Like a swallow returning to its nest

The purpose of going home is very simple, just want to get some money.

By Xiao Lai's side, Fang Jian, who has never had a concept of money, learned to be economical and careful.Dependence addiction, without Xiao Lai watching, she is always worried that she will mess things up, and dare not go out to work alone.

More precisely, the fear of being denied.

Fang Jian thought about this question a long time ago and asked a doctor: What kind of job am I suitable for?

The doctor's suggestion is that patients with emotional disorders should try to deal with people as little as possible, avoid excessively noisy environments, and avoid increasing emotional burden.

Then almost all service industries have been excluded, but she has limited skills, so besides serving others, what else can she do?

The working environment of Roman Holiday completely coincided with the two categories that the doctor suggested to avoid. However, Fang Jian made almost no major mistakes during her work, and she attributed all of this to Xiao Lai.

She treats Fang Jian like a baby who has just learned to eat with a spoon, saying "awesome" and "really amazing". Fang Jian is indeed the type of person who lacks praise.

One loves to be praised, the other is eager to be praised. This combination can generate a steady stream of positive energy, and Fang Jian, surrounded by this energy, can keep a happy mood all day long.

Often on the edge, with a lack of personality, Fang Jian cannot produce energy to heal herself alone. The biggest difference between emotional patients and ordinary people is the ability to regulate and control their own emotions.

There are many good people in the world, if you meet a hundred good people, you will feel mediocre, but if you meet one bad person, the whole day's good mood will be wiped out.

It's safe to stay with Xiao Lai, even if Fang Jian meets a hundred annoying guys, but they can't be together all the time.

Facing it alone has exhausted her best, she can't stand a little blow, can't accept being denied, and her ability is limited, and she can't be perfect.

She was worried that she could not control her emotions and cause more trouble, so she simply stopped going out and went to work.This is also the arrangement of the family all the time.

Of course, Fang Jian has also planned for herself for a long time, so she thought of learning and mastering new skills, and she thought that she was not wrong to take things home. Why spend money on expensive things like computers and cameras when they are ready-made.

No income, but have to eat every day, where does the money come from?Although Xiao Lai always said it didn't matter.

Secondly, like the farewell letter that Xiao Lai instructed her to write, the kind and innocent child thought that as long as he was well-behaved enough, he could please adults and gain understanding.

Xiao Lai said: "No matter what, they are all your family members. It would be impolite to leave without saying goodbye. No matter how bad the relationship is, you should say hello before you leave. Don't make the old man sad."

They were lying on the desk, with their two heads together, in the most ancient and traditional way, delivered full of pure love unsuspectingly, but reaped such a heartbreaking hysteria.

The little angel fluttered up and down with her wings all day long, busy without complaint, busy saving her.

Now she slaps her mother away with a slap.

She flew out of the house in tears, her wings drenched in the rain, and she dragged her heavy steps, leaving only her heartbroken and thin back.

The double-layer tempered glass of the villa was shattered into a bee net under the heavy impact of the pebbles. After Xiao Lai left, the house fell into a long silence. Fang Jian knelt on the cold floor tiles, trying to understand what was wrong with them.

The fault lies in youth and innocence.

Fang Jian felt Xiao Lai's pain when she was betrayed with all her true feelings.

The slow and heavy dull pain continued to spread from the heart, and the blood flow accelerated. She felt hot, her head was congested, her breathing was short, and the strength rose from the hot blood, filling her limbs.

She got up slowly, feeling the surging power in her body with every step forward, and she walked towards the stairs, where a set of golf clubs was placed in the triangular area under the stairs.

Everyone thought that she had given up and wanted to go back to the room to reflect obediently. Out of sight, Fang Jian was caught off guard by an explosion, and Fang Jian smashed a European-style grandfather clock in the corner.

Afterwards, TV, glass coffee table, potted plants, vases, all objects that could be used for her to vent were scrapped one by one. Fang Jian pursed her lips tightly, her eyes were scarlet and terrifying, and the golf clubs whistled sharply in the air, and she was also thinking about this madness. Excited about the destruction.

