unrequited love forbidden

Heartbeat

when?

This is the first New Year that Jiang Xiao and Fu Qingzhou spend together.

Probably because he was happy, when Jiang Xiao poured wine for Fu Qingzhou, he didn't even refuse.

"Really drink?" Jiang Xiao originally just wanted to tease him, but he didn't think he really planned to drink, and suddenly felt a little worried.

"You're an adult." Fu Qingzhou took the wine bottle in his hand, "You drop gold."

Jiang Xiao was angry and funny, "Is your stomach okay?"

"I didn't drink less." Fu Qingzhou laughed softly: "I'm not living well."

After saying this, both of them fell into a strange silence.

"Brother, I drink too." Fu Zhi looked at the side helplessly, holding his own bear cup, and said decently: "Full up."

"Children can't drink, drink your drink." Jiang Xiao poured him a glass of orange juice, "It's full."

Fu Zhi sighed regretfully.

Fireworks were blooming outside and firecrackers were crackling, and the party on TV happened to be dancing. Jiang Xiao and Fu Qingzhou sat facing each other, raised their hands and clinked glasses.

The crisp sound of glasses colliding was barely audible in the bustle, but it was extremely clear.

At the beginning they were still chatting about this year's winter vacation homework, and played a video with Li Bowen, and listened to him babbling about a few weird things in the class, complaining about his parents and the boredom of the New Year, Jiang Xiao and coaxing the children Seemingly agreeing, Fu Qingzhou listened silently.

Fu Zhi ate fast, and after eating, he took his snacks and went to the living room to watch the party. When his brother rarely indulged him in snacks and drinks, he raced against time.

After hanging up the video, Jiang Xiao found that his wine glass was full again.

"Let me have one." Fu Qingzhou lit the bottom of his cup for him.

Jiang Xiao didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "Take it easy, don't get drunk."

"People who get drunk after two bottles of beer are not qualified to say that." Fu Qingzhou mercilessly laughed at him.

"I'm drunk, not necessarily white." Jiang Xiao was not very convinced, and chatted with him slowly while eating vegetables.

"There seems to be a very famous skit at this year's party." Jiang Xiao frowned and thought for a while, "What's the name? I remember I watched it at the hotel."

"Have you watched the fun?" Fu Qingzhou laughed.

"Ang, I was alone in the south at that time, and I felt that I was truly free." Jiang Xiao twitched the corner of his mouth, "You said if I didn't leave, would we have met? Then it will be the same as now."

"Maybe." Fu Qingzhou clinked glasses with him.

"I really hate celebrating the New Year alone." Jiang Xiao said: "It's deserted, there's no fireworks at all, and I obviously cooked a lot of dishes, but I don't want to move a single bite."

"It's boring." Fu Qingzhou felt the same way, "The more lively outside, the more annoying inside."

"Really annoying?" Jiang Xiao said with a smile, "I wish I could drop the cup, don't I?"

"If you fall, you have to clean it by yourself, it's laborious." Fu Qingzhou also laughed with him, "It's fine to scold in my heart."

"Is it lively today?" Jiang Xiao picked up a piece of ribs, and the salty smell made him squint his eyes in satisfaction.

"It's lively." Fu Qingzhou stared at him with his head propped up, "It's lively outside, and it's lively at home."

"That's fine." Jiang Xiao also tilted his head and stared at him, "It will be so lively every year from now on."

Fu Qingzhou smiled for a while, and said, "I'm pretty good at talking."

"Because it's the truth." Jiang Xiao said, "Mr. Fu, do you know that when you're shy, the back of your neck turns red?"

"Huh?" Fu Qingzhou was puzzled for two seconds, and then laughed, "I can't see, how would I know."

"I know." Jiang Xiao leaned close to him and said mysteriously, "The first time I carried you from the wheelchair to the car, your neck was reddened, especially the back of the neck, it was hot."

"Nonsense." Fu Qingzhou said firmly, "I didn't like men at the time."

"That's always uncomfortable, I'm sorry." Jiang Xiao said with a smile: "I had eight-pack abs at the time."

Fu Qingzhou suddenly felt that the energy of alcohol was rising a bit, and he sneered, "I can't even notice your 18 yuan abs."

"Oh, this is very sad." Jiang Xiao was slightly drunk, his slightly drooping eyes seemed to be filled with water, "But! When you finally got the prosthesis that year, we went to City B together that time."

Fu Qingzhou didn't change his face and said: "What happened that time?"

"It was raining heavily, and Xiao Zhang booked the wrong room, so we could only live in the big bed room together." Jiang Xiao smiled a little badly, "I forgot to take my clothes when I was taking a shower, and I came out shirtless, you should see that?"

"Uh..." Fu Qingzhou couldn't refute, and realized later: "Did you do it on purpose?"

"Of course it was intentional." Jiang Xiao said proudly, "I'm still very smart."

Fu Qingzhou smiled and took a sip of his wine.

Jiang Xiao said angrily: "But you don't understand style! Sleep with your back facing me the whole time! There are two more Li Bowens in the middle of the quilt!"

Fu Qingzhou was noncommittal, and then he heard Jiang Xiao say: "But your neck is red again, like boiled prawns."

"I was just... not used to sleeping with other people." Fu Qingzhou tried to argue.

Jiang Xiao bit the rim of the cup, looked expectantly and said: "Mr. Fu, it's really not a little bit, not a little bit, let alone a heartbeat, just a throbbing or a few jumps?"

Fu Qingzhou ate a mouthful of food, and after a long silence, he said calmly, "Hear the truth?"

Jiang Xiao nodded vigorously.

