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83, too much love, it became difficult, we started the first dispute

The neon lights on the street are colorful and dazzling, embellishing the two smiling faces holding hands and walking together today.

Following Shasha's advice, she went directly to the hotel without stopping. She excitedly thought that Shanghai would become more beautiful because of Shasha's arrival. She had already heard the footsteps of happiness coming.

Inside the hotel, it was finally the world of two people. They hugged and kissed and walked to the bedside: "Let's... take a shower first." Sha Ying was already suppressing her body's strong desire.

"...Okay." It's not her blue sky.

The first time I washed Lan Tian's back, I remember when she was still in high school, she was outstanding and always got full marks. In the past seven years, she has grown to 175, and she has always looked up at her slightly. It feels very good Except for this person, only God knows if there will be anyone Sha Ying will be so obsessed with and admired from now on...

How can a beautiful night be wasted, when did she start to want it very much when she saw the blue sky, maybe very early, as early as when she met her not long ago...

Today, she kept wanting, without reservation, not only for the upcoming farewell, but her mind was full of trembling and sweating when Lan Tian put on her bra that day... She rubbed her short hair and felt all kinds of things about her Doting, today she can be possessed by this person without opening her mouth. When the wet legs are touched deeply, she caters to all the demands of her sweetheart and wraps her demands tightly. obey……

Tonight, she loved her Lan Tian so much that her face was flushed, and she forcefully stretched into Lan Tian's body several times...

Being held down by Sha Ying to prevent her from turning over, this time I grabbed Sha Ying's hand to prevent her from moving any further, and said playfully to Sha Ying, "It can't be done, it's been a few times."

"Heh..." Sha Ying tried to break free from the grasped hand.

Lan Tian simply put it in his mouth and bit it.

"Miss you." She stroked Lan Tian's cheek with her other hand.

Biting harder, accepting rustling misses, every inch of skin, every heartbeat, every minute, every second, the only reflection in the pupil.

Sha Ying stuck her fingers into Lan Tian's mouth.

"Hehe... bite more."

looking at each other...

Sha Ying's smile gradually disappeared...

"Eat me." Sha Ying drew her hand and lips to cover it...

The fierce kiss almost exhausted each other's breath...

gasping in the other's mouth...

"Shusha? What's the matter?"

"Ah……"

How to resist this smile, she kissed away the white teeth on Sha Ying's lips...

"Go ahead."

"Oh... just miss you."

"Oh... I miss you too."

"I like you."

These four words directly made Lan Tian's eyes glow with rekindled desire...

Sha Ying immediately held Lan Tian's face: "Don't move."

"..."

"I know, Xiaotian loves Rusha very much, so much... that I can't do without Rusha."

Sha Ying's eyes turned red.

Lan Tian frowned, and Sha Ying stretched out her fingers to smooth her.

"Can't come to Shanghai anymore? It doesn't matter when I graduate—"

Sha Ying shook her head: "When you accompanied me back from the Beijing Art Examination, you didn't want to take the pre-examination medical examination at the military academy. It took me a long time to forgive myself."

My thoughts paused, as long as it was about Sha Ying, she was very sensitive.

"...Why... mention this?"

Sha Ying buried her face in her neck and hugged her tightly...

"I already know about going abroad, don't hide it from me."

Covering the back of Sha Ying's head with the palm of his hand, smelling her fragrance and rubbing his cheek against the other's, his eyes are empty, and he feels that life will be very difficult until the end of September.

"...Who told you?"

"It's not important, especially when I heard it was four years. My mind is full of the four years we have come here."

Everyone sat up, and Sha Ying took the vest and put it on Lan Tian.

"I won't go, I have already talked to the professor, so it can be said that there is no such thing."

"No, listen to me, you're going."

"Shusha, you will come to Shanghai soon, and we will meet every day soon."

"I will definitely wait for you to come back, you have to go," Sha Ying looked firmly at the blue sky, putting her hands on her shoulders, "I heard that foreign students generally do not accept medical students, and the school and professors are all paying attention to you. I beg you not to make such a choice for me again."

