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105. He was so anxious that he tore me apart... and he compromised to the point of squatting down to pick up the pieces... The me in the mirror... I have aged many years...

In the evening, when Sun Qian came home to have dinner with Sha Ying, the anger had been suppressed, and he wanted to treat and wait for Sha Ying gently and calmly. He had an argument with Sha Ying just last night.

"From now on, no matter if it's your family or mine, no matter who comes, we must not quarrel, okay?" Sha Ying said to Sun Qian while eating a bowl of rice.

Sun Qian stopped his chopsticks and looked at Sha Ying.

"Aying, quarreling is not what I want, and quarreling can't solve the problem, you and I both understand."

"Then let us not quarrel any more, for whatever reason."

"It's my fault to speak loudly to you. From the beginning to the end, I never thought of quarreling to solve the problem, but Ah Ying, you must understand that the problem is not with me at all." After finishing speaking, Sun Qian took a piece of meat to the sofa Ying's bowl.

Sha Ying looked at the piece of meat, and Sun Qian's words were not wrong: "I just hope that we won't have any quarrels in the future, and I also hope that you...don't speak harsh words again."

"Do you remember what you said after those cruel words?"

"It's not what I want to mention, it's you who have been mentioning it all the time."

"Then it's my fault? Ask your heart, is what I hate is hidden in your heart?"

"I don't deny that I have hidden some—"

"Even if it's only a little hidden!!" Sun Qian directly interrupted Sha Ying.

"You're talking loudly again."

"What's wrong with me? What's wrong with me? Yes, why am I so easily agitated now? Ah Ying, tell me is there something wrong with me now?"

"Sun Qian, the soup is getting cold, drink some quickly."

"Okay, I'll drink soup."

The two endured each other, endured, endured, the sense of taste seemed to be gone, the pain and fire in Sun Qian's heart, trying to swallow as he chewed...

"Go and sit, I'll clean up." Sha Ying saw that Sun Qian had finished eating, and stood up to clean up the dishes.

"I'll wash it, you go and sit." Sun Qian also stood up.

Both of them seemed to be looking for something to do, so as to slow down the fire that they were holding back.

"I'm still here."

"I said I'm going to wash it!!"

Sun Qian snatched the bowl from Sha Ying's hand, and the bowl fell to the ground. The sound of shattering broke the hearts of both of them.

"You promised not to speak loudly."

"I also said that I will not sleep with you until you fall in love with me!! I broke my promise, I just broke my promise!! How about it?"

Sha Ying knelt down to pick up the debris.

"Don't pick it up! Did you see it? Did you see him broken? Take a good look at him, that's the way my heart is! Ah Ying, why are you torturing me like this? If I'm right You have no desire, why should I marry you? Why should I marry a woman who won't let me touch?"

"Sun Qian, I'm sorry..."

"I've had enough of your sorry, please don't say these three words in the future, and use your actions to prove that you owe me, otherwise I may really not be able to control myself."

Sha Ying walked to the living room. She knew what she should do. She could manage Sun Qian's life very well, but she really couldn't give Sun Qian what he wanted most.

The shattered fragments on the ground are like Sun Qian's heart and her heart.

"Okay, I won't lock my door anymore, and I won't let you hear the sound of locking it again. Don't be angry, go wash the dishes."

Sun Qian froze in front of the dining table, he was worried if he had heard wrong.Putting down the bowl in his hand, he came to Sha Ying: "Aying, is what you said true?"

"It's true, our hearts are broken, there's nothing we can't do."

After taking a shower, Sha Ying was not in the mood to watch TV. She did not lock the door, but Sun Qian didn't dare to try it, but he missed her so much. Her appearance... made his body feel like he had taken some medicine. After taking a shower in the bathroom, I returned to my room and tossed and turned on the bed, unable to fall asleep.

The door was not locked, and she was always worried about Sun Qian coming in. She was in a state of tension and she couldn't sleep. Until nearly 12 o'clock at night, Sun Qian came to her room.

It is true that the door is not locked, but I really feel a kind of coolness, but there is no desire/fire coming. When I pushed the door open, the light was turned off, and I could vaguely see Sha Ying with her back behind the door. I don't know if she fell asleep.

He lay gently beside her, but he couldn't help but want to touch Sha Ying's body, put his hands under Sha Ying's neck and began to kiss her, and she, this time she wanted to try not to refuse, not to mention that he was already extremely gentle, It couldn't be any lighter, she didn't resist, but when she kissed her face, she found that her eyes were wet, and the salty tears seemed to express thousands of grievances...

I can't pity any more, because his Sha Ying has to adapt, he kissed her tears dry, and came to Sha Ying's lips, for what reason she still insisted on avoiding his kiss, Sun Qian chased her a little but didn't insist anymore , kissed Sha Ying's breasts, and began to rub her plumpness with his hands. He didn't understand why he doted on Sha Ying so much, even obedience without love made him overjoyed and his body was crazy...

