doomed in dream

When socializing at night, Chen Jiuqi still couldn't get rid of the feeling of Qu Fengyang standing in front of the tombstone.

No matter how much Qu Fengyang thinks she has respect for the deceased and respect for "uncle", in fact, Chen Jiuqi does not understand Qu's father who has never met but only appears in Qu Fengyang's mouth in various violent and unreasonable images. For example, Qu Fengyang is still receiving the kindness of nurturing, and he has complicated feelings, but if he simply doesn't applaud, he still holds the etiquette of being a junior.

As for always presenting a gentle image in the working world as an adult, Qu Fengyang couldn't see that she was still "warning" her mood around, and Chen Jiuqi couldn't explain it.

After all, whether they were close or not, it would be too impolite to tell the fact—she was just worried about the situation.

Qu Fengyang's beauty is undoubted, and the classical aggression is not strong. If Chen Jiuqi completely forgives her original emotions with family mutations to give some justification, it will be even more bleak in the cemetery itself With a cool and resentful tone, the lowered eye ends add purity and fragility.

Then when she raised her eyes, she still looked like Ting Lan in the hazel mang, the only difference was that she was not set off by the hazel mang as being stubborn and noble, but was covered with fallen and withered vines, even the thorny thorns were too unbearable. With her partner, she is left alone with nothing to fetter and nothing to rely on.

But the most terrible thing is not this kind of "fragile feeling" that if you become a star, you will be madly marketed-in fact, the fragrance of living alone in Zhenmang can never be fragile, and Chen Jiuqi doesn't want to be fragile-

But when they look at each other, when the gaze tells you that she only has you, Chen Jiuqi realizes a shocking beauty.

Smooth and distinct outlines, exquisite and classic eyebrows and eyes can satisfy Chen Jiuqi's aesthetic subjective experience, which has not new variables from beginning to end;

Fragileness, abandonment, and loneliness are a feeling of inadequacy that can be intertwined with aesthetics and strengthen each other. It is something that makes seeing each other more beautiful than being together day and night after being separated by thousands of miles, but it is just a foil here. Emotional background; what really hit Chen Jiuqi directly was actually the most clear "she only has you" at the end.

As a "good person", Chen Jiuqi will never allow her lover to be only herself. She will try her best to let the other party have the beauty that the worldly definition should have, including harmonious relatives and friends, independent career, but this is just a matter of morality .

From a fundamental psychological point of view, Chen Jiuqi has never realized more clearly than now that neither theory nor technique can help cover up the fact that the highest aesthetic feeling here comes from the complete satisfaction of her desire for control and sense of security.

Complete satisfaction If Chen Jiuqi puts aside morality and regards himself as a primitive impulsive carrier, then after he has an aesthetic feeling for this scene, he will naturally have a subjective will to pursue the eternal scene.

And this kind of pursuit is naturally a kind of unrestrained greed, and in the end, greed will always cause damage that is completely different from the original will.

So why is this greed curbed?Morality is not born out of thin air, it exists as a criterion, naturally because it can produce a stronger effect than simply satisfying greed.

If we pursue the peak beauty of this moment and keep Qu Fengyang in this state, Chen Jiuqi will definitely lose a long-term companion and companion, and let her become a dodder to cling to. At the same time, her entanglement cannot be relied on when he is tired. , and maybe even hang yourself and feel suffocated.

At that time, Chen Jiuqi, driven by greed, probably would naturally tear off the parasitic plants, and then search for new unknown beauty that may not be obtainable.

And if Qu Fengyang loses hope because of this, she will also bear the negative utility of the crime and the reputation of a scumbag, let's count it as 5*100-200=300.

If you really care about the long-term, the annual utility of 30 years is 40, which is 4 times that of the former.

In summary, it is better to live a little more in a flat life.

When it comes to ordinary and hard-working life, drinking for entertainment is very psychedelic. Sometimes it looks utilitarian and ugly on the wine table and has nothing to do with plainness, but it seems to be a silhouette of how to live hard outside in film and television works.

But it's not that complicated at the moment. Chen Jiuqi didn't go to drink with a middle-aged and elderly man with a big belly. High school classmates in the same industry gathered together. The few asset managers who are Party A are only five or six years older. Everyone happens to be At the age of 996 and a 30% elimination rate at the bottom, when he was saving his life, Chen Jiuqi's small white wine glass was filled with red wine, which was normal. what people say.

But after this round of drinking, everyone's brains are relatively not spinning fast enough, and the relaxed atmosphere is just right, which is really suitable for enhancing feelings.