"There is no choice, it is still the original plan. I will try my best to finish these six years and work in Shanghai after graduation. As long as I get good grades, the school will recommend the best hospital to me."

"Although I don't know what medicine is all about, I know very well what it means for the school to make an exception for you to graduate early and send you abroad."

"It means changing my plan to be with you. Shasha, don't be too obsessed with going abroad. You just let me learn more, but I insist on being apart from you for four more years."

She was used to listening to Lan Tian's words, and at this moment she realized that she couldn't talk to her, but this was such an important matter, she didn't come to discuss it with her.

"This...why do I want to say goodbye to you for four years? God...don't treat me like this. Between us, you have been giving. I thought that accepting everything is a way of love, but I am really afraid that one day I will be enough. Don't care about you, have you ever thought that I also need to do something for you to make up for the serious imbalance in this relationship? If I let you not go this time, how will I live well in this life? Please give me a chance to make me feel I have paid too, okay? Going abroad this time will be of great help to your future, so go!" She shook the blue sky anxiously.

Seeing that Sha Ying was in a hurry, he wrapped her waist tighter, explained her thoughts more patiently, and looked at her rustling gently and sincerely:

"Shusha, Shasha has sacrificed, Shasha likes Xiaotian, and letting Xiaotian have it is the greatest dedication, nothing can compare to this.

Don't talk about the things I have done. If I really love you, I have to look at the present and the future. You refused the teacher's invitation to stay in Beijing and tried to come to Shanghai, but I ran away after you came to Shanghai Abroad, what is this?Most importantly, you also said that in the past four years, we have tasted enough of one south and one north. I don't want us to be farther apart in the future. I will definitely miss you very much. Every time you are anxious to hug me, always I want to be one step ahead of me. I always think about how to make you feel that I may be more anxious than you. Rusha, you clearly know this feeling, why can't you want to be with me? "

"sky……"

"After these six years of studying, I can also be a good doctor, and it is also possible to improve my medical skills slowly through experience."

"You go, you go! God... I said that I will definitely wait for you to come back. You believe me, I will stand in front of you completely and completely in four years."

"Why do we have to wait like this? Four years ago we thought we only needed to survive these four years, but now we have survived and found that it will take another four years.

Rusha, maybe... because my father's sudden departure was an accident that I couldn't think of, and my mother obeyed my father's wishes to hide my illness from me, just so as not to affect my thoughts about the college entrance examination. They are my dearest people, why do I I was the last one to know that my father didn't even open his eyes to look at me when he left. This incident gave me a special understanding of life and life.

Now, this opportunity to go abroad may be helpful to my studies and career, but I want to say that I just don’t want to be separated from you now, nothing is more important than being with you, mother’s matter, rustle matter, I Definitely don't be the last one to know, this life, this life, let me be for you, for mom, not all of you for me, this is the way I love you, okay? "

These words moistened Sha Ying's heart, and she looked at each other affectionately, Sha Ying's forehead leaned against the blue sky.

"...However, I don't believe that God will arrange another four years after these four years. He will stop it. After four years, you will return to China after studying. How happy your mother will be. At the beginning, my father didn't tell you about your illness because he hoped that you would learn well. made."

"Do you have to talk about your parents' views on this matter? If so, why do you want to come to Shanghai instead of staying in Beijing? The employment environment there is absolutely better for your professional development. Why do you Want to give up that good acting opportunity? I allowed you to be willful, now allow me to be willful for a while?"

"How can it be compared? Shanghai is also a big city, and I can have a good development in Shanghai, but the start and opportunities are slower. As for the opportunity, I have analyzed it with you so carefully, and you think it makes sense Yes. But you are a doctor in the future, and your profession determines the nature of this matter. Maybe once you return to China, you will be a hot national player in the future. Even if I am the person you love, how can I also become a person who hinders you ?”

"Shusha, do you think I gave up something very important, right? But why do I think only you are the most important thing to me? Or, if you insist on me, am I not the most important thing to you?"

"The most important! The most important! You are not allowed to speak of me like that. You are only allowed to go because it is important. This is also the way Shasha loves Xiaotian."

