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Guti's state is still very unstable.

He felt that something was quietly changing, but he couldn't do anything to stop it.

Then he heard a mocking voice.

"idiot."

The voice said so, clear and firm.

六

When Guti began to crazily worship and imitate Redondo, the voice that once made him feel hallucinated reappeared.

The owner of the voice knows Guti better than Guti.

That voice was very unfriendly, very unfriendly.

He (it was a male voice) tried his best to ridicule Guti, but every time he hit the nail on the head, Guti didn't even know where to start his rebuttal.

When Guti's confrontation with him ended in Guti's complete failure, Guti was never so stupid as to refuse to listen to what he said just because he was unhappy with that voice.

What's more, some of his tastes are still very fond of Uncle Guti.

Seven

Guti trained very seriously.

He no longer blindly imitated Redondo.

No, it certainly wasn't all Guti's self-conscious behavior.

That voice's taunting persuasion may be one aspect, but more importantly... that voice can also control Guti's body.

Guti had nothing to do about it, but strangely he never felt panicked—it seemed that subconsciously, he just wishfully believed in this voice, thinking that he would not hurt himself.

Eight

One day, Guti suddenly found that Redondo, whom he had always admired, was getting closer and closer to him.

Redondo's expression towards himself gradually changed from indifferent at the beginning to a gentle smile; the distance between words also gradually narrowed; they became more and more intimate.

Even closer than the original Guti and Raul.

Raul?

Raul is still Guti's friend, but Raul has Morientes.

The strange thing is that Guti, who was still depressed when he saw the unusual intimacy between Raul and Morientes at first, after Redondo's attitude towards himself gradually improved; The calmness—those special emotions disappeared slowly without knowing when.

nine

One day, Guti wanted to recall Raul's expression and posture at the beginning, which made him throb; but he was surprised to find that he could no longer remember Raul's face at that time.

Even that throbbing mood, like the handwriting on the white paper blurred by clear water, is blurred and no longer clear.

Instead, it was the apprehension, joy, and occasional shyness when facing Redondo.

"That's because you have never loved one, but you have loved the other deeply."

Ten

After a long time, Guti was finally willing to admit that the accidental heartbeat in the first summer might not really be the prelude to love; it was just a small episode in his life.

They are not together.

And the position of friends is the best ending.

eleven

In fact, even for Redondo, it was nothing more than admiration and obsession that had nothing to do with love at first; it just changed from infatuation to liking, and then from liking to like.

until it is impossible to escape.

twelve

As the voice said to Guti in the last words before it disappeared - "You will get your wish."

They are together.

small world

"You have no right to control me."

As Guti said so, his blue eyes were full of the blurred color of drunkenness, and he looked straight at the person in front of him.

His tone was firm, which was rare when facing that person.

"When I was chasing after you, you were repulsive, indifferent, and dismissive."

"Do you have sympathy? I still feel that I will always be the Guti who will only humblely chase after you and wait for you to turn back; I feel that as long as you say hello, I will follow closely without asking why, just like you Is it the same as keeping pets?"

"Is it pity? Or just want to prove your control over me, and feel that as long as you move slightly, I will be so excited that I can't completely abandon myself?"

"I've always been curious about why you agreed to be with me."

"But I don't want to know now either."

"You have been very kind to me since then. But I have always wondered whether it was love after all. "

Guti lowered his eyes and stopped looking at Redondo, but spoke very fluently.

"Nobody stays put and waits."

"I'm tired."

"I feel now that maybe I really only have obsession with you. So after being together for a short time, I was too tired to continue."

"You'd better leave me alone, it makes me sick."

"You... There is no need to force yourself to do these things you obviously don't want to do."

Guti didn't say another word.

He lowered his head, as if he was waiting for the other party's answer; it also seemed that the words exhausted all his energy, so he didn't want to say anything.

Only silence.

"I thought we were already together."

The other party spoke, with a calm tone.It's as if it's not about his relationship with Guti, just an irrelevant and boring topic.

