First love that started today

The conversation after school didn't go well either, even though Gu Jingqian tried to stop him, Jiang Yu's boyfriend was still bruised and swollen by Shen Qi.

I don't know what he thinks, he just won't fight back when he is beaten, and he won't leave when he is told to leave.

Didn't he know that every word he said was stepping on Shen Qi's minefield?

Shen Qi hates Jiang Yu's attitude the most.

It's even more annoying to fight back, so it's better to fight back.

"Who are you pretending to be affectionate for here?"

"Think that if you get beaten up and admit your mistake, you can be with my brother?"

"Like it? Why do you like it? How dare you talk about liking me after we've known each other for a month?"

"You like dragging my brother to bed when he's drunk? He's only 17!"

There is not a single street lamp in the dark alleys of West Street, and the visibility depends entirely on God's will. If the moon is bright enough tonight, the sycamore branches protruding from the wall will leave shadows on the ground.

Jiang Yu was propped up against the wall, but Shen Qi hit him too hard, and the more he talked, the more angry he became, and the more he got angry, the more he hit him, so he was lying in the shadow.

He didn't blame Shen Qi, even though Shen Qi kicked him a few more times, he still didn't resist, he felt that he deserved it.

Jiang Yu was so drunk that night that he was full of nonsense, but he was sober, and he did what he wanted to do a long time ago.

Gu Jing didn't stay there for long before he was forcibly sent home by the people sent by Shen Qi.

Unable to see Jiang Yu at school the next day, he asked Shen Qi, who said he didn't know.

I went to ask Jiang Yu again, and Jiang Yu cried and said that his brother beat his boyfriend so badly that he was hospitalized last night.

This was the first time Gu Jing saw Shen Qi's ferocity, and the deeds he had heard before seemed to match up suddenly.

But during that time, Shen Qi was busy with Jiang Yu's affairs, and had no time to pay attention to Gu Jing's opinion of him.

Want to ask him how to deal with it?

No matter what he could do, he couldn't kill that person, so he had to watch Jiang Yu closely.

Because of Jiang Yu's repeated attempts to ask Gu Jing for help, Shen Qi shut even Gu Jing out of the door, fearing that his heart would not be able to bear the pleading.

Fortunately, this situation didn't last long, and Jiang Yu was discharged from the hospital.His injury was actually not serious, it was mainly a skin trauma, and his face needed time to recover, otherwise it would be easy to attract comments when he swaggered around the school.

Gu Jing thought that he was going to follow the old routine after he recovered from his injury, so he went to Shen Qi to confide his true feelings for Jiang Yu.

In the end, without even thinking about it, Shen Qi would send him to the hospital again.

However, things have changed.

Shen Qi tried his best to stop him from the beginning, but suddenly he turned a blind eye and closed his eyes. He still disagreed, but as long as the two of them didn't hold hands and talk in front of him, he didn't seem to object so much.

It wasn't until the end of the semester, when Jiang Yu's grades came out, that Gu Jing finally understood.

He asked Shen Qi: "Did you set conditions for them?"

"What kind of condition is this?" Shen Qi held Jiang Yu's grade slip in his hand, "I only agree with him to help Jiang Yu improve his grades, and I didn't agree with them to be together after the improvement."

"Then you..." Gu Jing paused and said, "Are you lying to them?"

"What is cheating? It was proposed by the Jiang Yu himself." Shen Qi folded the grade strips along the middle and put his arms around Gu Jing's waist, "He is a smart man. It's just a momentary interest, and he will never get entangled if the interest passes."

"Do you believe him?" Gu Jing wanted to say, do you believe what he said, "Jiang Yu is only interested in him for a while"?

What Shen Qi understood was: "Of course I don't believe it. A person like him, who has nothing, would fall in love with Jiang Yu for no reason? He said he wouldn't pester him, but in the end he must have yelled more fiercely than anyone else. It's a pity that he misjudged the person , as long as he dares to break his promise, I will be the first to let him go."