Stretching his hand to Sha Ying's thigh, from the hem of Sha Ying's clothes to Sha Ying's chest, what a perfect woman she is, he couldn't help it anymore, he wanted to take off her clothes and kiss the upright palm in his hand...

Sha Ying grabbed Sun Qian's hand and stopped his stroking: "Sleep here, but don't do this."

"I want you, I want you." Sun Qian really didn't want to stop.

"I really don't want to."

"I don't understand why I want you so much, give me one, okay? I'm going crazy, you touch it, how hard it is, come..." Sun Qian put Sha Ying's hand on his "He" let go, Sha Ying tried hard to take back her hand.

"Just touch it, Ah Ying, I... I need you, give me once, half a year has passed, let me be your husband once, okay? Come, here..."

Sha Ying wanted to try, she followed Sun Qian's strength and put her hand on his "he"...

"Do you feel how much he wants you...he only insists on you like this, and when he thinks of you, it will be like a bone inside..."

Before she could finish speaking, Sha Ying had withdrawn her hand. She had no desire to get to know him deeply, and the moment she met "him" only reminded her of those hands in a more comprehensive way...

Those hands with calluses on the tiger's mouth...

...loved her...loved her so much...

that smiling face...

that way...

those years……

that pay...

To pay her back with such an ending...

She is deeply saddened by the past... Her heart wants to make her body start to fall again...

The reality and the love she wanted... so contrary...

Seeing that Sha Ying didn't speak, Sun Qian didn't know Sha Ying's real emotions, let alone who was repeating the picture of her with whom in her mind... thinking that she was trying to accept him, he began to speak words to try to stimulate her: "He He will enter your body very carefully and lovingly. He has been waiting for a long time. Let him have a good time today, okay? Aying, let’s come once. If we can have a child because of this time, it will be very wonderful things, okay?"

In the darkness, Sha Ying still didn't speak. In her mind... the countless love words that Lan Tian once said surged like a mountain...

And Sun Qian continued: "The body is a wonderful thing. It will tell you who you really love or who you have fallen in love with in this way, or who you have fallen in love with since then, Ah Ying. Accept me, do you know that I really want you to go crazy, Ah Ying..."

Sun Qian kissed her through her clothes, but Sha Ying didn't speak, feeling that Sha Ying's breasts were becoming more and more uneven, he lifted Sha Ying's clothes from bottom to top, and kissed that precious pair, no matter day or night , She is so intoxicating that it makes people go crazy, Sun Qian took off Sha Ying's underwear, although he was really anxious, but he knew he had to be careful...

His fingers flipped over "her" as lightly and greedily as possible, she was seen through...extremely teased...the body was in a state of catering, and water flowed out...

He was very happy to confirm that his words and his tenderness had worked, and the long-excited "he" broke into her body and couldn't wait to ask for...

And at the moment of breaking in, he heard Sha Ying yell out an "Ah" that made him ecstatic...even though it still sounded like a pain...he selectively understood that sound...

He soon heard Sha Ying began to hum coherently. He thought that Sha Ying had entered the state, started faster, and he was about to explode, but just when he thought everything was under control, Sha Ying shouted: "no, do not want!!!"

Sun Qian couldn't stop, even though he was shocked, he couldn't stop...

"Don't!!!" Sha Ying moved out of her position, "he" slid out of her body, Sun Qian's pain reached its peak, he had to hold "he" and twitch to give "him" the last hope, sticky wet spray On Shaying's lap...

Sha Ying turned on the desk lamp, looked at everything that happened in the room in horror, found her underwear and hurriedly put it on, wiped the liquid off her thighs with a piece of paper in a panic...

Sun Qian was lying on the bed, looking at the ceiling hopelessly: "Wipe it clean, don't make you sick. Wipe it thoroughly, and wipe off all the three years and three times before me and you."

Sha Ying had no more tears and said calmly, "Go to sleep."

Sun Qian roared that he couldn't bear Sha Ying's calmness: "Why is it like this?! Tell me!! Did you think of her again so you pushed me away at that time?! Do you know that I have gone crazy Crazy?!"

Sha Ying stood by the door and did not speak.

"Speak!!! Give me a reason, and it's a reason that has nothing to do with her to make me feel better, or I can't stand it."

"I have nothing to say."

Sun Qian stood up and angrily overturned the things on Sha Ying's bedside table and also the bookshelf in the corner of the room. , a postcard floated out from one of the books and landed in front of his feet. He knelt down to pick it up... Sha Ying was on the other side of the bed too late to come over and snatch it away...

"what is this?"

She hurried over to get back this postcard...

"Say!! What is this? You are still in contact with her, how long are you going to lie to me? Sha Ying, I owe you in my previous life...Why should I know you??"