And this probably gave Chen Jiuqi room to think wildly as above and as below.

In the dream world of the past few days, revisiting high school life, seeing and thinking of some people with cowardly thoughts or dirty behavior, and catching some illegal and non-criminal acts of secretly filming and private po, it stands to reason that besides being angry, it should be Some fear, but the latter emotion is missing.

She glanced at the classmate who was sharing gossip about a certain company—he never appeared in the dream, and in fact he was not familiar with him in high school—

One aspect of the reason for the lack of fear is that no matter how she satirizes her high school, at least the students of a key high school are always expected to be more "safe" than other groups.Even if there are a few people who do bad things, they are sneaking in the dark.

Although in the future, the most extreme situation may be poisoning, but the expected maximum deviation is basically here.

Fear, it is painful to face these dangerous situations and try to get rid of them but can't do anything.

This kind of group, which has expectations and has been disciplined by cultural laws for more than ten years, is probably considered a bit brainy. There are always ways to limit and avoid it, and it is not worth the fear of spreading.

If I have to say it, it would be the most shocking and easy to meet a "Lu Tijutsu" who was born in a peaceful and prosperous age and suddenly met "Lu Tijutsu" who was swinging his fists and knives in the street. Things that create fear.

Hmm, maybe the dream world still makes people a little numb to the passage of time. Thinking about it carefully, it seems that I browsed the social news more than three months ago and just saw a similar item.

But as far as she is concerned, she is not too afraid of such things. After all, as a person who has practiced swords since she was a child, and as a person who does not care much about survival, she still has the option of dying.

how to say?This does not apply to the general public, but Chen Jiuqi truly feels that being able to fight is always better than not being able to fight, although many people say that the difference in natural strength is useless after practice, and don't think about rebelling when you run into trouble, but one by one Bar:

1. Chen Jiuqi, who has never practiced, is a 28-year-old white-collar worker. His physical fitness and functions are so-so. He was born with no extra strength in force. He can probably be beaten by any able-bodied opposite sex.

But just because she has a background in martial arts with weapons, Chen Jiuqi is very clear that they are not short of breath because half of the wine table circle lacks exercise and is not so energetic.

2Normal people should not think casually like Chen Jiuqi. This does not only refer to the death of life, but also refers to the follow-up life of social reputation, etc. It is not so necessary and easy to make a decision to see the judge not to see the forensic doctor, and not everyone can be rational If you want to fully control the murderous intention when the weapon is in hand, then the basic point of attention should be highlighted first: don't consider holding a weapon.

It is absolutely unnecessary to carry a self-locking gun, a sharp weapon with a knife tip less than 60 degrees, or a single knife with a length of more than 15 cm.

On the one hand, these things will become troublesome due to various security checks in life, and it is even illegal to carry them into public places;

On the other hand, if the assailant has bare-handed fists or only sticks, and has not shown any intentions or obvious threats such as killing and looting, you will never be considered as a legitimate self-defense with these weapons.

And it has really reached the level where the two sides control the knife fight——

You must not be as vicious as a social bastard who has malicious intentions or has seen blood. If there is, then you will be easily identified as the crime of intentional injury. The reason is probably similar to holding a killer. The one with the psychological advantage is not like a good citizen who wants to actively maintain social stability, the judiciary and public opinion will not favor you in the end, the social and legal notoriety, for ordinary people, is no more than physical harm How much is easy to bear, so

3 It is indeed necessary to learn to run, but it conflicts with those who say that there is no need to practice boxing and resistance. The most important thing about running is to be able to run away.

In the cases of deliberate injury, don't most of them just greet you directly in the head so that you can't resist?

Even if he committed violence before coming up, he had to say a few harsh words first, and this kind of person generally knew how to block the retreat first.

Therefore, if you want to degrade the violence that is about to occur or has occurred by escaping, you must either be able to carry it twice or have some skills to keep people away, otherwise it is just talking on paper.

Of course, from this perspective, boxing combat training is more practical than equipment martial arts.

Therefore, the overall conclusion is probably that the most important thing is to strengthen the body and understand the two hands. To make up for the gap in strength, you can be familiar with the positions of portable scissors, metal watches, and keys. In an emergency, it is enough to attack the perpetrator's weak point.

After making these preparations, the fear will actually dissipate a little, and in fact, only when the fear is not so easily enveloped in the heart, will you be calmer and make correct judgments and reasonable self-defense when encountering a dangerous situation.

Well, it's getting late, the time for drinking and thinking is over, and it's time to find something to say, end the drinking and go back to sleep.

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