How to Build a Harmonious Family

Xia Junyan told Ning Shen truthfully that Zhou Caihua secretly asked him about his relationship status tonight and suspected that he didn't like girls.After Ning Shen listened, he lowered his eyes and sighed softly, not surprised.

"Every time she urges me to find a girlfriend, I find all kinds of reasons to shirk it, and it's not surprising to be suspicious." Ning Shen moved closer to Xia Junyan's direction, as if looking for something to rely on, and resisted Xia Junyan's words. A thin layer of sweat on the forehead.

Xia Junyan understood that he must not be in a good mood at this time, so she simply held Ning Shen's hand, interlocked his fingers, and listened to him quietly.

Ning Shen continued: "It's because I'm so useless, I haven't figured out what to do until now, so I can only keep procrastinating, how long I can hide it."

Xia Junyan stared intently at the furrow between Ning Shen's brows, and then carefully suggested: "If you feel guilty about hiding it from Auntie, why don't you just grit your teeth and put the blame on me? I'm fine, I'm not afraid that my aunt will hate me."

Ning Shen wryly smiled and said, "What do you mean by putting all the responsibility on you..."

"Just tell her that it was I who bent you. You are not wrong, but you were spoiled by me." Xia Junyan explained seriously.When he said these words, his heart was actually far less calm than on the surface, and it would be a lie to say that he was not afraid that Zhou Caihua would hate him.Although to Zhou Caihua, he is just someone else's child, but to him, Zhou Caihua is one of the few adults who are willing to take care of him over the years, and he treats Zhou Caihua as a relative in his heart.

But Xia Junyan felt that it was better for a mother to hate him, an insignificant person, than to let a mother hate her son.

But Ning Shen said: "Don't pretend to be indifferent to fool me."

Xia Junyan blinked and said innocently: "I didn't deceive you, I really don't care. I know you, Yin Luxiao and Yingxuan must have secretly complained and hated me in my heart, so I'm not afraid One more person hates me."

Ning Shen choked for a moment, then said: "...Do you mean to make me feel more sad by saying this kind of thing?"

Xia Junyan shrank her neck: "Okay, then I won't talk." After he finished speaking, he got into Ning Shen's arms, curled up his legs and nestled quietly like a kitten.

Ning Shen stretched his arms around Xia Junyan's waist, closed his eyes and hugged him for a while, then said in a low voice, "I'm not only afraid that she will hate me, but I'm even more afraid that the fact that I'm gay will give her, It will have a bad influence on Ning Qian."

"I'm a teacher. Over the years I've worked, I've seen a lot of family breakups." Ning Shen said, "Interpersonal relationships are really very vulnerable. Some children were born in single-parent families and divorced once. The married mother later found a new boyfriend, that's all, but the parents who were kind to her on the surface would chew her tongue in private and spread some very ugly rumors. There are also children whose father He has been in prison because of negligent injuries, and even though he is now out of prison and living a normal life, other parents will tell their children not to play with the criminal’s children, and that child will end up being isolated in class.”

"You see, a 'disgraceful' thing can have such a big impact." Speaking of this, Ning Shen couldn't help but sighed again, "Those friends of my mother are on good terms with her now, but If I come out of the closet and things get out, they will probably point at my mother behind my back, and tell others in that disgusting and contemptuous tone that Zhou Caihua's son is gay and a pervert who likes men. She is in her 50s and is going to retire this year. Both Ning Qian and I have stable jobs. She will soon be able to enjoy life peacefully and play mahjong happily with her neighbors every day. I don’t want all of this to happen reduced to nothing."

"The same is true for Ning Qian. After finally finding a good job and dating a girlfriend, it will be bad if I cause him trouble because of my affairs." Ning Shen said with some regret, "I am not a good person. Brother, he complained that I didn't kiss him enough since he was a child, now that he's grown up, there's nothing I can do for him, but at least don't drag him down."

After hearing this, Xia Junyan felt that the depression in her heart was nothing more than a tiny trouble.It turns out that Ning Shen has so many worries, no wonder he always looks worried.

Xia Junyan still wanted to help Ning Shen as much as she could, so she said, "Maybe...it's better to keep it a secret."

"After all, not everything can find the optimal solution."

Ning Shen agrees with what Xia Jun said.He really couldn't find a perfect solution. Instead of letting Zhou Caihua's life collapse, it would be better for him to continue to bear the guilt of cheating his mother.

"Thank you for listening to me." Ning Shen gently touched the head on the shoulder, and after hearing Xia Junyan yawned wearily, he said with a smile, "It's late, it's time to sleep, I Go turn off the lights."