"Yes." Fu Qingzhou took another sip of wine, lowered his eyes and stared at the rim of the glass, "Many times."

It was obviously the answer he wanted, but when he really heard it, Jiang Xiao still felt unbelievable, "Really?"

"I..." Fu Qingzhou hasn't had a drink for a long time, maybe because he drank too eagerly with Jiang Xiao, or because he was really happy to celebrate the New Year with Jiang Xiao today, he actually felt a little dizzy, "I've never met I have been to a subordinate who doesn't know how to measure like you, but it's still not annoying."

The environment in which he grew up doomed him to receive limited love. Most of the time it was even difficult for him to define likes and dislikes. Interpersonal communication is a skill that can be learned, but likes and dislikes can only be based on instinct. No need to show your likes and dislikes.

But sometimes human instinct is irresistible.

For example, when Jiang Xiao handed him the umbrella and coat on that rainy night, there was a weird sour moment in his heart, and the regret when he turned around but couldn't find anyone.

For example, the moment of indescribable excitement when I saw Jiang Xiao again.

For another example, when Jiang Xiao prepared breakfast for him thoughtfully, he rushed him to the hospital late at night, brought a small cake for his birthday, or some overly considerate care...

But they are only momentary and momentary throbbing, and the almost strict calmness and reason that follow will kill these throbbing before they sprout.

Pretend to be affectionate, delusional, unintentional, or, Jiang Xiao is so considerate to everyone.

His calmness and rationality are just right, just right enough not to move his heart.

So they can remain in a distant and polite relationship for decades.

"Specifically?" Jiang Xiao couldn't wait for him to demonstrate with an example.

"For example, when you threw me into the sea." Fu Qingzhou recalled pretending to be serious, "For example, you almost drove the car into a ditch in the middle of the night, or you dared to fight with someone with a wrench when the door was locked, and another example was hanging The car in the wrong gear ran backwards for hundreds of meters... When things like this were happening, my heart was not only moved, but my heart was about to explode."

"Ah..." Jiang Xiao reached out and touched his nose, "Is there such a thing? Why can't I remember clearly?"

Fu Qingzhou smiled, "Are you older?" :лf

"That's still not as good as Mr. Fu." Jiang Xiao bumped into him, gritted his teeth and said, "I respect you for this cup."

Fu Qingzhou nodded, "Xiaojiang is quite drinkable."

"That is, that is, for the safety of our boss, I don't drink at all." Jiang Xiao stared at him resentfully, "Although he seems to have a lot of dissatisfaction."

"I'm not dissatisfied." Fu Qingzhou said, "I can only say I admire it."

Jiang Xiao drank the last cup a little too fast, and soon his mind was bewildered. He stood up and staggered to go to the kitchen. Fu Qingzhou hurriedly stood up and supported him, "What are you doing?"

"Cook dumplings!" Jiang Xiao glanced at his watch, "It's one o'clock?!"

"Eleven past five." Fu Qingzhou pressed him and sat back on the chair again, "Fu Zhi fell asleep, why don't you cook?"

"No, you have to eat dumplings on New Year's Eve! Dumplings smashed!" Jiang Xiao protested angrily, "I just want to eat dumplings, am I wrong! Dumplings have been waiting for a year just for this moment!"

Fu Qingzhou rubbed his face vigorously, "How dare you brag about your drinking capacity? And drink with me all night, huh?"

Jiang Xiao pursed his mouth aggrievedly, hugged his waist and buried his face in his stomach, and said in a muffled voice, "I'm not drunk, I'm eating dumplings."

"I'll cook for you." Fu Qingzhou tugged at his ear. "stand up."

Jiang Xiao hugged him and did not let go, calling him drunkenly: "Boss Fu."

"Here." Fu Qingzhou said.

"Fu Qingzhou." Jiang Xiao sighed hard, "I really like you, do you know that?"

"I know." Fu Qingzhou patted his head, "But you always seem to like me more than I know."

Jiang Xiao hugged him in silence for a long time, then slowly raised his head and looked up at him after a while, "Eat dumplings."

Fu Qingzhou sighed silently, "Okay, I'll cook for you."

"You can't, you're clumsy." Jiang Xiao frowned, "Worry."

"I still know how to cook dumplings." Fu Qingzhou pinched his cheeks, "Don't cry when you're drunk."

"I didn't cry!" Jiang Xiao stared at him.

"My sweater is wet from crying." Fu Qingzhou snorted on his head, "I won't drag you to drink after I kill you."

Jiang Xiao curled his lips, his mind was in a mess, and he didn't know what nonsense he was talking to Fu Qingzhou, so he walked into the kitchen step by step while hanging on him, and personally supervised him cooking the dumplings.

It's just that he was a little sleepy from drunk, he hugged someone from behind, rested his chin on Fu Qingzhou's shoulder and was sleepy, and unconsciously repeated the previous question while drunk, sounding pitiful, "Boss Fu, Boss Fu, I've really never been tempted ?"

Fu Qingzhou stared at the boiling water in the pot, reached out and clasped the hand wrapped around his waist, "I moved it."

"When?"

The twelve o'clock bell rang suddenly on the TV, the sound of firecrackers outside continued continuously, and the fireworks outside the window exploded in large swaths.

Jiang Xiao vaguely saw Fu Qingzhou's mouth moving, but that voice was drowned in the noise.

After a long time, he recalled that he should have heard that sentence, what Fu Qingzhou told him was——

"When you kissed my forehead."

The author says:

The two protagonists in the article only drink alcohol when they are adults, and only once in a while. Minors are not allowed to drink alcohol——