"Give it to me." Sha Ying opened her eyes wide and locked the postcard tightly. She seemed to want to get this postcard back at all costs, even if it was by grabbing it.

"Okay, let you make a choice, I will give you one last chance, do you want this postcard, or do you want me to want this home? Tell me!!"

"Give her to me, Sun Qian, I beg you."

"Is this your choice? Don't you even think about it?"

"Just a postcard, don't make a fuss about it."

"I sent it to your school, of course I don't know, you will hide it, not only this one, but also the letter? I really want to read the letter she wrote to you to see how much she can't forget you .”

"There is only this postcard, please believe it."

"How can I believe it? You said that this family has long lost everything about her. What is it? Don't say you don't know, don't say you didn't hide it on purpose!"

"I didn't hide it, and I didn't want to hide it from you, but there's no need to tell it in our lives."

"When you lock yourself in your room at night, you must read and read this postcard, right? Have you written to her? You have, and you have written a lot, haven't you?"

"I do not have."

"Don't lie to me again!!"

"I didn't lie to you! Give it to me."

"How can I believe you? Did you stand in my position and think about my feelings? You said you were working hard, but you hid her for so long, for three years, and you hid her for three full years , we’ve only been married for three years!!”

"Please stop talking and give her to me."

"Give her to you? I...I..."

Those big hands tore the postcard to pieces, and the fragments scattered in every corner of the room...

Tears welled up in Sha Ying's eyes...slumped on the bed, covered her face with her hands and cried...

"You ruined me, you ruined me, you ruined me!!!"

Sun Qian was horrified to see Sha Ying crying and shaking her head with tears of hatred in her eyes...

He had never seen her cry so loudly before. Her appearance frightened Sun Qian, but the angry Sun Qian couldn't control Sha Ying's mood: "She ruined you, not me!!!"

"Let's... get divorced."

"What did you say? You say it again?"

"We divorced."

Sun Qian stretched out his palm to slap him...

Sha Ying still looked at Sun Qian with eyes full of hatred, but she didn't even hide and raised her head higher to wait for the palm...

Sun Qian's hand stopped in the air, not because he was afraid of the gaze, he was reluctant, no matter how wrong she was, he was heartbroken because Sha Ying was about to take a slap, so he withdrew his hand.

"Is it okay to say something human? Just because of this postcard, you want to divorce me. I'm not as good as this postcard... Are you really out of your mind?"

Looking at Sun Qian...tears kept falling from her eyelids...although the palm didn't come down...she still thought of her blue sky...she knew how much her blue sky loved her...but late at night she Might not be able to protect myself...

And facing the man in front of her... She felt that she deserved this slap, but he was also reluctant to hit it because of love.

"Stop talking, it's almost dawn, let's get a divorce."

"impossible!!"

"It's so broken, I can't stick it all together, and I can't find it all. Why did you tear her up? You tore me up with one hand...Sun Qian, let's get a divorce and we can't make it through."

"I won't divorce you. I can't compare my three-year-long marriage to a postcard. I can't accept it. I can't agree. You'd better die."

"Then I unilaterally propose a divorce, it's not a matter of whether you agree or not."

"What did you say?"

"Go to your room and sleep, I will find a lawyer tomorrow."

"Aying?"

"I said, don't say harsh words, and maybe I forgot to say don't do cruel things. I don't deny that I haven't forgotten her, but you can't deny the efforts I have made between us, except for this relationship between us. On the one hand, I fulfill my responsibility as a wife. What you tear up today are postcards. Tomorrow, I can only tear up our marriage certificate.

Sun Qian, even if I have all kinds of wrongs, what I ask is not whether you accept my past, but whether you respect that relationship. If I can be messy, I will really hide it. I can’t tell the result today. Lie, you know me.I also understand that I have made you wait for a long time, but I want to tell you that the relationship between me and her is something that can't be waited for in a lifetime, so please don't say that you can't wait, there is nothing you can do, you will never realize it, just Like this postcard, watching you tear her apart, but I can't stop it, it's more than just a kind of injury that tears can explain, go to sleep, I don't want to argue anymore, I don't want to explain anymore. "

Hearing Sha Ying's extremely firm and heartbroken words, Sun Qian began to realize that he might have made a big mistake. Sha Ying was by no means a person who made divorce an issue. He saw that Sha Ying was horribly serious. , his heart softened to the ground, no, even if she loves someone else, he can't accept the days when he can't see Sha Ying when he comes back from work, it will be a dark life, from the day he met Sha Ying, he never I have never looked at other girls, she is beautiful and her dances are incomparable, but today he tore up her past and hurt her... I want to slap her hand, Started to tremble, he obviously loved her so much.

He began to pick up the fragments on the ground in a panic. The fragments were too broken and soft, as if they were Sha Ying's heart. ...

