escape and return

When Fang Lei received the call, Fangge and Yuan Song were selecting photos to send to Du Lijuan. They had already left the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau and were on their way to Yunnan in a hitchhiker.

"Hey, brother, what's the matter?" After Fangge left Fang's house that year, Fang Lei called him to confirm his relationship with Yuan Song. Fangge confessed. He had never contacted him before, but the sudden call this time made Fangge's heart suddenly tense.

"Grandpa may be dying soon. Auntie said that he has been calling your name on the hospital bed for the past few days. They asked me to contact you. Look, can you come back?" Fang Lei hesitated for a moment, and said the request of relatives After he finished speaking, he fell silent, waiting for Fangge's answer.

Fangge held the phone, feeling mixed feelings, why did he call his name?Seeing that his brother was silent and only lowered his head, Yuan Song knew that the family had to use Fang Ge for something, and he was really easy to bully when he was his brother.Thinking of this, Yuan Song gritted his teeth angrily, and was just about to help his brother hang up the phone when Fang Ge spoke.

"Grandpa, did you say anything besides calling me by my name?" Fang Ge asked hesitantly.

Fang Lei pondered for a moment, then replied in a low voice: "No more, Auntie said that he is exhaling too much and taking in less, and he has no energy to speak. It probably only happened in the past few days." He paused and didn't say anything to Fangge. Then he continued: "If you feel embarrassed, then I, I can tell them that you are too late. But after all, you lived with your grandfather for a few years when you were young. If you are willing to come back, this should be the last time. One side."

Yuan Song was so close to Fangge that he completely heard the voice from the phone.Fang Ge gently pushed his head, and closed his eyelids to caress the white scar on his left index finger. The scar extends obliquely from the bottom of the nail on the index finger to the tip of the nail on the other side, like a diagonal line. When I touched it, there was a slight bulge, which was accidentally cut when I was a child when helping to cook vegetables at my grandfather's house. The knife was too blunt, and the surface of the knife was still covered with rust, so the square grid used [-]% force A knife cut it down, and that knife directly cut off the tip of his left index finger, leaving only the nail cover connecting the piece of flesh with the finger.

He remembered very clearly that the wound was so painful that his face was pale and he was sweating coldly, his lips were bitten by deep tooth marks one after another, and his fingers kept spurting blood. Experienced the second time.He bled a lot. Fortunately, the place where the vegetables were dried was not far from home. Grandpa and grandma panicked. It was Grandpa who ran back with him on his back. He was so painful that he lost his voice, but he was distracted and noticed the blood drops. Picture of splashes falling on green grass.

After returning home, my grandfather hurriedly poured a large basin of boiling water, put several spoonfuls of salt, and then pressed his fingers into the basin to soak.After a while, the water in the washbasin turned red, and the salt water soaked the square so painfully that it became numb. Grandpa dragged the withdrawn hand to soak in the salt water. Tears overflowed uncontrollably, on his cheeks. Leaving traces one after another.

It was too painful, but it was also because of my grandfather's timely treatment that he didn't have a fever and infection.After stopping the bleeding with salt water and killing the bacteria, my grandfather even applied a layer of Yunnan Baiyao powder on Fangge. It is said to be very expensive, and two elderly people usually don’t need it. The medicine has been kept in the cupboard in the kitchen. in the drawer.After applying the powder, he patiently wrapped the square with a layer of gauze.Later, slowly, the piece of fingertip meat hanging from the nail cover grew together with the incision underneath and gradually healed.

I don't know why I thought of this incident. When Fang Ge came back to his senses, Fang Lei on the other end of the phone had already called him countless times.Yuan Song lowered his head and continued to pretend to choose photos, but his ears were pricked up, listening to the movement around him at any time.

"Brother, I will hurry back."

"That's good!" Then, the other end hung up.Yuan Song pouted, and turned his body in the opposite direction of Fangge, his back was facing Fangge, his brother was about to go back to suffer wronged again.

Fangge took a look at Yuan Song's small movements, chuckled, leaned on his back and shook Yuan Song, and started his great principle mode.

