escape and return

Fangge has not had that dream for a long time.He has never been a person who believes in fate, but he has been dreaming repeatedly since he was a child, which makes him feel that maybe this is a special hint, or maybe the dream itself has meaning and can indicate something. , what does it mean, what does it represent.

So when Fangge fell asleep and had this dream again at night, his brain began to wake up gradually. Even though he was still in that dream and couldn't open his eyes, he could hear the sound of the outside world, such as Zhang Wei on the opposite bed. He could clearly feel the snoring sound of Liao Gang's teeth grinding on the lower berth, Wu Yue's raving on the lower berth opposite him, and the movement of his brother turning over from the lower berth.

He felt that he seemed to try to open his mouth, trying to shout out, but the dull feeling of powerlessness made all his muscles numb, and he couldn't control himself.

"Mom..." Du Lijuan in the dream walked away again, stepped out of that ethereal space, and closed the dark door by the way, leaving him alone in this gray-blue universe, Let him face this oppressive, gloomy, terrifying nothingness alone.

This is just a dream, Fangge kept telling himself this in his mind, he mustered up the courage to look down at the endless grayness under his feet, his heart instantly rose to his throat, even though he knew it was just a dream, the fear still couldn’t go away .In the dream, he felt cold all over, and that chill seemed to spread beyond the dream, he seemed to hear the sound of his own teeth chattering.

"How do I wake up?" Fangge felt that he was going to split, or maybe his soul was out of his body, otherwise why could he see himself lying on the bed?

"Fangge, you have to wake up! Don't look any further, please, don't look anymore..." It was a cry from the depths of the soul, it was the self-protecting body hidden in the deepest part of the body, but He was still staring at the nothingness, it was like an abyss, the chaos in the deepest part of the abyss, which is soul-shattering and will-shattering.

"What are you afraid of? What are you hesitating about? Who do you think is trapping you? Hahahahaha..." Who?Who is talking?Fangge only felt that his head was shaking all the time, and he was sinking in the dream, like countless invisible hands pulling him in the darkness, dragging him deeper into the abyss.

The waking consciousness heard the sound of turning over from the lower bunk again, Fangge wanted to raise his hand and pat the bed board hard, he wanted to ask for help.However, his shegen felt bitter and numb, and his limbs seemed to be tied up, and he couldn't move. Most of the time, this kind of ghost pressing on the bed happened during the nap time during the day. Why did it appear at night? ?

While Fangge was puzzled, he was also experiencing the heavy body and panic that seemed to be mired in the mud.Fangge hadn’t had this dream for a long time since he had been to the provincial capital. Before, he was just immersed in the dream without a clear mind. Although the content of the dream was almost the same this time, the feeling was completely different. Could this be the case? Is it the result of having the same dream?Has the brain developed muscle memory?Why do you have this dream again?What is the trigger?

If someone turns on the light to look at Fangge at this moment, he will definitely see the eyeballs under Fangge's eyelids that are constantly moving, his brain is running at high speed, and he is trying to solve a big problem in the dream .Fang Ge has always been an excellent student who is self-reliant and self-improving. He has always firmly believed that "Heaven is healthy, and a gentleman must strive for self-improvement." God helps those who help themselves, and no one can really help him solve his inner problems, except himself, and only himself ...

"Brother, brother? Wake up? Are you having nightmares again? Brother?"

"Huh?" Fangge heard Yuan Song's call, but he couldn't open his eyes at all, he didn't even have the ability to bite his own tongue, he suddenly wanted to cry.

"Brother, it's all right, don't be afraid, I'm here, I'm here." Fangge felt Yuan Song leaning down and hugging him into his arms, patting his back gently with both hands, and beside his ear That reassuring breathing sound made his face suddenly turn cold, and Fangge suddenly remembered the kiss before Du Lijuan left in his dream. He couldn't hold it anymore in his sleep, tears wet his eyelashes, and ran down the corners of his eyes. It slid into his temples, and finally sank into the pillow without a sound.

You are not alone, Fangge, when you feel that you are the only one in this world and there is no one around you, do you fall into another abyss?This is a misunderstanding, Fangge, don’t isolate yourself, give the person who loves you a chance, maybe, he can’t dream bad dreams for you, can’t help you break the dream, but at least he can let you in In the process of deep chaos, you can be a little more practical and at ease, and support you to get out of the prison.

So, Fangge, don't deny the people around you easily, and don't push them away easily, it's not fair to them.

"Song Song~" Fangge's raving voice was caught by Yuan Song at the first time, he raised his head and tried to open his eyes wide to look at Fangge in his arms through the moonlight outside the window.He saw the tear-stained grid clearly, and those opened eyes were filled with too many emotions for a moment, which were fear, panic, sadness, apology, and even a trace of joy. Yuan Song's heart also twitched, he had never seen such a square before.

