Shengsheng

2013. 8, 27

Y city

In the Lin family's lively wedding room that had been arranged for three or four months, it was finally about to usher in a couple who were sincerely blessed by everyone.

A few days before the wedding, the temperature in the city, including the whole province, suddenly began to drop. Although this month, the temperature is a little lower than two degrees, which will not affect the bride's wedding dress, but some northern cities' trains and flights are still affected by it. some impact.

Seeing that all kinds of nuts packed in brightly red wedding candies were placed on the table lively, and there were many neighbors, friends, and relatives of the two families who came to help.

Teacher Wan, who has been busy these two days, thought about arranging a dozen or so tables in the reserved hotel at noon tomorrow.

In the evening, when the wedding party and the fleet rented temporarily by the wedding company return home, some relatives and friends who missed the lunch at noon are invited to eat open-air noodles in the old courtyard.

Those who didn't catch up with the lunch at the hotel included Cheng Yu's good girls in the university dormitory, and Boss Liang who just came back from abroad to catch a flight.

What was especially unfortunate was that originally he was supposed to arrive home with Jin Ping who had already arrived home, but suddenly something happened to the forest farm in Yanji on the way, so he had no choice but to turn around and was absent again.

But this time, although I didn't have time to come back in time to congratulate because of the business in front of me, Boss Liang, who wanted to be very considerate in everything, entrusted his subordinates in City Y to send four to five hundred yuan the day before the wedding. A precious flower basket.

These more than 500 high-end flower baskets were personally delivered to the gate of the small yard by the express car of 'Jianfeng.com' at that time. When they were delivered, they even surprised the Lin family. Fresh, alpine roses shipped directly from Yunnan by air.

The average price of these flowers in the fresh flower market in 2013 is astonishingly 300 yuan a piece, coupled with high-end decorations such as large bright red preserved flowers, the wedding flower baskets are instant makeup. Ordered the whole old and unpretentious alley.

A sympathetic knot is hung on each flower basket, and a letter is written "I wish Mr. Lin Tong and Ms. Cheng Yu a happy marriage in this life, blooming brightly like flowers, and a happy life".

In this scene, even the relatives of the Cheng family and the Lin family who came to drink the wedding the day after tomorrow said that this row of high-end flower baskets that looked like someone marrying a princess really complemented the whole house, it was really foreign and beautiful.

As for the rest, it is some details of the wedding day.

Lin Tong, who was dressed in a groom's suit, was as expected that day, and he was the most stupid and effervescent in his life with a smile from head to toe.

Cheng Yu beside him was like all the married brides in the world, she was dressed in white gauze, her cheeks were charming, she was so beautiful that there was no girl in the audience who didn't envy her.

Because the wedding company their family was looking for this time was a master of ceremonies with a southern accent.

When their relatives and friends were eating together in the hotel, the master of ceremonies even asked the bride and groom to sing together on the stage, which happened to be an old song by Teresa Teng "Sweet Honey", which made everyone applaud and scream.

And when the most basic toasting session was over, the family members of both parties, including Grandma Lin who was helped over today, had already spoken on stage, and then the master of ceremonies asked the people below to play a video for everyone who came to the wedding in public.

This is Duan Lintong looking for family members, and a few of his friends recorded the videotape in advance.

The original intention is to talk about the day of marriage today, to say some blessings to the couple, or to talk about my views on love and marriage, and to express my love to the person I like.

Among them, there are about Grandma Lin, Father Lin, the old couple Cao Jinping and Mrs. Wan who are far away in Canada, Mr. Wan and Mr. Peng, and Lin Tong’s confession of his bride Cheng Yu. I found that the only part where the best man Liang Sheng was missing.

But it's strange to say that Liang Sheng, the best man, has been with the bride and groom since noon today to greet the bride and groom, and he has been unable to find anyone in the hotel after the toast.

In such a hurry, Lin Tong had no choice but to ask someone to play this video without Liang Sheng first, and perhaps because of the atmosphere, it brought back many memories from the past, and the video was obviously not too long. However, many people at the banquet couldn't help crying.

"I met my first wife, Lin Tong's mother, when she was 21 years old. It was the first time she was admitted to be a nurse. I remember she came to our army to do propaganda work to see me. Later, I drove all the way home from the army, and the first person I went to see was her..."

