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80. You can’t bear my endless waiting for a heart, and you insist on refusing to go abroad

The three of them were walking next to each other on the track of the playground, Lan Fang was holding Lan Tian's hand.

"What's the matter, sister, you want to tell me so formally?"

"Your professor specifically found me today and told me that you can study abroad, and also detailed the time and content of studying abroad. Xiaotian, my sister is a little angry. Why didn't you tell me about this? It’s something worth celebrating, and that’s fine, but why did you refuse? I can’t think of a reason why you don’t want to go after thinking about it.”

"This one……"

"Stuttered?" Lan Fang stopped and looked at Lan Tian, ​​"I can't tell the reason, right? Then why don't you go? This is something no one can ask for."

"I just don't think you have to study abroad to be a good doctor."

"This, is this your reason?"

"Can't that be a reason?"

Lan Fang calmed down and took Lan Tian's hand again: "Xiaotian, listen to my sister, don't think things are very simple. In various fields of medicine, there is still a certain gap between domestic and foreign countries, especially the brain department in China. It is even more incomparable with foreign countries. Some major operations cannot be performed in China, and even the equipment cannot keep up. The professor also said that you must go abroad for further study to improve your medical skills in the future. The domestic ones are not enough for you to learn. , you understand this better than me."

"Sister, I really don't want to go abroad, because it takes too long and it takes four years. After going abroad, it doesn't mean that I can come back if I want to. My mother is getting older and older. My father died only a few years ago. She must be very lonely. I just want to I might be short-sighted to be with her earlier, but I care about these things and I don't want to go abroad."

"But you have to think about it and analyze it carefully. Not everyone has the opportunity to go abroad. The professor found you twice because he thought you were better than others in all aspects. How many students are jealous of the professor's love for you? If you don’t cherish it like this, the professor may feel very uncomfortable. Originally, foreign students in medicine are generally not accepted, which is very different to you. How can you be so indifferent? The school has fully borne the expenses for four years. What are you worried about? What? In four years, you will learn a lot of knowledge that cannot be learned in China, and this knowledge will determine the development of your career in the future. As a doctor, don’t you want your medical skills to be better?"

"I know, of course I want to, but I believe that these are things that I can slowly explore in the future. I will study while working. It may be a little slower and I may take some detours, but it is better than letting me disappear in China. Four years, can't I become a qualified brain surgeon if I don't go abroad?"

"My sister is really going to be angry! You have to go, your reason is totally untenable, it doesn't mean that if you don't go, you can't become a qualified brain surgeon. Where, where, what is the school planning? But you are thinking about graduating early and returning to your mother’s arms earlier. You have grown up. I know you are very sad when your uncle passed away suddenly. My mother still took me I have been living with my brother until now? Just imagine if your father was alive, would he agree with you not wanting to go abroad? Your mother has never been educated, but she will definitely support you to go abroad. Even if you go abroad for ten years, she is willing to stay Waiting for you at home."

"Don't talk about my sister, I have already decided that I won't go abroad, so don't try to persuade me. I understand what you said. I can graduate with the best grades, which is my biggest achievement in the past six years of university. I should think The professor will definitely come to you, but sister, if he comes to you again, please say that there is nothing you can do, I really don’t want to go.”

"My God! Why are you so stubborn? Why don't I know you well? I always thought that I might change your mind with a few words, but I didn't expect you to be so determined. Are those really your reasons? Do you know those Telling the reason will make the professor feel sorry and look down upon?!" Lan Fang pushed Lan Tian.

"Sister, don't be so anxious, don't worry, okay?"

"Can I not be in a hurry? Regarding your future, your mother is not around. I have the responsibility to take care of you and even guide you. When encountering problems, I have the responsibility to take you to analyze for you. If I can just watch you and don't go , then I must be an incompetent sister, I don’t even have the face to meet my aunt.”

"The problem is not so serious. You can't be any better to me. I know everything in my heart. Allow me to decide this matter by myself, okay?"

"I can only say that you must listen to me on this matter. I won't allow you to take your own future as a joke."

"Why? Why do you have to go abroad to have a future? I don't think so!"

"I'll give you a week to think about it. I know you still have a lot of things to do. My sister doesn't want to persuade you anymore. Maybe I can't talk about the key points, so I can't talk to you. I need to think about how I should talk to you. , you also have to think again about whether to give up or fill out that application."

"Sister, I have already thought about it very clearly—"

"You haven't thought it through! Think about it again, think about it carefully, this matter is no small matter. There is still a large stack of books in the dormitory, you said you want me to read them for you, let's go back now, let's go. Xiaoyu, come, we Walk."

