bad kid

Ruan Zhimu dozed off with his head leaning against the car window.

Today is the tenth day in Northern Europe.

The heavy snow has been falling intermittently for ten days, and there is no sign of it shrinking today. According to Vivian, as soon as the town enters winter, it will be covered with heavy snow for the entire month. Residents who live in the area all year round have already Habit.

Ruan Zhimu is not used to it.

He was going to freeze to death.

Since I came here, I have been nesting in the villa, with the warm air conditioner turned on all day, but now I suddenly ran out of the villa, and I was so cold that I sneezed as soon as I went out.

Yan Yue went to the room to get a camel cashmere coat, wrapped him tightly from head to toe, and put baby warmers on his lower abdomen and calves, but it was still not enough in the room.

Ruan Zhimu followed behind Yan Yue, yawning, eyes drooping, two rows of footprints meandering in the snow, one deep and one shallow.

Later, he was stuffed into an off-road vehicle by Yan Yue. The army green body looked cool, but Ruan Zhimu had no time to admire the handsome appearance of the off-road vehicle, and fell asleep as soon as he got in the vehicle.

Sitting in the passenger seat, with his head pressed against the car window, he swayed like a hibernating animal.

Yan Yue sighed lightly, probably finally accepting this reality: "Forget it, you're going to sleep, go to the back seat to sleep, take off your shoes, turn on the air conditioner, and you'll warm up in a while."

So Ruan Zhimu happily climbed to the back seat.

He told Yan Yue: "I have dreamed of lying in the back seat of the car before, but I never had the chance, hehe."

Yan Yue: "What is there to lie down in the back seat of the car? It's so narrow and cramped."

Ruan Zhimu: "It's like going on an autumn tour in elementary school. In fact, you can eat snacks at home, but spread the tablecloth on the ground for a picnic with everyone, and the snacks become much more delicious. It feels like a secret base."

"Lying in the back seat of the car, there will also be a very warm feeling, like a secret escape together."

Yan Yue showed no expression, probably unable to understand, but he didn't say anything.

Ruan Zhimu was thin, took off his shoes and coat, curled up his legs, just enough to sleep in the back seat.

Yan Yue threw the pillow over to him as a pillow, Ruan Zhimu covered his body with a cashmere coat, and the air conditioner turned on after a while.

He was groggy, and fell into a sweet dream again.

In the dream, I dreamed of some chaotic scenes.Some things he has experienced, some things he has never experienced, but they seem to have happened in real life.

He dreamed that he was still a primary school student, traveling with his parents.

Dad's car is not a famous brand car, just the most common white Volkswagen Santana, but the family of four drove on a self-driving tour, bringing a bunch of chicken feet with pickled peppers and braised chicken wings, and sang loudly on the wide highway.

After driving for a while, he felt urgent to urinate and wanted to tell his father to drive to the service area, but for some reason, no one could hear him.

Dad was still driving the car seriously, and mother was peeling bananas for Ruan Ai with a gentle smile. Everyone was very happy, but no one paid attention to him.

They can't seem to see him.

Fear hit his heart, Ruan Zhimu wanted to yell loudly to attract their attention, but no matter how he collapsed, yelled, waved his hands and feet, he seemed to be transparent.

Can't make a sound, can't touch other people.

He wept silently in desperate hysteria, and his eyes were stung by the tears, so he had to close them.

At this moment, he suddenly heard someone calling him.

"Wake up."

"Don't worry, open your mouth and breathe in."

"Open your eyes, I'm here."

After a while, Ruan Zhimu opened his eyes with tears all over his face.

The first thing I saw was Yan Yue who was sitting beside him, frowning.

The car was parked in a forest, it seemed that Yan Yue realized that he was haunted by a dream, so he pulled over the car.

Yan Yue held his upper body in his arms, and was covering his forehead with his palms, as if testing his temperature to see if he had a fever.

Ruan Zhimu was a little confused about the situation: "Uh..."

"Fortunately, I don't have a fever." Yan Yue withdrew his hand, pulled out a tissue, and looked down at him: "Close your eyes, I'll wipe your face for you, tears and snot are flowing down your chin."

Ruan Zhimu closed his eyes obediently, and felt that Yan Yue was wiping his face with a wet tissue. The force was a bit heavy, and the texture of the tissue was not soft. His cheeks hurt a little, but there was an inexplicable and reassuring feeling.

He felt a little ashamed: "I had a nightmare just now, and I was a little anxious in the dream, so I cried..."

People who are almost thirty, still have nightmares and cry out...

How embarrassing, woo.

Yan Yue didn't laugh at him: "What nightmare did you have?"

Ruan Zhimu wanted to be vague, but seeing Yan Yue's serious frown, he changed his mind.

In the past, if someone asked him such a question, he would definitely confuse it, because he thought it was an unimportant matter, there was no need to say it, and the other party would not really care if he said it, and at most he would comfort him politely.

The most taboo thing between people is to communicate lightly and deeply.

But at this moment, Ruan Zhimu suddenly realized that in this world, there is really a person with whom he can be called "deep friendship".

Yan Yue would listen carefully to his every nonsense, would care about his every little emotion, would hold him in his arms when he was frightened and cried by the nightmare, and wipe his tears and snot for him without disdain.

Yan Yue was not being polite, but really worried about him.

Realizing this, Ruan Zhimu suddenly couldn't control himself and grabbed Yan Yue's cuff.

Yan Yue was suddenly grabbed by his cuff, and was taken aback for a moment: "What's wrong?"

Ruan Zhimu took a breath: "I... I dreamed that my parents and my younger brother are here."

Yan Yue: "Yes."

