all the way to the sun

The sky was overcast, but after a while, the warmth of the morning disappeared. Lin Hua lingered on Wutong Avenue for a while, then sat casually on a chair by the side of the road, looking into the distance, but his eyes were not focused.

Yesterday, when she met Lu Yang, she found that he was not in a good state of mind, and saw that Xiang Bei was following him but was deliberately ignored by him. The two of them seemed to be at odds with each other as mysteriously, she quietly followed them all the way out of curiosity, I wanted to explore the situation first, and then persuade them one by one to resolve the misunderstanding between them, but in the remote back garden, I heard some words that should not be heard, because the distance is a bit far, those words are intermittent, and I can’t tell you. She had a complete story, but after a night of cranky thinking, she pieced together a framework. She was so shocked that she almost lost sleep, so she called Lu Yang early in the morning and wanted to ask him to talk.

She was in a daze when she suddenly felt a shadow cast over her head.

Lu Yang stood in front of Lin Hua and nodded slightly, "Mr. Lin, I'm sorry I'm late."

Lin Hua hurriedly returned to his seat, and raised the corners of his mouth at the person who came, with a stiff smile: "Here we come!"

Lu Yang nodded, seeing Lin Hua's unnatural expression, his heart beat, but he didn't intend to say more.

After a moment of silence, Lin Hua hesitated and asked: "Lu Yang, has something happened to Xiao Bei recently? I feel that he is not in a good condition... I mean, he went to see Xiao Bei two days ago. En help delete something, it seems to be a video or something, do you know what's going on?"

video?These two words were like a thorn, piercing Lu Yang's heart severely, and then he remembered what the principal showed him, and his mind suddenly became confused, and he was vague: "I don't know, how much do you know?"

Lin Hua shook his head: "I don't know too well, both he and Sean are hiding from me, and it seems that Sean doesn't know much about it. Hey, Xiaobei has grown up and has his own ideas. I can't interfere with many things. " She glanced at Lu Yang, pursed her lips and continued: "But you are different, you can look at him. After all, you are not only his teacher, but also his good friend, and he can listen to your words, So, if he does something inappropriate, you, as a teacher, are much older than him, and you should be able to set things right and get him back on the right track."

Lu Yang frowned, not quite understanding what Lin Hua meant, but he guessed that Lin Hua must have said this because Xiang Bei was in a bad mood recently, hoping that he could comfort Xiang Bei.

Thinking that when he was suddenly hit and felt ashamed and indignant, Xiang Bei, a half-year-old boy who was not yet 20 years old, actually protected him behind him and solved the matter alone, and he kept telling him that. When he was sad, he felt that he was such a jerk, and that he should apologize to Xiang Bei to make him feel at ease.

Thinking of this, Lu Yang felt that it was a good thing that he hesitated last night and didn't insist on severing ties with Xiang Bei, otherwise he would really be sorry for Xiang Bei's intentions.

At this moment, his heart was warm, and he just wanted to go home quickly and meet the little kid who didn't clean up.

"Mr. Lin, although I don't quite understand what you said, I will take good care of him. If there is nothing wrong, I will leave first."

"Lu Yang!" Lin Hua called to stop Lu Yang, "You resigned?"

Lu Yang was slightly taken aback. It turned out that the headmaster said this, and he still saved him a bit of face, so he nodded: "Yeah."

"why?"

Lu Yang looked at Lin Hua's hesitant expression, and couldn't help wondering: "What do you want to ask?"

Lin Hua bit his lips without saying a word, and after a while he opened his mouth under Lu Yang's curious eyes: "Did you do something you shouldn't do, that's why you want to resign?"

Lu Yang avoided Lin Hua's probing gaze in panic, and forced a smile: "It's nothing, it's just for personal reasons."

Lin Hua stepped forward and stared at Lu Yang: "Is it related to Xiang Bei?"

Lu Yang thought that Lin Hua knew something and was very at a loss. Now that he heard what she said, he became confused again. He looked at Lin Hua and expressed his doubts with his eyes.

