all the way to the sun

Gu Ze was thinking about how to get his notebook back and leave here, so that he would not be too ridiculous in his eyes, when suddenly he smelled a vague fragrance.

The dark fragrance floated, like a sedative, calming down his drifting thoughts.

He couldn't help but use the cover of his bangs to look for fragrances secretly.

Gao Yu's neckline was slightly open, and his beige chest was looming.This dazzling picture was captured in his eyes exactly.He suddenly felt hot all over his body, and a rush of blood rushed to the top of his head.Before he knew what was going on, Mr. Gao, who took temptation seriously, pulled out a few pieces of paper from the side and covered his nose with concern. He also held his nose in panic, wiped the nosebleed with one hand, and was I wondered why I had a nosebleed, maybe the weather was too dry, and I saw the angry Mr. Gao trembling with laughter, as if he saw something great and so happy.

He held his nose in a daze and stared straight at Mr. Gao who was laughing angrily. Monk Zhang Er was puzzled.

Finally, Mr. Gao, who was shaking his electronic voice, used all the nerves in his face, stopped his smile, coughed twice, and said slowly: "Yo, young people are very angry."

When Gu Ze heard this, he suddenly felt as if some corners and corners of his secret covered with a frosted cover had been exposed, and the people who watched the theater took it and passed it on to the outside world, feeling ashamed and indignant.

He stood up abruptly, without paying attention, knocked his forehead against Gao Yu's chin, and when he saw Gao Yu's facial features wrinkled together, he stretched out his hand first, but when he thought that he was still laughing at him just a second ago, he backed away in a daze The hand in the air tightly clutched the corner of the clothes, puffed up and said: "Return the book to me."

"And then?" Gao Yu stroked his sore chin, thinking that this kid is really strong.

Gu Ze lowered his head and said nothing.

Gao Yu sighed softly. After a while, he walked to the dining table, picked up the notebook, frowned with his back to Gu Ze, and said lightly, "Then, you leave here, leave Anshi? Never come back again?" ?”

Gu Ze, in fact, there is no need for you to leave. Of course I will trust you, and I will not think you are a bad person because of this. You will understand how to do it. I really want to treat you well.

Gao Yu turned around and looked at Gu Ze, with a stream of tenderness in his eyes: "Ah Ze, don't leave, I will be with you, no matter what difficulties you encounter, you can tell me, I'm here, I won't let anyone bully you, really."

Gu Ze was obviously stunned by these words, he stared straight at Gao Yu, his eyes were full of doubts, but the crystals in the corners of his eyes revealed the tremor in his heart.

Gao Yu took a deep look at him, and suddenly asked very embarrassingly: "You don't hate me, so you want to leave so much." He really opened his eyes and said nonsense, but he still asked like that.

Gu Ze was surprised again: Did he read the diary or did he not?But before he could express his complicated feelings, he shook his head like a rattle: "Of course not, I don't hate you, you are so nice."

"That's what you like about me."

"I······"

"Isn't the antonym of hate just like liking? If you don't hate, that means liking!"

Gao Yu tilted his head, crossed his arms, and admired Gu Ze who was poking awkwardly on the spot. He was in a good mood, and the tenderness just now was instantly washed away by the nonsense words, which made obedient people feel helpless from nervousness.

Seeing that Gu Ze did not speak again, Gao Yu felt that the situation was very good, and planned to take advantage of the victory to pursue and take down the city named "Gu Ze" in one fell swoop.

However, before he could do anything, Gu Ze suddenly said, "I'm not a good person."

Gao Yu was slightly taken aback, as if he didn't understand where the endless words came from, but he vaguely felt that there was something in the words. After a while, he realized that what he said was very similar to what he said when he declined the friendship of a girl. He smiled calmly: "I didn't say I was a good person."

Gu Ze shook his head: "No, you are a good person, but I am not."

Gao Yu pretended not to understand: "Okay then, but does being a good person have anything to do with whether you like me or not?"

Gu Ze's eyes flashed with shame, he pondered for a moment, as if he had made up his mind, and then said quietly: "I have been in prison, my hands are not clean."

"So?" Gao Yu spread out his hands in an indifferent gesture.

Now Gu Ze is in a hurry, could it be that he doesn't understand what he said.He restructured his language and continued: "I've been in prison, aren't you afraid?"

Gao Yu shook his head and curled his lips to show that he didn't care.

