meet you deep sea

"Where did you find out about this name?" Chu Jing's tone was obviously much cooler.

Lin Shen didn't get used to it all at once. He watched Chu Jing walk into the room casually, found a chair, sat down, took the pen on the desk casually, and turned his slender fingers slightly. Chu Jing was waiting for him to explain.Suddenly, Lin Shen felt that the atmosphere seemed to have changed, and it turned out that Lin Shen did something wrong.

"What? I can't know?" Lin Shen's aura did not lose him.

"Yes... I want to say..." Chu Jing walked into Lin Shen and rubbed his head, "If you want to know something, just ask directly, it's okay." The gentle tone made Lin Shen suddenly seem not to know each other. He does.

In the morning, the bright sunlight shines into the rental house through the small window, making the whole room golden. Chu Jing's arm covers Lin Shen's eyes, and the movements of his fingertips are careful and gentle, trying to make Lin Shen feel at ease.

Chu Jing sat beside Lin Shen and sighed slightly.

"But judging by your previous appearance, you don't want to say it." Lin Shen mentioned silently.

"That's because it's very troublesome. I have to remember and think about it." Chu Jing stretched out his hand and shook it in front of Lin Shen, "Because I like you, so you don't have to be so careful."

"Really?" Lin Shen asked calmly.

"I don't know, but it's really the feeling to like someone."

"What do you feel?"

"Every time I see you, I always have a feeling of worrying about gains and losses, as if if I am not careful, I will be lost by you. Then... try to pretend to be perfect in front of you." Chu Jing thought so much, and finally According to his true thoughts, as for what Lin Shen thinks, that is his business.

Lin Shen felt a little inexplicably happy after hearing his words. It turned out that this kind of thinking was not only for him, but also for Chu Jing.

"As for Sun Haoyu..." Chu Jing glanced at the sunlight outside the window on the desk, and the metal shell of the gel pen was slightly shining, "There was a physical education class, and the whole class went out. , just go back to the classroom alone."

"Sun Haoyu thought I was afraid of heights, so he pressed my head to make me look down. I struggled and refuted him. When I avoided him, he didn't fall. Then I went downstairs, and he fell." Chu Jing tried to use The simplest words to describe the whole thing. "I wondered if there was something twisted in his heart."

"Did you know each other very well?" Lin Shen asked.

"Let's put it this way, among a group of children when I was young, I was the one who was bullied the most, and Sun Haoyu was the one who took the lead." Chu Jing turned his pen. "Do you still want to hear it?" His eyes were sad, Lin Shen knew that these were his thoughts, since he was willing to tell himself, then take it slowly.

Lin Shen was not in a hurry, "So, you are basically bullying back now?"

When Chu Jing heard him ask this question, he smiled, which was quite reasonable, "Indeed." After thinking for a while, he added, "I'll fight, it's not bad."

"No, you are really good at fighting." Lin Shen said calmly. "You're really good at fighting together." Lin Shen mentioned today's incident again, saying that Chu Jing should be coaxed, and none of them can escape.

"Oh, I can't help it." Chu Jing rested his chin on one hand and looked at Lin Shen pretending to be wronged, "What do you want for lunch?"

For a moment, Lin Shen couldn't remember when he asked him, "Sauerkraut fish?" Thinking of the sauerkraut chicken that he ate last time, Lin Shen still wanted to try the sauerkraut fish.

"I hate eating fish, no way." To Lin Shen's surprise, Chu Jing refused very simply.

"Ok?"

"In the past, I played fishing, that kind of small grass carp. Can you imagine?" Chu Jing stretched out his hand and roughly gestured to Lin Shen, "I started raising fish after I brought it home. After a few days, the results came down for the test. It was not bad, so my mother slaughtered the fish and braised it in braised sauce."

Lin Shen didn't intend to laugh, but he couldn't hold back. "That fish is important to you?"

"I would go to it and talk to it every day, which is spiritual comfort." Chu Jing said solemnly, "But my mother slaughtered it and made braised fish."

"and after?"

"What can we do later? My mother and I quarreled fiercely, and we ate them all in tears." Chu Jing said in a simple sentence. Can't hide it.

"Are you so happy?" Chu Jing stared at him.

Lin Shen stopped pretending, and smiled from the bottom of his heart. Chu Jing looked at him patiently, and finally left a sentence, "It seems that I can make you happy." After a pause, he rubbed Rubbing Lin Shen's face, "Are you still angry?"

"No, I don't get angry that easily." Lin Shen's tone softened, "Sometimes, maybe I just feel uncomfortable."

"Tell me if you feel uncomfortable, don't always hide it." Chu Jing lowered his eyes, stretched out his fingers slightly seriously, picked Lin Shen's broken hair, curled it, and teased him.

"What about you, tell me too." Lin Shen suddenly held his hand, with a pleading tone.

Chu Jing was stunned, he couldn't tell what it felt like.

"I will trust you very much." Lin Shen said, "OK?"

Chu Whale doesn’t like to write a diary. He likes to mutter to things that can’t speak or hear, so that no one will know, like the fish he raised when he was a child, and the teddy bear that his mother gave him on his fourth birthday. , the guitar I owned for the first time when I was eight years old, and the endless test papers on the desk when I was 16 years old.

He prefers to choose this traceless way to vent the resentment in his heart, although the effect is not so satisfactory.

Chu Jing raised his head and looked seriously at the young man in front of him again. Lin Shen's eyes were very clear, and his eyes always had some expectations for the future. There is a firm feeling in him, he seems to have the light of a teenager, like the high-cold senior that girls yearn for on campus.

Chu Jing understands that he is very different from Lin Shen. He doesn't know if Lin Shen can understand, but when he sees his eyes, Chu Jing will lose his mind slightly, and he is really tired. If there is someone who can help him alright.

Chu Jing held Lin Shen's hand instead and pulled him over. "Okay, I promise you."

"So do you have any plans for the future?" Lin Shen asked him softly.

"I want to study hard and wait for the college entrance examination." Chu Jing hugged him, with his chin resting on Lin Shen's shoulder, like a large dog leaning against Lin Shen, and then said in a muffled voice.

"Where do you want to go in the future?" Lin Shen asked pretending not to care, but he had already made up his mind.

"I want to take the Qingbei exam." Chu Jing closed his eyes, expressing his thoughts so reverently for the first time.

"Will you work hard?" Lin Shen whispered, his eyes darkened, "Time is running out, Chu Jing."