Gu Yinglan huddled in the corner of the sofa, covered her ears and screamed loudly. Fang Chun rushed forward to hug her mother, bent over and arched her back to resist the flying debris. Fangzheng stepped forward several times to try to grab the murder weapon. The titanium steel golf club was amazingly powerful. , he didn't dare to approach rashly.

"boom--"

"boom--"

"boom--"

Until there is nothing left to destroy in this family, the blood relationship, family affection and love have become such a mess.

Fang Jian lowered his arms weakly, the cue was taken away, and Fang Zheng's big hands like iron pincers almost pinched into her flesh. From this strength, Fang Jian felt his hatred for her.

"I hate you too." She was like a lifeless flannel doll, with her limbs hanging limply, letting Fang Zheng drag her upstairs.

Fang Chun left her mother and ran upstairs, Fang Jian was thrown on the bed, and Fang Zheng bound her limbs to the corner brackets of the bed with restraint belts.

"Father, don't tie her up, let me come and keep her! Don't tie her up." Fang Chun rushed forward to plead, but Fang Zheng raised his hand and pushed her away.

Fang Jian didn't have the strength to go crazy anymore, nor did she have the strength to resist, whatever, anyway, she had nothing left, and neither did Xiao Lai.

She said "forget it", she was heartbroken, and she left.

"There are many discarded children in this world. Why don't you just throw me away? You hate me so much, why don't you throw me away? I don't want to be the daughter of Fangzheng and Gu Yinglan at all. I want to die. I want to find a new love. My parents, this pair of parents will only have one child, and that is me..."

"Fang Chun, why are you pretending to be a good person? I hate you so much. I hate all of you. I smiled at you and told you that I love you just because I want money. Can't you see that? How miserable have you hurt me? You bully me with them, you rely on you as your sister, you play with me, you sue me, you pull my ears, what's so great about you..."

"Fang Chun, you are just lucky. If I were my sister, you would be the one tied to the bed right now. Are you afraid? But don't worry, I'm different from you. If I were my sister, I would never do that to you." you."

"Fangzheng, if I die, I will sue the King of Hell. I said that you abused me. I will make you never have children in the next life, and in the next life. This is the retribution for your abuse of me..."

"Grandma, grandpa, come and save me! They are all bullying me..."

"Where's the medicine?" Fangzheng ignored her nonsense, closed the drawer abruptly, rummaged around in the room, and shouted, "Jiang Min! Where is the medicine?"

Aunt Jiang stumbled into the house, knelt on the carpet beside the bed, and stretched out an arm to fish out the medicine.

A large amount of pills were stuffed into Fang Jian's mouth, she shook her head and struggled, Fangzheng pinched her nose and cheeks to force-feed the pills and water, Aunt Jiang slightly supported her back, so that the pills slipped smoothly from the esophagus into the stomach .

Fang Jian started to cry, tears wet Fang Zheng's hands holding her cheeks, his eyes were red, "How did you become what you are today!"

"It's all because of you that I became like this! I hate you!" There was a sharp pain in her throat, and she coughed violently. Back, wipe away tears, try to make her body feel more comfortable at this time.

"Keep an eye on her, don't let her run around, put away all the knives in the kitchen." Fangzheng said to Aunt Jiang.

Fang Chun sat on the side of the bed and held her hands bound by restraint belts. Fang Jian couldn't resist and told her to get out, but she didn't. Fang Jian closed her eyes and buried her head in Aunt Jiang's arms without looking at anyone.

Half an hour later, she began to feel uncomfortable, very uncomfortable, nausea and dizziness, heavy body, weakness, trembling, and blurred vision.

It's very uncomfortable, at this moment, she really has to die right away, she won't have to suffer after she dies, it's quiet, the whole world can go to hell.

But in the eyes of others, she has calmed down, and the destruction has finally stopped.

