all the way to the sun

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I don't know how long he slept, but Gao Yu always cared about the people in the next room, tossed and turned and couldn't sleep well, woke up in a daze, and glanced at the door with half-opened eyes.

This look made him startled and woke up completely: "Ah, why don't you stay up in the middle of the night and stand beside my bed acting in ghost movies?"

Obviously, Gu Ze was also startled by Gao Yu who suddenly opened his eyes, his shoulders shook twice, and he hesitated: "I, I dreamed that we were chased and hacked by those people. Teacher Lu is covered in blood, you Also... died..." The last two words exhausted Gu Ze's strength, he was afraid to say this word, but he wanted to tell Gao Yu his worry.But when these two words were spoken, it seemed as if all the blood in his body was drained, and his heart was pressed into the icy water, and the painful person was trembling from the hair to the toes.

Gao Yu didn't know about these tensions. He thought that Gu Ze's trembling was caused by the damn cold weather. He cursed secretly that the floor heating in the room wasn't warm enough to cool his beloved Gu Ze, so he lifted the quilt and patted the Patted the bed: "Come in, don't freeze."

Gu Zeben clenched his hands shyly, wanting to refuse, but unexpectedly retreated into the warm bedding, immersing himself in Gao Yu's body fragrance.

The dream just now was too scary. In the dream, Gu Ze lost his beloved forever. Fortunately, after waking up from the dream, it was all a false alarm. He sat on the bed in a daze for a long time, and finally couldn't hold it back. Wanting to take a look at his sweetheart, he tiptoed into Gao Yu's room, stood at the head of his bed, and looked at his peaceful sleeping face carefully and over and over again, for fear that in the blink of an eye, the person in front of him would be surprised. It just disappeared—he didn't want to feel empty and broken anymore!

Lying beside the person he loves at this moment, Gu Ze's heart is so stable that he has an illusion that if he lies down like this, he will be able to lie down forever for a lifetime.

However, the person next to the pillow gave him not only peace of mind, but also a very tempting deodorant. The fragrance burst into his brain forcefully, stirring up waves of heat in his blood. He was afraid that he would do something that would scare the person next to him, so he had to try his best to suppress his eagerness to move.

Although he tried his best to restrain himself from wanting to touch Gao Yu, the hairs on his arms stood up one by one, clamoring to stretch towards Gao Yu, as if to pull him to wrap tightly around the fragrant pillow like an octopus , as if in that way, people's hearts will be satisfied and at ease.

Just when Gu Ze was at war between heaven and man, Gao Yu unconsciously stretched out his hand and pulled him over to his body: "Look at you, I'll warm you up." Tucking the corner of the quilt, this thoughtfulness really made Gu Ze startled into a thin layer of sweat.

Gu Ze stared at the face dangling in front of his eyes, licked his dry lips, and clenched his hands tightly, afraid that he would not be able to restrain himself from doing something wicked: "I'm not cold, you lie down quickly, lest The cold air is poured into the quilt, and you will catch a cold."

Gao Yu shrank back under the blanket obediently, approached Gu Ze and continued to be a warm baby. After thinking for a while, he said, "Tomorrow, I will accompany you to resign, let's change jobs, so that those people will not come to you again—or you should come back to work , I can rest assured that you are by my side."

Gu Ze rolled his eyes down, and declined "Nuan Baobao"'s suggestion: "Let's go back to you, I'm afraid that those people will make trouble in the company, it's not good, if it hurts you, I will hate myself Yes." Then he sighed: "I'm afraid I can't escape those people even if I resign."

"Why?" Gao Yu slightly turned his head and stared at Gu Ze.

Feeling the gaze of the person next to his pillow, Gu Ze tensed his body nervously, forcing himself not to explore those desires: "Those people are nightmares, once you get entangled, you can't get rid of them." He pulled his tense voice, pulled There was a little hoarse nervousness.

The quiet and dark night can always make people clearly recall those past moments. Whether the owner is willing or not, the light and shadow of those pictures will rush into the mind powerfully, filling every gap, and then no matter whether it is happiness or sadness, it will be infinitely magnified. It spread from that part of the brain to the whole room, as if the air in the whole room was filled with happy laughter or sad weeping.

Gu Ze hid himself in this quiet night, revealed his past nervously and indulgently, next to the warmth of love at first sight, stripped himself little by little, and showed him to the other party.