"Really? I thought it was two years ago. I clearly remember that we broke up three months ago, didn't we?"

"What are you doing now?"

The other party did not answer.

Guti heard a sigh.

Then footsteps.

The sound gradually faded away, and disappeared with the sound of opening and closing the door.

Guti looked up.

put down.

Uncontrollable tears had already spilled out of the eyes, across the whole face.

So he believed it.

Obviously, this is the result I want.

Guti tried hard to curl the corners of his mouth, but ended in failure.

Why...why did it still hurt like this even though I had achieved my goal?

The other party left just like that, without the reaction he hoped for at all - not even a trace of blame.

Sure enough... you didn't take yourself seriously at all, did you?

In that case, he didn't bring himself home and introduce himself to his family, so he was hinting at himself, right?

Hint yourself not to expect extravagance, hint yourself... In fact, things are not what I imagined.

So he saw his relatives so calmly.

He didn't know what he did before taking him home, so the reason for being so relaxed was probably because he didn't care.

Guti remembered the expressions on Redondo's face when he and Redondo went to the orphanage a few days ago.

Soft, relaxed, with a love that Redondo himself didn't realize.

When a man reaches a certain point, he especially wishes to have a child of his own.

What's so good about being with yourself?I can't even give him a complete home.

At that time, Guti felt that maybe Redondo still wanted to have a complete family in his heart—not to be with himself.

Well, what do you have to be sad about?Everything you wished for has been achieved.

he's gone.

He just walked out of your world, and he deserves better.

Isn't that what you've always thought about?

I feel that the other person is not love for you at all, but a choice made because I feel that being with you is the easiest.

You are afraid that one day he will discover this fact by himself and then turn around and leave without hesitation, but you can't accept it and can only stay where you are in embarrassment.

You are afraid that at that time you will do crazier things than before and disgust him even more; you are afraid to see his more ruthless expression - after enjoying his tenderness for so long.

So you use the most ruthless language and the most decisive behavior you think while you can still withdraw, and want to leave first with dignity.

You have achieved your goal, you should be happy.

Guti said this to himself, looking for a reason to stop thinking about Redondo who left.

He told himself over and over again that now he should celebrate the achievement of his goal, instead of being heartbroken or even weeping weakly because of the other party's lack of response.

the phone is ringing.

It's so late, who's calling?

Guti rubbed his eyes a little rudely, picked up the phone and tried his best to suppress the crying, and answered the phone.

It's Raul.

Redondo felt that today's Guti was a bit strange.

After being with himself, Guti almost never went to nightclubs again.

But today, it was Redondo who went to the nightclub to bring the drunk Guti home.

Because he was worried, he asked Guti sternly for the reason, but he didn't expect Guti to say such a thing.

Broke up three months ago?How can there be a couple who broke up for three months and still live together without even sleeping apart?

What else could be the reason for agreeing to be with Guti besides love?How could it be possible for him, Redondo, to be with someone of the same sex for other reasons and to be better accepted by his family, so he has repeatedly delayed taking him back, just so that the other party will not be wronged?

If it wasn't because of true love to the depths, how could the always calm Redondo be so nervous that he could only smile and the rest of his expression was almost incapable when facing the other party's family?

Something is wrong, something is really wrong.

Redondo knew Guti very well, to some extent even surpassed Guti himself.

Although Guti said harsh words and asked himself to leave, his head that was unwilling to lift up and his slightly trembling hands were saying that this was not what he really wanted to say.

After Redondo's tentative questioning, Guti's fierce and somewhat guilty answer made Redondo confirm his guess.

It's just...Although Redondo is sure that Guti must have something to hide from him, Guti's words today are not true, but he also knows that now he can't find out the reason from Guti who is completely guarding against him.

So he opened the door and left as Guti wished.

He stopped three meters from the door.

Uh... thanks for the good soundproofing of the house.Redondo is sure even in the door