Ye Yu was silent from the beginning to the end, but she heard clearly, she had something to say, but it must not be now, at least when Lan Fang is not around.Like Lan Fang, she felt that the opportunity was really rare, although maybe this opportunity belonged to her.

In the middle of the night, both Ye Yu and Lan Fang couldn't fall asleep, turned over many times, and it was past one o'clock, and they began to talk softly: "Why didn't you say a word when I talked with Xiaotian today?"

"You've already said it well, and I really don't know what else to add."

"No, there must be something I can't think of, you must help me think about it, what is the problem, I didn't expect her to be so persistent, but no matter how difficult it is, I must persuade her, otherwise I will be her sister for nothing .”

"Go to sleep, let me help you think, huh?"

"Well, you must think about it. I can't sleep. It's really troublesome for her to be stubborn sometimes."

"I know, but maybe she'll figure it out in a week? Take it easy."

"Ok."

At 1996 o'clock in the evening on April 4, 16, Lan Fang was called by her classmates to go to self-study. Ye Yu grabbed Lan Tian and said, "I have something to tell you. Let's go for a walk together, shall we?"

"I just took a walk with you yesterday. I have to go to self-study and ask my classmates some questions. How about another day?"

He simply snatched the book in Lan Tian's hand: "When will it be changed? Today Orion is still hanging in the southwest, which is very beautiful. I thought I would not be able to see it at this time. It is very rare. I will teach you to read it."

"Orion, that warrior, didn't you say it's only available in winter?"

"Stop talking nonsense and follow me." Ye Yu forced Lan Tian out of the door.

"where is it?"

"See? Four very bright stars make a big quadrilateral with three smaller stars in the middle, don't you?"

"I see, really."

Ye Yu saw Lan Tian's raised head, and the distant lights dimly shone on Lan Tian's face, with a long neck.

"Answer me well, is it because of Rusha?"

"Huh?" He lowered his head and heard words that had nothing to do with Orion.

"I don't want to go abroad because of Rusha, isn't it?"

"Uh..." She looked away...

"Tell me what's on your mind, who else do you want to talk to if you don't tell me?"

Reluctantly glanced at Ye Yu: "I hope you don't tell my sister about Shasha, she won't be able to accept it."

"I can't accept it either. As your friend, I also advise you to go."

"You coaxed me out with Orion, we only talk about Orion."

"You must not have told Sasha about this, have you? Have you ever wondered what she would think if she knew about it?"

The eyes that were dodging around just now, but stopped on Ye Yu's face at this moment, must have talked about what she cares most about.

"Don't look at me like that, it looks like you know the consequences. If—"

"I thought I didn't need to explain to you." She intercepted her words seriously.

"But you need to give Rusha an explanation."

"Nor does she need to."

"But in fact, what is needed most is her!"

Not wanting to argue like this, Lan Tian turned sideways and looked at the Orion. The tenacity was still there, but she was a little more worried. Perhaps, all her next words were also convincing herself:

"I don't ask everyone to experience it, even you who may know me very well. I especially regret that I filled out this Shanghai volunteer. Only when I met her did I realize that there are so many things I can't do. I have an intuition. These few days In [-], there must have been many things about her that I was afraid to worry about, so I didn’t let me know, and because I was too busy with homework, I allowed her to squeeze the train to see me again and again. Don't tell yourself, it will be fine after these few years, I will pay her back countless times, but this kind of counting on the future is actually irresponsible, six years is the maximum period I can bear."

She forced her tough eyes, and looked back at Ye Yu from Orion: "Xiaoyu, maybe loving someone and being in love with someone are two completely different feelings. Missing her is really a very hard thing. I will overcome this thing." No, I can't make her wait even one more day."

It turned out that she didn't want to hear these words. It turned out that listening to them would hurt her heart. Can Ye Yu hold back listening to her words about how to love another person so deeply... Swallowing, lowering her head, and looking up at that At this time, Zhang felt a little disgusted and couldn't take his eyes off his face...

"...every time I hear you talk about her, I'm very happy, and I'm also very sad. But, God... love is not day and night, no matter how long you go, she will wait for you, and you will still be there when you come back from school. Together, why do you have to care about these four years?"

At this moment, where did she find the courage to look directly at Ye Yu, her whole body seemed to be made of copper, her belief was indestructible, and she did not hesitate to fight against the whole world: "Love is day and night. Now is very important, and now may be more important than later." It's all important. Because none of us can know what will happen tomorrow, I have to grasp the present, not to mention that there is only so much time in a lifetime, why do two people who love each other wait and wait?"