Xia Junyan was so sleepy that she groaned and shrank herself into the bed.Ning Shen rubbed him through the quilt, and when he got up to turn off the light, there was a knock on the door of the room.

Both were startled.

Xia Junyan suddenly lost all sleepiness, sat up and squeezed the corner of the quilt and whispered in fear: "...can it be Auntie?"

"No way..." Ning Shen was also a little surprised, "It's so late, I think it should be Ning Qian."

While talking, he grabbed a shirt and put it on himself, walked to the door and asked softly, "Who is it?"

Sure enough, Ning Qian was outside: "It's me, it's me!"

Xia Junyan breathed a sigh of relief, and lay down again and fell asleep again.

Ning Shen opened the door a crack and asked in a low voice, "What do you want to knock on the door in the middle of the night?"

Ning Qian looked at him, and said pitifully, "Brother, I have something on my mind, I don't feel comfortable if I don't say it..."

Ning Qian is usually very nervous and rarely shows any uneasiness. Ning Shen saw that he was indeed very uneasy, so he said, "Let's go to the balcony and talk."

"Oh, okay!" Ning Qian grinned, but her eyes began to glance around the room restlessly, but she only saw a bulging hillock on the bed, "You guys haven't slept so late, what are you doing that is inappropriate for children?" thing?"

"What does it have to do with you?" Ning Shen went back to the room and took a padded jacket and put it on, then grabbed Ning Qian's head and led him out, and closed the room door with his other hand.

The brothers went to the balcony together.Ning Qian knew that her brother's physique was far inferior to his, so she closed the balcony window tightly and turned on the heater.

"what happened?"

"I have something on my mind!"

"It's really strange that a heartless guy like you can still have something on his mind."

"Are you mocking me for being heartless, right? I don't blame you for being heartless! Did you know that twins absorb each other in the womb? You must have sucked all my heart away right then!"

"..."

"Okay, okay, let me get to the point, don't be angry!"

Ning Qian took the initiative to lean against her brother, leaning against his shoulder.

"Let me tell you, Xiaoyue is so scary. I just saw you two tonight, and I found out that something is wrong with you." Ning Qian said, "After entering the room, she suddenly asked me if you two are okay, tell me Terrified!"

Ning Shen didn't expect that what Ning Qian was going to tell him was this, and he was also surprised: "...Did she see it?"

Ning Qian nodded hastily: "And she's not suspicious, she's pretty sure there must be something wrong with you two."

Seeing that Ning Shen's brows were getting tighter and tighter, Ning Qian hurriedly comforted him and said, "Don't worry, I told her not to tell others. Besides, Xiaoyue is relatively open, and she doesn't seem to have any prejudice against homosexuality."

"Uh, but it's not because of this that I'm uneasy." Ning Qian continued, "It's just that after she promised me not to tell, she suddenly asked me after a while..."

"Uh, that's, that..." Ning Qian faltered for a long time before speaking, "She asked me again suddenly—'Ning Qian, are you okay?'"

"Isn't it weird, haha..."

Ning Shen asked, "And then?"

"Ah, then I...proved to her personally that I'm okay?" Ning Qian scratched her face, and said a little shyly, "It's just the insider, you know."

"..."

"But if she asks like this, is she doubting me?" Ning Qian lowered her head, "...why do you doubt me?"

Ning Shen patted him on the shoulder and said: "It seems that Ding Ningyue is a person with strong observation skills, and such people may often be very sensitive. It is probably because we are twins that she thinks that you may be the same as me. But we're completely different people, and you've got to make her understand that."

Twins are easy to give people such an impression. From childhood to adulthood, there are always outsiders who think that the two of them should be the same, but they are so different. Apart from their faces, their personalities, hobbies, things they are good at, and even their sexuality , are very different.

"Actually, I'm a little envious of you talking to Xia Jun." Ning Qian rarely sighed, "Why does he understand you so well? He never gets confused between the two of us, and always trusts you unconditionally. If Xiaoyue also It would be nice to do that to me.”

Ning Qian felt that she had already done a lot. In order to live with Ding Ningyue, she changed a job close to her company, and usually tried not to interact with the opposite sex as much as possible. What Ningyue asked him to obediently obeyed, he had never been so obedient since he was a child.But even so, Ding Ningyue still couldn't fully trust him, which made Ning Qian feel very frustrated, so he was stuck in his heart for most of the night because of Ding Ningyue's question.

Ning Shen didn't know how to comfort his younger brother, so he could only say: "If you give sincerely, there will always be rewards."

Finally made a long point.