unrequited love forbidden

stubborn

he does not know

Jiang Xiao has a bad temper, and dares to say anything cruel when he gets angry, Jiang Lei has a slightly stronger temper than him.

But it's not so strong, so the father and son often fight without a few words. Later, Jiang Xiao didn't change at all when he first entered the society. Put it away, and put on a shell that is barely silent and honest.

As for Mr. Fu, he always hid it very well, but now that his relationship with Fu Qingzhou is getting closer, he can't control it.

People will unconsciously reveal their worst side to those closest to them, sometimes unconsciously, sometimes deliberately, it is both a temptation and an indulgence.

But bad words hurt people, no matter who they are.

Fu Qingzhou prided himself on being tolerant, but he still couldn't hold back and beat him up.

Even if my heart was overjoyed because of a certain guess, it didn't prevent another kind of anger from sweeping through my body, even cold water couldn't be extinguished.

This fist was so powerful that even though Fu Qingzhou kept his hand, Jiang Xiao was still a little dazed by the beating.

Jiang Xiao was picked up by his shaking arms, dragged all the way to the living room and fell into the sofa. Stars were still in front of Jiang Xiao's eyes. He remembered dizzily, his nose suddenly became hot, he blinked hard, and his palm was covered with blood. .

"Fu Qingzhou, bleeding." He saw Fu Qingzhou's hands shaking.

Jiang Xiao covered his nose with one hand and grabbed his arm with the other, but Fu Qingzhou avoided him. Before he could feel anything, someone pressed his forehead and sat on his back on the sofa.

Fu Qingzhou threw the medicine box into his arms, and looked down at him, with a certain kind of paranoid fanaticism and extreme indifference in his eyes, as if he wanted to peel his skin and bones, tear out the innermost soul, and like Just looking at him so coldly.

Jiang Xiao opened his mouth, Fu Qingzhou turned around and left.

The hand he was about to pull froze in mid-air, and he said in a low voice, "Brother Zhou, your clothes are all wet, change them off first."

Fu Qingzhou didn't stop in his footsteps, but the door slammed against his anger in response.

Jiang Xiao's first reaction was to chase after him and apologize, but when he calmed down and remembered what he had said, he felt that it was good that Fu Qingzhou didn't punch him again.

In the eyes of others, this is no different from playing with others.

He put the medicine chest aside, slid along the sofa onto the carpet, and scratched his hair in some dismay.

Indecisive and emotional, Jiang Xiao forgot who commented on him, and he scoffed at it, but only now did he realize that this person was right.

He stayed by Fu Qingzhou's side for ten years without daring to confess. He was cowardly. After being reborn, he managed to get close to Fu Qingzhou when he was young, but he still used the most hurtful words to push him away.

In the final analysis, he dared not.

Fu Qingzhou seems indifferent, but he is an extremely tenacious person. He seems to have inexhaustible energy, allowing him to bravely and calmly face almost invincible difficulties, no matter 20 years later or now.

And he would give up as soon as he encounters a little difficulty. He has never insisted on doing something well. He will always indulge in the past, pessimistic and timid, just like when Zhang Juan and Jiang Haoan came to the house, he and Jiang Haoan fought , Jiang Lei scolded him first, went to see Zhang Juan first, and he would leave voluntarily.

There are only so few emotions in his heart, and his energy is limited. He will feel exhausted only by dealing with a few people around him, so he is very stubborn in dealing with emotions.

Therefore, he will be attracted to Fu Qingzhou...no matter what kind of Fu Qingzhou it is.

But it was also because of this that he fell into anxiety and confusion, and was even afraid of approaching.

The drops of water on the tip of his nose dripped onto the phone screen. He stared at the chat interface between himself and Fu Qingzhou, remained silent for a long time, and switched to Li Bowen.

【Has Fu Qingzhou gone back?how does it look 】

Li Bowen always responded quickly.

【ah?I'm home, my mother called and scolded me, what's wrong with you two?in argument? 】

【fine. 】

Li Bowen sent him back an arrogant middle finger.

Jiang Xiao turned off his phone, sat there for a while, and then opened the chat interface with Fu Qingzhou. He deleted and typed the three words "I'm sorry", and didn't press send for a long time. He collapsed and buried his head in the sofa pillow.

Across the wall, Fu Qingzhou looked at the repeated appearance of "the other party is typing" on the chat interface, twitched the corner of his mouth, exited and put the phone aside.

It is rare for him to be so excited. Most of the time, his mood is the same as his life, a pool of stagnant water, which is several times more intense than when he was just reborn.

But the more this kind of time, the more he will fall into a certain kind of extreme calmness.

If Jiang Xiao was born again like him, then there would be a reasonable explanation for Jiang Xiao's unreasonable and over-enthusiastic behavior before, and the person he said he had a crush on for ten years was undoubtedly himself.

But Jiang Xiao denied their relationship during this time because of this, which also made him feel angry.

Maybe a little guilty.

Jiang Xiao usually looks carefree, but he is actually very sensitive to feelings. Even unconsciously, he can clearly distinguish whether Fu Qingzhou likes him, or some kind of terrible possessive desire.

Fu Qingzhou looked at the countless sketches spread out on the bed, all of which were in the car, in the office, or at his home... But the most, or all of them, were based on his only remaining memory and imagination. Processed people - except for the portrait.

So he prefers to look at the portrait.

The fictitious Jiang Xiao fits all his preferences, and he has devoted ten years of hard work to it, just like the reasons made up by people who want to die for themselves. He is fundamentally different from people in reality.

It is precisely because of this that the alive Jiang Xiao is so vivid and attractive.

He wants the alive Jiang Xiao to stay by his side, wants Jiang Xiao to like him, wants to like him himself, his focus has always been on Jiang Xiao, and it doesn't matter which time Jiang Xiao is, or whether he is alive or not. .

But Fu Qingzhou clearly felt the ecstasy in his heart. He really liked the original Jiang Xiao better, but he couldn't help being afraid of it, afraid that the one he liked the most was still that illusory person.

Jiang Xiao's angry question rang in his ears again, "Fu Qingzhou, you ask your own conscience, do you really like me?"

He couldn't answer.

he does not know.

Because he only liked an illusory person piled up with pitiful memories and imaginings on the verge of death.

That was the straw for his survival.

Water dripped on the sketch, soaking through the lead lines on it.

The two people separated by a wall silently stared at the void in the dark night, and finally realized belatedly that despite the perfect and thick filter of secret love, the person behind him is just an ordinary person among the crowd, real and vivid. Live, but also helpless.

The author says:

It’s not that the perfect dream of the crush comes true, but that when two people get close to each other and find that the other is not perfect or even has countless shortcomings, they still can’t help but be attracted to each other, overcome their inner timidity and inferiority, and choose to embrace each other without hesitation.

Probably two disabled and lonely souls healed each other, clumsily and hard-working to learn to like and love.

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