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Shen Zui clenched the phone tightly and bit his lip inconspicuously.

How did Yan Mingyang see that I was a little scared?

It wasn't me who didn't sleep last night.

Shen Zui raised his eyes and looked into the gate, Yan Mingyang's figure gradually drifted away among the rows of seats.

The crew members whispered, "Teacher Shen?"

There was no extra time for the ceremony.Shen Zui directly locked the screen and put away the phone, stroked his collar and gave a photogenic smile, "It's okay, let's go."

From morning to night on this day, four films were screened in full at the ceremony.Shen Zui sat in the most eye-catching place off the court, he knew he was always under the camera.

The method acting skills that Intoxicated learned over the past few months came into play.Four movies with different styles, Shen Zui finished watching them with one expression.

Whether it is the feeling of regret when facing "Spring Rest", or the sudden entry into the play when facing "Zuo Liu", Shen Zui is indifferent.

During the screening of "Under the Blue Sky", Shen Zui lost his mind intermittently.

He thought of the time when he was preparing and struggling with this drama, and the crazy mess with Yan Mingyang.

There is also Xia Rusen's regret and disappointment, as well as his struggle of being confused, lost and unwilling to accept his fate.

Shen Zui sat at the ceremony site which was full of seats, but seemed to be sitting alone in the dark looking up at the huge curtain.

The curtain is the only bright spot; it is not only a place to immerse yourself in the performance, but also a place to immerse yourself in life.

Shen Zui once wanted to walk into the play alone, and since then, I have not separated from the play, throwing all his life and emotions into the ups and downs of the storyline-even if there is a day when the big dream wakes up, his life has already been burned on the stage up.

But in the play, there is a past that Shen Zui desperately wants to escape, and in reality, there is also a love that Shen Zui can't give up...Winter goes to spring, and swallows fly to build nests under the eaves again.

The last movie "Zuo Liu" was played, and there was thunderous applause at the scene.

The intoxication on the screen disappeared into the vast rainy mountains; the intoxication at the ceremony had to stand up with the crew, and bowed to the audience to thank them.

Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of guest Xi Liyan Mingyang also stood up, probably investors can also be considered as part of the main creative.

Yan Mingyang, who behaves properly, is more comfortable on this occasion than Shen Zui, who doesn't like to show his face, and even appears indifferent because of being awkward.

"Boss Yan really has a discerning eye." A voice from someone in the guest table came from a distance, "When "Zuo Liu" was first established, it was not very popular."

"Actually, I don't understand movies at all," Yan Mingyang said with a smile in his tone.He bowed to the auditorium, and when he sat down, he glanced in the direction of Shen Zui, "I'm simply a fan of Teacher Shen Zui."

There was a burst of half-true laughter from the front row, and the screening was over.

The invited guests and the creators of each crew were guided to different channels.When Shen Zui walked out of the hall, he glanced back inadvertently. Yan Mingyang was walking unhurriedly with a few investors, talking and laughing, and Jiang Kai, the producer of "Under the Blue Sky", seemed to be among them.

Movies fight so hard that the king doesn't see the king, but investors can sit together and make money.

For them, the artistry of movies is dispensable, and social value is meaningless; the self-realization of actors and the aesthetic pursuit of directors are too naive and useless, as ridiculous as idealism.Even the award itself is not an important thing. What they care about is the economic benefits brought by the award after the curtain ends, and the more far-reaching impact on the industry.

But Yan Mingyang still posted the phrase "Don't be afraid".

"Still hating the swallows for flying too fast?" Luan Wei joked in a voice that only two people could hear.

"What, what." Shen Zui came back to his senses, and calmly pretended not to understand.

Luan smiled and said nothing more.

Not knowing if he felt something, Yan Mingyang suddenly turned his head towards Shen Zui.

Four movies are a long time, but not enough to make Shenzu think about his life.

He quickly looked away, and walked out of the hall in two or three steps.

After the screening, there will be a voting session before the evening ceremony.Everyone can decide whether their votes are registered or not, and the voting results of the on-site audience will be combined with the evaluation scores of the jury to determine the winner of this year's best director

Shen Zui voted his registered vote for "Spring Rest".Come out of the voting room, confused already

Waiting for him at the door.

"A few media came to ask you for an interview." Seeing Shen Zui coming out, Hu Tu stepped forward.

Shen Zui was a little surprised, "Didn't you say you won't accept interviews before the ceremony?"

There is a break between each film, and many media come to interview.According to the result of the discussion, Shen Zui didn't answer a single interview.

If you can win an award, there are many opportunities to be interviewed after the award; if you don't win an award, there is no point in being interviewed.

