Wang Zhijing

But I was so eager to see his hand that I didn't answer it, causing him to bow and wait for a long time.

I never thought that one day, it would stick to his heart and fall asleep in his arms.

If this is a dream, I hope it never wakes up.

Live and sing every night, with countless beauties.How can it be as sweet as tonight?

Maybe I didn't sleep well.I don't know what I said and did in my sleep.When I recovered a little bit of consciousness from the drowsiness, I found that the palms of my hands were still warm, and my body was still surrounded by a broad chest and strong arms.It's not accidental, it's more of joy, and I fall into a dark dream again with peace of mind.

In the dream, it was all him.

The first time we met, the first time I saw him smile, the first time I pretended not to touch his hand that handed me the memorial, the first time I left him alone on the grounds of business, the first time I used an excuse to be with the people Le asked him to accompany him to visit the Shangyuan Lantern Festival. When he bought a gift for the first time, he carefully selected the pearl hairpin and said that his fiancée would like it...

I have many pets, and many ways to get them.It is not difficult to get his people.

However, I want his heart, which is the most unreachable star in the sky, which can be seen but never reached.

I think I've been calling his name because I woke up with a dry and burning throat.

His vision was blurred, and someone leaned over.

"I'm here, sleep."

Such a soft and gentle voice, so strange.

Try to open your eyes, maybe you are still in the dream, only in the dream will you be hugged and hurt by him.

It doesn't matter if it's a dream.I was a little timid, afraid that I would wake up if I saw clearly.Give up struggling and fall into a coma again.

I really woke up in the evening of the second day, when the sunset was full of splendor and night was approaching.

With the previous stab wounds and the backlash of my true energy, my body is already more fragile than a dead autumn leaf.It should have been a long time in a daze, but in the daze, I heard someone talking.

That person's voice, low back from the vicissitudes of life, was full of years and years, full of pity and love beyond his identity.

"Young Master, it's been a day and a night, you didn't close your eyes, did you? Just break him apart by force, I can't sit like this for another night!"

"I'm not sleepy." The tired voice replied, "He's closed at the gate of hell. Once I leave, I don't know what will happen. The secret sentry of the Imperial Forest Army is still watching the Su Mansion closely. Bai Yuyan is a difficult character. He can't be allowed to die now no matter what. "

"But……"

"I'm not tired. Uncle Zhong, go ahead and take care of Minmin. I will find a way to send you guys away safely."

"Master..."

"Let's go."

No more sound.

When I opened my eyes, there was a rising ice wheel casting a clear light in front of the bed.There was no lamp in the room, but the black and blue eyes of Su Yun still pierced into my eyelids, causing a sharp pain in my heart.

Little by little, he let go of his tight grip.

Su Yun closed his eyes and leaned on the back of the chair, looking tired.My movement made him open his eyes slowly, looking down.

"I'm sorry." I said softly.I really want to reach out to touch his haggard face and smooth the deep wrinkles between his brows.

He glanced at me and said nothing.Standing up and walking to the bed, gently and carefully put me down.

It is not without extravagant hopes in my heart.He turned his head, he helped me, he hugged me, he stayed up all night for me, his movements were so gentle...

Maybe, maybe, maybe...

Maybe besides being touched, maybe there is something else...

"I know what's on your mind."

Su Yun spoke suddenly.His eyes were cold, and his voice was also cold.Not like in a dream.

"Thank you for everything you did for me. I'm touched. But, it doesn't change anything."

I always thought he was a kind and soft-hearted person.Many people have told me that he is very good to people, and he still chooses to forgive and forgive anyone, even if he has a quarrel with him, or those who are punished by him for their misconduct and try their best to retaliate against him.

I never knew that he turned out to be such a cruel person.

For a moment, my heart was frozen.I didn't dare to move, for fear that the slight shaking would touch the cracks under the ice surface, and I could already hear a very light "click" sound in my ears, which was the extension of the cracks, and pieces of my soul withered.

"I understand." I nodded, still smiling at my beloved, "No need to explain. I understand everything."

27．Qi Xuan - You are very domineering

For a moment, my heart was frozen.I didn't dare to move, for fear that the slight shaking would touch the cracks under the ice surface, and I could already hear a very light "click" sound in my ears, which was the extension of the cracks, and pieces of my soul withered.

"I understand." I nodded, still smiling at my beloved, "No need to explain. I understand everything."

In the middle of the night, the moon pierced through the clouds, the light was dim, and the room suddenly went dark.

"You just understand."

I couldn't see Su Yun's face clearly, only heard his indifferent voice.

"Using you is not what I want, if..."

