blazing fire

Yuan Yu closed the car door, turned her head to look at Cheng Zhuo, her eyes lit up.

"We haven't seen each other for over a month."

"Yeah." Cheng Zhuo's heart skipped a beat when he looked at him dreaming that he was 16 years old, and his anger dropped little by little.

But on the surface, he still had a displeased expression: "That was your roommate just now?"

"Well, you've seen it."

"What are you talking about, so happy?" Cheng Zhuo glanced at the top of Yuan Yu's head, "He's still rubbing your head."

Yuan Yu stared at him for a while, and noticed that his left hand was resting on the steering wheel, and his fingertips were tightly clenched, as if he was calmly angry.

He was a little dull at the moment, after thinking for a while, he pulled up Cheng Zhuo's naturally drooping right hand and put it on his head, "This will make it even."

Cheng Zhuo: "..."

He squeezed it smoothly, and the soft touch calmed his temper, but his body suddenly became irritable.Cheng Zhuo subconsciously took out a cigarette, and just as he was about to light it, Yuan Yu frowned: "Can't you stop smoking?"

After drinking, his voice was softer than usual, as if he was acting like a baby.

Cheng Zhuo's eyebrows twitched, but suddenly the expression of that man speaking to Yuan Yu appeared in his mind, and he opened his mouth impolitely: "What identity are you using to control me?"

"..." Yuan Yu was startled, and looked at him with a half-smile.

If I had to figure it out, now it was Cheng Zhuo who didn't give an answer, not Yuan Yu's problem.

Cheng Zhuo knew he had slipped his words, pursed his lower lip, and stopped lighting the cigarette.

After a while, he threw the cigarette back into the cigarette case in frustration, pretending that he had never taken it out.

Yuan Yu narrowed his eyes and smiled.

He looked at the person he hadn't seen for a long time: "You seem to have lost weight again, and your complexion is not very good. Is it hard to work overtime recently?"

"It's okay." Cheng Zhuo didn't want to talk too much about his work, because the recent overtime work was basically asked for by him.He paused for a moment, then changed the topic: "That person just now...does he have any thoughts about you? Ordinary roommates don't know how to rub other people's hair."

Yuan Yu still smiled: "Yes."

"..."

"You will also have suitors," Yuan Yu said slowly, "Why won't I have one?"

"..." Cheng Zhuo suddenly became anxious, "Didn't I settle Li Yujie??? When I was abroad, there were people who chased me. I was not interested, and I refused all of them—yes, I admit that it was not entirely because of it." You, but I-"

He couldn't continue, took a deep breath, and calmed down: "...Sorry, I'm a little excited."

"Now, yes, you are chasing me." Yuan Yu's brain was rolled over by alcohol, his thoughts were sluggish, and he spoke slowly, with a strange rhythm, "It's your job to settle the suitor, It is other people's business that others chase me, and what they insist on saying has nothing to do with me."

"..." Cheng Zhuo bit his lower lip, "Yes."

"But I can indeed reject him." Yuan Yu narrowed his eyes with a smile, "I rejected you too, didn't I?"

Cheng Zhuo: "..."

If the first half of the sentence is joy, the second half is heart-pricking. After all, the feeling of rolling from heaven to hell is not easy. Cheng Zhuo tightened his hand on the steering wheel, and suddenly felt that something was wrong.

He leaned towards Yuan Yu, and as expected, he smelled a slight smell of alcohol, and was taken aback: "Have you been drinking?"

"I drank a little, not too much." Yuan Yu's eyes fell on the front, not looking at him, "I'm not drunk, but I can't hold back my words."

Cheng Zhuo didn't know whether he should talk about him or not.

But soon he thought about the cigarette from before—they had nothing to do with each other, they were two separate adults who couldn't control each other.

This cognition made him a little frustrated, and his heart twisted.Cheng Zhuo frowned slightly, and changed the subject: "Is there anything else?"

"What?" Yuan Yu turned his head and didn't understand.

"Other suitors," Cheng Zhuo said, "Apart from the one just now, is there anyone else chasing you in school?"

Yuan Yu is very smart, knowing the world but not accidental, with a natural innocence in her body.Such a person is very dazzling, even though he is often very quiet, his sense of presence is never weak.

Cheng Zhuo is very supportive of his going to school, and wants him to be free to do what he likes freely, but when he thinks that others will covet him in school, it feels like eating a basket of lemons, so sour that he almost vomits.

"No." Yuan Yu paused, "...ah, there might be another one."