"The previous ones have all been pushed," Hu Tu said in a low voice, "now these few people just came to make an appointment."

"It should be that after watching "Zuo Liu", I have more confidence in you."

Shen Zui was apprehensive when he went out in the morning, but now he is not surprised.He didn't respond to Hu Tu's words, and went straight to his lounge.

There were a lot of people coming and going backstage during the break time, Shen Zui could only walk while saying hello.Suddenly, the door of a voting room next to it opened, and Xia Rusen came out.

Followed by Liu Heng.Seeing Shen Zui, he took the initiative to call out, "Shen Zui."

Shen Zui unconsciously clenched his hands, and stopped on the spot.

Hu Tu looked at Xia Rusen, then at Shen Zui, and said in a low voice, "At least say hello! This one is watching..."

"Are you Xiao Zui's current manager?" Xia Rusen looked at Zui for a few seconds, then stepped forward and said in a daze, "Let me have a few words with him alone."

Shen Zui blinked his eyelids, and suddenly wanted to cry.

Hu Tu tentatively glanced at Shen Zui, but saw that Shen Zui's eyes were already red.

"Teacher." Shen Zui lowered his head and whispered until there was no one around.

This is an unused lounge, Liu Heng found it temporarily.

"You acted very well." Xia Rusen watched it for a long time before he said leisurely, "I shouldn't have said that about you last time. You didn't disappoint anyone."

Shen Zui couldn't remember what it was like to be praised by Xia Rusen.He only remembered that for a long time, he worked harder every day, for fear of dissatisfying the strict Xia Rusen.

Today's Shen Zui is no longer a young and thin boy.He has sprouted and grown into a cool and calm mature actor, and the throne of actor is beckoning to him.

"Today's vote, I voted for "Zuo Liu." Xia Rusen continued, "I voted for Pei Yan as well as you."

Shen Zui can take Joe in front of anyone, but he can't harden himself in front of Xia Rusen.He was stunned for a while, almost flattered, "Oh."

"Don't be obsessed with not being able to perform "Spring Rest" anymore." Xia Rusen said earnestly, and patted Shen Zui's shoulder, "Maybe there are not so many excellent directors, but at least I am not the only one."

"Your performance in "Zuo Liu" is natural and amazing; even I must admit that it surpasses your contribution in "Fringe"."

Outside a door behind him, there was endless noise.Shen Zui looked at Xia Rusen's earnest approval, and a few seconds later, a tear suddenly fell from his eyes.

Even Xia Rusen was somewhat surprised, "What's wrong with you?"

"Teacher," Shen Zui sniffed, he rolled his lips subconsciously, and then let go after a while, his voice was so soft that he seemed to be evading, "I think, I'm afraid that I won't be able to act in a better movie again."

"No... I may never be able to do a really good movie again."

Like Xia Rusen, Yan Mingyang also voted for "Zuo Liu".Although he claims he doesn't understand movies, he still has basic appreciation skills.

After voting, Yan Mingyang drank some tea with a few colleagues.Backstage was working overtime to count the votes, and soon the organizer's staff came to inform that the complete list of winners for this year's Silver Cloud Awards had been released.

"The best director is "Under the Blue Sky", "Zuo Liu" and "Spring Dwelling" respectively won the best editing and best screenwriting;" the staff carefully looked up and continued, "In addition, the best The leading actor is Teacher Chen Zui."

"Congratulations, Mr. Yan," someone next to him immediately cheered, "It looks like you've won the most."

Yan Mingyang sat on the sofa, the curvature of the corner of his mouth remained unchanged.He put down his folded legs and lit a cigarette casually, "That's right, I still have an eye for stars."

There was a burst of echoing laughter in the room.Yan Mingyang stood up with a cigarette in his hand, smiled and waved his hands, "Everyone, then I'll go first."

"Before the awards ceremony starts, I have to go to "Spring Rest" and "Zuo Liu" each."

"Congratulations to Mr. Jiang." Before leaving, Yan Mingyang seemed to have remembered something.He turned his head and clicked his tongue, ""Under the Blue Sky" won the award very well, I couldn't have imagined it."

"........."

Coming out of the investor's social place, Yan Mingyang went directly to the lounge of "Zuo Liu".On the way, he checked WeChat again, but Shen Zui still didn't reply.

"Where is Shen Zui?" Yan Mingyang rushed over excitedly, but found that Shen Zui was not there.

"Uh, according to what Hutu said, he was dragged away by Director Xia to chat."

"........."

Yan Mingyang looked down at his watch, it was not long before the entrance time for the awards ceremony.Regardless of his public image, he trotted towards "Spring Rest".

Halfway through the run, Yan Mingyang saw Liu Heng who was doing nothing in the corridor.