……

"Yuyu's father and I met in the last century... At that time, we met through someone's introduction. Both sides are young men and women who are inexperienced. It is inevitable that I am embarrassed. Yuyu's father was the same when he met me for the first time. The two of us Going to the theater, the two of them are stupid, they only know to go home honestly when they come out of the theater, and then the anxious parents at home ask if this young man and girl are doing well today."

"He is the stupidest man in the world, and I am the stupidest woman in the world, but during the years he talked to me, he repaired the electric fan in my mother's hometown in the middle of the night, drank wine and played chess with my father on weekends. If you want to work overtime, don't delay, even if this man doesn't say anything, he still loves me and I love him in his heart, with this heart, the two of us can go on for the rest of our lives."

……

"Cheng Yu, when you read this passage, the two of us may have already stood in front of relatives and friends to swear an oath, but at this moment, I still have something in my heart that I want to tell you."

"You may not know it. When we were in middle school, we accidentally passed the exam. You were downstairs and I was upstairs. I never had a chance to see you except after school... I At that time, every time I lay on my stomach upstairs and saw you down there during recess, I felt uncomfortable. Later, in order to see you more often, I pretended to be fine and went to the canteen downstairs every day, and then went to the door of your classroom to tease you with nonsense. Two sentences."

"Sometimes, I want to say a word to you... I will deliberately buy a pack of candy or a pack of snacks, pretend to be generous and give it to many people, and then I will definitely leave the last bite to you. In fact, I am old now. To tell you the truth, the only thing I want to give in my heart is you, but I am embarrassed, so I can only give it to everyone, and then hide the only person I want to give among so many people, and finally give it solemnly To my favorite person."

"I have known you for more than ten years... From junior high school to high school to university, we have watched from a brat to an adult, from looking at each other disliked, to finally deciding to accept each other's family to live together For the rest of my life, I have really experienced many things together, and these little things, let me know how good this girl is, how kind, and how worthy of my love and kindness to her."

—— "So... Really, thank you, willing to marry me, I love you, Cheng Yu."

……

How did this most important day pass with everyone laughing and crying like this?

Under the witness of all the old neighbors in No. [-] Factory, Lin Tong and Cheng Yu decided to go to the palace of marriage because of their love for each other. They became husband and wife and spent their lives together.

That night the banquet was over, and Lin Tong and his wife had to drive the old man back to Factory Six before returning to his new house.

On the way, an old neighbor came out with a bag of wedding candy and stopped by to talk to them. He said that he just saw Liang Sheng and seemed to have no idea why he left early in his best man suit, but he remembered to leave one of the cars behind before he left. It is convenient for them to go back together.

In this regard, although everyone didn't know what Liang Sheng would do by himself so late today, but because the relatives in the family were still there, they could only think about sending him back.

And that night, when no one expected it in advance, Liang Sheng, who was supposed to stay in Beijing and find a way to turn around, flew back alone in the middle of the night.

Regarding the fact that he rushed back to his hometown in the middle of the night, he had never told anyone before that.

Before that, he and Mao Chengdong stayed in Yanji for two or three days to busy with business.

He was really busy during the period, so busy that Boss Liang, who seldom felt tired in the past years, unexpectedly felt very tired this time, so tired that he was eager to say that he wanted to take a breather and come back, and find a place to rest for a day or two.

In his hometown, if he remembered correctly, Jin Ping, Cao Maocai, and the Lin family must have had a lot of fun at the wedding.

But he still has a lot of things to do. According to the past, at such times, one person will remember to send him a text message or call him, but this time, there is nothing to do from the beginning to the end. nothing.

This makes us pay attention to ourselves, and the boss Liang Feilong, who is used to being abused by others, is not used to it for some reason.

Think about it when you were in Zhoushan, even in the middle of the night, someone would tell him that he was safe.

Later, even though one of them went back to Beijing and the other went to Yanji, and they stayed in Canada for a while, the two of them still kept in touch.

The most important thing is, if today is an ordinary day, that's all.

But this is catching up with Lin Dong and Cheng Yu's lifelong event. Today is not only the wedding of this friend who was equally important to Liang Sheng in his previous life, but also a day that happens to be closely related to him.

The seventh day of the sixth month of the lunar calendar is August 6th, the second day after Lin Tong and his wedding.

This is Liang Feilong's real name - the only identity information left on Liang Sheng's ID card.