A random person on the street suddenly starts to run wild, talking nonsense, and jumping all over the ground. Pedestrians can't wait to put on their wings and fly away immediately, stay away, and be careful that he will take out a knife and start stabbing people in the next second.

This is the common understanding of mental illness in the world. Fang Jian's madness tonight has reached its peak. Putting it on the street will definitely scare a lot of people.

To be reasonable, she has no objection to tying her up. The function of the restraint belt in the hospital is to prevent injury or self-injury.She just doesn't want to take medicine, which is very uncomfortable, but she has to take medicine when she is sick, and the doctor will persuade her to actively cooperate with the treatment.

Before Fang Jian fell into a drowsy sleep, she wondered if Xiao Lai would be like everyone else, supporting these so-called correctness, taking medicine, treatment, and hospitalization...

But she quickly figured out that maybe she wouldn't be so crazy in front of Xiao Lai, Xiao Lai is so good, and when Xiao Lai scolded her, she was also happy.

But Xiao Lai left.

Fang Jian slept until the next afternoon. When she woke up, she felt her head was heavy, her hands and feet were limp, and she struggled to move.

Fang Chun secretly untied her restraint belt. It is quite uncomfortable to be tied up, unable to turn over, and the range of motion of the limbs is extremely limited, and it will soon be too stiff to move. This kind of stiffness will make people feel irritated.

She fell asleep without feeling irritated. The restraint belt was untied, but the muscle memory was still restrained. She hadn't turned over for eight or nine hours, and her nerves had completely failed.

Fang Jian opened her eyes and looked at the ceiling, waiting for her limbs to wake up, and struggled to sit up after an hour.

Aunt Jiang definitely didn't dare to untie it, and it was even more impossible for Gu Yinglan and Fang Zheng, it could only be Fang Chun.

Fang Jian is not grateful. She hates no one, loves no one now, and her mind is in a mess. The difference between her and the other fools on the street is that she doesn't drool or giggle at passers-by.

Silent in the dark, sitting dry.

Like meat worms in an apple core, meat worms that can be flattened and rounded by others, brainless meat worms.

After a long time, she heard the sound of keys turning in the brass lock. A wound appeared in this completely closed small room. The wound became bigger and bigger. At first it was a hand, then a head, and then half of the body. .

The wound was open enough for the two to get in and out, and their invasion began.

Fangzheng was standing at the door, and Gu Yinglan was holding a tray.

On the tray were crystal shrimp dumplings and egg custard, which she loved most when she was a child. Fang Jian hadn't lost her sense of smell yet, but Fang Jian could smell it, but her preferences had changed a long time ago. Why do they always treat her as a child?

The tray was placed on the bedside table, Gu Yinglan sat down and wanted to feed her herself, Fang Jian slid under the quilt and covered her head to sleep.

"Mom saw your letter." Gu Yinglan said.

What letter?Fang Jian couldn't remember for a while.

"Mom knows, you are wronged, but you..."

Fang Jian exposed half of her head from under the quilt, with her two index fingers covering her ears, her upper and lower teeth "da da da" like sending a telegram, and her throat made a rapid and continuous "ah" sound.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah..."

"Don't listen, don't listen, Wang Ba recites the scriptures."

Gu Yinglan: "..."

Fangzheng waved his hands and sighed tiredly, "Let's go."

The house's wounds healed.

Fang Jian opened her eyes, got up from the quilt, and saw a piece of paper on the bedside.

——Mom and Dad, I have really grown up, I want to try to live alone, don't worry about me, I will work hard, and I will come back to see you often.

It was this letter.

How they can write such a thing is really ridiculous.

Fang Jian tore up the piece of paper bit by bit, and the small white pieces of paper quickly formed a small snowdrift on the quilt. She picked up the pieces of paper and stuffed them into her mouth, mixed them with saliva and slowly ground them into pulp, and swallowed them inside.

These little white pills should cure her stupidity.

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