"Oh, Song Song, your brother can't be an ungrateful person, right? The old man wants to see me before he leaves, I have to go back."

"..."

Yuan Song pursed his lips, and his thick eyelashes trembled slightly. He had no position to prevent Fangge from going back. After all, he was the person who had benevolent to Fangge, and he was also a relative with blood relationship.

"Although my grandfather is quite strict with me, and his treatment of me seems to be somewhat contradictory and awkward, but after all, he once took me in and gave me a place to live, so that I would not start wandering since elementary school. Moreover, During the one or two years when my grandmother was ill, the two of them were really good to me, and I was satisfied. Besides, this should be the last time, don't worry. "

While shaking Yuan Song's body, Fangge kissed Yuan Song on the face. Seeing Yuan Song's brows loosen slightly, he pursued the victory and kissed several times in succession. He knew Yuan Song's concerns, and he also knew that he might However, he is no longer the back-and-forth Fangge of the past. Moreover, he has a super invincible backing. No matter where he goes, he can return to the place where Yuan Song is.Since he is doomed to have little ties with his relatives in this life, then, on the premise of not being in debt, he only needs to fulfill his due responsibilities and obligations. For the rest, he will not force, but only grasp Yuan Song's rope was the only thing he didn't want to let go of.

Yuan Song originally planned to go back with Fangge, but Fangge disagreed. He didn't know whether Lin Fenghong's relatives knew about his relationship with Yuan Song, but, for the sake of conservatism, he still didn't want to let Yuan Song suffer half a point. Wronged.So Fangge persuaded Yuan Song to go home to accompany Du Lijuan, and then persuaded Yuan Dashan by the way, he didn't want the Yuan family to break up because of them, even if he couldn't accept him, he still hoped that the Yuan family could accept Yuan Song.

When Fangge arrived, the old man was still holding his last breath. Everyone said that the old man was waiting for Fangge to serve him one last time, although it was an ugly word.

The old man on the hospital bed was almost exhausted, his body was skinny, his cheeks on both sides were deeply sunken, forming two craters, which made people see.His eyes were cloudy, his pupils had turned pale gray and white, and he was only staring blankly at the ceiling above.Fang Ge walked over and leaned down and called "Grandpa" loudly in his ear.

The old man agreed, and turned his head to look in his direction carefully. Perhaps his eyes couldn't see clearly, but the old man just stared in the direction of the square blankly, his mouth moved slightly, not knowing what to say.Seeing such a grandpa, Fang Ge felt sad.

The old man seemed to be unable to say anything other than some simple one-word responses. Fangge fed him dinner that night. Maybe he really wanted Fangge, so he ate several spoonfuls of soup for dinner.According to my aunts, I haven't eaten anything for several days.

Fangge pursed his lips, with mixed feelings in his heart.The aunts were quite polite to Ge, and Lin Fenghong's absence made Fang Ge more at ease, and even the attitudes of several uncles eased a little, all of which made Fang Ge feel a little more relaxed.

I just didn't expect the old man to go so fast. On the third day after he came back, the old man passed away.The Lin family had many relatives and friends, and the funeral was held in a grand manner. All the descendants came back, including the eldest daughter who had fled for many years.

Back then, the skinny little girl had grown taller and gained a lot of weight, and she was holding a little doll about two or three years old in her hand. When she saw Fangge, she was obviously very excited, but it was a funeral, so when she just When she raised her smiling face and waved to Fangge, the expressions of everyone around her restrained her extroverted emotions in time.Fangge was obviously surprised when he saw her, with a questioning expression on his face, he never thought that the eldest daughter would come back one day.

"Eggy, call cousin!" The little baby timidly hid behind the big girl, revealing a pair of black eyes to observe Fang Ge secretly.

"This is——your son?" Fang Ge bent down and smiled tenderly at the little baby, waved his hand, then straightened up and asked the eldest daughter, seeing her nodding, he continued to ask: "You, Married? How old are the children?"

