love you, in time

September 2017, 5 Cloudy

In the evening, by the river in City A.

Chu Mian held on to the railing by the river, and walked forward idly.Suddenly, the phone in his pocket started vibrating crazily.

The word "Su Xue" appeared on the screen of the phone accompanied by vibrations.Chu Mian sighed, turned off the phone, hung up the phone, and calmed down in her ears.

The two girls behind him ran past Chu Mian chasing and fighting, causing Chu Mian to fall into a trance for a while.

Yes, they had such a time too.Su Xue was once the only salvation in Chu Mian's life.But when did it start?

Since when did the relationship between them start to deteriorate?The relationship between them was so precarious that Chu Mian had to pay unconditionally to maintain it.

Chu Mian walked along the river in silence. After that day, her heart was not as free and easy as she showed outwardly.That was the person she had put all her heart and soul into for five years. How could she just let it go?She is not a hard-hearted person.

As if thinking of something, Chu Mian lowered her head and smiled self-deprecatingly, that's great, I'm the only one alone.

Thinking of the parting with Yan Qing and the others in front of the mall two hours ago, Chu Mian smiled gratifiedly.

Lu Xiaojia has Zhang Qi, An Ruo has Jiang Jingnian, Zi Sangyu has Wen Renqing, and even his own Bingkuang cousin has Fuxi, the little sun, who loves in the dark.

So... what about yourself?

The phone vibrated crazily again, it was still Su Xue.

"Su Xue, I said..."

"You are Su Xue's friend. She drank too much with us, can you come and pick me up?" A strange female voice came from the other end of the phone, interrupting what Chu Mian had finally concocted, "This girl drank a whole lot by herself. The beer I mentioned, I just stayed on the table and refused to leave, just staring at your WeChat..."

Chu Mian stopped listening to what the boss said later.Su Xue, why bother?It was you who wanted to leave the relationship in the first place.It's you, don't want this so-called friendship!

Picking up a stone from the ground, Chu Mian stared at the river in front of her in thought, as if she had returned to the past.

"Mianmian~" Su Xue's face appeared in front of Chu Mian, is it a hallucination?That's right, this is clearly Su Xue from five years ago

"Mianmian~Look, the water I hit is farther than yours~" The slightly immature and familiar child's voice echoed in Chu Mian's ears. In a trance, Chu Mian seemed to really see Su Xue five years ago Appearing in front of her, looking up at her, softly calling her Mianmian.

"Mianmian~It hurts~hmph~you are still laughing at me" The picture in front of him changed, Chu Mian saw Su Xue sitting on the ground, and called her with a crying voice

"Xiaoxue!" Unconsciously shouted, Chu Mian realized that everything just now was just an illusion.Regardless of the strange looks from the people around her, Chu Mian turned and left the river, heading towards the address on WeChat.

"Little girl, you're here. Look, you're still holding the wine bottle." The proprietress is from the Northeast. She looks carefree but also very enthusiastic.

"Su Xue..." Chu Mian walked up to Su Xue, and she thought she spoke calmly, but in fact, there was already a trill in her voice.

"Oh, sure enough, only you will come." Su Xue blushed, looked up at Chu Mian in front of her, and laughed at herself.

"Su Xue, I'll take you home"

After Chu Mian went to the house to pay the bill, she forcefully pulled Su Xue out of the shop.Su Xue didn't resist, and obediently let her lead her, without asking where Chu Mian was going.

Unknowingly, night fell, and a cool breeze blew from the river at night, which even made Su Xue's drunkenness dissipate a lot.

Looking back, Chu Mian was only wearing a strapless sling on her upper body, sighed, took off her coat, put it on Su Xue's shoulders, and helped her gather the clothes.

"Why are you still being so nice to me? Are you stupid? Chu Mian..." Su Xue in front of her was very obedient, but what she said was still as annoying as ever.

"Whatever you want to say." After adjusting her clothes, Chu Mian pulled Su Xue forward, but this time she couldn't move.

"Su Xue!" Chu Mian was a little angry, but why?She and Su Xue no longer have any relationship, not even friends.At most, it's just a familiar stranger.

"Do you still like me, Mianmian?" At this moment, Su Xue's eyes were calm and clear, without a trace of drunkenness.

Such a rare seriousness, such a familiar title, when was the last time I heard it?Chu Mian couldn't remember clearly.

