escape and return

The two were silent all the way, and Yuan Song followed Fangge silently, until he entered the clinic in the town and saw his brother's guilty look when he was helping his brother to apply the medicine.

"Tsk, brother, if it wasn't for me today, you wouldn't choose to stand up, would you? You wouldn't stand up for yourself. Do you think this is right? Are you conniving at them to do bad things? Also, if Without me today, is there no one to help you? Isn't it?"

"No, Song Song, don't get excited..."

"You tell me after you think about it, brother, no matter how kind your grandfather is to you, he still favors his own son. The whole family is cold-blooded and ruthless. Are there any people in that group that you should cherish? You Can you resist and fight for yourself? You don’t feel sorry for yourself, I feel sorry for you, I feel sorry for you~” In the clinic, Yuan Song became more excited as he spoke, his eyes turned red when he saw Fang Ge’s bruised face.

Fangge has a sore nose, don't open your eyes, for many years, he has been alone, avoiding troubles as much as possible, avoiding people who can't be seen, he is also afraid of pain and injury, he also wants someone to love, someone It hurts, but no one sees his kindness and his obedience.

His cuteness is just a matter of course in the eyes of others, cynicism is commonplace, occasional kindness is a sudden charity, he is treated as a child who does not remember things, but he does not know that children are the most sensitive and easy to be hurt. It's cold in June.

So he habitually erected the thorns all over his body, wrapped himself up, and even acted like a shrinking turtle.After so many years, he almost forgot that he is also qualified and capable to accept other people's care, and that there are still people whose eyes are red for him.

He sniffed, met his younger brother's eyes, and forced his lips together, trying to make a smile, but he didn't want to hurt the wound.

"Song Song, let me give you a hug." He stretched his arms around Yuan Song's waist, and buried his eyes heavily on Yuan Song's shoulders, "Don't move, just for a while, just for a while." A hoarse voice sounded in his ear, A warm feeling started from Yuan Song's shoulders and poured continuously to his limbs. Yuan Song settled down, stretched out his hands and lightly put them on Fangge's back, and patted him gently. .

"Brother, just cry if you want to cry. After crying, let's put aside the past and start again. After 10 minutes, we will be a good man again?"

"Why 10 minutes?" Fang Ge murmured from his shoulder.

"Could it be that 10 minutes is not enough? That's right, you haven't cried in so many years, and you probably saved it up. It doesn't matter how long you cry. Let's go when we cry enough."

"Fuck you!" Fangge laughed. He pressed his eyes hard on Yuan Song's shoulder and raised his head. "There's nothing to cry about. I'm happy. My brother cares about me so much. I can't help it." Are you grateful?" Yuan Song carefully looked at the expression on his brother's face, as if trying to tell the truth from the fake.

"Let's go, don't be pestering, you don't have to lose face, you block the door of the clinic." Fang Ge patted Yuan Song's arm, turned and walked out first.

They continued to rush to the station and took the last bus back to the county.In the car, Fang Ge carefully analyzed his personality and way of doing things, and Yuan Song's words kept circling in his mind.He knew that without Yuan Song, he would not go up to argue with them, would not resist, he would only compromise and retreat, and sometimes he even wondered if he had learned the traditional virtues of respecting the old and caring for the young too well , implemented too thoroughly?

However, reason told him, no, that was not a virtue, it was just him finding a good word for his inferiority and cowardice.As Yuan Song said, he was pampering them.He began to realize that this influence had been deeply rooted in his bones. He was inferior and arrogant, cowardly and brave. He always chose to escape, thinking that he could escape, but the one who could not escape, his biggest enemy was himself. .

Fangge leaned back on the chair with his eyes closed, listening to the car passing through the mountains, and his brother was sitting beside him, and they could feel each other's warmth from their arms and thighs touching each other.

It was already dark, Fangge reached out his hand to touch Yuan Song's hand, rubbed it gently with his thumb, cleared his throat, opened his eyes and looked at Yuan Song with the faint car light, and said seriously: "Song Song, let me answer the question you asked at that time. I have thought a lot about myself. I really don't seem to have seriously faced up to my true inner feelings. Since I was a child, I have been a little pleasing to others. Just to make them like me, although I know it’s useless, it seems to be a subconscious reaction. When facing them, the first reaction is to obey. It used to be for survival, but later it became a habit. I can easily Let me tell you with certainty, if it wasn’t you today, or anyone else, I wouldn’t stand up, I would be very selfish and choose to be alone, this is actually exactly what I hate about myself, because I also like heroes, But I don’t have his spirit and courage.”

"I am indeed trying to escape from the environment where I grew up. To be honest, I have nothing to show for it except my grades. I can escape from Lihe Village and the group of people, but I cannot escape my own personality and personality. Temper, I don't really want me like this."

"Brother, you are fine, really, you see that you are considerate, kind and intelligent, independent and self-reliant, hardworking...there are too many to say, and you are also good-looking. If I were a girl, I would like you, Lai Looking at you, you see that you always protect me behind you, how safe you are.

What's more, the problem you mentioned is not your fault in essence, it is caused by others, and they don't know how to cherish it. What a good boy, if it were my child, I would be so happy. Don't worry about it every day. them.You can't punish yourself because of other people's mistakes, secretly entangled and forced. "

Yuan Song straightened his body, tilted his head and moved a little closer, "Brother, you just lack love. You have to be squeezed by such a large group of relatives even if you are not loved by your parents. To explain a problem, that is, you, Fang Ge, are a very good person in your own right, and you cannot be distorted by any external factors. How many people in the world can do it, and you just say it? Isn't this enough to explain?

So, brother, don’t be guessing. I was anxious at the time, and my heart ached. I have never seen you being bullied like this since I was a child. angry?Well, this topic is over here, you, don't go back in the future, you're messing around with your brother, I'll take you home, and be mentally prepared to be my brother for the rest of your life. "

Look at this tone, Fangge gave Yuan Song a slanted look, this dead child may be suspected of kidnapping people.