Lin Hua took a deep breath, as if she mustered up so much courage, she looked straight at Lu Yang: "You and Xiaobei, what's going on?" Seeing Lu Yang's eyes twitch, her brows frowned even tighter. : "You guys are... in a relationship, right?"

Hearing this, Lu Yang's doubts dissipated, but a dark cloud instantly suppressed him.The relationship between him and Xiangbei is not even clear to the two of them. Could it be that there are already clues?Then the thoughts of family members become extremely important!

Lu Yang was very anxious and looked at Lin Hua nervously, not knowing how to answer the question.

Lin Hua pondered for a moment, then sighed silently: "Yesterday, in the back garden, I heard what you and Xiang Bei said - you don't have to look at me like this, I just saw that you two were not in a good state at the time, and I was curious Just followed. I just didn’t expect to find out what you said... How could you say such a thing! Do you know what you are doing? You are a teacher, how can you Think about what you are doing! Xiangbei is still a child, why did you attack him!"

Lu Yang lowered his head and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry." He suddenly remembered his impulsiveness that night, and Xiang Bei's words "don't hide anymore", and felt ashamed, yes, why he couldn't control his thoughts so much.Fortunately, he is determined to take good care of Xiangbei from now on, and to make up for it slowly in the future.

Lin Hua nodded: "Since you know what you did wrong, don't provoke Xiaobei again!"

Lu Yang raised his head suddenly: "What do you mean?"

Lin Hua was dumbfounded when she heard the words, as if the connotation of the four words Lu Yang asked was scary, she glanced around to make sure that there was no one around, and then hurriedly persuaded in a low voice: "You are an adult, and you are older than you?" Xiaobei is old, so he should know what he can do and what he can't do! Not to mention you are a teacher, he is your student, just say that you are both men, this kind of thing, absurd once is enough, fresh and fresh Don’t continue if you are satisfied with curiosity. You have to remember that you are a teacher, and don’t hook up with your students casually.”

Lu Yang glanced at Lin Hua with dark eyes. He thought Lin Hua was blaming him for not cherishing Xiang Bei, but he didn't expect her to mean that he was just driven by curiosity to seduce Xiang Bei to do absurd things. A little angry for a while: "Mr. Lin, in your eyes, is this kind of person I am?" Lu Yang snorted coldly: "There is no curiosity between me and Xiangbei, please pay attention to your words."

Lin Hua spread his hands speechlessly: "Huh? It's not curiosity? What do you mean, you are... well, even if you are, Xiao Bei is not. He has had girlfriends, he likes girls, You can't provoke him just because of your own preferences, can you let him go!"

Lu Yang was a little annoyed, not only because Lin Hua's words were very insulting, but also because his already unresolute heart wavered again, and this "wavering" made him fear that he was about to fall into the quagmire again. Cold, every nerve in him became sensitive: "Lin Hua, you don't need to worry about my affairs with him!"

Lin Hua stopped Lu Yang from where he was going: "I am her sister, so of course I have to worry about his future! You can associate with him regardless, but have you ever thought that your relationship can be accepted by your family, relatives and friends? You can do it yourself I don't care about the pointing and pointing of the people around me, but what about Xiang Bei? He is still young and cannot fully mature to take responsibility for his own decisions! How will he face the eyes of the people around him? Lu Yang, as a teacher, you should lead by example , to guide young people to make the right choices, instead of using your own selfishness to influence the future of others! Especially, your choices are unusual!"

Lu Yang was stunned by the call. He bit the corner of his mouth and remained silent. He couldn't hear what Lin Hua was still saying. Indulging himself in the warmth given to him by Xiangbei, he dragged Xiangbei into the water little by little.

He managed to stabilize his swaying figure, looked directly at Lin Hua without the embarrassment, and murmured in a tight voice: "I will deal with my own affairs, and it has nothing to do with others. I will leave first if I have nothing else to do." .” As soon as the words fell, he fled in a hurry.

