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Today is a rainy day, with dark clouds blocking the light completely. It should be a bright and warm day at noon, but it makes people feel cold, damp and drowsy.

The torrential rain poured down on its own, beating violently on the car windows, making violent noises.

Zhou Buyi looked at the car window, the bean-sized raindrops were eager to exert power on the person in the car, to intimidate him, but they were smashed to pieces by the car window, becoming countless tiny fragments, falling on the ground, converging into dirty muddy water.

Waiting will definitely wet the clothes.Zhou is not easy to think about.

"Young master, we're here." The driver's voice rang out in the strange silence created by the heavy rain, Zhou Buyi felt that the voice was a bit indifferent, for some reason.

Zhou Buyi held up an umbrella and got out of the car.As expected, the torrential rain was merciless. As soon as I left the shelter of the car, the rain came from all directions.

Zhou Buyi stepped forward on the puddles, without even looking up at the new school.He kept walking towards the predetermined route and collected his umbrella at the end. At this time, the bottom of his white sweatpants had been wet by the rain, leaving dirty marks.

He walked straight in, and the curious people below all looked at him.

Gao Yifan is the head teacher, he welcomes Zhou Yifan and guides him to introduce himself.

"Hi everyone, my name is Zhou Buyi." He said.

Zhou Buyi didn't look indifferent, but he didn't seem very happy.Gao Yifan felt that he shouldn't be a difficult child, so he wanted him to talk more.

"Do you have any hobbies?"

"No." Zhou Yi said, his eyes a little out of focus.

"Is there a school with goals?"

This question kept Zhou Buyi silent for a few seconds, and then he said the name of a good university.But he doesn't look proud, and there is always a sad out-of-focus feeling in his eyes.

Gao Yifan praised him, saying that he had a big goal and he had to work hard, and then let him sit in the empty seat in the back row.

Zhou Buyi didn't like the location not by the window.He wanted his seat at the same table, which was right by the window.

The man was looking out the window, his legs shaking under the table.When Zhou Yi walked over, he just glanced at it, and then looked out of the window again.

Zhou Buyi walked to the side of the seat, put away his schoolbag, and then gently sat down on the seat, assuming the posture of listening to the class seriously.

The man glanced at him again, seemingly in disbelief, but he quickly moved his eyes away, and his trembling legs gradually stopped.

The teacher begins to lecture.Zhou Buyi feels that the teachers here are not as professional as the original school, but they are not so rigid.But it made no difference to him.

He sat upright for the whole class. After the get out of class was over, he relaxed. However, he didn't leave his seat. He just took out a blank notebook and drew lines on it.

The deskmate didn't talk to him, he ran out after class, it seemed that he didn't want to have anything to do with him.fine.

The daytime class passed like that, and the teachers had their own characteristics, but it was no different for Zhou Yi.

After the evening class, he went to the dormitory, and the driver had already made the bed for him.

When a new classmate came, the atmosphere in the dormitory was a bit awkward at first.Everyone introduced it one by one.

"Zhang Ao", "Xu Zhengyang", "Gong Dou" and "Shen Qing".

Zhou Yi was still the same as in class, after a simple self-introduction, he stopped talking.

Everyone didn't want to have an awkward chat with him, so after the introduction, they went to various places.

Shen Qing is the only person in the dormitory with curtains, Zhou Buyi sleeps next to him, he thinks the curtains are pretty good, and he will buy one himself next week.He likes to close small, dark spaces.

After a week in the new school, Zhou Yi felt no different from before.It's just that there are fewer people who trouble yourself, but it's also more boring.

The world around is still as indifferent as ever, and the actions of life are as meaningless as ever.

Nobody came to befriend him, too.How could anyone want to understand such a worthless and boring life like mine?

I bought a bed curtain on the weekend and installed it, and found that Zhang Ao looked at him with some disdain.

Zhou Buyi was stunned, what was he thinking?Think how dark he is?I usually don't say a word in the dormitory, but now I have to completely seal myself up, disgusting coward, dull soul.

No, how can you think of others like that?How can you guess other people's minds like this?People who maliciously speculate on others like this are the worst.

Straight into his dark little room, his heart was filled with a heavy thing, so uncomfortable.Thoughts skipped over the unscrupulous things in memory, and my heart became heavier, a little out of breath, as if I was about to cry but was blocked.