Gu Ze continued: "But I'm afraid, I'm afraid of meeting those people and things again, I'm afraid that I'll hurt you, I'm afraid..." I'm afraid that my liking will tarnish you, in the last half sentence, Gu Ze He dared not speak out, for fear that speaking out would pollute Gao Yu's ears.

Gao Yu smiled: "I said, I don't care, and I believe you, I believe that there must be a reason or some misunderstanding for you to do those things, but those are all in the past, it's okay. So, don't think about the past, the past is just Let it go, let's live the present and the future, shall we?"

Seeing that Gu Ze was stunned, he sighed softly, walked up to him, handed him the book, and said softly: "Ah Ze, you should like me, and I like you too, if you don't mind , I hope you can consider staying and we can live a good life here together, don't worry, I will never wrong you or let anyone bully you."

Hearing this, Gu Ze looked deeply at Gao Yu, his throat rolling up and down.

Since his father passed away, how long has no one said these words to him, how long has no one been so gentle to him.Whether it's his mother who treats him indifferently, or bullying his classmates who don't have a father, or the "big brother" in high school, or the "boss" in prison, no one has ever really taken him as a person, let alone Care about him and say those heartwarming words.

In the face of that unfriendly world, he always likes to hide himself and be an ostrich. In order to avoid being beaten and to have his own time to study, he assimilates himself into a strong and violent party time and time again, but he still can't get it back. He wants dignity and peace.

He has long been used to other people's indifference or even spurning, but he never knows how to get along with others, let alone how to care for others.

After a long time, his dry and astringent voice sounded like the dry and cracked land without rain for a long time: "I have never killed anyone." He didn't know why he said this, but he vaguely felt that he didn't want that person to kill anyone. Those who speak well of him fear him.

It was another sentence without beginning or end, but Gao Yu understood that Gu Ze wanted to explain his past.

Gao Yu held his heart, stared at him calmly, and listened to that dry voice with every cell in his body.

"My father died when I was young, and I was always bullied because of this. My older classmates would ask people like me to collect protection money. I had no money and couldn't afford it, so they beat me. Later I In order to avoid being bullied, I worshiped one of them as the eldest brother. Once, the eldest brother and the others wanted to 'greeting' to a person from another grade, so they asked us to fill in the battle. We went and brought some guys. To scare the other party, I didn't expect that person to find a group of people, and he also took the guy. Later, the two parties couldn't agree, and there was a conflict, and we didn't know who made the move first. In short, we got into a ball. It happened. I can't remember anything. I just feel that someone is hitting me on the back, kicking my waist, and kicking my thigh. I was afraid, and I slammed a stick at someone as soon as I gritted my teeth. Everyone was torn together, the scene was too messy, I I've never seen this kind of battle. I don't remember how I hit anyone, and I don't remember who hit me. I just remember that I was pushed, and I bumped into someone, and then someone shouted to kill, Many people surrounded me, pointing at me and saying that I killed someone." He swallowed, and continued: "I really don't know what happened, obviously the steel rod I held turned into a knife, I I just hit people, I didn’t intend to kill people. But no one believed it, and the police said that the evidence was solid. Later, I was sentenced and I didn’t even finish high school. "At the end of Gu Ze's speech, his emotions were a little out of control, his face was ashen, he spoke incoherently, his hands hanging by his sides were clenched into fists, his pale fingers seemed to crush his past, and then he searched through the dross for that day. Traces of the whole incident.

Gao Yu felt distressed when he saw this, and hurried over to put his arms around his shoulders, pressed him on the sofa, poured him another cup of hot water and stuffed it into his hand, and comforted him: "It's okay, it's all over. I believe You. Don’t think about the past, you have me now, don’t think about those.”

After a long time, perhaps the temperature of the cup warmed the palm of his hand, and even warmed the heart that was chilled in the late autumn. Gu Ze just pulled away from the tragic memory. He raised his head, his scattered eyes were in the In a panic in the dark, he didn't choose his way, and after several collisions, he came into focus under the pale light.He stared at Gao Yu, and said timidly: "Mr. Gao, I probably haven't killed anyone, and I don't know what happened that day. It's too messy! But I always feel that I won't do that kind of thing. You trust me!" His face was full of uneasiness and longing, as if Gao Yu's trust in him was a very important thing.

It is a terrible thing to be distrusted by someone you care about, like losing your only concern and support.

Gao Yu can empathize with this point.

So, Gao Yu gently hugged Gu Ze, and whispered in his ear: "I believe in you!"

"Really?"

"Well, really!"