"Why do you have such a big prejudice against him?" Gu Jing asked curiously, "You said he wanted something from Xiao Yu, but now Xiao Yu is making progress because of him. Shen Qi, it's very unfair of you. "

fair?How can there be absolute fairness in the world?

Yes, that's right, in the eyes of others, maybe that Jiang is very outstanding, good-looking, well-educated, and talented.

But this does not prevent him, as an elder brother, from feeling sorry for his pig being raped by a mature cabbage.

What can Jiang give his younger brother?No father, no mother, no fixed place to live, and an uncertain future, can he take care of his brother who spends money like water?

And it's so old!Several months older than him.

Shen Qi didn't want to argue with Gu Jing about this, so he laughed and said, "Let's see, he claims to be capable, so I'll just wait and see how high he can climb."

In the second semester of the second year of high school, after the small college entrance examination, many things happened in the grade.

Gu Jing was not affected by the previous events, and continued to study and live as usual. He participated in several competitions and speech contests, won awards, and gained a lot of experience.

Tan Biqun talked to him several times alone, and probably asked him if he wanted to take the road of escort.

Gu Jing replied honestly that participating in the competition was just a hobby, after studying for so many years, he didn't want to miss the college entrance examination a year later.

Tan Biqun didn't comment on anything, and he didn't persuade Gu Jing to take the college entrance examination after being recommended. After all, everyone has different ideas.

He has been Gu Jing's class teacher for two years. In his opinion, although Gu Jing is usually quiet, he is a very thoughtful student inside.

At the end of the conversation, he inadvertently mentioned Jiang Yu from class three, saying that the child had been confirmed to be sent to Xida.

This was the first thing Gu Jing heard. Within two days, he heard that Qin Jiu was escorted to the police college, and Zheng Yu was transferred to the special class immediately after.

It seems that the turning point of life is approaching. Suddenly, leaving and changing, there is no sign at all, and there is no greeting.

Fortunately, Shen Qi was still there, so he wouldn't feel like he had become a person again.

The cram school that I had been attending since the first year of junior high school finally came to an end in the second semester of the second year of high school, because of heavy schoolwork and students dropping out of class one after another.

It's not the end of this class, it's just that this group of students will never step into this classroom again.

Whether it's personal interests or winning prizes in competitions, everything is subject to the college entrance examination now, so there is not so much time to waste.

On the weekend, Gu Jing was reviewing and brushing up questions at home, and when he went downstairs to pour a glass of water, the doorbell rang, and when he opened it, it was Jiang Yu.

Jiang Yu has been busy studying recently, and has rarely wandered around outside. He is already haggard, but today he looks excited.

Gu Jing asked him what was wrong, and he said, "Want to watch the game? Let's go together."

what match?Gu Jing was a little confused.

Then he was dragged into the computer room and watched a PUBG live match.

Oh, it turned out to be Jiang Yu, the captain of the FOM team wearing a mask.

According to Jiang Yu, Jiang Yu used to have a hard life in the United States, and he had to know everything in order to survive, but he had a Chinese face, and the more outstanding he was, the more he was bullied.

Let’s talk about e-sports. There was a game that year. He was a substitute. After winning, he was accused of drugging the cup of the American who was his substitute. gone.

The current team had contacted him before he returned to China. It wasn't until a while ago that he decided to join in order to sign the contract and because he was sure that he would have a way out.

After Gu Jing listened, he couldn't help but think of Shen Qi's words.

Shen Qi said that he had investigated Jiang Yu, but he didn't say that Jiang Yu's life was so difficult.

"Brother Jing, I really like him, and the more I get to know him, the more I like him. He's so cool."

In order to avoid Shen Qi, Jiang Yu ran here, watched the game with Gu Jing, and then watched the post-match interview.

When he came to Jiangyu to speak, he listened carefully to every sentence.

Gu Jing saw the light shining in Jiang Yu's eyes, thinking that Shen Qi would definitely be disappointed in the future.

Not to mention that the person on the screen did so much for Jiang Yu, even if he didn't do anything, he was already glowing just standing there, how could Jiang Yu not like it.

February 2th is Shen Qi's birthday.