He thought about the minister who would make intimate little gestures to him, looking suspicious too.

"Is the person chasing you handsome?"

"Do you think that man just now is handsome?"

"Ah."

"That's a little more handsome than him."

"..." Cheng Zhuo became even more sour, "Then, what about me? I'm also your suitor, am I handsome?"

Yuan Yu turned her head, a little surprised: "Can't you look in the mirror by yourself?"

Cheng Zhuo thumped the steering wheel as if venting his anger.

He lowered his head, his tone frustrated: "What should I do..."

"Is 'like' so incomprehensible to you?" Yuan Yu asked.

Cheng Zhuo was silent for a long time, and then smiled lowly: "I thought I liked you because I was nice to you."

"You were not nice to me, but you gave me all the help you could provide me within your ability." Yuan Yu sighed, "You are really nice, but you know what? A person helps others not necessarily because of feelings, some people gain a sense of existence from helping others, some people feel sympathy for others’ suffering because of their own prosperity, some people have a sense of social responsibility... various Reason. Cheng Zhuo, you have given me so many things, my favorite... is actually just a desk lamp."

Yuan Yu didn't mention that desk lamp, Cheng Zhuo bought it specially because he saw that it was inconvenient for him to do homework.

It's not something that is urgently needed, it's just because Yuan Yu's eyes will be uncomfortable.

Those old days were really beautiful, Yuan Yu leaned his head on the back of the chair, squinting at the street lights outside the window, the bright lights blurred into spots in his blurred vision.

"It can't be done, or forget it." These words were originally uttered by Cheng Zhuo, but at this second, Yuan Yu actually felt seriously that it seemed good to stop abruptly.

The person you loved hard when you were young does not mean that you will accompany you through your life.There is no one who can't live without, and people don't have to find a partner, even if they never meet someone who can make him like so much, so what.

It's better than consuming each other and making the relationship hideous.

Alcohol is very suitable for making people think wildly. When Yuan Yu's mind was wandering, suddenly the car shook.

"You don't even want me?"

Cheng Zhuo murmured in a low voice, and slammed on the accelerator: "Put on your seat belt——"

Yuan Yu's eyes widened: "Cheng Zhuo???"

The sudden soaring speed even frightened Yuan Yu away from drinking, and he hurriedly buckled up his seat belt to keep himself from staggering.

The university city is a suburb, and the speed limit at night is not low, which is very unsuitable for people who are full of alcohol.

Yuan Yu held on to the handrail of the door and covered his stomach with one hand: "Slow down, I feel uncomfortable..."

He spoke in a low voice, even a little sweat oozing from his forehead.Cheng Zhuo glanced at him and saw the reflective beads of sweat, as if he had just regained consciousness and slowed down the speed of the car.

He opened the car window a little, licked his lips, a little helpless: "Are you okay?"

The cool wind blew in, Yuan Yu leaned back on the back of the chair, her whole body seemed boneless, as if she was about to be embedded in the chair, she looked extremely weak.

Hearing this, he just glanced sideways at Cheng Zhuo, without answering.

Cheng Zhuo suddenly became more disturbed: "Sorry, I'm a bit over the top..."

"Where are you going to take me?" Yuan Yu's voice was a little weak.

"Where I live." Cheng Zhuo paused, and said before Yuan Yu refused, "I want to give you something, if you don't want to stay overnight, I'll take you back later."

Staying overnight...It is quite appropriate to stay overnight today.

He just rejected Song Mo, and he was embarrassed when he went back. No matter how he thought about it, he had to deal with it coldly for a while.

But Yuan Yu kept silent, and the atmosphere in the car seemed weird.

It wasn't until we drove out of the university town that Cheng Zhuo tried to speak: "Maybe you're right, I might just gain a sense of existence from helping you. I don't know what to like or love at all, because anyway..."

The street scene quickly retreated, and the whole world seemed to be left with only orange street lights. Cheng Zhuo remembered many old things, and coldness rushed from his limbs to his torso.

His voice was very low: "No one loved me anyway."

Yuan Yu glanced at him.

After driving out of the University City, there was not much distance from the place where Cheng Zhuo lived. Not long after, the vehicle drove into the underground garage, Cheng Zhuo got out of the car, and walked around to the other side to open the door for Yuan Yu.

Yuan Yu slowed down for a while before getting out of the car.

Cheng Zhuo wanted to help him, but Yuan Yu hid him, so he withdrew his hand, bit his lower lip, and walked ahead to lead the way, looking back at Yuan Yu's situation from time to time.

