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114, I also lost the patience to wait for myself to fall in love with the second person...

Sha Ying dragged her unopened suitcase back to Beijing.She didn't go to see her grandma, and she returned to Beijing immediately after leaving the hospital in Jingang. She was heartbroken and just wanted to escape from the city of Jingang.

She used the key to open the door and entered the home that she had built with Sun Qian. She was shocked, and the bag fell on the ground, and the house was in a mess...Sun Qian was lying on the sofa in the living room...

Sha Ying ran over to try to shake Sun Qian awake, but Sun Qian couldn't wake up...

In the hospital, Sun Qian was playing the bottle, and Sha Ying sat by his bed and kept looking at him...

Sha Ying took a long vacation to take care of Sun Qian, cleaned up the house again, stewed fish soup and chicken soup and sent it to the hospital every day. In a week, she did not lie down to sleep. Sun Qian saw how kind Sha Ying was to him. , the tears in my heart, I can't tell why, everyone in the same ward praised him for having the best and most beautiful wife in the world, and everyone was envious.

After being discharged from the hospital, Sha Ying cooked a sumptuous dinner for Sun Qian, squeezed fresh apple juice, and did not drink alcohol.

Sun Qian looked at everything that Sha Ying had done for him after returning from Jingang, and his heart was full of warmth. Even if he really couldn't get her, it didn't matter. Looking at it like this, he felt so happy...

Sitting in the living room watching a variety show in Beijing on TV, Sha Ying was washing dishes in the kitchen. Sun Qian remembered that the living room had been smashed to pieces by him, but he did not expect that after returning, the air was so fresh, and Sha Ying had cleaned up everything It's clean, and you can't even see that he was decadent here.

Sun Qian was amused by the entertainment programs on TV, and he hadn't felt this way for a long time. Although he didn't talk much with Sha Ying, Sun Qian felt very satisfied.

Sha Ying came to the living room with a plate of cut fruits and put them on the tea table, then went to the kitchen to take off her apron, went to the bathroom to wash her face and hands, and also sat on the sofa, but she did not sit next to Sun Qian, but sat on the sofa. On the armchair.

"Eat the fruit quickly, it's not good to keep it for a long time." Sha Ying inserted a small tomato with a toothpick and handed it to Sun Qianqian.

"okay."

With two people, the fruit will be eaten quickly.

"Aying, I haven't asked your grandma if she's okay?"

"I don't want to hide it from you. I didn't go to see grandma."

Sun Qian paused in the air.For a moment, he relaxed himself, and forced a forced smile from the corner of his mouth: "No wonder you came back so quickly."

"I have something to tell you."

"Aying," Sun Qian called to stop Sha Ying, with an ominous premonition that Sun Qian had to ask Sha Ying something first, "Aying, it's good if you come back." But what he really wanted to ask was hard to say, This premonition was so terrible that he was a little scared.

"Sun Qian, let's... get a divorce."

Sun Qian's mind was so buzzing that he couldn't hear any sound, the weight of those two words covered everything in this house...

"This time, I have given serious consideration."

"You didn't go back to grandma's house, you went to see her, didn't you?"

"We didn't meet."

"Who are you talking to?"

"No, calm down, we have to have a good talk today, there is no need to hide anything from you."

"What do you want me to think? What would you think if it were you? As soon as you went back, you said you wanted to divorce me. If you hadn't gone to see her, how could you suddenly make this decision? "

"I didn't meet her. I did meet her, but she didn't meet me. The fact is she has her own life and I'm not going to come into her life again. You have to believe that."

"Aying, then I don't understand, she already has her own life, why do you want to destroy your own life now?"

"I don't want to drag you down. Have you seen you drunk on this sofa? All the misfortunes are because of me."

"It doesn't matter, am I fine now? I said you just need to come back."

"I can't fall in love with you. In the past four years, don't say that I haven't tried hard to love you, and I can't give you a child. Why should such a family continue? Leaving you, I didn't run towards her, so you Don't be angry, I know you love me and you are very good to me, but for a family, these are far from enough, otherwise we wouldn't have so many quarrels. "

"Aying, no, there are no children... If there are no children, there will be no children. Just stay by my side."

"Sun Qian! Be yourself! Okay? You knew that I was going to see her when I got on the train, but you didn't stop me, and you sent me to the station, and then came home to torture yourself. You thought about my going All the consequences, but if you don't say it, why do you have to embarrass yourself like this?"

"I'd rather embarrass myself than I don't want to embarrass you anymore! Ah Ying, after you left, I realized that as long as you stay by my side, I don't care what kind of relationship we have. I just want to see you when I come back from get off work every day. you."