"No." I cut off his words and shook my head, "I don't regret it. Everything you do is for your family, how could I not know? I am willing."

Su Yun didn't speak or move, and stood stiffly by the side of the bed.

In the darkness, his eyes didn't know where to fall, if I could know what he was thinking in his heart, it would be great.

"Go to sleep." I said softly, but I broke the silence, "Don't worry, I won't die until you are safe. I will find a way to protect your family from leaving the country."

The silhouette-like silhouette suddenly moved a step forward, he leaned over, and I could clearly see his eyes, which were terribly cold and stern.A man's strong breath rushed towards his face, his voice was low and ruthless.

"That's enough! Don't say this kind of thing anymore, don't do this kind of thing again! Don't think I will feel guilty. You killed the person I love the most in my life. No matter what reason I use, I will never let you go!"

He moved closer, staring hard into my eyes.

"Qi Xuan, don't do these meaningless things again!"

silent.

For the first time, he was close at hand, and I turned my eyes away.

A faint smile, as cool as the night wind, I slowly opened my lips.

"Su Yun, do you know that you are domineering? I no longer expect you to fall in love with me, but how can you control how I treat you?"

There are not many people in the world who can really irritate me, and even fewer people can see my scowl.Most people dare not look me in the face, and if I smile coldly, they will be terrified.

My sudden attack seemed to have also shocked Su Yun. He was stunned for a long time before standing up straight, and then took half a step back, gritting his teeth and sneering.

My heart is sour and bitter.

I don't want to get mad at him.In fact, at the moment when the dagger pierced my chest, I was not satisfied with the slightest extravagant hope.

Why, why is it so awkward all of a sudden?I'm only going to be nice to him, aren't I?I never expected anything in return.

Perhaps, it was his tenderness and kindness that gave me the illusion that there was still hope, that he might be tempted, even if it was only for a moment.

I turned inward and curled up into a ball with my shoulders in my arms.

No, no, I don't want anything, I just want to be nice to you.

I am content to see you, hear you, touch you.

Su Yun, Su Yun, do you understand?

With his back facing him, tears came unexpectedly.

My heart is broken.What else do you want?

I don't know how long it took, there was no sound behind him, a deathly silence.

"Su Yun..." I murmured.

"Um……"

Maybe it's the wind, how could he answer me?

Tears fall, silently.

"Go to sleep for a while. Since you don't want me to help you, then have a good rest. I'm so tired, how can I find a way to get out of trouble?"

Behind, a piece of tranquility.

After a long time, when I turned around, the house was already empty and no one was there.

28．Qi Xuan - Thank you

In the next few days, I didn't see Su Yun again.

Maybe he came, or never again, I don't know.Most of the day, I was asleep, oblivious to what was going on around me.

Even if he had been, that didn't mean anything.

Only now do I realize that I had always held hope before.True despair is not pain, but emptiness.

Empty heart, nothing to settle for.

Sometimes when I wake up, I stare at the roof in a daze, no different from the sleeping Chaos.

The old servant named Zheng Zhong took care of my daily life these days.He is calm and quiet, much like his boss.Typical Su family character.

He hardly looked at me, and the occasional glances were deliberately hurried.But even if it's just the moment when the eyes cross each other, I can find that it is an extremely complicated look, perhaps, the most complicated look I have ever seen.

There was resentment, hatred, bewilderment, and contempt in Zheng Zhong's eyes, none of which surprised me.However, in his eyes that have been eroded by the years into a cloudy yellow, there is even a little pity, love, gratitude, sigh and sadness.

Sometimes I stare blankly at the food he handed over, but he doesn't say anything, but silently glances at me. It's that kind of complicated and incomprehensible gaze, which makes me feel that I am still living in this world and still have the ability to perceive.

It was probably the fifth day since I met Su Yun, my physical strength gradually recovered, and the pain of bone erosion gradually subsided.The panacea that Su Yun fed me was very miraculous, such a serious injury can still temporarily save my life.

At noon, the door curtain moved slightly, and Zheng Zhong came in carrying a tray as usual.In addition to a cup of rice porridge specially made for patients, there was also a porcelain bowl on the plate. The bitter smell of the hot concoction made me frown.

Zheng Zhong was taken aback, he probably didn't expect that I could sit up by myself.After glancing at the bed, he quickly lowered his eyes.

"What happened outside?"

Since yesterday, the old servant has a worried look on his face.Although in the past I often stopped court for several days to have fun, at least I met Zaifu.The court cannot be without a king for a day, and the Su Mansion will definitely not be peaceful in the past few days.

Zheng Zhong never thought that I would speak to him.