On the way home, the cold wind slapped Lu Yang's face, but in just a few minutes, he felt the invisible string between his temples was frozen stiff in the wind, and he felt a headache when he turned his head a little. crack.He wrapped his scarf tightly, looked at the gloomy sky, thought to himself how it was already March, why it was still so cold, and couldn't help feeling that this winter had passed too long, as if he couldn't see the shadow of spring.

Lu Yang walked alone silently in a daze, until the phone vibrated in his pocket, and then he regained his messy thoughts floating in the sky.

After connecting the phone, I heard Gao Yu's concerned voice: "Lu Yang, where are you? I went to the school to tell you that you resigned, what's going on?"

Lu Yang's hand holding the phone tightened, and then let go, his bluish-white joints bled back: "It's nothing. Gao Yu, do me a favor..."

Pressing the "call end" button, Lu Yang looked up at the gray sky and muttered to himself, "It's March, when will spring begin?"

When I got home, there was no one as I expected.

Just now, Lu Yang asked Gao Yu to talk to Xiang Bei about this relationship as someone who has been there, and advised him to turn back in time and stop entangled in it. At the same time, he told Gao Yu that he could tell his experience 20 years ago if necessary. Xiang Bei, let him know that Lu Yang doesn't want to have emotional entanglements with others.

Looking at the empty room, Lu Yang realized for the first time that the room was so empty and silent, and it was still air-conditioned.

He changed his shoes, turned on the air conditioner, and walked to the floor-to-ceiling windows. Amidst the flickering neon lights outside the window, with a gloomy face, he recalled what Xiang Bei had said to him and Lin Hua's worries.

At this moment, he was standing in front of the window, in the flickering light, constantly speculating on how Gao Yu would persuade Xiang Bei. He hoped that Xiang Bei would no longer be paranoid, but also worried that after his past was known to him, he would would loathe themselves.

"I just want to use this to disgust him and tell him not to bother me? Why worry!" Lu Yang clenched his fists tightly, as if he was looking for a kind of comfort.

Just when his thoughts were in a mess, there was a "click" on the door, which shook his hemp balls away.

He held his breath and stared at the door, as if waiting for execution.

The person at the door turned on the light as soon as he entered the door, looking devastated, until he saw Lu Yang standing by the balcony, he rushed over nervously and hugged Lu Yang: "I'm sorry, you have been wronged."

Lu Yang: "?"

Lu Yang didn't react for a moment, he froze in a slightly bent backward posture, with his hands hanging down at a loss.

But Xiang Bei didn't notice this, he just hugged Lu Yang tightly with all his heart, and his tone was like an elder comforting a child: "I know you were humiliated when you were young, and I hate them to death, but I hate myself for not getting to know you earlier, No, I was born a few years before you and protected you by my side, so I let you suffer this kind of shit. But it’s okay, now you have me, if you want to pursue those things, I will accompany you to pursue them, if you want to Let them go, and I will accompany you to the future." Xiangbei let go of Lu Yang, and squeezed his shoulders with both hands: "Lu Yang, I know, maybe because of those old things, you have difficulties in your heart. Gao Yu said, you Maybe it’s because of those things that I reject girls, so I like boys and have feelings for me. But it’s okay, I don’t care, as long as you are good! If you want, I will accompany you to see a psychiatrist, maybe one day, you Can overcome psychological trauma." Xiangbei smiled bitterly: "If you can accept girls again at that time, I will stay away from you and never disturb you, but before that day comes, let me accompany you. Come on, don't reject me again, okay?"

Hearing this, Lu Yang narrowed his eyes, his expression changed subtly, his lips trembled slightly as if he wanted to say something, but he couldn't say a word for a while.

How did Gao Yu persuade Xiang Bei? The result was completely unexpected, but it was so heart-warming and irresistible. He even wanted time to stop at this moment and never change.