"... Shasha... No... Didn't you say... Shasha listened to Xiaotian's arrangement? Then let Xiaotian arrange it, okay?"

"...God...Even if this matter...is the only one that Shasha asked Xiaotian to obey him, okay? Shasha and Xiaotian who go abroad can have both, it doesn't matter, the person I'm waiting for is you, I'm willing to wait for me really willing!"

I can see a kind of persistence in Rusha's eyes, but this kind of persistence makes Lan Tian more convinced that once she leaves, her Shasha will collapse. Waiting for someone with only one belief, that may be a very high level in movies and TV. , People who have not waited for the truth will not be able to understand how hard it is.She doesn't want the person she loves to experience this.She may have had many ideals when she was a child, but since God arranged for her this encounter in the summer of 89...

"...Shusha, it's because I can't wait, it's because I can't resist thinking about you, please forgive Xiaotian for her weakness, this weakness has already appeared when I held Shasha's hand for the first time that summer. According to our original plan, let me plan your life and mine."

"Why are you so stubborn about this matter? Well, I won't come to Shanghai anymore, I'll stay in Beijing to work, and I'll wait for you in Beijing, okay?"

"Then at least we can still meet many times a year, and I will go to Beijing to be with you in two years' time."

"God...I, how should I talk to you, how should I—"

Interrupting her words did not express her meaning and ended her panic: "Shusha, allow me to be self-willed this time, please forgive Xiaotian for just holding on to Shasha tightly, don't be sad, this was originally an unexpected thing, it can be treated as No such thing, okay, swish?"

"If I agree with your willfulness this time, it must be because I really don't love you enough and I don't deserve you!"

"Why do you say that? You can't say that! You have thought a lot about me, and now you have fought for it, but this time I made my own decision, you can accept it calmly, and you don't have to get involved in this matter at all many."

Sha Ying got up and poured water to drink, this person became more and more anxious, the way this person loves Sha Ying made people happy and began to make people hurt...

Poured a cup and handed it to Lan Tian. When Lan Tian wanted to pick it up, Sha Ying held the cup and walked away: "There are no lemon slices."

"It's ok."

"Why doesn't it matter? Don't you have to put lemons?"

Fu Shaying came to sit by the bed and took the water glass. It seemed that she was not used to the lack of the orange color, but the water was brought by her rustle, and the meaning was very different many years ago. No matter what she did for her, No matter how much you do, when you see her cutting lemon slices for yourself, seeing her cold boiling water for yourself, you will be easily moved to the point where you can't find the north and south.Looking at the glass of water at this moment, the words in her heart are all related to the three years she spent together in the past. Her brows are slightly wrinkled, and her eyes are a little helpless, but they are more determined to look at her rustle:

"... One day, I just want you to start. Maybe in the eyes of you and many people, I always like to do the same thing, rustle, the truth is that I just don't want to change, I don't want to stop a thing I started casually, stubborn I believe these are harmless, and I can adapt to occasional interruptions, but the relationship with you may be what I am really stubborn and want to be stubborn, and it is no longer possible to interrupt for a minute or a second."

She drank all the water, a stream of water dripped from the corner of her mouth, Sha Ying reached out and wiped it off immediately, her hand was covered by the blue sky:

"Shusha, it's me who wants to be with you as soon as possible. I want to see you every day. You are my strength and my courage and wisdom to face everything the next day."

Thoughts seem to stop in a far place, such as in the past, such as in the future... Put the water glass on the bedside table and put her salsa into her arms:

"Be selfish and love me, I need you to be selfish, listen, no matter what happens and what you hear, I'll always be the one picking you up on the 35km ride, I love the way you put your hand in my belt to keep warm , I get the greatest satisfaction in this life because of this, so the world is changing every minute, but I always feel that I am still on that road... carrying you..."

"sky……"

Such love words immediately filled Sha Ying's eyes with tears, not to mention...

"I don't want to reach the end. That road has no end. The only way to reach it is when I die."

"sky……"

"I can't live without you. My people and my heart are all strong because of you, but also fragile because of you. I can't promise what I will look like in four years."