"Don't pick it up again, you go out, I will clean it up myself, if you pick it up today, you will still regret it tomorrow."

"Aying, I'll pick it up for you, I'll stick it together for you, I will definitely do it, I just ask you to take back the decision just now, divorce shouldn't be something that happened between us, I just want to be with you Even if you don't fall in love with me and think about her all your life, I don't mind anymore, starting from picking up all of this postcard, I pick it up, I will definitely... definitely pick up all of them..."

Sun Qian cried out sadly, his heart ached beyond control... He made a mistake that was too unforgivable for Sha Ying, and he was looking forward to the recovery of the postcard... At this moment, he seemed to be more vulnerable than Sha Ying...

"It's almost dawn, you have to go to work tomorrow, I will ask for leave to go to the lawyer, let's stop struggling."

Sun Qian ignored Sha Ying's words and continued to pick up the pieces: "Please forgive me, Ah Ying, you also said that you owed me, even this time, this time we are even, okay? I will put the postcard together Give it back, you believe me, it’s just that we don’t want a divorce, I can’t live without you, I can’t imagine a day without you. You see, you see, I’ve picked up a lot, and I’m sure I can spell it all out. Give me once Chance, okay?"

Looking at the fragments Sun Qian held in both hands, seeing Sun Qian's helpless appearance, seeing his tears as a man... his heart... softened: "Sun Qian...why did you tear her up like this...why... ...I have no further dealings with her nor have I written to her...Why don't you believe me?"

"I believe, Ah Ying, I believe everything you say, okay? Let's... don't want a divorce."

"Don't pick it up, go to sleep, you have to go to work tomorrow, we all have to go to work, it's really dawn."

"No, I want to pick up all of her for you..."

"Don't pick it up, don't pick it up! Go to sleep...ah, go, I'll clean it up myself." Sha Ying stood up, pulled Sun Qianqian and pushed him out the door.

"You promise me not to mention those two words again, we will continue to live, and I will do better."

"I'm not feeling well. I really need to rest. Just pretend that I said something cruel just now, and we don't take it seriously."

"Really?"

"Yes, go to sleep, I'm closing the door."

Sha Ying closed the door, and Sun Qian heard the sound of the door being locked again. Although they were separated again, it was much better than her leaving him. He really took good care of his daily life, his shirt, his tie, his leather shoes, his toothpaste and toothbrush are all bought by her, Sun Qian walked to his room with regret, the fragment was still in his mind, Just like Sha Ying's heart, he began to feel sorry for her, regretting like beating his heart.

Sha Ying began to pick up the debris on the floor, tidy up the bookshelves, and tidy up the room. She is a clean person and never tolerates a little bit of dirt in the house. Fortunately, the wooden floor is darker and the debris is more obvious. She found the debris. Put it in a small box, thinking about finding another time to try to see if it can be glued...

After being busy for a long time, she went to the bathroom to wash her face, she didn't recognize some of herself in the mirror, she couldn't laugh anymore, where did all those happy smiles go...

"sky……"

The name spit out from the lips...

Why does it sound like it's not far away at all...

When saying this word...

Still the old mood...

Smile, it seems inseparable from her Lan Tian, ​​her love can only be so much, but she has given all of it to a girl named Lan Tian without reservation... The more I want to forget, the more unforgettable I am...

Those years... don't seem like the background of this life... but now... living day by day... all set off that love...

The heart was on a certain day in the past... She laughed easily...

Her blue sky wears a skirt...

Her blue sky coaxed her to eat chicken legs...

Swim the Great Wall with her...

Wearing an old mandarin jacket as a coachman for her... Ask her where she is going...

In front of the mirror, smiling, smiling... or crying...

The author has something to say:

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How should I spoil it for you...

After I finished writing the second part while crying, and finished the third part in a crazy mood...

It's as if I've gone through my whole life, I'm everyone in that drama, and there's no villain in the drama...

The one who doesn't open his eyes is the sky, the reality we experience all the time... If there is a formula to follow in our life, that blue sky is so smart, it should have been untied and avoided everything.

Please don't say you can't bear it... When I wrote it... my heart was broken... When we blamed her for being stupid, we in reality—how many times have we been smart?

I spent a lot of pen and ink writing about their meeting, staying together, falling in love, and that breakup, which transcended the principle of love, the instinct of love, and more than 30 words to pave the way for a contradiction. The life of "Full Score" must be It's hard, bear it, maybe, this is actually the reality.

Continue to walk in the text, the road is still ahead, or it is closely related to the past, but unfortunately time is gone forever.

Thank you for your comments and ratings, really thank you:) positive and negative, everyone’s opinions and emotions, I am grateful, especially grateful:) I may not be able to comment on everyone every day, but I will find time to reply one by one , even to reply to one of your exclamations:)