Kaka is a cat?

I was sitting on the hospital bed blankly in a daze, and my father was helping me peel apples, peeking at me anxiously from time to time, as if holding back a lot of words, but seemed afraid of irritating me by saying something wrong, even the apples were peeled. There was only one nucleus left, but none were found.

In fact, I really wanted to tell him that the knife was almost on his hand.

But I feel that I don't even have the strength to speak now.

I've been in this state since that night, and I tell them I'm thinking about life.

So the father wanted to cry but showed the child's stupid expression.

In fact, I was really thinking about life.

I don't even understand the meaning of my own rebirth now.My loved ones, they are all doing well, even when we were most peaceful they were not doing so well.

I thought I was here to fix all the mistakes and regrets, then I sadly found out that everything was fine except me.

I am out of tune with this world. I am not the daughter they know. To them, I am the impostor, the intruder who destroys their happiness.

It's as if a person has exhausted his whole life and finally wrote a masterpiece, and then shakes his hand and accidentally presses the delete button.

It’s also like you know your story is a BE, and then you have the opportunity to start over. You are about to start a big game with confidence, and the director suddenly shouts "cut", telling you that you have gone to the wrong set.

In this case, the author of the tragedy usually has two choices.

First, take a pessimistic look and pick yourself up, telling yourself that your previous failures will only make your next book better.

Second, be negative for a lifetime, never cheer up, never have the consciousness to pick up a pen.

I think I am in state two now, although I think I should work hard towards state one.

But I feel that I have no passion at all. I am an old woman who has lived for three lifetimes. Even if I still have the loli face of a young girl who deceives ignorant audiences, it will not change the fact that I am in a desolate state of mind.

In the past few days, many people have visited me in the ward. It is said that they are all my classmates in Kanagawa.

When it comes to Kanagawa, one must think of the king Li Haida.

That's right, it is said that my father is the coach of the king Li Haida.Yesterday he also said to me with a very proud expression that his father is very handsome, he praised me, his school team has advanced to the competition, and Lihai University has no dead ends, Barabara...

Then my first thought was, it really is a father and daughter. How could Tom Sue be missing while having Mary Sue? If it was before, he would definitely show off to the old man immediately.Huh, it seems that he suddenly ran to some weird place?

Just as I was trying to empty my chaotic mind, the door of the ward was squeezed open again.

"Hey, Carliss, we stopped by to see you after watching the minister... oh, the deputy minister hurts so much why did you hit me... Hey Marui, that's my cake... "

"Akaya, you apologize to the coach!"

So I knew that the legendary king Li Haida came to see me, shouldn't I feel very honored?

My father kept his face straight after they showed up. When I was wondering who among them owed him money, he suddenly said, "Sanada, Yukimura and I are not here these days, so don't be careless!"

"Yes, coach! King Lihai has no dead ends!" Sanada suddenly took off his hat, and saluted my father very respectfully.

While complaining about Sanada taking off his hat, I can’t hide his uncle’s face that is much more vicissitudes than his peers. At the same time, I finally understood that my father was so aura when he entered the coaching mode, although I think it’s true Very pretentious.

"By the way, you just said to come and see Yukimura, what's going on, isn't he in Kanai Hospital in Kanagawa?"

"Oh, coach, don't you know that you have stayed here for so many days? The minister transferred here last week. It is said that the medical facilities here are better... ah, it hurts, why are you here again?" Hit me, Deputy Minister!..."

Just when my father was racking his brains for an excuse that would not damage his dignity as a coach and ease the awkward atmosphere, a nice voice sounded.

"Hehe, the coach has been worrying about Lisi for the past two days. It's normal to ignore other things, isn't it?"

Then I saw the boy in the wheelchair smiling warmly.

I sighed, the descriptions in various fan fictions did not deceive me, he was indeed a beauty.

"Minister!" "Minister!"

"Yukimura, why did you come out of the ward? Didn't the doctor tell you not to move casually?" Sanada said to him with disapproval.

The smile on Yukimura's face disappeared immediately, "I think my body is not so weak, Sanada, you are too worried."

"I just came to have a look at classmate Lisi. After all, Nana has always cared about her. Even though she told me that she won't see you until you are back to your best condition, she is just holding on. Hehe, she is still a little girl. ah."

