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41. Two train tickets, you can’t escape the heart that loves me deeply

Alone, on the bus all the way, looking at this busy Shanghai all the time, Rusha, who was all thinking about her, was about to leave her. She just got a seat and only one stop away. A pregnant woman struggled to get on the bus, and Lan Tian immediately stood up. Reach out and help her sit down...

When I arrived at the train station, the poster prohibiting carrying contraband filled my eyes with blood; many beggars with broken legs and hands and various disabilities in the square in the passage, many elderly people with gray complexions and dying lives, many lying on the ground with muddy faces Half-grown children with two clever eyes, these beggars, use their indistinguishable true and false tragedies to pull the seemingly kind people; there are also pickpockets with hidden ulterior motives in the crowd People are caught off guard; the bathroom is some distance away, but the smell is pungent; the man with his back against the wall has confused eyes and blows smoke rings; a woman in a hurry walks to the waiting hall with a crying little boy ...

Feeling down all of a sudden...

From this point of view, the world is really chaotic, but her rustling is a beautiful figure, with a peerless face and temperament, a girl who can always be seen at a glance in the crowd.

Is it because the world is chaotic, or because she is reluctant, Sha Ying's imminent departure makes her upset, she must ask her heart, which reason is more important, the chaotic world may be an excuse, and she can't bear to let go of her hands The truth makes the world look even more chaotic...

She had to let go, but her feet could not run yet. What would she do in case of an emergency?Her lessons could not be delayed any longer.

Ten days is so fast, it is so easy to get used to having her, but it takes a long time to get used to not having her...

Ten days is too fast, it seems that yesterday I took the train to carry her to Shanghai, and tomorrow night she will be alone in the train going north and farther and farther away from the blue sky...

Said to the ticket window: "Two sleepers to Beijing in the afternoon or evening the day after tomorrow."

One didn't want to leave, the other didn't want her to leave, carefully packed the ticket in Lan Tian's pocket and walked back...

But who would have thought that it would be these two tickets...

She never thought that these two tickets would make her and Sha Ying really inseparable and deeply in love. She never said that she would be with her forever, but too many things she did made Sha Ying Holding it so tightly, she may not have realized that the fact that she can decide to buy two tickets means that...they have grown up, can love, can not listen to anyone, and can truly make the impossible possible.

Back in the dormitory, only Lan Fang was in class, and everyone else was there. She told Sha Ying that she would go back to Beijing with her and come back again. Ye Yu and Xiaomi were dumbfounded by this decision.

Sha Ying walked to Lan Tian's side and took out the wallet in Lan Tian's pocket. Really, it was two tickets.

Looking at these two tickets, it can be said that I am very happy, really happy... But why do you have to be like this, so worried?

"You don't have to send me back, I can do it myself, or return the ticket, okay?"

"No, I don't worry, I have to take you there. Shasha, can you listen to Xiaotian?" When he said, he held Sha Ying's arms and followed Sha Ying's eyes: "There are all kinds of people in the station. It’s so crowded again, what if you get hit by someone? What if you get stepped on?” Let go of Sha Ying, turn around and go to cut lemon slices for herself, but she is still saying...

"I don't know if all the trains are so crowded. I'm really worried. Let's stop discussing this matter." The person in the station who was dressed in various expressions and looks was still in his mind, facing Sha Ying After leaving, she just felt that the outside world was too chaotic... There was always such a nice voice from behind:

"Why spend so much money? I can already walk, I will slow down and be very careful."

She turned around, and in this relationship with Sha Ying, she had a stubbornness that she couldn't explain or even felt was too much, and she looked at Sha Ying seriously: "It's not about money, nor is it that you can let me be more careful if you are careful." Don't worry, I told you early on that you must be safe, but when I arrived in Beijing, I happened to see you were injured, and you were performing difficult dances with your injuries, so that you couldn't even walk when the injuries were more serious. How can I trust you?"

"It was just an accident. Sometimes dancing injuries are unavoidable. I am only half a year younger than you and I know how to take care of myself."

"But you never reassured me!" She couldn't control her emotions, "I'm sorry, Sasha...I'm loud, Sasha...I..." She raised her head and drank the whole glass of lemonade...

Sha Ying sensed Lan Tian's extremely rare emotions, and worried: "God... don't worry about me, otherwise, I promise you that I will never let myself get hurt again, okay? Besides, this time I have to say it's you responsibility, but you have paid for it with a hundred times the pain?"

"Then let me buy the whole bill." She looked at Sha Ying with eyes that could not be denied by anyone: "I can't stay with you for a whole month until you can run by yourself, then at least let me send you to Beijing to see you Sit in your dorm room, okay?"