His parents threw him a grand banquet to celebrate his coming of age and to look forward to his future.

Perhaps the leaders who are used to presiding over meetings are better at this kind of thing. Some ordinary words, when spoken from their mouths, become very touching.

From Shen Qi's birth to his growth over the years, they talked a lot.

Gu Jing couldn't help crying when he heard it, because he had witnessed some things, and he knew that Shen Qi seemed strong, but in fact it was really not easy.

A while ago, I thought Shen Qi was too much because of Jiang Yu's matter, but now that I think about it, who has the position to think so?

If Shen Qi wasn't an older brother, he wouldn't be bothered to care about these things. The burden on him is already heavy enough, and he still needs to be distracted to take care of his younger brother.

As a younger brother, Jiang Yu can't call him a good brother if he wants luxury goods, and scold him for meddling in his own business if he wants love.

There was only Jiang Yu, Shen Qi was not kind to him, but there was only the beating that night, and he didn't make things difficult after that.

The more Gu Jing thought about it, the sadder it became. Anyone can misunderstand Shen Qi, but as a boyfriend, he doesn't even think about him.

Noticing Gu Jing's movement of wiping tears, Shen Qi quickly bent over and asked, "What's wrong?"

Qin Shiai's speech on the stage was still going on. After he realized it, he smiled and scratched the bridge of Gu Jing's nose twice: "Do you really believe it? Those are all exaggerations. I lived the most comfortable life when I was a child."

Gu Jing kept shaking his head and didn't speak.

"Don't cry, you will be found if you cry again." Shen Qi took out a handkerchief from his pocket and wiped it under his eyes.

After Qin Shi'ai finished speaking, she was about to call her son up. The family of three thanked the guests, but she saw her son dragging Gu Jing to a corner.

Although their backs were facing each other, they were standing facing a glass door.

The door reflected the crystal lights of the ceiling, and Shen Qi's hand holding a handkerchief to wipe Gu Jing's face, after that...

She saw Shen Qi place a kiss on Gu Jing's forehead.

"Shi Ai, Shi Ai," Shen Ruhai pushed her with his hand after calling out twice, "Shi——"

"That's it." Qin Shi'ai suddenly turned her face away.

Shen Ruhai was at a loss.According to the procedure, Shen Qi should also be called up, but since my wife said that's it, so be it.

"Okay, don't be sad." Shen Qi raised his finger and lightly touched Gu Jing's tear-wet eyelashes, "Birthday wish number one, my little rabbit must be happy forever."

"Shen Qi..." Gu Jing sniffed, paused and said, "I'm not very good."

Shen Qi laughed and said, "What do you mean?"

Gu Jing raised his eyes and stared at Shen Qi's face for a while: "I treat you better than you treat me."

Realizing that now, they have experienced a lot, and whenever they encounter difficulties, the first person he wants to confide to is Shen Qi.

Adolescence full of troubles, if there is no solution from Shen Qi, he will be troubled by many problems to the point of self-doubt and even self-isolation.

Although most of the troubles are caused by Shen Qi, it is precisely because of this that there is a sense of fate that "you accompany me to grow up, you are my youth".

You are my youth, my first love, and maybe my future.

Maybe, it's not the doubt of your feelings, but the world, maybe it won't agree with us being together.

Shen Qi has a lot of burdens on him, and many people have expectations of him. You already know this, don't you?

I knew it a long time ago, but I still chose to ignore it. Just relying on Shen Qi's sentence "All problems can be solved", I put all the pressure on him.

If I didn't hear Shen Qi's parents mentioning the future today, would I still be so selfish?

After a long silence, tears filled his eyes again, Gu Jing wanted to give up, looked into Shen Qi's eyes, but didn't have the courage to speak.

Combined with the previous conversation, Shen Qi vaguely sensed what Gu Jing was going to say next.

After struggling, Gu Jing lowered his head, he didn't want to look at Shen Qi and say.

Shen Qi didn't wipe his tears this time, and interrupted him directly: "Wait, I'll be right back."