Love is day and night, is this how Lan Tian views love?She seemed to be right. Why do two people who love each other have to wait?Instead, this person confused Ye Yu's thoughts.But the future is so important, she thinks of Lan Fang and the possible achievements of this person in the future, she still thinks that things can be both.

"Are you worried that she won't wait for you?"

"Of course not, just because I'm sure she will wait for me. It's uncomfortable to wait for someone. Every time I go to Beijing, every time she comes to Shanghai, how much we cherish every minute and second when we meet each other. From time to time, one south and one north bowed their heads to fate and let go. If this relationship was not deep enough, I would have buried this relationship directly under the rumors.

I still remember that day... that day when I left Beijing, she sent me to the platform, there were so many people, she was reluctant to let me go, she asked me to hug her and say it twice... For so many years, she has always been like that Looking at me with deep reluctance and I... never really put her at ease.

The train is about to move, and the whistle is separating us. I feel her strength. She pushes me onto the train...but my eyes are bruised...my heart hurts...the train is far away, and she is still standing there looking at me , The conductor asked me to enter the carriage, but I really wanted to jump out of the carriage and hug her again. This feeling exhausted all my patience for waiting. "

This person's heart is so hurt, Ye Yu imagined the inseparable platform, she looked up at Orion again, the hunter was about to fall to the horizon, and she couldn't help but hold this person's hand to try to comfort: "Don't... Don't feel bad."

"If you really understand me, you shouldn't come to persuade me. I believe that six years of university can also teach me a lot. Now I don't want to be a tutor. She can come to Shanghai to work soon. I have to give my all Focus on my homework and graduate with the best grades, learn as much knowledge as possible in this university, so that I can be recommended to be a doctor in the best hospital in Shanghai in the future, maybe life will not be very rich , but at least I can be stable if I work hard, and I look forward to living with her and living simply."

"Do you know that this matter may not allow you to choose?"

"I don't need to choose. Why do so many people always say how to choose? My life, what I want, I know very well, no one says it's useless."

"You can't pass the test of your family."

"There is no need to pass any level, and things that are planned cannot be changed. I always hear people say which level to pass and how many levels to pass. I have passed the most sad level. I think holding her tightly The most difficult thing to decide, because I don't know whether to love her or harm her after holding her tightly, until I am sure that letting go of her will destroy her, then no matter what the reason is, I will bear it.

As long as she is by my side, as long as she still loves me one day, I will not only be the one worthy of her love, but also my person and my heart will be closest to her. Whenever she needs me, I will I must appear by her side in the most timely manner; every time she reaches out for some warmth, I must be close to her eyes, and I must never let her keep her heart empty endlessly. This heart loves her so hot, if it is far away in the sky, what is the use? "

Suddenly, a hopeless mood appeared, looking deeply at the blue sky, Ye Yu bit his lips in discomfort... The tears in his eyes were trembling and ready to fall at any time, how could she hear such words... This deeply in love Sha Ying's words...she was moved...she was also stung...she took a step back...she didn't want to see this person again but she just couldn't take her eyes off...

"Xiaoyu? Xiaoyu? What's wrong with you, Xiaoyu?"

"God..." Tears fell down...

"Xiaoyu?"

Emotional breakdown...

She couldn't speak, turned around to go elsewhere, she couldn't listen anymore.

Lan Tian walked up to her and held her arms: "Xiaoyu? What's wrong with you? Don't feel bad for me, I don't feel difficult at all, I will do it!"

I have never been hurt like this before, today I will experience enough...

"I know, you will do it, you are so capable, what do you want me to say? You already have an idea about going abroad, what can my ordinary friend convince you? I am fine, I have nothing to bother you Your own business, your sister will not let you decide, after all, she is always by your side." Ye Yu looked at the sky, restrained his emotions, and continued: "God...it doesn't matter...it doesn't matter..."

"It's okay? Xiaoyu?"

Ye Yu lowered his eyelids and nodded, when he opened his eyes, he saw a completely hazy blue sky...

"I don't think you are wrong. But if Ruo Shasha knows what you gave up for her one day, I can imagine how uncomfortable she is. I really don't agree with this."

"Don't tell her, she will be uncomfortable for a while, I will comfort her, I will work hard to improve my medical skills and tell her with actions, I should learn it abroad, I only learned it a few years later, so this is A small matter that can be ignored at all, she will listen to me."

Silence for 1 minute.

"Hey, let's play tennis, shall we? Let's exercise?"

"Okay, then I'll go back and get the racquet, you occupy a court and wait for me."

"Okay. Let's go."

Walking against the wind, blowing away tears, cooling a hidden heart, if one day I can walk towards her, the road in the middle is like a warrior chasing the sinking horizon...

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