don't you regret

When Zhuang Song asked that question, he already felt that what he said was inappropriate, but it was too late to make up for it.

Gu Di just ran out for him in the middle of the night, and in such a situation, Zhuang Song couldn't say anything too unfeeling.

So he didn't speak.

Gu Yan didn't speak immediately. During the silent time, Zhuang Song closed his eyes, feeling the night being bent down, silently embracing him.

Then Gu Yi sighed softly on the phone, and smiled again: "Just pretend I didn't say anything."

He was also reluctant, unwilling to use too straightforward words to break the only time they had in the past six months, which could truly be called a harmonious exchange.

But I don't sleep in the middle of the night, staring blankly at the chat box of someone I can't contact, needless to say, I know why.

"I..." Zhuang Song hesitated for a while, "I don't know what to say."

"You don't need to say anything." Gu Yan said, "You don't need to think about me."

Zhuang Song didn't speak.

Gu Yan said again: "Just be happy."

"Okay." Zhuang Song finally said.

"Have you gone home?" Gu Yan asked, "Seeing that you have been working overtime recently, you should go to bed early when you go home."

"I'll be right back." Zhuang Song said.

"Mmm, good." Gu Yan said, "Come home with me... Forget it, no need, be careful on the road."

Zhuang Song said, "OK."

Then he got up and turned off the switch to lock the door, and rode his bicycle home.After pushing open the door, he struggled for a while, and finally sent a message "I'm home" to Gu Yi, but he didn't reply to him with "Okay".

Gu Yi didn't send anything else.

After that night, the relationship between Zhuang Song and Gu Yi finally broke through the freezing point again.

It seems to be getting better, but not completely better.Even the parties themselves may not be able to figure out what is going on.

Take the game as an illustration, now the two are in a single row, and when they meet in the game, Zhuang Song will take the initiative to say hello to Gu Yan.

It was the first time I saw Kitty Claw copying his own ID in the chat channel, and when he said good evening, Gu Yi was so excited that he almost jumped up, and that game was also performed exceptionally well.

But at the end of the game, he tried to pull Zhuang Song's double row, but was rejected again.

Gu Di didn't dare to keep inviting, fearing that Zhuang Song would be annoyed, so he invited once every two or three days, and was rejected once every two or three days.

Another example is the circle of friends.

During the time of the breakup, Gu Diesang didn't want to post in any Moments, but after that night, he regained his original intention of being a chatterbox.

On the way home that day, he took a picture of the moon above his head, and Zhuang Song gave him a thumbs up.

This greatly aroused his enthusiasm, and he racked his brains every day to edit the copywriting of Moments. Among the many likes and comments and the reply that he was surprised that Brother Gu was in a good mood recently, he saw Zhuang Song's little tabby cat head, I feel very at ease.

But when Zhuang Song posted on Moments, Gu Di went to like and comment, Zhuang Song ignored him.

Go around him and reply to Xia Jia, the scorching sun, and Hu Qing, his mentor, Qiu Riwanyue and the others, but they can't see him.

It's a bit deliberate.

But it really made Gu Yan quite depressed.

However, during the live broadcast at night, he saw Zhuang Song coming to his live broadcast room again - Zhuang Song used a tuba account for the live broadcast before, and he only knew that the 19th-level fan account was Zhuang Song.

Gu Yi started the live broadcast because he thought that after Zhuang Song and Xia Jia reconciled, that was the only gap in their lives for more than a year after they met, so he didn't know Zhuang Song's live broadcast number or Zhuang Song's game ID , to this day, there are so many mistakes due to these.

He should also suffer for his contempt.

Closer to home, Gu Yan saw Zhuang Song enter his live broadcast room, and even gave himself some gifts.But they are all free, at most only a few cents, and he is very satisfied when he sees that they are small snacks returned by swiping big gifts for others.

After all, he has a share, these small gifts, if you give them to him, you can't give them to others.

So generally speaking, Gu Di is satisfied, at least Zhuang Song no longer completely refuses him to join his life.