Gu Jing's eyelids twitched, he hurriedly raised his head, and saw Shen Qi walking very fast, walking to Qin Shi'ai, who was not entertaining guests for the time being, and said something.

Qin Shi'ai put down the champagne glass, followed him out of the banquet hall, went upstairs and turned into a room.

"boom--"

Closing the door was faster than walking, Qin Shi'ai stared at Shen Qi, and asked: "Is there anything that must be said now?"

"I……"

The sound of closing the door echoed in my ears, and then gradually dissipated, and my mind returned to clarity.

But thinking about Gu Jing's appearance just now, and what he might say next, Shen Qi felt that the impulsive one should be impulsive, and always wait and see when is the right time.

Qin Shiai pulled out a chair, sat down and crossed her arms, her slender eyebrows raised slightly: "Speak, I'll just sit here and listen to you."

"Mom," Shen Qi kept a little distance from her, slowly moved his fingers down on the table, and finally gripped the corner of the table tightly, "I can no longer be what you and Dad expected."

"What kind?" Qin Shiai looked at him.

Shen Qi pursed his lips, and repeated some of what they had said: "Get married, start a business, and have children."

Without waiting for Qin Shiai to ask, he said again: "I know that I was born to take responsibility, and I also know that because my surname is Shen, I have everything I have now. My responsibility is to do a better job at home , to create wealth and a future for those families who have supported us behind our backs and paid for us.”

"I used to think that I would be steadfast for the rest of my life." He choked up a bit as he spoke, "I...I'm sorry, I may not be able to do it."

"Why?" Qin Shi'ai asked in a low voice, she looked at Shen Qi, intending to force him to answer.

That stare made Shen Qi loosen his strength, and his fingers fell from the corner of the table and hit the back of the nearby chair.

The sound of bones colliding was loud and brittle, and it seemed abrupt in a quiet room.

After an unknown amount of time, Shen Qi felt that he was about to be seen through, and he really couldn't keep silent anymore. He sat down slowly, lowered his head and said, "Because I like Gu Jing."

Shen Qi didn't like crying very much, he hadn't cried a few times since he was a child, but facing his mother, he couldn't accept the other party's disappointed eyes on him.

What he has always wanted to do is to protect his family and do his best to meet their expectations, but this time he can't.

"I thought, if there is no me, there can be someone else." He quickly raised the back of his hand, wiping away a tear that was about to fall, "I once pinned this hope on Jiang Yu, but now it seems that I can't. "

"What I can't do, I just want my brother to do it, and I didn't ask him if he would like it. I thought, why would he not want to, but look at me now, what qualifications do I have to persuade him?" So Shen Qi later knew that Jiang Yu was just like him, so he no longer expected him.

Qin Shi'ai didn't know about that, so she just asked him: "So, because you like Gu Jing, you can't stay with your family?"

Shen Qi organized his words in his mind, and when he was about to answer, he noticed something strange.

He raised his head blankly, and Qin Shi'ai had already stood up from the chair: "We can have expectations, and you can also have choices, you were not born for us, you live a happy life, it is not in vain for us to bring you Once in this world.”

With tears in Shen Qi's eyes, he looked at her in disbelief.

"I'm really slow, only to realize... no, I've been ignoring you." Qin Shi'ai sighed deeply, "It's my fault, I shouldn't put too much pressure on you. In fact, it's just ... I'm afraid, I'm afraid that you'll forget your roots, I'm afraid that I can't teach you well, so I always instill in you some truths that sound heavy."

She couldn't suppress it anymore, and couldn't pretend to be calm anymore, she walked to Shen Qi's side and bent down to hug him: "I'm really sorry son, before you were born, mother expected too much from you."

"I am a first-time mother, and my mother only has you as my son. It is the first time, but you are doing well, it is the mother who is not good." She closed her eyes, trying to stop the tears from flowing, "Mom is not I should have forced you to the point where it is so difficult to even admit that I like someone, I am really sorry."

When she saw her son kissing a boy, she was shocked.

After that moment, her mind started an automatic search, linking up her son's past actions, words, and hints.

How did you find out now?