"Then it's nothing else, we won't have a child for a long time, how do you explain to your parents? How do they allow you to be their only son? Then maybe we will quarrel endlessly, and we will be the same again and again. One question, and we're all tired."

"It's me who pushed you too hard, Aying, I won't say a word about that in the future, I swear, okay? Four years, it sounds like a long time, but it's actually very short, so it's coming soon, I believe that as long as I do better, we still have a chance, Ah Ying, just treat it as giving yourself another chance, okay?"

"Don't fantasize like this anymore. This is how I fantasize that I will definitely fall in love with you, so I hurt you regardless of the consequences. Don't you have to wait until ten years later to wake up to the fact that I can't love you?"

"Aying, you still think about her, don't you?"

"We can leave her alone because I said this time my decision has nothing to do with her."

"It's about it, Ah Ying. Every time you talk about her, you always turn to her without hesitation. I said to myself, I don't mind anymore. Why should I compare with her? You are by my side after all, I Why do you care where your heart is? When I come back to see you every day, no matter how tightly this door separates us, it’s more than the distance between her and you. It’s no big deal if it’s never our wedding anniversary. I think Think about our first two years, wasn't it great?"

Sha Ying looked up at the ceiling, trying to put back her tears: "My life, everything about me is indeed closely related to her." Sha Ying lowered her head and cried...

"Aying..."

Sha Ying tried her best to control herself: "It's only my fault that I got to know her first, Sun Qian, I'm sorry, I have to say sorry again, if you have to blame it, blame God, okay? I can't forget her, I saw her in the hospital, I I don’t have the courage to call her, she is still so capable, there are always a group of people around her who like her, including the most suitable person to walk with her, I left without letting her see me, this time, really… ...I will never see her again, but I also know that I will never let her go, this relationship will never end, it has become my own thing, or the whole thing in my heart."

"Why do you like her so much? That's how you decide not to go to her, and you still have to guard this relationship, right? You are the one who has no self!"

"You and I can't give each other happiness, so why pretend to be in front of others? Sun Qian, end our state, let me go, and release yourself again, okay? Forgive me for using you back then, It’s just that I didn’t expect that I could only love one person, maybe ten or twenty years later, when I’m old, I still can only love one person, and it’s really hard for this person to become the real past.”

Ever since Sha Ying told Sun Qian about Lan Tian on the fourth anniversary, Sun Qian no longer feels incredible about the relationship between them. I have to respect that Sha Ying is a person who does not pretend to be very serious. Sun Qian knew that this time, Sha Ying was not discussing with him but had already made a decision. He believed that Sha Ying did not really meet Lan Tian, ​​and also believed in divorce. In the end, Sha Ying really won't go to Lan Tian, ​​Sha Ying won't lie, Sha Ying is a person who does things according to her heart, and he already believes every word she says.

"...Give me time and let me think about it."

"How much time is needed?"

Sun Qian looked at Sha Ying with her head down, how long...he didn't know...

"A week, okay?"

"it is good."

Life is still the same as it was two years ago, only more polite.

For Sun Qian, in this week, he will make a decision that he has never thought about and never wants to think about in his life. Facing Sha Ying's gentle insistence, facing Sha Ying's painful thinking about another one that he can't get. Sun Qian couldn't bear not to compromise. For Sha Ying, that certificate had always been a rope around her neck.It's hard for him to do a lot of things before, but he didn't expect it to be meaningless at all.

After dinner, he told Sha Ying that he agreed to the divorce, but only asked Sha Ying to accompany him back to Wuxi to finish the year, and then go through the divorce procedures.

Sha Ying agreed.

The author has something to say:

Seeing that many people blame Sha Ying, one of the protagonists in the article, for letting go by marrying a man in the end, which ultimately harms others and herself. Today, let’s analyze how many paths Sha Ying could take at that time.

As for her letting go, it's better to say that her decision was just to break Lan Tian's idea of ​​continuing to love her, and at the same time stop her own idea of ​​continuing to love her. The word letting go is not particularly appropriate, after all, they are two people in love.

In the article, more than ten chapters were used to describe the breakup in detail. This result was not achieved in a hurry. The decision was hasty, but it was not hasty to believe that it must be the result of her deliberation.In the middle, there are many love stories written about Lan Tian, ​​and even some stubborn thoughts. In the middle, it is also written that Sha Ying rushed back from Jilin to Beijing to relieve her sweetheart's lovesickness. This is enough to reflect the precious instinct in this love. It should be in 97 Zhang Shaying wrote in her psychological monologue that maybe there was nothing wrong with coming back this time, but it would be very wrong to let the instinct of love run ahead of reason again and again.

