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Spring in Shanghai comes late every year.

In February and March, it was warm and cold, and I was intoxicated at home, listening to the rain for many days.

Shen Zui couldn't recall the last time he was so calm and ascetic, perhaps never before.

He is not even obsessed with short knife fighting as usual, but can read some difficult dramas that he couldn't watch before.

When Shen Zui first debuted, Liu Heng once asked him if there was anything he wanted to learn.Piano, guitar, violin, painting and calligraphy in small languages, and even flower arrangement and tea art to make coffee... People always need to know some talents that are not very useful, even if they are only superficial, in order to appear "good".

Shen Zui looked left and right, and in the interest class provided by Liu Heng, he chose a heretical dagger fight.

Liu Heng was very surprised.He didn't dare to send Shen Zui to learn such a dangerous thing, so he could only ask Xia Rusen for advice.

Xia Rusen is neither interested nor demanding about these talents whose main goal is to pretend, but he doesn't think there is anything he can't learn in short knife fighting.

For a long time, I indulged in step-by-step preparations for art exams, and practiced short swords every weekend.

It stands to reason that practicing swords is very bitter, and even a little risky.But not only was Shen Zui not afraid, but he acted calmly and relaxed, never frowning once.

Later, "Tassel" became famous in the first battle, and intoxicated was pushed to the cusp of spotlight overnight.

Bewildered, terrified.

He is not as intelligent as Yan Mingyang since he was a child, nor is he as profound as Liu Heng's family.

In Xia Rusen's words, intoxication has not really enlightened enlightenment.

Apart from filming unconsciously, Shen Zui can't do anything, and doesn't know what to do.

At that time, Xia Rusen once commented that Shen Zui was more than tenacious and tenacious, but not targeted enough.

He said that if a person relies on talent alone, he can amaze everyone at the age of 14, and at the age of 24, he can barely maintain it, and at the age of 34, he can only be reduced to Fang Zhongyong.

Shen Zui looked it up in the dictionary and found out what it means to be targeted.

Annoyed and unwilling to admit it, he stubbornly and arrogantly started reading, reading the classic dramas and masterpieces recommended by Xia Rusen, trying to understand the cultural knowledge of various professions, and trying to figure out some subtle and profound truths.

Gradually, Shen Zui seemed to understand something, but also didn't seem to understand.He is going through an unpredictable transformation. He often acts willful and extreme because of inferiority complex and insecurity, and he is tolerated and favored because of talent and beauty.

During the period of "residing in seclusion" in Shanghai, Shen Zui became much calmer.He no longer anxiously longs for Xia Rusen's approval, no longer fears for years that his next work will not be able to surpass "Tassel", and even his love-hate relationship with Yan Mingyang's magic has faded a lot.

As for being hidden in the snow... Shen Zui counted the not-so-huge savings, thinking that he should not starve to death.

On the afternoon when Ji Chengyu called, Shen Zui was taking pictures of the cherry blossoms that had just bloomed in the downstairs yard.

During this period of time, he was left alone and had nothing to do.Under the pressure of Yan Mingyang, Hu Tu had no choice but to refuse all cooperation, and gradually no one came back to contact him.

The wind was very strong, and the cherry blossoms under the lens were always difficult to focus.

Shen Zui held up the phone in one hand, and gently plucked the tender branches of the cherry tree with the other hand.

"Hey, what's the matter."

"Didn't you say you wanted me to shoot?" Ji Chengyu didn't exchange greetings, and his tone was not in a hurry, "Why is there no news?"

"Hutu should contact you," Shen Zui said, "It was canceled for some reason."

"Intoxicated," Ji Chengyu said a little bluntly, "I thought we were friends."

Shen Zui gently pulled the branches, where the tops were delicately formed pink and white petals, next to them were the bones that were not in full bloom, and a few touches of green were the breath of spring.

He thought for a second, and felt that Ji Chengyu was right.

"I offended Yan Mingyang," he said lightly, "I was hidden by the snow."

There was a moment of silence on the phone.

"You," Ji Chengyu paused, "where do you live now?"

"You work under Yan Mingyang," Shen Zui said softly, "Don't worry too much about my affairs."

"I'll go and see you, but nothing will happen." Ji Chengyu said, "Can Boss Yan still install a camera at your door?"

"........."

Recalling the past, Shen Zui burst out laughing.

Not only Yan Mingyang, but even Shen Zui has done this kind of thing.

"Okay." Shen Zui thought for a while, and said casually, "I'll send you the address, and you'll come here if you're not afraid of losing your job."

The sky is clear today, and it is an ordinary and irreplaceable day in 360 days a year.

After chatting with Ji Chengyu, Shen Zui didn't go home immediately.He was in a good mood and walked aimlessly in the street.

There are many people on the sidewalk, but most of them are in a hurry and have no time to pay attention to the spring scenery.Stepping on the shade of dancing trees, Shen Zui feels that the light and shadow under her feet are also extremely beautiful.

He made an exception and ordered a cup of coffee at a passing shop, and even ordered a piece of delicate chocolate mousse.

This mousse is called Euclid, the lines are smooth and simple, and it is a triangle.

It was getting dark, but the street lights were on.

The cool wind blew in response to the occasion, Shen Zui folded up his large coat, stepped on the swaying lamp shadow, and walked back step by step.

There are few pedestrians on this road, but the road is wide and open, and there is a lot of traffic.

Shen Zui took off his mask and took a few mouthfuls of fresh and slightly cold air.He has always had an extraordinary ability to perceive beauty, and today he is extraordinarily patient.