The eldest daughter pulled Fangge to one side where there were few people, and the little baby kept grabbing her trouser legs and moving her short legs. Fangge looked at her cutely, and suddenly reminded him of Yuan Song when he was a child. He squatted down He stretched out his hands towards Eggy, showing a gentle smile, "Come on, Eggy, give me a hug from cousin~"

The little boy stared at Fang Ge with his big black eyes for a while, the eldest daughter pushed him lightly, and said softly, "Hurry up, give me a hug from cousin!"

Eggy was very obedient, he let go of his mother's trouser leg, hesitantly slowly stretched out his arms towards Fangge, Fangge's heart collapsed in a small piece, he picked up Eggy and followed the eldest daughter Go to the corner on one side.The little milk doll lay quietly on Fangge's shoulder, neither crying nor fussing, so good that it made people feel distressed.

"When did you come back?" They haven't been in touch for many years, although they have their own QQ methods.

"It was the year before last. I came back to steal the household registration book and was caught. I never left after that." She spoke easily, Fangge frowned, and the image of that little girl being beaten when she was a child came back to her mind.

"I was the one who turned my back. I didn't expect to be caught. Then they cut me off and arranged my marriage directly. Well, they married me to Dandan's father."

"So is he okay with you?"

"Okay, it's just like that, anyway, it's just like this in my life." This attitude of resignation made Fangge feel extremely uncomfortable inside, and he didn't know what to say.

"What about you? I lost my mobile phone once, and I also lost that QQ number. I can't find it, and I don't have your phone number. I don't know who to call if I want to find you. How are you now? How is your mother treating you? ? I heard that your father passed away two years ago?"

Fangge opened his mouth, and before he could speak, he heard another voice calling, it was Fang Sheng.

Fang's house is far away, Fang Lei and Lin Fenghong brought Fang Sheng over and spent several hours on the road.When Lin Fenghong saw Fangge, she just glanced indifferently, then looked away again, and went into the house.Fang Lei followed Fang Sheng and walked towards Fangge. Fang Sheng was very happy to see his second brother and called out several times. Fangge smiled and introduced the eldest daughter to the Fang family brothers. In the staring glance, each nodded, as if answering each other that everything is fine.

Yuan Song still calls Fangge every day to make sure his brother is going well, and then asks "when will you be back" every day before hanging up, and Fangge always smiles and says it quickly.

Yes, soon.After grandpa left, he could go his own way without burden.

During the funeral, Fangge tried his best to avoid seeing Lin Fenghong. The Fang Lei brothers often looked for him, but he didn't want to have too much intimacy with them.The eldest daughter also often brought her son to him, but he never saw her husband during the two days of the funeral.

"Him? He's at home every day. His place is not very good." The eldest daughter pointed to her head and continued: "Back then, I took me to that restaurant, and as soon as I opened the door, there was a family of them sitting in it." The three of them, I still don't know what's going on, they were married just like that, and got engaged directly at the dinner table, and that night, I met him for the first time."

"You, you didn't resist?" Fangge choked up, feeling a huge stone pressing down on his heart.

"It's useless to resist, just forget it. I'm different from you. You have gone to college, are educated, and you have the confidence to go out. You have the ability to resist. I can't. I thought I was running away, far away. , I can be free, I can be myself, and if I’m lucky, I can meet someone who loves me, and I can have happiness.” The eldest daughter shook her head and glanced at Fang Ge, “It’s useless Yes, I didn’t even have an ID card in those years, there was no place I could stay forever, and no one would love me, I could feel it myself, like, um, how should I put it?”

"It's as if I've rotted into the mud. I don't deserve to have those things hanging high in the sky..."

"How could it be, you can..." Fangge swallowed several times, his eyes were hot, and he secretly suppressed his emotions, trying to find some points to refute the big girl, but before he could finish speaking, she interrupted.

"Oh, let's not talk about that, I'm pretty good now, I have motivation after having my balls, really, and I don't have to hide around outside, at least I have a home, which can make me stable It’s really good to be down, you don’t have to worry about me. Fangge, you should take care of yourself, take care of yourself!”

This is the last time Fangge sees the eldest daughter, and it is also the last conversation between them.Life seems to always have a lot of regrets, no matter how you live, in the end, there will be some regrets, the only thing each of us can do is to do our best to live every day, life is so short!