Sha Ying looked at the blue sky and shook her head faster and faster: "My God... Then I will be absolutely safe if I sit in the dormitory? What kind of logic is this? If I want to buy a full bill, I would rather stay with you for a month , but you are so worried, can I say that even if I can run, you still have thousands of worries?"

"How many kinds of worries are my business, Shasha only needs to be responsible for Xiaotian's worry."

"But this kind of worry is too much for me to bear!"

I have never seen Sha Ying so excited, such unwilling eyes, and I realized that I was emotional just now: "Shusha... don't worry, I just... just send you back, it is not a difficult thing, listen to Xiaotian, I...I promised Xiaoliang..." At this moment, she was suddenly vulnerable, "I want to protect you...let me protect you...OK? You are my honor, my hard-won trophy, I have to protect it well ...you...you..." The more I said it, the more I felt uncomfortable...

The moisture from her heart began to moisten Sha Ying's eyes: "God... Let me think about it, I really can't follow your train of thought... Let me think about why you don't want to come to Beijing to see me... Why did you Going to play against others like that...let me think about why you insist on winning...and why you insist on carrying me to Shanghai and now you still insist on sending me to Beijing...you still find all kinds of reasons that always impress me I can't bear to argue with you... the chicken leg... now stepping on the wound to carry back your honor and trophy..." Those beautiful eyebrows are all connected at this moment...

"Shusha... don't need to think too much..."

"Teach me how to not think too much?" Tears trembled and then fell, "You...teach me..."

"Shusha? Shasha, don't be like this... Xiaotian may be worried a little too much, but in Xiaotian's eyes, Shasha is very weak... I am worried that Shasha will not fight back if he is bullied... Shasha will not resist... Shasha is too Kindness... Shasha used to always stand behind Xiaotian...always let Xiaotian accompany her to practice dancing...but now Xiaotian is not by Shasha's side... Xiaotian does have...a thousand worries..."

"sky……"

"Thousands of worries...how can I leave you injured in Beijing...and how can I see you leave Shanghai alone, in my mind...there will always be various dangers rustling on the overcrowded train, The chaotic world outside will always make Rusha too late to be careful... But where should I put you in me?" The voice changed completely...

"sky……"

"Which position can I properly protect you forever... Shasha has grown up... How can I still take you with me... There is always a crazy thought in the hope that your feet will stay by my side...how? Okay... How could I have such abnormal thoughts? You have the world you should have in life, how can I still hold your hand in your world? Is it because I can't learn to let go, Or are you holding on? God, what happened to me? What did I say??" The back of his hand beat his forehead...

"sky……"

Hold Shasha's arm tightly with both hands again: "Shusha...is this okay? Just send you off this time, the last...the last...the last...the last...from now on...don't give me a chance to send you off... Let's do that question together... even if it really takes this lifetime..., okay?"

Two people, word for word... Focus all the eyes in the dormitory on the two of them...

"The last...the last...time...you...God...so...why do you have to do it this time? Why bother? I've heard so many things, how did you become the last time in a blink of an eye? What's the matter? ?”

"rustle……"

"Where is your worry and can't let it go? Why are you gone all of a sudden?"

"rustle?"

"Get it back... quickly find it for me!" With both hands grabbing the clothes on Lan Tian's chest...

"From now on, I'll hide it in the snow and bury it in the dust, and I won't mention it again... okay?"

"You... such words... You actually say it more and more cruelly every time... Is there some people in this place who are slowly changing you? Or do you want to be changed... I should have thought of it a long time ago... I was naive... ...Okay...let me let you go...and please...let me go and stop me!"

"Shusha..." Sha Ying slammed her hands off...

"Start with refunding this train ticket. It should be very simple. If you don't refund it, I will refund it, and I will refund it right away! As Shasha said, you can rest assured of me from now on and you can leave me alone, let alone take the train ticket." I didn’t pay attention to stuffing money to me, I’m afraid I won’t be able to eat well and dress warmly, you cruel person!” After speaking, he ran out the door...

"Shusha! Shasha!!" Holding Sha Ying, her hands were still so cold, I had to cover her because I love her so much...

Desperately looking at this face that he dreams of every night: "Xiaosha can guarantee that, after getting out of here, you will never give Xiaotian another chance in your life, you should be satisfied."

She shook her head violently: "Shusha... Keep it this time, just this time, let me send you..."

"God... or a lifetime, why once?" Sha Ying burst into tears.

"One time can be a lifetime!"

looking at each other...

"God... follow your heart... I beg you... If you want to spend your whole life remembering this time, is there any measure to measure your sadness..."