I really want to jump down, leave the world, and take all my thoughts with me, so that everything will be free.

However, he still didn't go out to do this, he didn't want to move, he was so tired, so tired that his body had no strength.

……

The conjecture was confirmed the next night, perhaps because of the darkness, or perhaps because his worthless life didn't deserve anyone's attention at all.

Zhang Ao didn't notice that he was right behind him.

He said to Gong Dou beside him: "What happened to Zhou Yi? He was gloomy like a ghost all day long. I fucked it up, so I didn't dare to speak loudly in the dormitory. Now there is another Bed curtain, what are you going to do? Sigh, do you think he looks down on us? He doesn’t even bother to talk to us, he just sneaks in as soon as he sets up the bed curtain, and he doesn’t even want to look at us.”

"Fuck, the more you think about it, the more you get angry. How the hell do you have the confidence to look down on us?" Zhang Ao became excited, and Zhou Buyi's heart trembled when he heard it.

"Hey, why do you think so much? If you don't look down on him, you can look down on him, and who can look up to him. He has nothing but a good-looking face." Gong Dou continued.

My heart sank, filled with a deep sorrow.

I don't blame others for misunderstanding, and I don't blame them for scolding like this.It's because I'm gloomy, it's because I don't talk, it's because I don't communicate!

It's all his fault, so what's wrong with them saying that?It was me who was wrong, and it was always me.

His own birth was wrong, so besides causing trouble to others, what else could he bring?

What is the point of such a bad life, such a life without the courage to change?What's the point of him living here?

As if he had finally made up his mind, Zhou Buyi didn't go back to the dormitory, but walked to the top floor of the dormitory.He has observed many times that the top floor can be climbed up, and there is a flat ground above it, without any protective measures around it, just step out with one foot.Everything is coming to an end.

He even walked up it with a little glee.The wind from the top floor poured on him, like a pair of gentle hands, guiding him forward.

let's go.Jump down like a bird, ride the wind and take it all with you.

"Damn! Stop!" An urgent voice cut off the wind.Zhou Buyi came back to his senses suddenly, and found that he was already standing on the edge of life and death.

The person who spoke didn't give him time at all, as soon as he saw him stop, he rushed over and pulled him over, hugging him tightly.

"Damn it! What the hell are you going to do? With your jump, the entire boys' dormitory is afraid to live in it. Are you fucking dead and don't know how to change?"

With tears on his face, Zhou Buyi turned his head to look at the person who pulled him back.I really don't know whether to say that I saved him, or pulled him back into the abyss again.

That person is his deskmate.The deskmate is called Fang Weizhuang. His name sounds very simple, but he is not polite at all. He runs out after class and sometimes misses class. Some teachers don't like him.

He pulled Zhou Buyi to lean against the wall, and Zhou Buyi curled up there, his tears had dried up, but his heart was crying.

yes!I'm really selfish, I want to commit suicide in such a place, is it because I want to attract attention in this way?How despicable.Next time, change the place.

Fang Weizhuang lit the cigarette held between his fingers and smoked, the smoke was lingering, floating in front of his eyes, a burnt smell wrapped around the tip of his nose, a bit choking, but it also gave a sense of reality to the floating heart just now .

"Zhou Yi, you are still my tablemate. What a fucking crime." Fang Weizhuang said.

Zhou Yi didn't say a word, feeling sorry in his heart.Sorry!Let you meet.Sorry to bother you.

But he couldn't tell.He could only curl up in silence like this.

He was also silent, his smoke was burning, the only light in this dark night.

When the smoke was about to burn out, Zhou Buyi said, "Don't tell the teacher."

He didn't want to be found out, he didn't want someone to ask him: what happened?What is there to be sorry about?

Maybe nothing happened, but nothing happened.

No one will understand.

After such a fuss, it's time to go back to the dormitory, and you might be questioned if you come back late.

Zhou Buyi turned and left, Fang Weizhuang still hadn't left, he was leaning against the wall, looking at the stars in the sky.

Maybe he wanted to wait for the smell of smoke to dissipate before leaving.

Zhou Buyi also smelled of cigarettes, and when he returned to the dormitory, he caught four pairs of puzzled eyes.

"Do you smoke?" Gong Dou asked.

"I didn't smoke it." Zhou Yi said.

"Oh."

Nothing more to say.

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