The house was much cleaner than when we came back last time, Yuan Yu stood at the entrance and looked at it.Cheng Zhuo changed his shoes, gave him a pair of slippers, then took out a bunch of keys from the locker in the entrance, and stuffed them into Yuan Yu's palm.

Yuan Yu looked down, and then at him, the meaning of the question was obvious.

"This is the spare key to all the properties my father gave me, I think... I should give you a copy." Cheng Zhuo lowered his eyes, his eyes kept falling on his hand, "I will send you the address later. "

There are five keys hanging on it, Uncle Cheng is quite generous, Yuan Yu thought.

He didn't say yes or no, stood for a while, and suddenly said, "I want to vomit."

Cheng Zhuo was stunned: "There is a toilet on the first floor..."

Yuan Yu hurried in.

Cheng Zhuo followed behind him: "Turn right, go in... just go to the end."

Yuan Yu pushed the door open and went in without turning on the light, so she threw herself on the toilet and vomited faintly.Cheng Zhuo turned on the light for him, and looked behind him with a sad expression: "Don't drink anymore."

After feeling completely vomited, Yuan Yu wiped his mouth with a tissue from the side, and said weakly, "Water..."

Cheng Zhuo hurriedly went out to pour it for him.

The facial expression when vomiting is very ugly, and the smell is not very pleasant. The fish I ate tonight has not been digested, and the sour smell is mixed with fishy smell. Yuan Yu can't stand it.

He rinsed his mouth twice, got up from the ground, pressed the flush button, and looked in the glasses when he turned around.

The corners of the eyes and the tip of the nose are red, which is quite ugly.

He drank the glass of water slowly, feeling better, and then looked at Cheng Zhuo: "Do you feel dirty?"

Cheng Zhuo was stunned: "Why?"

"Does that smell bad?"

"...It's okay." Cheng Zhuo paused, "Are you uncomfortable? Shall I make you some porridge?"

Even if you vomit, your first reaction is to cook porridge.

Yuan Yu lowered his eyes and thought for a while, then suddenly said: "You should apologize to me, you drove too fast."

Cheng Zhuo was startled.

"...Well," he lowered his head, his face was not very good-looking, "I'm sorry, today I..." He thought for a while before saying, "I'm under a lot of pressure recently. I... didn't take medicine today, and I'm not in a good mood."

"What's the disease?"

Cheng Zhuo pursed his lips and remained silent.

Yuan Yu changed the question again: "Then why don't you take medicine?"

"I don't feel emotional after taking the medicine. I'm afraid that I will forget what I want to say when I see you... haven't I answered your question yet?" Cheng Zhuo thought for a long time, then suddenly reached out and hugged him, "Yuan Yu, what are you talking about?" All good, can you stop telling me 'forget it'."

"Can you...don't want me."

His voice was so low that he could almost hear a trembling in pain when he listened carefully.Yuan Yu let him hold her, and suddenly wanted to laugh.

This fool.

He pushed Cheng Zhuo away and stuffed the key into Cheng Zhuo's hand.

At that moment, there was an emotion that could almost be called panic in Cheng Zhuo's eyes.

"I want to take a shower first." Yuan Yu said.

Cheng Zhuo was stunned: "Then go upstairs..."

"I still want to drink some wine."

"...you vomited."

"It's you driving too fast that makes me want to throw up, not because I drank too much." Yuan Yu paused, "I have something to tell you, I want some wine."

"..."

Cheng Zhuo had no choice but to compromise.

This house has more than one bathroom, but Yuan Yu went to the one he used last time.Cheng Zhuo followed him and helped him get a change of clothes before leaving.

Yuan Yu saw the toothbrush and towels he used last time near the sink, and Cheng Zhuo kept them for him, as if there were two owners living in this house.

This time Yuan Yu washed very slowly. After washing, she didn't bother to put on her pants, so she just put on a T-shirt and walked out of the bathroom.Cheng Zhuo's T-shirt is too big for him, the length can be used as a one-piece miniskirt.

Cheng Zhuo was sitting on the bed in the bedroom waiting for him, and he was taken aback when he saw him: "...Why don't you wear pants."

"I don't want to wear it," Yuan Yu sniffed, "Did you really cook porridge?"

"Well, if you still want to drink after throwing up, your stomach will feel uncomfortable." Cheng Zhuo took a small bowl from the bedside and carefully handed it to him, "If you must drink, at least have some porridge first."

It was a bowl of white rice porridge, cooked with mung beans, and the grains were still a little hard. "It's a bit rushed, but fortunately you took a long time today." Cheng Zhuo said, "I almost thought you passed out in it."