In other words, even if you show such a deceptively gentle expression, I can't understand it.

So, be calm and paralyzed.

Seeing that I didn't respond, he frowned and continued,

"However, depending on the situation, your body is recovering well, and you should be able to catch up with the national competition. Nana must be very happy."

So, what are you talking about?

"Great, the ace of our school's women's tennis department or the minister's sister, which one is stronger? It's an exciting match! Oh, by the way, Carlisle, your trick looked very powerful last time, you taught Teach me, okay, ah yes, fight with me after you get out of the hospital... Why do you always hit me on the head today, deputy minister!"

"Chiya, be quiet!"

So I finally figured out what's going on now.It seems that "I" is a super rookie in the women's tennis department of Lihai University, and I was regarded as a strong rival by a girl named Nana, but before the two good friends could wait for the official competition, "I" was found to be congenital. Heart disease, and then the two made a decisive battle agreement, when "I" recovered to the best condition, and this stage is the national competition, the girl named Nana is likely to be Yukimura's younger sister.

Then, here I am.

In other words, that "I", this time, no one will believe you if you don't say that you are Marysu. How strong you are, you can impress the "Son of God" on you, and you can make Zhengxuan feel that you are worthy expect?

However, I really don't have the qualifications to be a Mary Sue. With my physique of a sports idiot, I will definitely be exposed without standing on the court, okay?

So, I said quite calmly, "According to my father, I am too weak to play tennis in the future."

"Huh?" by Li Hai of the collective black line

"Hey, why are you so surprised, coach? Didn't you say so?"

So my dad pretended to be 3 and his expression was cracked.

When they were all curiously guessing what was going on with me now, I then said blankly,

"According to my father, I did the surgery and made my brain stupid."

Then they petrified en masse.

Yukimura was the first to react. He stared at my expression carefully for a while, then seemed to think for a while, and then said to my father, "Sorry, coach, can I have a private talk with Liz?"

My dad took a good look at my face, then at Yukimura's, and agreed with an expression that said I was safe.

But is this really good?I know I'm not as beautiful as Mr. Xingcun, but you don't have to show it so directly, okay?How much you hurt the heart of an underage girl, even though the girl's heart has become that of an old goblin.

After they left, Yukimura stared at me with creepy eyes for a while, and then suddenly smiled, so I felt goosebumps all over my body.

"Hey, Liz-san, can you tell me why you lied?"

I was shocked, what a keen intuition.

I didn't answer him, just asked him in a rather flat tone,

"Hey, Yukimura-kun, tell me, if a person loses even his faith, can he still be called truly alive?"

He was taken aback, and after thinking for a while, he said with a faint smile, "I don't understand what kind of trouble Lisang has encountered, but if you don't have faith, why can't you let yourself be the same as others? What about existence? After all, fate doesn’t treat anyone harshly. Don’t look at me like this, but I never thought my tennis career would end here, and I still have so many reliable companions. Occasionally, you can Try to trust the people around you, don't you?"

I seem to have suddenly realized that without faith, I can become faith myself, why should I feel lost for their consummation, even if I can't be the savior, but I can become a luminous body and add color to their happiness , Even let yourself be the source of their happiness, isn't it?

I have been struggling with the fact that they don't need me. To put it bluntly, it is the gap caused by the lack of self-satisfaction. Isn't this my selfishness?

I have always hated myself for being like a sichuan flower, looking up at the sun like a star, longing for others to be my reason for living.And once the fetters disappear, you will not even have the courage to live.Isn't this a sign of my cowardice?

So what if they didn't love me, why should I deny the fact that I'm Callis Howard?Maybe we are two different individuals, but we have the same thing, we are all the daughters of Anna and Edward, the past times will not be fake, and the relationship will not be bounded by time and space!

I finally understand what the purpose of my rebirth is. Fate has not been unfair to me. It has restored everything to the moment that has not been broken. I have dreamed of it many times. Maybe it is different from the memory, but I can’t deny it A favor and a gift to me, isn't it?

I want to live well, to be strong, to be their reliance, to use up everything I have, to protect their smiles.

This time, I can definitely do it.