Yan Yue did not urge him, but looked at him quietly, waiting for him to continue.

Ruan Zhimu was still a little ashamed to mention these things at first, but in Yan Yue's considerate silence, he slowly and courageously spoke up.

Although so many years have passed, although he knows that Ruan Ai loves him, and that his parents have always felt guilty towards him, his childhood experience is like a burn. Even if time goes by and the wound gradually heals, the scar will always be there, somewhere In an peaceful and peaceful moment, he ran out suddenly and stabbed him.

The family has never actually traveled together.

When he was a child, his parents were busy with work, so he was thrown in his hometown, and he had no time to travel, and he didn’t have any spare money. Later, when the family’s financial conditions improved, he was busy studying and working, and he was separated from his family, so naturally he never traveled together.

But one year, my parents were going on a business trip to Southeast Asian countries, and by the way, they brought Ruan Ai who was on summer vacation.

In fact, it is not a luxurious and comfortable trip. Later, I heard from my parents that it was very hard to go out that time. I was busy running on the construction site during the day, and I had to check the books at night. Ruan Ai could only play in the back seat by himself, reading comic books on his stomach. or sleep.

But when Ruan Ai came back, he told him excitedly that he had participated in an exciting adventure. The back seat of the car was his safe fortress. Every day he opened the window and saw the unknown scenery, it was a new "battle".

Parents laughed that Ruan Ai watched too many cartoons and had too much imagination, but Ruan Zhimu understood Ruan Ai's feelings.

For a pampered child, with the company of parents, ordinary travel will become extremely happy.

Perhaps subconsciously, he has always envied Ruan Ai.

He is not jealous, and he no longer hates his parents, but he still envies his younger brother.

That's why at such a seemingly unrelated moment, I suddenly dreamed of such a "family trip", and I was still the outsider.

After Ruan Zhimu finished speaking, the ending trembled slightly.

Yan Yue didn't say anything, sat upright, hugged him into his arms, and patted his back lightly.

He was obviously four years younger than him, but he hugged him tenderly like an elder coaxing a child.

He asked him, "Does your eyes hurt?"

Ruan Zhimu put his head on his shoulder and rubbed his eyes: "...a little bit."

Yan Yue: "When we get to the place later, I'll find you an ice pack and just apply it."

Ruan Zhimu still felt a little shy: "I didn't expect that I would cry... Actually it's not that serious, it's just a nightmare..."

"Don't feel embarrassed," Yan Yue said, "Everyone will have uncomfortable times, and crying is a normal thing."

Ruan Zhimu: "I always feel like a child..."

Yan Yue: "With me, you can be a child forever."

Ruan Zhimu was touched by the undisguised magnanimity and sincerity in his words, his heart became hot, and he suddenly didn't dare to look up at him.

Yan Yue looked at his blushing cheeks, and smiled silently: "Since you're already a child, it's not too much to call him brother?"

Ruan Zhimu glared at him: "...don't push yourself too hard."

"Scream, you won't lose a piece of meat if you scream," Yan Yue coaxed in a low voice, "Brother scream, I'll buy you candy."

Ruan Zhimu: "...perverted."

Ruan Zhimu coughed and changed the subject: "Have you ever cried?"

Thinking back carefully, he seemed to have never seen Yan Yue cry.

Even when he was extremely angry and his mood fluctuated greatly, Yan Yue would at most frown and never shed tears.

Yan Yue: "I don't remember...it doesn't seem to be."

Even when his parents were divorced, his father dragged him by the collar to take a paternity test, and he was insulted in public, he never shed a single tear.

When Ruan Zhimu left, he almost went crazy, but he never cried. He just lay in the room day after day, staring at the ceiling with his eyes open, as if he had lost the function of his lacrimal gland.

Yan Yue asked him: "Why, do you really want to see me cry?"

"...just a little curious," Ruan Zhimu had a sudden thought, "Then if I give you very spicy food, that kind of Chaotian pepper or abnormally spicy hot pot, won't you cry?"

Physiological tears seem to be uncontrollable, right?

Yan Yue: "...boring."

"Don't be so rigid," Ruan Zhimu said enthusiastically, "I don't know if there is a Chinese restaurant here. If there is a Sichuan restaurant, we can try it another day..."

Yan Yue: "Do you really want to see me cry that much?"

Ruan Zhimu said "just curious", but in fact, what he thought in his heart was that Yan Yue is so good-looking, he must be more beautiful when he cries.

Please, beautiful women shed tears, who doesn't like to watch it.

What would Yan Yue look like when he cried?

Well, the cheeks should turn red, the eye sockets are red, the tears first fall on the eyelashes, and then slowly roll down the cheeks, like pearls with broken strings, I don’t know if I can’t help but tremble when I cry ...

Ruan Zhimu thought about it, and suddenly felt a little hot.

……Hold.

When did he become so lewd, just imagining Yan Yue crying would make him blush and heartbeat.

Yan Yue looked at his silly expression immersed in his own world, and frowned: "What are you doing stupid?"

Ruan Zhimu came back to his senses, and said with a guilty conscience: "No, it's nothing, I was distracted just now..."

Yan Yue looked at him for a while, then suddenly said: "You really want to see me cry so much?"

Ruan Zhimu: "Well..."

As if thinking of something, Yan Yue leaned slightly and whispered in his ear: "Actually, I cried in front of you."

Ruan Zhimu was shocked: "Hey? When?"

Yan Yue smiled faintly: "At one o'clock in the night before yesterday, because I was so comfortable being held by you, I cried so much. But you passed out at the time, so you didn't see it."

The author says:

Update today~

There will be another update later, but I guess it will be later. If it is too late, I may update it tomorrow. You can come back tomorrow~