"rustle……"

"sky……"

The three of Ye Yu and Xiaomi left here at the same time. In this place, they need to be absolutely undisturbed. Ye Yu thought that he had to block Lan Fang who might come back from the door. This was the only thing Ye Yu wanted to do. Tears have already flooded the matter, and when I brought them to the door, I heard Lan Tian say...

"As long as you are happy, it doesn't matter if I'm sad for life after life. Keep this time, and please give me a good... good in Beijing."

"While driving me away... while saying that I don't want to part with me! Can you please make it clear!"

"How else can I make it clear? The college entrance examination is over... the exam has been over, and a year has passed. We have already made it clear what needs to be said."

"You...you...have I really never understood you? It's so confusing to me...God...you...why are you crying? I ask you why are you crying?"

"I didn't cry." Lan Tian turned his back again.

"Is it really my eyes that have problems? Is it really that I have never really understood you? God... you hold my hand tightly and take care of me so well, don't you worry about me... no Don’t worry about me, because of me being hospitalized for an operation...you have to give up your dream of entering the military academy and come here to study medicine, but you can’t let go of it, but you don’t fill in Beijing’s medical university, you want to fill in Shanghai...want to escape Why do you have to make yourself so contradictory?"

"I told you not to look too carefully!" Lan Tian shouted again, how could he be loud at her rustling?She felt distressed and regretted... quickly turned around to face her rustling, and said softly, "Shusha... don't...let's not argue... shall we?"

"Hey..." Sha Ying walked closer to the blue sky: "Why did Shasha want to argue with you? Shasha is very sad... Can't Xiaotian see it? What happened to Xiaotian who rode more than 30 kilometers to pick up and send Shasha back and forth?" Is she really going to forget about Rusha?"

"rustle……"

"God...you obviously don't want me to go..."

"I'm willing."

"Are you willing?"

"Shusha...Shusha...you are going to leave after all, but I really want to watch you go and accompany you to see you off. I really really can't let you go until I don't have another pair of hands...holding you tightly, just... ...I just wanted to hold you tightly..." Just like that, I held Sha Ying's shoulder tightly.

Familiar power, a completely different temperature, Sha Ying is used to the nostalgic care, she looked at these hands from the corner of her eye, and then focused on the pair of distressed eyes: "Then, if there is never another pair of hands, will you accompany me?" Follow me forever?"

"...I...I think...I really want to...but what should I think? Rusha...Is there such a way?"

"Do you have to let Shasha tell you that the road is made by people? Even if no one has walked this road before... You always make the impossible possible, and you will win the impossible game, then How can you face Rusha with confidence? You want to be a deserter? God..."

Sha Ying put her hands on her face: "I am your trophy... How could you not find a place to put the trophy after you endured so much pain? I believe you have already figured out the place on the way to receive the trophy." Oh...God...you clearly know or you have known it for a long time... As long as you say a word, I can even stay in Shanghai instead of studying, and I have finished high school with you for three years, and my heart has told me sincerely, I don't want that university anymore..."

"How can you say such a thing...you have to go back..."

"It's me who doesn't want to leave you, it's me who holds you tight...God...is it really that difficult to say you like me? Shasha has grown up...we've all grown up...we can think about it for more than a minute Think about it for the rest of your life..."

Looking directly at Sha Ying's wet eyes, tears flowed...

"Shusha...do you know that the one you like...is a girl..."

She is really afraid of this... But she shouldn't be a person who is not brave...

"I only know that it's you that I'm in love with—Lan Tian...it's you...you are a boy or a girl, I don't care for a long time, I just know that I can't live without you...I just know how nostalgic it is to be hugged by you I feel beautiful...God...Are you that scared? Or do you not have that kind of affection for me at all? Is it because I have been affectionate for four years? God...If that is the case, why are you so good to me?? You Let me fall in love with you and can't do without you, but in the end there is only one question left for me...God...why are you doing this to me?"

"rustle……"

Confused about that persistence, confused about the meaning of happiness, this girl, every word and every sentence is hurting Lan Tian's heart, how can she be willing to be self-indulgent?How can I let her fall in love for nothing?How could he bear to force her to do that question?She is in pain as much as she is in pain... How can she be made to experience this pain?Could this be what she gave her, the so-called happiness?

Right or wrong, yes or no, do you have to ask others to answer and listen to what others say?She has loved this girl for a long time, and this girl has also loved her for a long time. Is it really so scary to be in the middle of them?

"rustle……"

When did her beautiful eyes start to shed tears for the blue sky? What is it that keeps swallowing that carelessness?Ask yourself again, in this world, who can she trust this girl with?Is there such a person who can make this girl so affectionate?How could she completely let go of this girl...