He stretched out his thumb and gently wiped the tears from the corners of Fangge's eyes, kissed Fangge's eyelids, touched his forehead, nose, and chin, every movement seemed to touch Fangge's soul, extremely gentle.

"Brother, don't be afraid, I'm here!" Those deep eyes looked into Fangge's heart, repelling all the sequelae of the abyss.

"I'm not afraid, your brother is amazing." Fangge replied in a low voice, bent his mouth, and buried his head in Yuan Song's arms.

Yuan Song still patted Fang Ge's back, his chin lightly rubbed against the top of Fang Ge's head, listening to Fang Ge's breathing gradually calmed down, he slowly closed his eyes.

At the end, when he was about to fall asleep, Fangge suddenly heard a faint "I'm sorry" in his ear, and before he had time to ask, he fell into a dreamland.

Fangge's birthday is at the beginning of April in the lunar calendar, but he has never celebrated his birthday since he was a child, although Du Lijuan would celebrate his birthday with his three siblings when he was young.The three siblings are all in different months, the younger brother is in September, the older sister is in July, Du Lijuan made a compromise, and chose a day in July to cook a delicious meal. This day is quite random, it is really One day in mid-July, the three of us each had a bowl of fried rice noodles with eggs and sometimes shredded squid.Or a bowl of egg noodles, the eggs are big when fried, especially like a little sun, Du Lijuan puts a fried egg on top of each person's noodle bowl, one can cover the entire bowl of noodles, after eating, smack again Smacking your lips, licking your lips, and eating clean, the third sibling's birthday will be over this year.Fang Ge doesn't have any special feelings about birthdays, it's just an ordinary day.

But this time, after Lin Fenghong reminded him, he suddenly paid attention to this day, as if he could do anything by himself when this day came, and he would have good luck.With the mentality of waiting, the days suddenly slowed down. Fangge seemed to be playing "one, two, three wooden figures" with time. As long as he looked back at the time, it stopped.

After going through it for a few days, finally, Fangge waited for his birthday.

"Song Song, let's..."

"Brother, you..."

The two smiled at each other.

"Brother, what do you want to say, you say it first."

"Go ahead, I'll talk about it later."

Yuan Song giggled, turned his head and looked at Liu Haoren, and saw their squad leader craned his neck and wrinkled his eyebrows mischievously. Fang Ge couldn't hold back his laughter.

"What are you doing, monitor? You're so obscene, haha."

Lin Shengmiao was sitting in the innermost row of the classroom. He was a little away from them. When Fangge said this, he subconsciously glanced at Lin Shengmiao. Sure enough, he turned his head and quickly glanced in Liu Haoren's direction. I lowered my head and went to write like a normal person.

"Fangge, you can't praise me, we have been classmates and slept together for almost a year~"

"Hey, it's all right, don't bother us, I want to talk to my brother, go and stay, play by yourself." Yuan Song waved to Liu Haoren, turned to face his brother He hooked his fingers, motioning for his brother to listen to him.

"What's the matter? What's so mysterious?" Fang Ge tilted one ear with a smile.

"Brother, I like you so much!" The warm breath instantly burned Fang Ge's ears, and he sat upright and glanced around randomly with his eyeballs, at least Liu Xiaoxiao is not here at the moment, huh, he Inexplicably heaved a sigh of relief, and then reacted again, blushing and giving Yuan Song an annoyed look.

"Yuan Song, can you..."

Seeing that his brother frowned and was about to get angry with him, Yuan Song quickly interrupted him, and said, "Okay~ brother, I was wrong, I'm serious, I just want to tell you, let's not go to the cafeteria to eat Alright, today Friday, how about we go have a delicious kaizen meal?”

Fangge took a serious look at Yuan Song's eyes and saw that his eyes were clear and bright, revealing innocence and innocence, he curled his lips, shook his head inwardly, and denied his guess, his brother It should be because I don't know my birthday is today.

"Okay, yes, it just so happens that your brother and I paid my salary last week, so I treat you to eat."

"Okay, you have to listen to me what to eat and where to eat when the time comes, we've made a deal."

It was rare that his younger brother had any request from him, but Fang Ge readily agreed without thinking about it.What he didn't know was that Yuan Song made an OK gesture to Liu Haoren behind him with his hands behind his back.Liu Haoren grinned, raised his chin and nodded towards Li Chao who was not far away.

"Hey, what did you want to tell me just now?"

"Ah, it's nothing, I also want to say go eat something delicious, I'm getting hungry."

Yuan Song smiled and rolled his eyes, "Then we brothers really have a good understanding!"