not so good, I don't have to bear the condemnation of my conscience, I can, together with Charlotte Te laughed with them.

"But they're so good, I can't take the love and feel overwhelmed. I couldn't figure it out before, but now it's different, Ace. I figured it out. I can't change this, It’s better to just accept it.”

Accept their love, accept your own weakness, accept the kindness of others, and accept that you are going to pursue love.

I sat next to Ace, took his hand, smiled at him who was shaken, and said, "For better or worse, it's all part of who I am because I've accepted everything to hold your hand like this." hand."

"Even if even birth was a mistake?" He said mockingly, his whole body shrouded in a shadow: "Beja, you are different from me, your birth was not a mistake, don't you know, I am that Gore D. Roger's child, the whole world hates my existence, they want me to die."

"No one wants me to live, and I feel the same way. Do you think it's good that I am like this?"

He looked straight into my eyes, I didn't avoid it, I met his gaze, and replied seriously: "Yes."

In his suddenly narrowed pupils, I saw myself gently pulling the corners of my mouth and saying, "Solar Beatolis, Gore D. Ace, we are still ourselves before that."

As soon as the words fell, Ace's face changed suddenly. He rushed over and grabbed my collar. His face was terrified like never before, and his eyes shrunk like needles shone coldly. He warned me:

"Don't call me by that last name."

I didn't feel any fear or displeasure, I stretched out my hand to stroke his cheek, feeling the stiffness of the person under my palm, and said: "The name is just a formality, didn't you call me by my full name just to make me face myself? "

"..."

"Look at me, Ace." I moved closer to him without fear, close enough that we could breathe in each other's faces, so he could see himself in my eyes.

"Now face up to your own existence and take a good look at who you really are."

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The author has something to say:

Ace: Beatrice.

Beja: Gore D. Ice.

Stepping on each other's minefields shows friendship.

Little perverted Beibei, she can do what she wants in terms of thinking, but she is submissive in her actions haha!

It's been a few days since the two of them confessed to being together (nodding)

Here Ace is joking because he knows that the water will not hurt Beja, because Beja is wearing a raincoat, the undead will not die if they drink sea water, but they will die if they touch sea water, or drink too much, so a little water drop is nothing Influence.