This is the day when he came to this world to regain his new life, so he regards this day as his birthday in this life.

Ever since Liang Sheng came back to life this special and complicated day, he has never mentioned it to anyone, and men seem to never like to live life with everything and their own background, so he has been the only one for so many years Remember and think about it occasionally.

He didn't mention it, obviously because he didn't want to look back at the weakness and failure at the beginning.

But on the other hand, the more a person deliberately hides something like this, the more it represents the burden of that day and his life, or some kind of past scar deep in his heart that is always difficult to let go.

Come to think of it, after this last day tonight, he will be 36 years old.

Over the past ten years, he could not say that he had not lived a successful life.

In fact, he already had everything he should have, such as material money and countless wealth. He has overcome fate, life and death, and countless difficulties to win a brand new life. But occasionally, he still feels lonely in life. And a loneliness that can never be fully accepted by the rest.

Name, age, birthday, past.

Obviously sometimes he has tried his best to say that he uses his own hands to fill the gaps that are destined to exist in this life, but as he grows older, he still feels from time to time that there is a trace of indescribable loneliness in his current life, or that there is something deep in his bones. The loneliness of not being able to fit into the world.

["The little cat said to Wuyun, Wuyun Wuyun, do you know where my parents are?"—"Wuyun said, silly boy, why do you always have to rely on your parents weakly, why don't you try How about letting yourself grow up?"]

【"Growing up? What is growing up?"—"Growing up is greedy like a wolf and cruel like a snake. A newborn child becomes a cruel adult, and innocence becomes sinister. Kill it, and the weak cat will no longer need the protection of your parents."]

This kind of sudden thought often occurs when he wakes up from a dream in the middle of the night.

But he seems to be born without any family or normal partner. Some things in his previous life have been implanted in his bone marrow. It is hard to say that anyone will take the initiative to unravel his accumulated layers of shady knots.

"Ah Sheng, do you really plan to never get married in this life? But the world is so big, there is always a chance to meet someone who really understands you and can take care of you and treat you well? Why don't you give it a try first? First of all, I feel that everything is completely untenable... Love is never a terrible thing..."

These words were vaguely said to Liang Sheng by Jin Ping during those two days in Canada.

And today, the reason why he took a plane back to City Y in the middle of the night was also the reason.

Although he also knew that Lin Tong's wedding in this life would definitely not be in time, the others must have gone home happily as a family.

However, the 36-year-old Liang Sheng still wanted to say that he would go back to his home at No. 16 Pomegranate Lane in these days when no one would care about him, and no one would notice.

Even if a person sits alone in the alley when he was a child, sitting quietly for a night with the biggest secret in his life, at least he will spend his 36th birthday in the place where he was born, grew up, and made a fortune .

But Boss Liang, who has been fearless for the past ten years and is only a little unhappy today, never thought of it.

At the moment when he was picked up from the airport by the driver tonight, and then returned to the gate of his hometown alone in the dark, he unexpectedly saw a person who had been waiting there for a while in advance.

Later, he thought about it, this night was really a coincidence that he never expected.

Because of a coincidence, he really came home on this day. Because of a coincidence, there was a person who stayed up stupidly in the middle of the night and waited for him here. Because of a coincidence, they didn't pass by.

In front of my eyes, the street lights were flickering at nearly eleven o'clock.

On the path under the street lamp is a beautiful and quiet moonlight.

At the end of the road, there was a tall, thin and indifferent young man in a best man outfit. In addition to some vaguely packed food and drink from the hotel, he was carrying some food and drink with the last trace of heat in his hands. The supermarket bag with few things, it seems that I have been waiting here alone for a long time.

This made the man at the end of the alley, who was rushing back to his hometown in a dusty body, stop suddenly.

He almost immediately thought that he had read something wrong, because all this was really strange, if he had doubted it before, but probably because of the special situation today, he didn't even have the mood to question it right now.

And soon, the young man at the other end also realized the existence of the person behind him, and turned his head to look at him again. This scene almost coincided with the re-encounter in Zhoushan, but this time, he stood under the moonlight and waited for the other party It was another person.

"Why are you here, why didn't you go back to Lin Tong's house?"

"Well, the wedding is over, so I want to come and wait and see if you will be able to go home in time tonight, or you must come here."

"..."