Kangqu is full of smoke and moon, the night wind is whispering, and small lamp kiosks are lit on the street.Going forward, there are two tall figures standing in front of the secluded gate.

Shen Zui immediately recognized Ji Chengyu who was not wearing a mask, he took a few steps forward suspiciously, and found that the other one was Liu Heng.

Liu Heng obviously also saw Shen Zui, Shen Zui hurriedly pulled up his mask and ran away.

After the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, Shen Zui blacklisted Liu Heng due to inexplicability and guilt.

He's done similar things before, when he didn't want to see people.

"Shen Zui!" Ji Chengyu rushed up in two or three steps, grabbing Shen Zui's hood.

Shen Zui couldn't flirt with people on the street, so he could only obediently be taken back.

Carrying a black plastic bag, Liu Heng stood there and waited patiently.

Guilty and frightened, Shen Zui gave Ji Chengyu a hard look, and began to secretly think about how he would deal with the matter when he was interrogated by Liu Heng later.

"You," Shen Zui walked in front of Liu Heng.He pretended to be the first to speak, "When did the two of you stand as a united front?"

Liu Heng was still wearing a mask, but there was a look of expressionlessness in his eyes.

After a while, Liu Heng picked up the plastic bag.His tone was as usual, as if Shen Zui had neither missed the birthday party nor blocked him.

"I got a new river fish today, and it's still alive. I can't eat it by myself."

Liu Heng is good at cooking.He sees cooking as an art, like film.

This is the first time visitors to the intoxicated new home.Liu Heng handles the river fish in the kitchen and does not allow others to intervene. Leftover Shen Zui and Ji Chengyu sit in the living room and look at each other.

Ji Chengyu's skin is obviously not thick enough.He was afraid of being intoxicated and questioning, so he could only dodge his eyes erratically.

The living room was embarrassingly quiet, but there was the sound of boiling water in the kitchen.

"That," Shen Zui coughed.

"That," Ji Chengyu interrupted unnaturally, "how is your game going?"

"........."

"Have you cleared the customs?" Ji Chengyu asked seriously.

"No." Shen Zui replied, "I can't beat it."

Ji Chengyu seemed to be pardoned, "Then let me fight for you."

Liu Heng stewed the fish for two hours.When he came out with the fish, Ji Chengyu had already played for Shen Zui until the second week.

Shen Zui got up from the ground, and glanced at Liu Heng expressionlessly.

"Xiao'an doesn't know, I don't dare to say anything, I have to find someone who can contact you." Liu Heng explained clearly in one sentence.

Ji Chengyu breathed a sigh of relief, and looked at Shen Zui, "You can't blame me. You said it yourself. I work under President Yan, so it's inconvenient to take care of your affairs."

"Teacher Liu Heng is more suitable."

"Why do both of you think that I can't take care of myself?" Shen Zui's nose was itchy, he pouted, "When I went to the field to plant rice seedlings, you didn't even know how to cook."

"Okay, don't be brave." Liu Heng put the fish on the table, "Happy birthday."

"Ah?" Ji Chengyu was taken aback, "Mr. Shen, today is your birthday?"

Shen Zui was also stunned for a while.When he was young, only his grandma celebrated his birthday, and the only way to celebrate his birthday was to cook a good fish.

Later, when he grew up, he never lived again.

Liu Heng does not come every year.Sometimes when they were arguing, Heng Liu seemed to forget.

Shen Zui didn't expect that two friends would come to celebrate his birthday this year.

"Hmm." Shen Zui said.

"The ancients said that one hates river fish with thorns, the second hates crabapple without fragrance, and the third hates red mansions." Liu Heng said, "Most people in the world agree with the third hate, but frankly speaking, the first hate is the one I can most resonate with. "

Ji Chengyu also got up from the ground.He smiled, "Teacher Liu Heng didn't say it earlier, I didn't prepare anything."

"But Teacher Shen, I'm a little surprised to see you today."

Shen Zui: "Oh?"

"You look better than before." Ji Chengyu said, "There is a... indescribable charm."

Chen Zui pursed his lips and thought for a while, and could vaguely understand what Ji Chengyu meant.

A person's detachment and open-mindedness can be seen in the eyes.

"Then take a picture of me." Shen Zui smiled slightly, "However, I don't have any good equipment at home, only a mobile phone."

"It's okay." Ji Chengyu took out his mobile phone from his pocket as he said, "The aesthetics of photography has nothing to do with equipment."

This night, for the first time, Shen Zui learned to restrain his talent of "liking people" and "being liked by people".He lacked love when he was young, and was injured as a teenager, and he often made up for the lack of security in his wild life.

He has never had such an ordinary pleasure of sitting and chatting with friends in groups.

The meal was not finished until nine o'clock in the evening.Shen Zui sent Liu Heng and Ji Chengyu downstairs, and did not go back until they reached the entrance of the community.

Across the road, in a low-key black car, Yan Mingyang watched quietly and waved his hands lively.

He watched the intoxicated figure disappear into the gate of the community, and then said slowly, "Let's go."

Sang Lili at the side was terrified, and said cautiously, "Boss Yan, Liu Heng and Ji Chengyu are all very good friends of Mr. Shen."

She puts the emphasis on the word friend.Since the two of them came together, it is obvious that both of them have nothing to do with Shen Zui.

Yan is famous but not fluctuating.He closed his eyes, and said in an unfathomable tone, "Let's go."