"Looking for Shen Zui?" Liu Heng understood when he saw Yan Mingyang was out of breath.

Yan Mingyang nodded, and said succinctly, "He has won the actor."

Liu Heng pointed to the closed door, "Just now I overheard, Shen Zui told Mr. Xia that he was afraid that he would never be able to act in a good movie again."

Yan Mingyang was slightly taken aback, and quickly realized.

"It was difficult for him to act after filming "Zuo Liu". In recent months, he has been learning how to perform from scratch."

Liu Heng listened carefully, "So, are you intoxicated by the "Zuo Liu" scene?"

Yan Mingyang was stunned for a moment, and then realized that there were more than one reason for Shen Zui's performance dilemma.

Acting skills of the method school can be learned; but if the play of "Zuo Liu" cannot be produced, if you are intoxicated, you will never be able to act the next story.

"I'm helping him." Yan Mingyang frowned.He walked to the door, hesitated for a moment, and didn't knock.

Liu Heng: "Help him?"

"I'm helping him rewrite the ending of a story." Yan Mingyang turned around and turned his back to the door.He glanced at Liu Heng, "I can't get out because I'm intoxicated, because I can't calm down."

When Liu Heng was thinking, the door opened with a click behind him.

Yan Mingyang turned around, only to see Shen Zui and Xia Rusen walking out together.Shen Zui was obviously surprised to see Yan Mingyang, but Xia Rusen remained calm.

"Little Tu." Yan Mingyang noticed that Shen Zui's eyes were reddish.He took a step forward, only to think of social etiquette, and said, "Hello Director Xia."

Xia Rusen squinted his eyes, and turned his eyes like a torch between Liu Heng and Yan Mingyang, "Drunk to win the best actor?"

"........."

Yan Mingyang's eyes widened involuntarily, "This, how can you tell?"

Xia Rusen snorted coldly and glanced at Yan Mingyang, "Liu Heng can act, but you can't."

"What's more, Shen Zui's taking the best actor this time is a matter of reason."

Compared to Shen Zui and even Pei Yan, Xia Rusen didn't care much about winning the award.He patted Shen Zui's shoulder again, and left with Liu Heng.

Shen Zui watched them leave, and stood motionless for a while.

Yan Yan's eloquence, which is as brilliant as a lotus flower, is useless now.He stood beside Shen Zui without saying a word.

"You came to me specifically to tell me the result of the award?" It wasn't until Xia Rusen and Liu Heng disappeared that Shen Zui didn't seem to remember that there was someone beside him.

"En." Thinking of what Liu Heng said, Yan Mingyang hesitated to speak.After deliberating for a moment, he still swallowed the heavy topic, and only smiled, "Congratulations."

Intoxicated but calm.He looked at Yan Mingyang quietly, and suddenly said after a few seconds, "I'm going to Beijing next year."

"What?" Yan Mingyang didn't react for a while.

"Just now I told the teacher that I was afraid that I would not be able to act well." Shen Zui mentioned this matter very calmly, "The teacher only said one sentence."

Yan Mingyang frowned.

"He said that when I first came to Beijing at the age of 14, it will not be worse now than it was then." Shen Zui crossed his arms and pulled the corners of his mouth.He straightened his arms and stretched his waist, as if he was relieved, "It suddenly dawned on me."

"The teacher is right. When I was 14 years old, I had no money, no fame, no acting skills..." Shen Zui bit his lower lip, "And just like now, I don't have you either."

Yan Mingyang lowered his head in thought, then raised it again, "Then why are you going to Beijing...?"

Shen Zui: "Teacher Xia introduced me to an experienced acting teacher."

Yan Mingyang felt that time and space spanning ten years were intertwined at this moment.He murmured, "Then can I see you?"

Hutu rushed over not far away.The ceremony was about to begin, and he was going crazy looking for Shen Zui.

"During the years you were studying in Beijing," Shen Zui only glanced at Hu Tu, and then turned to Yan Mingyang again, "Have you ever thought about me?"

Yan Mingyang took a breath calmly, "I didn't know you were also in Beijing at the time."

Shen Zui nodded indifferently, "That's why I haven't thought about it."

Shen Zui said and was about to leave, Yan Mingyang reached out and grabbed Shen Zui's forearm, "You promised to give me a chance last night."

Shen Zui turned his head and looked straight at Yan Mingyang, as if he wanted to see through his eyes.

"You never chased someone when you were in college, right?" Shen Zui's eyes were long and sharp.He shook off Yan Mingyang's hand neatly, raised his chin and looked straight ahead, "The chaser should wait downstairs day and night; as for seeing you or not, that's up to fate."