"The last time I was in Hangzhou Port, I saw your ID card in the internal personnel access registration book, and that was the first time I knew your birthday."

The young man with an expressionless face and a special sense of calm in his tone looked at him answering the question in the man's eyes so earnestly, but there was an indescribable taste on his face.

If I had to say it, it would probably be a kind of dominance and caring that no one can refuse to avoid, but this kind of dominance and caring is mixed with a strange kind of tenderness that makes my heart soften.

It's just that since it was already late at night, the other party was waiting here to pick him up in the middle of the night.

For a while, they didn't know what to say. The two of them could only find a place to sit down at the entrance of the alley at night, and then tried to solve the food in their hands.

Noodle nest, deep-fried dough sticks, tofu nao.

If it weren't for the old fried pancake stall in Pomegranate Alley, the old lady Zhang who had watched them grow up had already left two years ago. Liang Sheng would really feel like he was back in his teens at this moment. years ago.

But this warm and familiar taste is not fake at all, so that on the night of his 36th birthday, he couldn't help but pause for a long time after taking a bite.

"Where did you get this?"

Liang Sheng, who still found it very strange, couldn't help but ask.

"The old stall is no longer there, so I went to Beicheng District alone to find it. There is also an old master who makes this every night, but I won't do it in two years, because the house is about to be demolished."

What I said is not without sentimentality, but some people and things are like this. If you don’t pay close attention now, the future will disappear sooner or later, so everyone should cherish the present.

And because they were born with similar personalities, the two of them sat next to each other so calmly or rationally.

Until the man who had vaguely noticed that there were some special people tonight heard the young man whispering these words in his ears a little suddenly and a little scary.

"I went to Lin Dong and Cheng Yu's wedding today. He asked me to record a video about the person I like in advance, but when it was time to record, I couldn't seem to say a word."

"why?"

There was a guy with a hairy back and a natural cunning who was already aware of something with a sense of crisis before he sat down, but at this moment he began to show the adult's usual knowing and asking.

"Because I seem to be in love with someone. The first time I realized that I seemed to be in love with him, it was in a sky so high that I couldn't see my feet. The second time, I was on a beach, watching him alone. When people stood there very unhappy, the third time was one night a month ago."

"..."

"I waited for a full month. Before that, I thought about all the consequences, problems, and possible situations. Now I just want to tell him my thoughts seriously, honestly, and responsibly. No matter what he takes Come down and prepare to answer me specifically.”

Speaking of this sentence, if Liang Sheng didn't know what the person who depended on him for so long and regarded each other as the most important existence wanted to say to him, then he would have lived to the age of 36 in vain.

But it seemed that he was sure that he would not be able to leave here in the middle of the night tonight.

The reporter said that tonight this place belongs only to them, and it is the best corner where they can explain all the past problems clearly. Therefore, the next conversation between the two people proceeded smoothly like this.

"Why don't you get married? Family, is it really such an untrustworthy thing in your opinion?"

"...Yes, no matter what kind of family is united because of love, what kind of child is born, maybe one day when they wake up, this irresponsible couple will abandon this innocent child again."

He didn't expect him to ask himself this question. On the one hand, Liang Sheng found it difficult to talk about it, but on the other hand, he probably understood that the grown-up youth was no longer the child he used to be, so he decided to choose today. Looking at the empty old alley in front of the two of them, they were silent for a while, then squinted their eyes a bit self-deprecatingly and said,

"For so many years, have you never thought about where I came from? Maybe...do you believe that people have a previous life? Maybe it was a dream, but in that dream about our previous life, I was trampled on the dirt Here, I have never read a book, I have been a real trash, and I will be a trash that no one loves until I die, how can I believe that I can get real happiness in my life in this life?"

"..."

"My character is not noble, I don't have good qualities, I am selfish and greedy, I am not a good person, from the bottom of my heart, I don't trust and do not intend to accept anyone, women, men, I can't give actual love, such a person, say It's really not suitable to have a family, let alone give others a home."

"...What about you?"

"what?"

"Your own feelings don't matter, and you don't need to think about what you want? What do you like, what don't you like, when are you happy, and when are you unhappy? Are these not important?"

Liang Sheng, who always had a sensible expression, seemed to have some rare ups and downs in his emotions. When he continued to speak seriously, he seemed to obviously disagree with the words repeated in his mouth, and he seemed to have always been silent and not good at expressing, so he was giving birth to himself. sulking.

