escape and return

It's hard for Fangge to describe his current mood. He looked at the shredded pieces of paper in front of him, and the anger in his heart rose in seconds. Was stopped abruptly.His chest heaved violently, he gritted his teeth and took a few breaths, then walked out the door.

The fire couldn't be reduced no matter what, instead it nestled in his heart and intensified.He ran up to the roof in one breath, tried to open his mouth, and really wanted to yell, but he didn't shout anything, just opened his mouth.A few egrets parked on the nearby bamboo forest probably sensed his mood and flew away quickly with flapping wings.His heart, liver and lungs ached from the fire. He never expected that the books he had worked so hard to bring back would be torn up by Fang Sheng just like that.

Before returning from school, Yuan Song also reminded Fangge to take the book back to him, but after thinking about it, Fangge decided to take it away by himself. Yuan Tang’s house was also rented, and he didn’t want to trouble the Yuan family. .Moreover, Fangge still has a feeling from the bottom of his heart, maybe because of the certificate he saw before, maybe because he accepted the fact that Fang Jianguo and his wife were his biological parents from the bottom of his heart.

It's just that it's only been a few days, and he tore it up.Fangge closed his eyes forcefully, feeling a deep sense of powerlessness.He almost forgot, he was originally a man without a home, where is his home?In the vast world, where is his Fangge's shelter?Before he saw the certificate, Fangge could still think that he and the Yuan family were a family. Even though they were separated for a few years, Fangge was still the child of Yuan Dashan and Du Lijuan, and the younger brother of Yuan Tang. Song's brother.But now he doesn't have that courage anymore.

Fangge gradually calmed down, he could not be influenced by his emotions, and getting angry could not solve any problems he faced.He suddenly remembered the pile of books he left behind in junior high school. He is nostalgic and always likes to leave something that can prove his existence. Fangge is full of imagination about his future. What he wants most is a A whole shelf of books, those books include the leftovers from various periods in his life, he will neatly stack his favorite books, filling up the entire bookshelf, his bookshelf must be a wooden retro bookshelf, It will look very old.When he stood in front of the bookshelf, he could easily pull out a book that belonged to him and its stories.If there was such a day, he thought, he must have been very happy.

However, he disposed of those books later, because he had nowhere to go, and this kind of wandering life made him unable to protect some things he cared about.When he took the old banknotes from the uncle who collected the waste paper, he felt indescribably sad and reluctant. He had read the books for three years and used the notebooks for three years. The cheap way was sold by him personally.The old man took his cart and went far away, Fangge was still standing at the door watching, as if seeing off some important person.

The mobile phone in his trouser pocket suddenly rang, and Fang Ge recovered his senses and listened silently for a while, his eyes fixed on the bamboo sea in front of him without moving, until the vibrating ringing stopped, he took another deep breath, and then took out the mobile phone to look at it At a glance, it was Yuan Song.

After a while, the phone vibrated again, Fang Ge hesitated for a moment, and pressed the answer button.Although the two of them had three chapters of agreement from the very beginning, this guy Yuan Song never abided by it and always got close to him whenever he could. However, the two of them really confirmed their relationship on the night after the college entrance examination.

In the relationship between the two, he has always been confused, even if he does not lack the courage to face it directly.Perhaps, people are contradictory.

"Hey?"

"Brother? Miss me?"

"En." Fangge responded lightly, feeling that it might be a little cold, and added: "I miss you!"

"Brother, why don't you come to the provincial capital? Anyway, you have nothing to do at home. It's been such a long time. Come and wait for the college entrance examination scores to come out, and then fill in the volunteers together."

Fangge didn't answer right away, afraid that he would say something that would make Yuan Song sad, so he paused for a moment before continuing: "Song Song, sing me a song~"

What a smart guy Yuan Song is, he immediately realized that his brother was in a bad mood.He didn't ask immediately, but after thinking about it, he pretended to be brisk and said, "Want to hear me sing? Okay, what do you want to hear?"

"Everything you sing is good." This is the truth. Yuan Song seldom sang, but he sang very well, just like the song "My Heart Is Eternal" that he sang on the night of graduation, which won warm applause from all the students in the box.

A gentle and soft song slowly came from the current in my ear, it was Karen Mok's "Baby". The person on the other end of the phone sang tenderly, but the person listening was already in tears. He covered his mouth and wept silently. Because of this unfair fate and this rare luck, Fangge probably spent all his hesitation in his life on his family members, whether it was the Fang family or the Yuan family.His vacillation was also the source of his pain, and sometimes he hated himself for being weak and incompetent.But he got through it too, didn't he?

"No matter where you wake up, baby, I love you!" When he sang this sentence, Yuan Song suddenly became very serious again, his voice was lowered, as if whispering softly in Fang Ge's ear, full of charm, But suddenly Fangge couldn't help himself, and the suppressed crying finally leaked out.

Yuan Song on the other end of the phone didn't make a sound, just took a light breath and accompanied him quietly.Fangge has always been strong, so strong that he is a little numb, and at the same time fragile, too fragile to withstand a single blow.He's just been alone for too long.

After finally venting, Fangge slowly stopped crying. The phone was already hot when it was attached to his ear. He wiped the corners of his eyes, looked at the ants crawling around his feet, and said "Hello" softly. The other side responded quickly: "Brother, I'm here!"

"Song Song!" The hoarse voice made Yuan Song feel distressed.

"Yeah, bro, tell me."

"Yuan Song!"