Lan Tian knocked over the laboratory equipment, as a doctor, what a terrible mistake, Lan Tian is the heir of the Lan family's swordsmanship, what an inhumane rule, but it is by no means that Lan Tian, ​​a junior, just casually changed the ancestral system, how could she Let the sweetheart take on so many responsibilities alone.

Going abroad is just an introduction, but going abroad is as important as everything to the Lan family. Why does her sweetheart keep silent about so many important things? Sha Ying can't bear the heavy love, and she can't give it to her. Lan Tian has a child, which makes it impossible for her to go on with Lan Tian.

So what should she do?She first used the method of escaping to buy herself time to think about this matter. One can imagine Sun Qian's hard pursuit, and she agreed to him to associate with her, which was an expedient method.

But when Lan Tian knew that she was dating Sun Qian, Lan Tian didn't believe it at all.

There were two things written in those bland chapters before. One was that Sha Ying was ill and she asked Xiaoju to tell a lie, but Lan Tian soon saw through it. The bag moved a bit, and Lan Tian saw that she stuffed money for her. All these plots were laid out in a stylish manner. If friends didn't read carefully or forgot after reading it, they would naturally ignore it, but don't forget Sha Ying won't forget, so she can't lie to her, and if she cheats and delays, the time will pass.

The root of this matter is that she loves someone but really can't give this person what she must (please note that it is a must, not optional). She, she is the person Lan Tian loves deeply, yes, but how can she become the person who holds Lan Tian back, and the decision to let go came to this point.

How much she loves Lan Tian, ​​she can't even hear Lan Tian's voice, so once she lets go of this person, for Sha Ying, it will not be much different from death:

1. She may have thought about death, but she still has parents, mother, brother, and grandma. If she dies, how will Lan Tian bear it;

2. If she becomes a monk, her family will also not be able to accept it, and the damage caused by these methods is immeasurable;

3. She can still escape, but wherever she can escape, the blue sky will pursue her hard;

4. She has a boyfriend, but Lan Tian doesn't believe it. It's so serious that Lan Tian, ​​who has always been gentle, beat Sun Qian. She knows how much Lan Tian loves her.

Well, time is so tight, what else can she do?She decided not to fall in love anymore, and now she is just looking for a way to prevent both parties from retreating. If there is no such thing as going abroad, maybe Sha Ying will be consumed with her for the rest of her life, but since there is such a thing, she can only do it. Absolutely, just like her monologue, without Lan Tian, ​​it doesn't matter who she will fall in love with next, and she will try her best to put herself into this marriage, but, many things, you really have to try to know, Fortunately, Sun Qian really loved her.

The lesser of evils is the lesser, on the premise that it will hurt Lan Tian no matter what, she chooses to marry Sun Qian Lightning, the continuous damage is the least, she bets on Lan Tian's strength, and on the possibility that she will fall in love with the second person , she can't bring the harm to her parents again, she would rather hurt herself deeply, and wait for herself to discover more and more of her grandson's goodness, but, some things are really not that easy.

She fell in love with such a good person, because that Lan Tian was so good, Zhi Zhi couldn't find a little bit of wrong in her mind, isn't this the consequence of perfect marks?How can the later generations reach the blue sky?

People born in the 70s are different in temperament from those born in the [-]s and [-]s. Now most people will do their own way, but at that time, it was so important to follow a standardized path. How can we use our current eyes to accuse her of being a Self-made, self-inflicted, in the age without the Internet, many people can't tell how brave Sha Ying is, and so much love can let go, which is already the courage that many people look down upon.

Also, it is true that she hurt Lan Tian, ​​how sad she is, she does not want to do such a thing to Lan Tian, ​​her character and the degree to which she loves Lan Tian make her blame herself for that hurt all day long, she never thought that she would be so Can't let go.

A friend said that Sha Ying and Sun Qian were together not because she wanted to forget Lan Tian, ​​but to make Lan Tian stop thinking about it. Another friend said that no one is right or wrong, they are all wholehearted. It's really impossible to seek perfection...

Yes, I believe that after careful analysis, you will not be able to really blame Sha Ying, she is already a role model in same-sex love that should be emulated.

It's just that after taking this step, her whole life will change. Lan Fang is responsible for this step, and Lan Tian is also responsible. How could it be Sha Ying's fault alone?Is it true that her so many monologues are all empty words?

Look at her life, since she is one of the protagonists, she will not place the tragedy here. In the future, she will tell her friends more and more. She and Lan Tian still have a long way to go.