"..." Yuan Yu looked at him while drinking, "Has it been that long?"

"It's been 40 minutes." It doesn't take so long for a man to take a shower.

Yuan Yu: "..."

It seems to be a little long.

After drinking, he put the bowl on the bedside and went to pour the bottle of wine himself.What Cheng Zhuo hides here is spirits, and the only thing he can find is whiskey.

Cheng Zhuo was a little worried: "You drink less."

Yuan Yu knew that he was not good at drinking, so he only poured half a glass and drank it all in one gulp.

The wine was cold, but it was very spicy when swallowed. After Yuan Yu finished drinking, he pointed to the edge of the bed and said, "Sit down."

Cheng Zhuo sat down.

He didn't quite understand what Yuan Yu wanted to do, so he could only let it go.After directing Cheng Zhuo, Yuan Yu felt that the atmosphere was not good, so he walked over and turned off the ceiling light, and closed the door.

The room suddenly darkened.

His eyes were adapting to the dark light, and the alcohol was rushing to his head little by little. Yuan Yu walked up to Cheng Zhuo and stood still, looking straight at him.

"I have something to ask you, you have to tell me the truth." Yuan Yu paused, then added a threat, "If you lie, I will leave."

"...Who don't want to answer?"

"You don't have to answer, but don't lie to me."

"...Okay." Cheng Zhuo laughed suddenly, "It feels like a psychiatrist is interviewing."

Sure enough, he had seen a psychiatrist, otherwise his reaction at this time would not have been like this.

Yuan Yu was almost sure, but on the surface, he frowned and said with disgust, "Don't interrupt."

"Yes." Cheng Zhuo suppressed his smile and looked at him seriously.

"How did you feel when you saw me?"

"..."

"to be frank."

"Very..." Cheng Zhuo picked out adjectives, and finally found that the most earthy adjective best described his thoughts, "Happy."

"I haven't seen you for more than a month, have you missed me?"

"...thought about it."

"How often do you think about it?"

"..." Cheng Zhuo clenched his fists, "I think about it every day."

He felt ashamed that he was cutting himself apart, but luckily the room was dark enough, and luckily there was only Yuan Yu here.

"Hmm..." Yuan Yu's head began to dizzy, and it took him a while to remember what he wanted to say, "Actually, when you came just now, my roommate was confessing to me."

Cheng Zhuo clenched his teeth.

Yuan Yu: "What do you think when you hear this?"

"...angry." Cheng Zhuo said, "Have you promised him?"

"No, I told him that I have someone I like, and it's impossible to be with him—so what do you think now?"

"..."

Cheng Zhuo pursed his lips, feeling a little ashamed.Yuan Yu waited for two seconds, saw that he didn't answer, and asked again: "Will you feel happy?"

"……Um."

"Now," Yuan Yu paused, "is there anything you want to do to me?"

Cheng Zhuo slowly raised his eyes, and looked at him across the night.

The curtains were not drawn, and after adapting to the light, the room wasn't too dark.They can see each other's expressions, eyes and even body movements.Yuan Yu stood by the bed, looking down at him, his facial features soaked in the moonlight, almost holy.

That kind of holiness that makes people want to get dirty.

Cheng Zhuo's Adam's apple rolled: "I want to hug you."

"Ah."

"I want to kiss you."

"Ah."

"and also……"

"?" Yuan Yu was stunned, "Continue talking."

Cheng Zhuo's eyes were burning, and his voice was lowered, as if he was afraid of scaring the people in front of him when he said these words: "There are some more extreme things."

Yuan Yu showed no signs of being frightened at all.He lowered his head and thought for a while, then raised his head again.

He looked at Cheng Zhuo with a calm expression: "So, isn't this just liking?"

Cheng Zhuo was taken aback.

"I'll miss you when I can't see you. I'm happy to see you. I'll be angry when I hear someone chasing you. If you refuse, I'll be happy too." Yuan Yu stepped forward, leaned over and grabbed Cheng Zhuo's right hand, and with two Holding it with one hand, rubbing it back and forth, "I've been waiting for you for five years, Cheng Zhuo. I didn't want to let you go, even though I was very angry. Before I met you, I had quarreled with my sister several times because I didn't want to go Nanwan. She thought I wanted to repay you, no, I'm not, I just wanted to find the person who lied to me, and then tell him—"

Cheng Zhuo shook his hand.He was wrong and he knew it.