"Yeah, brother!"

"It's okay, I'll call you!"

When he went down from the roof that day, Fang Jianguo and his wife had already returned. Lin Fenghong was cooking in the kitchen. Fang Sheng sat with his head down and picked his fingers. Seeing Fangge coming in, he immediately raised his head and looked at Fangge. His face turned around, and finally stopped on his red eye sockets.He pursed his mouth, wanted to say something, but held back.

Lin Fenghong glanced at Fangge during the cooking break, and rarely said anything. As usual, he had already been scolded for being ignorant, scolded for not cooking dinner, and scolded him for not washing clothes.He really didn't do anything this afternoon, and stayed on the rooftop all afternoon.

During dinner at night, Fang Jianguo took the initiative to ask: "Fangge, when will your college entrance examination results come out?"

"There are still about ten days."

"Have you decided which university to go to?"

"N is big."

"Where is N University? What major." Lin Fenghong answered.

Fang Ge didn't say a word, Fang Jianguo took a sip of wine and replied, "In the north, it's a long way away. Why is it so far away? Don't we also have good universities here?"

"That's right, what are you doing running so far? The round trip costs a lot, so you can't fill in a closer one. In this way, if Ah Sheng misses you, you can still come back on weekends."

Fangge raised his eyelids to glance at Lin Fenghong, and continued to pick the rice in the bowl.

Returning to the room after washing, Fangge saw the book on his bed that Fang Sheng had torn. He picked it up and flipped through a few pages. Nearly a third of the front page was missing. The book is still on the wooden cabinet at the end of the bed, you can tear it up as you like.

The books that Fangge had memorized were all packed in sacks and placed under his bed. He knelt down and looked at the other books in the sack. Fortunately, none of them had been poisoned.Maybe, you really should take them with you, wherever you go, but you can't put them here anyway.

Fang Sheng also came upstairs, leaning on the wooden board of the cubicle and timidly peeking in with half of his head exposed. He heard Fangge's cry today and knew that he had done something wrong.

"Brother, I didn't mean it. I thought those books of yours were useless. The books my elder brother brought back were sold by my mother. My mother said those books were useless and took up space. That's why I put them away. Your book is broken. Brother, don't be angry."

Fangge silently flipped through the books in the bag, and picked out a few novels, collections of essays, thick notebooks, and a few essays he bought from Xinhua Bookstore, all of which were written by him when he was usually in a bad mood or had a sudden accident. Some fragments and sentences written with emotion, sometimes he will turn them out to see what he was like at a certain period of time. He does often reflect on himself, and he will also quietly describe Yuan Song, using words and paintings, in the book There are Yuan Song in many places.

The rest are textbooks. He has read them for three years and studied them for three years, but he can no longer wander around with him, and he can't take them with him.He put the selected books and notebooks into his schoolbag, and carried them again, which was quite heavy.Finally put the bag at the end of your bed.Only then did he turn his head and glance at the aggrieved Fang Sheng.

"I forgive you, you have to read the pile of books under the bed for me, and don't allow others to take them."

Fang Sheng nodded happily, finally let go of the board, and jumped onto his own bed.

The next day, Fangge carried all the belongings he packed up on his back, and hurried out of the house while Fang Sheng was away.His luggage is really not much, a bag of clothes, a backpack of books and other miscellaneous items, including mobile phone chargers, toothbrushes, towels, etc. In the camouflage nylon bag I was carrying in my hand.

The ID card was just obtained a few months before graduation, and it was very fresh. The ID photo on it was not very good-looking, but Fangge looked at it for a long time when he was queuing at the ticket office of the station.He didn't quite know where he was going, he only knew that he didn't want to rely on Yuan Song, nor did he want to trouble Yuan Tang, he owed the Yuan family too much.

There were many place names displayed on the scrolling screen in the ticket hall, and he looked at them one by one slowly. He liked geography very much when he was a freshman, and he was very good at geography. The provincial and local geomorphic features and climate types are checked.He wants to go to the north, to the city where N University is located. He really wants to see the south of the Yangtze River and experience the local customs there.

Suddenly, the phone in his pocket rang hurriedly, interrupting Fangge's thoughts, he took it out and looked, as expected, it was Yuan Song.

"Brother, where are you?" The person on the other end of the microphone was panting, his tone full of anxiety.

Fangge was startled, he turned his head and looked around, "What's wrong?"

"Tell me where are you?"

"I, I'm at home..."

"Fart, I'm at your house, your house is gone, where are you?" Yuan Song was in a hurry, he interrupted Fang Ge's words instantly, "I should have told you yesterday to let you stay at home Wait for me, tell me where did you go?"

"I..." Fangge was really stunned, his hand holding the phone trembled a little, his throat rolled over and over again, and he swallowed the choked trill again and again, "I..."

"Where are you brother?" The other party took a deep breath to stabilize his mind, and his tone softened a little, "Tell me, I'll go find you."

"You, you..." Fangge didn't dare to speak. He never thought that Yuan Song would actually go to Fang's house to look for him. He was afraid that if he said a few more words, tears would fall again. He was really fragile and outrageous. , how did it become like this?

"Brother, speak slowly, it's okay, I'm listening, I'm already in the car, you wait for me, I'll go find you now, speak slowly brother, we're not in a hurry, tell me where you are?"

Huh, huh~ Fangge raised his head and looked at the blue sky, slowly suppressed his emotions, and the temperature in his eyes also went down.

"I'm at the station."

"OK, wait for me!"