"There is a person who always tells others that he has a low character, does not have good qualities, and is not a good person because he is selfish and greedy."

"..."

"In his eyes, I always seemed so bad, so unworthy of all good things, but he was the one who found me when everyone left me, and was the one who sent me so far away When I was young, I had to travel thousands of miles to find my people. They were the people who gave so much for me to study and to let me have a normal life.

"..."

"He is very kind to everyone around him, respects others, has compassion, is willing to change the status quo even if he is born low, works hard, is positive, never looks down on others, and does not impose his past pain on anyone. .”

"..."

"I don't understand how unbearable he is in his own eyes... I only know that in my eyes, such a person is the most noble in the world, has beautiful qualities, and is worthy of being cherished, respected, and cherished by others for a lifetime." People who love him."

It's cold these days, and if each other breathes cold air, whoever listens to it and says something in their hearts that is not moved is a lie.

Liang Sheng asked himself that he had been wandering in society for so many years, he had all kinds of scheming, scheming, and sinister heart, but he was the only one who had never received such unreserved sincerity from another person.

Really, deep down, he also lacks love, and no one has ever loved him well.

In the final analysis, what he has always wanted most in his heart for the last two lives is nothing more than a home, a home that belongs to himself and another person who is willing to love him, and a home that truly understands him, embraces him, and accepts him. bad people.

He even felt strangely sore in his chest for a moment.

Not only on this special day, inexplicably ushered in the most unexpected and passionate show of love he has lived so far, there are many other things that cannot be explained clearly.

As if holding back, hiding, hiding for so many years, the wounds and scabs accumulated on my heart were finally torn off by the young man with his hands, and he stretched out his palm to smooth it out.

Those ugly and embarrassing wounds in the past, no one can tear them open for him.

But now, a person he was expecting seemed to appear just like that.

And this person, standing in front of him alive, appeared in another form of his life.

As far as he could see, the young man's eyes were so persistent and brave, and they were beginning to melt a little bit in the cold. His heart, like a deep pool of water, finally blossomed and ushered in his own spring. Sincerity is delightful.

"I don't know how to convince you of what I'm saying right now."

"..."

"But whether it's material, family or emotion, I have seriously planned for each other. Even if you think what I said is not so credible, I can wait, but I just want to tell you... If Liang He said that he regretted it in this life, so let him never have such good luck in his next life."

"..."

"It doesn't matter what kind of homeless orphan he becomes, he is abandoned in any unknown place on the side of the road, he doesn't care if he has anyone to care about him, to protect him, as long as he will live up to that peace in the future. He has a person with the same name, let him suffer any kind of retribution, but you have to give others a chance first."

"..."

——"...Because, with your life, it will be my life."

Outside the alley is an endless night.

The Lin family held a wedding today, and the red headbands that symbolized the joy and happiness of the bride and groom were hung all over the handlebars of Audi cars lined up outside. This red color makes it hard for people not to believe that the couple will be happy in the future.

Strange to say, the two of them had never looked at the familiar scenes of City Y in the past.

Because a person, no matter how you look at it, the scenery is the scenery, and the scenery that no one watches together is actually nothing new.

But this time, he felt that his hometown this year really made people feel nostalgic from the bottom of his heart.

In the distance, the Yangtze River is vaguely at the end of the city on the other side. The coal stoves of the workers in small factories light up the palms of their hands, and buildings with heating are built on this once industrialized land.

It used to be poor and backward, and it was a difficult time when the economy was sluggish and workers were collectively laid off, but those hard days belonged to the people as the shadow over the country disappeared.

One decade, the second decade, and the next three years will be even better.

Think about it, the winter along the Yangtze River under the economic recovery may really be another good spring.

Until the car horn sounded outside the alley in the distance, the sound of firecrackers bursting in the distance, and the water dripping from the stainless steel roof above their heads, the two were a little nervous for the first time in their lives, but finally they were able to gently hold each other's hands, but the figure seemed so sincere , really.

He believed in him, and he relied only on him.

Family members, relatives, they share each other's lives, share everything in their own lives, as if they were born with one soul, two life communities connecting each other's past life and present life.

This is the spring of this year.

It also belonged to Liang Sheng's heart, the most beautiful and brilliant spring in his life.