However, reason finally defeated emotion, and Lu Yang struggled to push Xiangbei away: "You... pack up and go back to school. If you are not used to living in school, go to your father's place. From now on, you and I won't We've been dating." His tone was steady, but there was a hint of firm coolness.

Looking at Lu Yang in a daze to the north, he didn't seem to understand what he meant. He licked his dry lips, suppressing the obvious anger: "Don't... come back and forth? Why? It's because of your psychological trauma , just because you think you changed your hobbies because of those bad things? Didn’t I say it all, when you recover and change one day, I will leave, I won’t pester you, I just want to be in Why did you refuse to take care of you before you completely walked out? Wait, did you go to see Lin Hua, did she say something that affected your mood-you were fine in the morning, there is no reason to suddenly become like this, it must be What did she say, you tell me, I will solve it!"

Lu Yang ignored him and walked towards the bedroom on his own, but was grabbed by Xiang Bei.

"Are you going to hide in the bedroom again and ignore me? Why do you like to play cold war so much! Is there anything you can't say to solve it? Do you want my heart to experience the feeling of riding a roller coaster! You can't treat me Better!"

Lu Yang's heart was blocked, he struggled a few times and withdrew his hand, turned around and looked at Xiang Bei, and continued to speak in an emotionless voice: "I think, Gao Yu explained it wrong, I lost my memory after that incident Now, there is no so-called psychological trauma, don't be self-righteous. Since Gao Yu didn't make it clear, then I will tell you about our affairs-you and I are just friends, there is no so-called relationship, huh, Getting along day and night is very easy to create illusions. If someone else eats, lives, enters and exits at the same time, maybe they will also have extraordinary feelings. This is the same for you and me. Therefore, if we communicate less, there will be no With so much concern and concern, maybe you can understand your own heart."

Xiang Bei laughed out loud. He opened his hands and stretched his arms towards Lu Yang: "Don't you understand? I'm just interested in you, and so are you. Even if we had doubts before, let's calm down for a while Time, the result, it’s not back to the original point! Lu Yang, can’t you face up to your feelings?”

Lu Yang: "Don't you understand? We are all men."

Xiang Bei was even more helpless: "What's wrong with men? Men can't be together anymore? Who made the rules! The Wei and Jin Dynasties were so masculine! What do you have to be afraid of? Don't let my sister down?" He said, and he glanced at Lu Yang resentfully.

Lu Yang shook his head hastily: "Of course not." He had lost all interest in Lin Hua for a long time, and when he saw Xiang Bei looking at him like that, he felt aggrieved and worried, but he regretted it as soon as he said the words, why should he explain, why not? Maybe it's a cover for that.

But Xiang Bei seemed to see through his mind at a glance, and joked: "I don't care, even if you still have my sister in your heart, then I will try to tie you by my side! Don't even try to escape."

Lu Yang clutched the corner of his clothes, anxious, he loosened his voice and continued to persuade Xiang Bei: "Do you know why your little uncle Xiang Heng doesn't come home all the year round?"

Xiang Bei couldn't keep up with Lu Yang's jumping thinking, and shook his head blankly.

Lu Yang: "That day in Pingcheng, I saw Xiang Heng and a man going in and out of the supermarket together. They acted intimately like husband and wife. They must also be dating. He hasn't come home all year round, which means he can't go home. What does that mean? You know what? It means that no one in your family agrees with the relationship."

"You haven't entered the society yet, so you can do whatever you want, but once you get out of the ivory tower, have you ever thought about how many people you know well will point out our relationship. Have you considered your father's feelings, what will he think?"

Xiang Bei finally understood what Lu Yang was worried about, and suddenly felt angry and funny, he said in a neutral manner: "You know, I never care about other people's eyes, and my private affairs have nothing to do with others, as for My dad, you don’t have to worry about it, I will make it clear to him... It’s okay to be scolded by him at worst! I will convince him.” He stretched out his hand to hold Lu Yang: “You Don't think too much about it, okay, you always want to drive me away, and if you can't drive me away, you can ask Gao Yu to be a lobbyist. Don’t you like your relationship with Gao Yu? You still have to use him as a shield! Besides, you provoked me first, if it wasn’t for that night...so you have to be responsible!”