"As long as I can remember, I haven't had a father, so I have suffered a lot of bullying since I was a child. But it's okay, I still have a mother... Although she sometimes thinks that I am her drag. But every time I take She was very happy when she came back with the certificate and the scholarship, so I have been studying hard... It would be great if I could keep going like this. Later, when I was in middle school, for some reason, a group of people complained They have to collect protection fees, and if they don’t pay or can’t afford it, they will be beaten. My family has no money, so I’m always beaten—if I have money, I don’t give it to them. My mother earns it by sewing clothes. But if I get hurt, I have to go to the clinic It costs money to see a doctor, so I started hanging out with them and being their younger brother—am I a bad person?" Gu Ze laughed self-deprecatingly.

Gao Yu shook his head with a smile, and gently patted Gu Ze's arm with his hand hidden under the quilt.

Gu Ze smiled at Gao Yu. He thought he would be ashamed to tell Gao Yu about his past, but when he really opened his mouth, the desire to tell Gao Yu became stronger, and the sense of security also followed, as if to put his most dilapidated On the one hand, show it to the beloved, if the beloved does not care, then the place with him is the best safe haven.

He turned his head to stare at the fuzzy overhead light, and said in a calm voice: "I help them run errands, fight, give them homework, and sometimes help them cheat. It's a good deal, right. It's just that they asked me to collect protection fees... This makes me very embarrassed, because most of the people who receive protection fees are like me-the family is in trouble, and where else can I get it? It’s worth it. Sometimes I can’t stand it, and I will secretly help them pay part of it. When I have no money, I can only do odd jobs, lest my mother find out that I have used the pocket money, and I will definitely be angry.”

Gao Yu curled his lips and thought: Silly boy, your mother loves you so much, why would you get angry before you have time? Shouldn't you tell your parents or teachers about these things?But despite thinking this way, Gao Yu still succumbed to the reality. After all, there are so many school violence that cannot be solved by relying on parents or a few teachers.

"Afterwards, I seem to have told you. After entering, the people in the same cell will bully the newcomers in groups. But it doesn't matter if they are beaten. If they are happy, I will be safe. And you know, obedient people The sentence will be commuted. I have been working hard to rehabilitate. Although I don’t want to believe that I really killed someone, I have been obedient in order to come out earlier. Fortunately, my sentence was commuted and I was released a while ago. Heh, It's a pity, but my mother left—the neighbor's aunt said that within a few months after I went in, my mother ran away with someone."

Gao Yu heard the suppressed crying, and when he was about to comfort me, Gu Ze suddenly raised his voice: "Don't comfort me, I understand her. Who would want a son who causes trouble, murders and goes to jail? I am so useless, who would want family like me."

"Nonsense, I just want it." Gao Yu blurted out, he didn't want Gu Ze to belittle himself like this, he couldn't bear it, couldn't bear the slightest grievance for his beloved.

Gu Ze bit his lower lip and took deep breaths, trying to calm himself down.

Although he knows that Gao Yu will always give him warmth when he needs it, every time he hears words of concern with his own ears, there will be a kind of surprise and excitement for the first time knowing that he cares about him.

After a while, he recovered his voice: "I thought I could start all over again after I got out, so I planned to work part-time to earn some money, and then continue to study. Unexpectedly, they were also released from prison—the people in the same cell as me , I even ran into them! They were the ones who came to block me for money today. I fought with them several times, and I ended up with them. In prison, I will naturally not be afraid of them. After all, after the round of fighting with them, they will I knew it was not easy to hit me, so I stopped. But when I came out, I... Somehow, I was afraid of them after I came out. Maybe, I was afraid that they would bring up the old things again——I don’t want to be a bad person , I want to make a clean break with my past, I really just want to work hard, take another exam, and then..." and then be with you, evenly matched.

Gu Ze is really embarrassed to say the last words, because he is too self-aware, facing Gao Yu, he may only be far behind.

Gao Yu nodded, and involuntarily hugged Gu Ze sideways. The hot and humid breath made Gu Ze instantly turn into a cooked prawn: "Don't be afraid, with me here, I will protect you."

Gu Jiwei Xia Ze vigorously pulled the screwed head around his neck, made a gesture of nodding, and turned around hastily, for fear that his stiff posture would reveal his rascal thoughts.

Gao Yu didn't understand why Gu Ze pointed his butt at him suddenly, but the back of his hand touched the elastic but slightly thin buttocks, his mind flickered, and he stared at the thin back and involuntarily played out another indescribable scene in his mind , I smacked my lips in displeasure: If I hadn’t been injured today, I would have given you the right to "rectify the law on the spot" just because you tempted me in the middle of the night.