I don't know when Su Xue stopped calling her Mianmian, and she also became the current Su Xue from Xiaoxue.

Is five years a long time?Maybe.But before I knew it, it had been five years.

"Like" After a long silence, Chu Mian calmed down and spoke softly.

"Mianmian, I apologize for what happened half a month ago, come back, okay?" Today is really rare, Su Xue, who has always been aloof, would actually beg for help in such a low voice.

However, Chu Mian was not happy at all.The girl in front of her is someone she has cared about for five years. When I was by her side, when was she ever humbled, and when I was by her side, never did I let her be humbled.

Suppressing the bitterness in her heart, suppressing the pain in her eyes, "Su Xue, our friendship is over" reminding her and herself that Chu Mian puts a lot of emphasis on the word friendship.

"I'm not talking about friendship." Su Xue's eyes became a little ferocious for a moment, she stepped forward and pressed Chu Mian's shoulder, pleading frantically but humblely in her tone, "Mian Mian, come back and be my girlfriend, okay? "

The girl in front of her had long black hair messily scattered behind her back, and she looked completely embarrassed.Obviously she was the one who started hurting first, but why is she still acting like a victim now?

Chu Mian looked at Su Xue and smiled sadly and sarcastically, "Su Xue, why? And...why?"

"Mianmian...please"

"Is it because after I left, no one hugged you like I did?" Chu Mian retreated step by step as Su Xue approached, ignoring Su Xue in front of her and shook her head desperately. Do you want to be your friend?"

"Mianmian" In the past half a month, Su Xue has actually not felt well at all.Chu Mian was right, the recommended spot was given to another boy who was usually very low-key.

This time Su Xue won the emotional game with Chu Mian again, but she also lost in a mess.Su Xue actually knew Chu Mian's feelings for her very early on.

But how do they match? How is it possible for a bad girl who has nothing but grades and a three-good student who is almost perfect in every aspect.

So after realizing it, Su Xue chose to escape and stay away, and hurting Chu Mian became a way for Su Xue to protect herself.It seems that if you belittle Chu Mian a little more, you will be more qualified to say to Chu Mian: Look, no one is more worthy of you than me.

With the passage of five years, this idea became more and more crazy, and finally, it was frozen half a month ago.Chu Mian is leaving!She gave up on herself!But am I wrong?Su Xue didn't think there was anything wrong with her, she just wanted to get closer to Chu Mian.She was absolutely right, so what if she backed down again, based on her grades, wouldn't it be the same for the college entrance examination?Obviously two years ago, she also backed down!

Before I knew it, the road ahead had come to an end, and it was time to say goodbye.

Su Xue still didn't understand, she just stared straight at Chu Mian, "Mianmian, let's start over, okay, let's start from getting to know each other... okay?"

"Do it again, it's just repeating the same mistakes." Chu Mian wryly smiled and pulled Su Xue's hand off her, forcing her heart to harden, not to look at Su Xue again, "Su Xue, you should go back"

"Mianmian, I was wrong, okay...Mianmian..."

Regardless of Su Xue roaring in despair behind her, Chu Mian turned around and quickly wiped the tears off her face, and left quickly.

Chu Mian understood, how could Su Xue know that she was wrong, the current situation is just because of unwillingness.

But, why is her heart still so cold, why is her sincerity so let down, she was once her salvation!

He took out a stone from his pocket, it seems that he put it in random when he was thinking wildly, Chu Mian threw the stone with all his strength, watched it jump on the water surface, finally sank to the bottom of the river, Can't stir up a little splash.

Let it be like this, the former Xiaoxue is gone and now Su Xue is just a bloody scar on her heart.It will be fine, it's just a matter of time.

Looking at the quiet river, Chu Mian held back tears not to let them fall:

Su Xue, in the past five years, she bet everything for you and me, but she lost everything.I don't want to blame you, and I won't blame you. I understand the truth that people are not for themselves, and heaven and earth are destroyed.

Xiaoxue, I like you, but I don't have the courage to repeat the same mistakes with you.

When she looked up again, Chu Mian had already stood at the door of a bar named Time, she was stunned for a long time, and finally chose to walk in.

For the last time, let me boldly say that I like you for the last time, and there will never be a fool named Chu Mian in the future.After today, no matter how difficult it is, Su Xue, I will start all over again.

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Come on as you like, I really didn't write abuse on purpose