Lu Yang, who was a little shaken at first, immediately remembered his wicked behavior when he heard this. When he knew that Xiangbei might have thoughts about him, he obviously had many opportunities to cut off these thoughts, but he always thought of him because of himself. Instead, he allowed this relationship to take root, and even impulsively acted intimately. This kind of behavior is indeed as Lin Hua said, without the morality of the teacher.So he withdrew his hand again, and glanced at Xiangbei in a cold tone: "Enough, you and I really can't be together, let's break up after we have played enough."

"I didn't play! I'm serious. If you don't believe me, I'll take you home now. Let's go see my dad and tell him that we..."

"Don't talk about it anymore." Lu Yang interrupted Xiang Bei's more wanton thoughts, "This is the end of this matter!"

"I don't care!" Xiang Bei suddenly got Gao Yu's true biography, and hugged Lu Yang with a stern face: "Anyway, I don't plan to let you go, you reject yours, I like mine, it has nothing to do with each other! Anyway, I I just want to rely on you, unless you say you don't like me, you hate me! Otherwise, I won't let you go." He raised his eyes to look at Lu Yang, and the two of them were so close that their noses almost touched each other.

This intimacy, which is almost as close as ear to ear, makes Lu Yang's mind sway, the bright light in the room is getting farther and farther away, and the lacquer night gradually engulfs the two of them.Some noisy voices were arguing in his heart, and he tensed his body to feel Xiangbei's body temperature, and he felt that he was about to be unable to hold on due to the hot and humid snorting.

After a long time, he finally exhaled helplessly, lowered his eyes, and stopped struggling.

Xiang Bei curled his lips, and said angrily: "I know you are reluctant to say those words, I know you have me in your heart, you, you, why are you thinking so much. Life is only a few dozen years, and it is unknown whether you can die well. Why not?" Do you know how to cherish the present?" He lightly touched Lu Yang's chin with his forehead: "Obviously I have feelings, so why bother to suppress myself! Lu Yang, let's not get stuck in the past, and don't worry about the future, just live the present well ,OK?"

Lu Yang was stunned for a long time, not knowing what he was thinking, and then nodded subtly for a long time.

Just such a small movement gave Xiang Bei a reassurance. He couldn't help but hug Lu Yang tightly again, merging him into his chest, greedily sucking the smell of his neck.

It's great, he thought to himself, he can finally be with Lu Yang, his teacher Lu will never push him away again!

Just when Xiangbei was indulging in Lu Yang's breath and wanted to hug him forever, his cell phone rang inappropriately.

This sound made Lu Yang suddenly stop his hands that wanted to hug Xiangbei back.

He looked at Xiang Bei, hesitantly turned on the phone, put it to his ear, and called "Dad", all of his heart was raised.

Until Xiang Bei hung up the phone, he still failed to appease that overactive heart: "Uncle, what do you want?"

Xiang Bei nodded, put his phone away, and held Lu Yang's hand: "Don't worry, I'll go back and tell Dad about the two of us."

"Don't be impulsive, let me think again."

Xiang Bei replied unhappily: "Is there anything to think about. Isn't that what it is? You have to talk about it sooner or later."

"No, no, this matter...I'm afraid...wait, or...forget it."

"Whatever it is!" Xiang Bei held Lu Yang's hand tightly, for fear that he would start acting out some rejection drama if he changed his mind, "I have the final say on this matter! You can stay at home with peace of mind, I will come back Go home and come back soon! You remember your promise to me, you can't push me away, you can't let me go, this relationship belongs to the two of us, you can't do whatever you want alone!"

Lu Yang wanted to say something else, but Xiang Bei didn't give him a chance, and quickly left the door.