But if you care about him more than usual, you won't find out now.

Qin Shi'ai suddenly understood why Shen Qi was happy and sometimes painful in those days.

It turned out that her mother had failed so much that he didn't even have the courage to confess.

After a long time, Shen Qi was the only one left in the room. Qin Shi'ai was called to go downstairs because she wanted to entertain guests.

Gu Jing waited and waited, and when Shen Qi didn't come down, he couldn't help looking for it.

When pushing the door, Shen Qi raised his head, with tears on his face.He stood at the door and slowly walked over. Shen Qi had already sat up straight and extended his hand to him.

Gu Jing held that hand, and under the traction of the other party, put part of his body weight on Shen Qi's leg.

He didn't dare to sit up hard, but Shen Qi hugged his waist, including his arms, and couldn't break free at all.

"Don't break up." Shen Qi cried, "I told my mother, she has no objection to my liking you."

It turned out that he really knew.

Gu Jing rubbed against his hair sideways.

After Shen Qi finished speaking, he could only cry. He hadn't cried so hard just now, but when he saw Gu Jing, he just wanted to cry.

Gu Jing couldn't tell him not to cry, he was still crying, how could he persuade him.

"I'm sorry, I didn't want to force you." Shen Qi's tears kept dripping on the back of his hand, Gu Jing lowered his eyes, "You have always thought of me and borne for me, I don't want to drag you down."

"You are not a drag, don't break up, I don't want to break up, you can't leave me..." Shen Qi cried hoarsely, still hugging his body tightly, and raised his head, "I know I am not brave enough, I have been giving you Promised, never delivered, but I'm really trying. I just want to settle everything decently one day, and I don't want to cry like this in front of you, it's ugly, I know."

Gu Jing looked at him without blinking: "Then am I ugly too?"

The two looked at each other for more than ten seconds, Shen Qi smiled through tears and shook his head.

Gu Jing wiped away his tears: "I will work hard. Although I can't promise you a lot, I promise that no matter what happens in the future, my heart will always be yours."

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The author has something to say:

I really like the protagonist to cry, no matter what Xiaotian suffers or the big attack, you have to cry for me!

Then let’s talk about Shen Qi, I have been paving the way for his family, responsibilities, etc., which made him not casually do certain things, let alone treat people he likes casually.

Therefore, Jiang Yu's overtaking behavior is an irresponsible behavior in Shen Qi's view.

If you have watched "Are You Here", you will find that from Jiang Yu's perspective, he doesn't really hate Shen Qi, on the contrary, he admires Shen Qi very much, and he feels that he can't be as good as Shen Qi.

He doesn't bother to pretend, and even less to cater to, but he also knows that it's an excuse for him to be tired of dealing with this world, and if he can, he doesn't even want to talk to anyone other than Jiang Yu.

Looking at "Today's Love" again, only from Gu Jing's perspective, Shen Qi is a complete and real existence, there is no need to hide all emotions, good or bad, coquettish or shameless, it doesn't matter.

In the eyes of others, Shen Qi is omnipotent and invincible. People who know him basically have expectations of him, and his parents have placed unlimited expectations on him.

Gu Jing once thought that he was special, that he could rescue Shen Qi from the heavy pressure, but the rescue he thought actually put another shackle on Shen Qi.

Later, I realized that for his own sake, Shen Qi needed to bear more pressure to confess to his family. It's not that he didn't want to be selfish and enjoy the present moment.But Shen Qi is not a person who only cares about the present. Every time he takes a step, he will think about what will happen in the future. He will have many worries and worries.

In the process of falling in love with him, Gu Jing can actually feel that occasionally there will be some unhappy moments, although they will cover it up with smiles in the end, but everyone knows it in their hearts.

So at Shen Qi's coming-of-age ceremony, after Shen Qi's parents made some expected remarks, Gu Jingkuai's rationality diluted by sweetness was aroused.

He saw his selfish self, and thought that if his family did not agree with them being together, Shen Qi would face more pressure, even condemnation, so he had the idea of ​​breaking up.

And with a little selfishness, I really like them crying.