His hand was in Yuan Yu's, and Yuan Yu could naturally feel his vibration.His expression didn't change, he leaned over to kiss Cheng Zhuo's lips, and whispered, "Just tell him 'I love you'."

Cheng Zhuo's breath stagnates.

"One last question," Yuan Yu pecked Cheng Zhuo's lips, his voice was very soft, "Do you want me?"

"..."

"to be frank."

"...Think." Cheng Zhuo's voice was almost hoarse, "but there is nothing at home."

Yuan Yu laughed: "What's the matter with you, I thought that a lust/desire/obsession like you should have prepared everything long ago."

"I didn't think about that when I was taking the medicine, and besides, you don't want to come and live here." Cheng Zhuo started off, a little annoyed, because he thought it was a stupid thing to do, "I never bought it."

"But you didn't take your medicine today." Yuan Yu said, "Should you have an idea?"

"Ah."

"And I was drinking, and my reason couldn't control myself."

"Ok?"

"So let's do it like this." After Yuan Yu finished speaking, he kissed her again.This time it was not a playful pecking kiss, but a deep kiss enough to ignite each other.

He pushed lightly, and Cheng Zhuo embraced him.

The night was a bit noisy tonight. The wild cats in the community had just jumped up the tree after foraging, and were about to find a branch to take a nap. Suddenly, they were disturbed by some movement, screamed sharply, jumped off the branch and burrowed into the grass.

At three o'clock in the morning, Yuan Yu, who was so tired that he didn't want to move, was taken by Cheng Zhuo to the bathroom to wash up. He leaned against Cheng Zhuo's arms, so sleepy that he couldn't open his eyes.

"Cheng Zhuo," Yuan Yu murmured, "You still owe me a confession..."

"I like you," Cheng Zhuo lowered his head and kissed his ear, suppressing his voice, so as not to wake him up, "I also... love you."

He was silent for a long time, "...Actually, I still don't quite understand."

"Tell me when you miss me, and tell me when you want me..." Yuan Yu said softly, "I will teach you the rest."

"……it is good."

"You're in a bad mood today...I wanted to ask, but I'm too sleepy..."

"Sleep, I'll clean it up for you."

"If I forget to ask tomorrow, remember to remind me..."

"Ah."

Cheng Zhuo filled the bathtub with water, carefully put the person in, and slowly scrubbed him.

All the joys and sorrows of the night passed, and he rarely had such a peaceful moment when he didn't take the medicine, as if all the anger and pain had been smoothed away.

It took a long time before Cheng Zhuo put him on the bed again.Yuan Yu was in a deep sleep, but he couldn't sleep much. He took the wine glass and porridge bowl and went downstairs to clean up. After cleaning up, he still couldn't fall asleep. After thinking about it, he took out his mobile phone and made a video call to the doctor. .

"Hello, CHENG, how are you feeling today?"

"...I didn't take any medicine today."

"Oh, your habit is really bad."

Cheng Zhuo had just returned to the second floor, when he heard the words, he made a silent gesture, and went downstairs with his mobile phone: "Keep down, he is sleeping."

The doctor raised his eyebrows: "It makes you so careful...is it your little baby?"

This title is really disgusting, but Cheng Zhuo smiled unconsciously: "Yeah."

"It seems that you have a very good memory today."

"I just want to chat with you," Cheng Zhuo said calmly, "I always feel like I'm sorry for him, I don't know if it's... I should do something for him."

"Have you thought of anything to do?"

"There is, but it seems...it doesn't make any sense."

"If you really want to do it, you can try it." The doctor said, "I always think that love is an expression, CHENG, your desire to do something for him is very strong, it means that is what you want Express what is given to him, and do it, whether it makes sense or not."

Cheng Zhuo thought for a while, then nodded: "Okay, I see."

"Remember to take your medicine and tell me if you feel uncomfortable."

"Ah."

After thinking about the matter, his mood suddenly improved: "I will remember to eat, hang up, good night."

He put away his mobile phone and ran upstairs almost eagerly. After seeing Yuan Yu, he slowed down again.

Cheng Zhuo got under the quilt, carefully kept a distance from Yuan Yu, and kissed him on the cheek.

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Please review and check the context clearly, Gong is taking psychotropic drugs! ! !

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This chapter is super card, because the time and place of my confession are a little bit different from what I expected before, but it feels good to write it down, but it just caused me to rewrite this chapter three times :)

Recently, it's been a key plot, Calvin, and often misses 6 o'clock, but in short, it will be updated every day, so please bear with me.