Sha Ying looked at her blue sky dimly, feeling so affectionate, she had nothing to say.

"After riding the train all day, Rusha is tired, go to sleep, okay?"

Lying in her arms with the power of the blue sky, she was tired and really drunk. She never wanted to go against her blue sky, and needed time to sort out the whole thing.

On the morning of May 1996, 5, the two hugged tightly at the door of the room: "It would be great if the world was as big as this room, and I don't have to think about holding hands with you when I go out."

"I can still hold you after I go out."

Her blue sky has completely opened up to this love, her hands clasped this man tightly, and kissed on Lan Tian's face for a long time.

Walking on the playground in the afternoon, Sha Ying will catch the train back to Beijing at [-]:[-] pm. Facing graduation, many things need to be dealt with, but she has no idea about going abroad. Sha Ying only finds that she is gradually persuaded by Lan Tian.

"Do you want me to spend my whole life with you in anxiety? How do you want me to face your mother?"

"Together with Xiaotian, as long as you treat your mother well. Going abroad just saves some detours and saves some study time. If you don't go, we can be together right away. I hope today is the last time I will go to the station to see you off. At the train station, we must come and go together, okay?"

"Why do you say this? You... why do you say these things that make me soft? What are you studying hard for? How can it be just for me? In this school, you should also learn that as a doctor, he can't Selfishness, yes, I will definitely feel bad watching you go, but I will be full of confidence when I wait for you to come back, God... career and me, you can have both, let me make a decision for you, please?"

"Shusha...everything I say to you is what I want to say, and it is also very serious. You understand me, you understand that I only hold you but don't want to have you, understand why I would rather you bite me in those three years Broken lips, understand why I have to carry you back to Shanghai and send you back, you are very clear, everything is just because - I fell in love with you.

Career and you can have both, but they are far from equal.In my career, I have the confidence to create a vast expanse of blue sky, but the prerequisite is that you must be by my side, and I must see you safely holding your hand every day, so that I can be excited to do other things with my heart. Disappearing in my world, this is something I dare not even think about. I have let you go for four years. From now on, stay by my side safely. I am your blue sky. You decide.

I'm sorry, Sasha, I'm a bit domineering, please accept the consequences of falling in love with me, Xiaotian just wants to protect Sasha, and two years later, Xiaotian began to serve the world wholeheartedly, and it is also because of wanting to be a person worthy of Sasha. Love, come to worship the little sky. "

"sky……"

Holding the hand of the blue sky, is it really too much love, so it becomes difficult?Her words hurt her heart and moved her self-willedness.However, instinct was telling Sha Ying that she wanted to listen to Lan Tian, ​​and reason was forcing her to go to Lan Tian, ​​so she was anxious:

"You...you have to let me go back with such an answer, don't you? I'm angry, I'm really angry! Don't just live in this relationship, okay?"

Sha Ying shook off Lan Tian's hand and ran to the dormitory.

Ye Yu and Lan Fang in the distance were looking at them: "Shusha seems to be crying, Xiaoyu, did you see it? It seems that she really didn't persuade her, should we go back too?"

"No, Xiaotian will catch up with her, it's okay, just wait and see."

"Shusha! Shasha!" She caught up with Sha Ying within a few steps.

"Don't be angry! Shasha, don't leave me in tears and go back to Beijing. Is this why we can't think about it together?"

"Let me wait for you! Let me...wait for you..." Sha Ying burst into tears. My heart is here... I am very satisfied...

My God...why is Shasha willing to let Xiaotian ride the 35-kilometer bicycle on his back...why does Shasha have to wait for Xiaotian to open up about this feeling...why does Shasha agree to let Xiaotian come to Shanghai with a painful back... because I love you.Today, it is still because I love you, I need this waiting, if I obey you to let go of this opportunity, my feelings for you will be incomplete, without this waiting, how high should I raise my head to be able to love you in the future..."

Holding Sha Ying's cheeks: "Look at me, Sha Sha, do you see it? Remember this angle, this height, go on day by day, besides us getting old together, see if there will be any other changes, okay?

