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At that time, how should I tell Zhou Si?

Cheng Yi didn't know either.

On that day nine years ago, he had already thought about it when he got off the plane and waited for him at the door of Zhou Si's house.After all, the two of them are so familiar, and have treated each other naked before, there is no need for any twists and turns in the opening remarks between the two of them, Cheng Yi just opened his mouth and told Zhou Si.Maybe Zhou Si would be happy for him.

However, at that age, at that time, things always backfired.

Before he could open his mouth, he was disturbed by the fact that Zhou Si drank too much.It was also that day that the alcohol in Zhou Si's mind evaporated during the touching affair, he lay in Cheng Yi's arms, talking to him, his exhausted voice dragged out, as if exhausting all his strength.

"Yiyi, I'm so tired."

Zhou Si said so.

Cheng Yi thought he was complaining. After all, after working for a long time, people always have such complaints. He has been writing papers for a long time, and he will do the same.So he thought he was tolerant and embraced the tired Zhou Si in his arms. His hand brushed Zhou Si's sweat-soaked hair. The blood streaks should be caused by not sleeping well.

"Are you sleepy, how about some sleep?"

Cheng Yi persuaded.He leaned against Zhou Si, shielding Zhou Si's eyes with his hand, covering Zhou Si from the dazzling sunlight during the day, but Zhou Si grabbed Cheng Yi's palm and pressed it to his lips. He kissed Cheng Yi's palm and smiled contentedly Kai came, freeing his hand to embrace Cheng Yi into his arms.

Cheng Yi looped around Zhou Si's waist cooperatively, and Zhou Si rubbed his head: "But I dare not sleep, I'm so scared, Cheng Yiyi."

Zhou Si's voice was not so stable, it could even be said to be weak.Just like when his father died before, he hugged his Cheng Yiyi tightly, as if absorbing warmth.

"What are you afraid of?" Cheng Yihuan's hands around Zhou Si's waist tightened, as if such movements could give each other more sense of security.

"I'm afraid you'll run away, I'm afraid this is a dream, I'm afraid I've worked so hard, but I won't be able to keep you." Zhou Si rubbed against Cheng Yi's soft hair, "Cheng Yiyi, I think I like you very much, but You and I are just..."

It is very far.

I don't know why Cheng Yi had such an idea.

They are right next to each other, sharing the same bed, and their hearts are close to each other, but they are so far apart, as far away as hundreds of millions of light years between two stars.

"But you obviously like me too."

Zhou Si murmured something next to Cheng Yi's ear.

"Yeah, Brother Si. I like you."

Cheng Yi repeated the word "like" over and over again, but after talking for a long time, he became pale and weak.

But he couldn't find the reason for his powerlessness. They were still living together, still loving and embracing each other. He never thought that one day, this kind of staying together in his heart would become meaningless.

Where is the meaning?

This year they tortured each other, for the future, for work, and for living together, big and small quarrels broke out.He can find an excuse because of Zhou Si's illness, and because he needs someone to take him back to school, and then return to Zhou Si, reconciling as before; work, and stared at him coldly.

Maybe if he tells these things to any of his friends, they will think it's normal, isn't it just trivial things?

Yeah, isn't it just trivial things?

But it was these trivial matters that dragged them down!

It is procrastinating.

It was no longer Cheng Yi who wanted to drag Zhou Si up and out of the abyss, but the two of them were held back by the abyss!

It's like two people hanging on the cliff!

Zhou Si is the one who walks ahead to explore the way, and Cheng Yi is the one who walks behind and is well protected by Zhou Si and the world.Zhou Si fell first, falling into the abyss of life.At the critical moment, it was Cheng Yi who caught him and prevented him from falling.

But Cheng Yi's situation is not good, he has nothing to rely on to ascend to Qingyun, he can only rely on his own efforts from the beginning to the end, trying to pull Zhou Si back from the life that was about to devour him, but he is too thin, he even Unable to keep his footing on the cliff.

The two were deadlocked like this.

At the beginning, you might be glad that you didn't fall into the misery of life, and secretly rejoice.Over time, this stalemate will exhaust all the strength of the two young people.

Right now, they were falling together, Zhou Si tried, he struggled, and wanted to help Cheng Yi; Cheng Yi also struggled, and wanted to get closer to Zhou Si, to pull him up, but the abyss under his feet stared at him again and again. Tell them how futile it is to struggle.

"Brother Si."

"Ok?"

"Why don't we break up?"

Cheng Yi raised his hand and pinched the base of Zhou Si's ear, the ear base is the place Cheng Yi especially favors every time he kisses Zhou Si.It will turn red because of Cheng Yi's kiss, and it will make Cheng Yi suck the kiss maliciously.

It is the presentation of two people's equally strong affection; it is the real feedback of human emotions when they do not take any responsibility and do not need to take care of any external factors; it is a reaction that will be excited, intensified, and vigorous.

This is also the reason why he likes to hang out with Zhou Si, naked.

They fell into the same world like two dissimilar souls in the silent forest valley. They searched for each other, attracted each other, and approached each other. Out of control.Only a little firefly in summer wakes up the green cicadas around, the small groans in the yard covered by the noisy cicadas, and in summer, under the flower stand illuminated by the moonlight, the slow and long mountain vows.

This kind of love is already romantic enough for a couple in a small town.

It's just that for a lover who will never change until death, the good times will never last long.

In life, infatuation is down and out, falling into a cliché.

After Cheng Yi's voice fell, Zhou Si fell silent, as if he had fallen asleep.

Just after the second hand of the wall clock in the room circled three times, when Cheng Yi thought Zhou Si was asleep and didn't hear it, Zhou Si spoke.

"I'm sleepy, I'm asleep," he said.

At that time Zhou Si let go of Cheng Yi, he turned over, curled up in his bed, and closed his eyes.

That was probably the first time Zhou Si wished that he was just having a dream.

A spring dream with a bad ending.

Cheng Yi left after Zhou Si fell asleep, and before he left, he stole two candy wrappers that Zhou Si hid in the cabinet.Zhou Si is stupid, he took the candy wrapper that Cheng Yi gave him from high school to college, and he still took it with him every time he moved. In front of him, how could he need these candy wrappers.

Unexpectedly, on the day I was leaving, these candy wrappers seemed to be useful again.

He picked two unwritten ones, wrote on one and hid it in the pile of candy wrappers in the cabinet, and put the other one in his trouser pocket as a souvenir.

Then he dragged the suitcase he had come with and left.He didn't say anything to Zhou Si, didn't explain anything, and became a selfish person once.After the happy time, I escaped by myself, escaped from the depressing coastal city.

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