Two thumbs caressed Sha Ying's tired eyes... Sha Ying lowered her eyelids, her wet eyelashes were messy... But Sha Ying's lips were still uttering endless pleas...

"God...cherish your trophy...have your trophy...okay...okay...just hold me like this forever...okay?"

"rustle……"

"God...answer me...answer me definitely..."

But she was still frozen there, she looked at Sha Ying so distressed, but why couldn't she take a step... One minute... One second... Half a minute... Half a second... The time has become endless... She has already put Sha Ying is branded on the heart, if it can be cut open, no one will be able to find a gap to cast a second person's name in this heart.

Can't wait... Speaking of this, this person is still...

"...Okay...You...You...Okay...Then can you grant me a wish?"

"rustle……"

"Kiss me..."

"..."

"anywhere is fine……"

Sha Ying burst into tears when she finished speaking... She was broken by this wish... She never thought that her love would need to be ended by begging... Life... If it was a stage... what kind of one did she take? The script is playing...

In this despair, she was suddenly rushed into a red-hot tunnel, her eyelids were drooping, but there were still countless lights, and her mouth...was being implanted with a strong lemon flavor...

Time begins to fly by...

How much I cherish those three years, the years are still passing by, this love, in fact, how generous I paid...

And when this kiss, recalling the autumn and spring together, saw each other again... So many tears, miraculously dried up... It was like stepping into another realm, discovering that falling in love is not difficult...

"Shusha... Then can you give me a wish?" Her fingers lifted Sha Ying's beautiful chin, her eyes were full of demands, covering the face that just wanted to be given...

"You said."

"...Let me kiss you forever."

If there is a dimple on the side...blink gently...

"……it is good."

Embrace affectionately... Embrace where you came from... Embrace from now on... Embrace dear ones...

"But I'm really afraid that I will ruin you." She whispered in Sha Ying's ear...

"If I can grow old with you forever, how can I thank God for giving you to me? If you don't want me, how different is it from ruining me?" Her cheek was pressed against Lan Tian's ear...

"rustle……"

"Ok?"

"rustle……"

"Ok?"

"rustle……"

"Heh..." She smiled and bit Lan Tian's little upturned nose...

"I'll take you back to Beijing, don't argue with me again."

"Well, heh...the nose is red."

"Shusha... have you really thought about it?"

"God... don't make me repeat, don't make me feel unreal, there is no other pair of hands, there will never be, Rusha is saying forever."

"Okay, I will never let you down."

She pecked off Sha Ying's nose, and her four lips intertwined gently again... This time, she started to be strong... Her rustling softly made a sound of being loved that made her completely out of control...

This is a kind of loss of control that does not know what will happen next... She pressed Sha Ying into her neck, and there was a wild power and heat wave in her body. She was afraid of doing something that her Sha Sha was not prepared for...

Hearing her rustling breath is so fast...so cherish this embrace...

"sky……"

Her voice is getting better and better, and the more she listens, the more Lan Tian has to hurry up and love this person to make up for those waiting times...

"rustle……"

"God...I don't want to go back to Beijing, I want to stay by your side, I'm afraid...I'm afraid it's not real, I'm afraid it's still a dream..."

"Xiaotian promises that this is not a dream. You are in Xiaotian's arms. From now on, I will hold you like this until you get tired of it."

"Don't talk about me like that, I don't know what it is for others to like someone, how can they be bored one day, all I know is that you are so good to me, such an outstanding you, I am afraid that I am not good enough, I I'm afraid... I will lose you by accident, you chase my bus, my heart...it hurts...I want to get off the bus, I really want to get off the bus and tell you that I don't want to leave you...Those three years... ...I cherish it so much but it still passes so fast..."

"Shusha... don't be sad, it's all over, Xiaotian will definitely not repeat it, Xiaotian will...love...love Sasha for a lifetime...for a lifetime...no matter what happens."

After speaking, she quickly covered Sha Ying's mouth...

A farewell to the past and an oath to the future.

"In Beijing, be careful and don't get hurt again." She whispered in her couch...

"Well, Rusha is obedient."

Hearing her rustling voice, she let go of her feelings but was extremely shy, with a row of neat white teeth half exposed with a smile... It seemed that she wanted to continue kissing her rustling, it turned out to be so beautiful, is it ok? ?Where is the best place to put her hand?The heart was beating so hard, if the place was bigger, I could do a somersault, but it was so small here, and Sha Ying was suddenly hugged... Sha Ying said "ah", and her Lan Tian sat on the bed and put Sha Ying on her. on the lap, looking at each other again...

"You... are so pretty."

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