Heh... Do you know how happy I am to hear you say look up at me?This means that I'm okay, and I want you to look up at me for the rest of your life. I couldn't afford you at first, but now that I do, heh... I want to give you countless reasons to rely on me.And this opportunity to go abroad is just like I accidentally won the lottery, you can pretend that I didn't win the lottery, and Rusha doesn't care about this prize, okay? "

Extremely contradictory, she softened into Lan Tian's embrace.

"Winning this award is by no means an accident, and it's not something everyone can get. From the day I met you, you have been so outstanding. God, it's your 20-year window, but I have only been with you for a short three years. It’s my heart that hurts, it’s because I don’t want you to casually… let this tailor-made opportunity for you stagger, God… let’s put it this way, if it’s me who has the opportunity to go abroad, even if it’s ten years, you will let me go go?"

This question made Lan Tian pause, but she looked at Shasha and said immediately: "My Shasha is not a child anymore, she has grown up and endured a lot in her only love, she is more mature than many people, so , I will let Shasha make his own decision, only the things that Shasha can't make a decision, the little genius will give advice. I absolutely believe that every decision of Shasha is not hasty. The same thing is different for everyone and it depends on each person. The outlook on life and values. Therefore, there is no right or wrong, nor should or shouldn’t.”

"you you……"

"So if it's Shasha who goes abroad, whether Shasha goes or not, Xiaotian will support you, go, Xiaotian will wait for you, and Xiaotian will never think that Shasha doesn't love Xiaotian..." Speaking of this, Lan Tian felt very sad Yes, "If I don't go...Xiaotian is very moved...Xiaotian...will be kind to Shasha...and use this kindness...to repay the regrets in Xiaotian's heart...often...losing...is another kind of get……

Swish...I'm sorry...I know...I'm having a hard time with this Swish...I...I want another kind of get...give me this kind of get, I have to tie my Swish by my side... okay?I can't live without you, I can't see you..."

"God...God...I...I...This...I..."

"Shusha...Shusha, it's not something you have to do. Fortunately, you can choose not to go. I'm even glad that I'm still free. Trust me, you should get it abroad. Give me a few years I can get time in China, don’t change our plan, don’t believe in time and don’t believe in this world, you can just trust me, okay?”

"God...you know...what you say...I believe everything...but this time I believe it very hard...Okay, okay, then let me go back to Beijing with this answer that makes me feel so heartbroken , I quite thought that I was the only one in this world who could convince you that you love me deeply, but this love weighs on me today and makes me unable to bear it, do you know that?"

"rustle?"

"Facing graduation, I have many things to do. I can only stay here for one day. I knew about this before I came to Shanghai. I always thought that I must convince you. I thought one day would be enough. Yesterday I finally said it out at night, but I didn’t expect that today, I would return to Beijing with this sad answer.”

"Why do you feel so sad when you're about to be together? Rusha, Shasha! Listen to me, don't be sad, okay?"

"I can't really go against your idea. I really just want to listen to you, but why you made such a decision on this matter? I can't accept it if I calm down! What do you want me to do?"

"Don't do anything, I said leave everything to me?"

"I want you to go abroad, I want you to be superior, can you?!"

"No...you don't think so."

"...I was afraid that I couldn't really go together with you, but I was never afraid of waiting for you. Will you promise me? If you don't promise, I will really be sad all the way to Beijing. You can bear me like this, right?"

"No, Shasha, you just need to think that we are going to be together soon, and you don't have to think about anything else."

"Why are you so naive about this?"

"It doesn't matter what you say about me, whether it's naive or stupid, you can understand that I love you a little bit more, and this little bit has planted the result of my willfulness today."

Sha Ying leaned her head on Lan Tian's cheek sadly: "What should you do with you? I have to go back today, but I..."

"Let's go back to the dormitory, it's a bit windy here."

"I don't have time to persuade you today, so at least you promise me to think about it again, don't let me be so hopeless about this matter, okay?"

"Xiaotian has said a lot, I believe my rustle will figure it out. Heh... I will carry you back, just like yesterday when you first came here."

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