But how much is added, this scale is very subtle.

When talking about friends, it seems that they are deliberately less alienated than friends.

Saying that they are not friends, but there is also a subtle intimacy that does not exist between friends.

Gu Yan felt that the current situation was reversed like they were before, but he couldn't say that completely, because Zhuang Song couldn't be as stupid as he was at that time anyway.

He is not willing to just be a friend, but if Zhuang Song only wants to treat him as a friend, a real friend, instead of the forced friend who endured for a long time and finally broke up, he can do it reluctantly, as long as Zhuang Song is happy .

Of course, if you have the opportunity, you still have to rush.

Hmm, very contradictory.

Another month passed, and the words slowly increased.

This process is like a re-acquaintance, but because it is not actually a re-acquaintance, there is still a delicate string between the two, and the rhythm is completely controlled by Zhuang Song.

For example, five blacks are allowed, but duos are not.

It is okay to speak in multi-person voice, but not to chat privately.

Gu Yan also let him go, he is now a barefoot person who is not afraid of wearing shoes, he feels that he has earned as much as Zhuang Song is willing to give him, and his mentality is inexplicably good for a while.

You can even show Zhuang Song more of his recent changes.

Be able to communicate in a friendly, even joking way, and Zhuang Song doesn't feel forced.It was already something that Gu Yi could only wish for.

Then there was another day, before Chinese New Year, when Zhuang Song and the others were black, four missing one.

Gu Yi asked if there was any space, so Zhuang Song pulled him in, and he was short of a top order, so Gu Yi played the top order.

Xiaohan and Zhuang Song were talking when they entered the team.

Xiaohan said: "Recently, the score is pretty good."

"Yeah." Zhuang Song said with a smile, "ADC is very reliable."

"Yes." Xiaohan agreed.

Gu Di wanted to join in the conversation with Zhuang Song, so he asked with a smile, "What ADC?"

This should be a very common question, and there is actually no "what kind of ADC". Zhuang Song is just saying that the ADCs he has lined up in the last few games are more reliable.

But when Gu Yan asked, Zhuang Song didn't know why, and suddenly thought of the scorching sun before, and even Xia Jiahe before.

I always feel that when Gu Yan asks this question, the next second is to taunt, speak angry, and throw a knife at him to bully him.

At that moment, it may be a stress reaction.

Without any hesitation, Zhuang Song replied quickly: "What do you want to do?"

Gu Yan on the opposite side stopped talking for a while.

The others didn't feel that there was anything wrong, but Gu Di stopped talking.

Zhuang Song knew that Gu Yan must have noticed the fierce confrontation and guard he showed at that moment just now, so he was stunned.

Even Zhuang Song himself was stunned.

He didn't expect this to happen. When he calmed down a little bit, he knew that Gu Yan was just answering the words in passing. He reacted a bit, but he didn't know what he was afraid of.

Zhuang Song hesitated, opened the chat box with Gu Yan, thinking about whether to explain, but the message from the other party came first.

-Self-examination g: I didn't mean that really, don't think too much about it.

-Introspection g: I just want to talk to you.

- Kitty's Claw: I know.

-Introspection g: It's all my fault, sorry.

In fact, Zhuang Song wanted to say sorry, but Gu Yi apologized first.

He didn't understand at first that there was nothing to apologize for, didn't he just say a word?

But if you think about it carefully, it's all Gu Yi's fault. If it weren't for him before, how could I be so wary of him.

Thinking about it this way, I suddenly became a little angry with this person.

So I didn't apologize at all, just replied "um".

-

After this incident, the relationship between the two became a little awkward.

Zhuang Song didn't intend to take the initiative to push forward at all. Gu Yi was because Zhuang Song's reaction was a little low this time.

Even though he had told himself long ago that it was normal for Zhuang Song to resist him, when he really met Zhuang Song's conditioned guard, Gu Di still felt very painful.

I feel sorry for myself a little bit, and more for Zhuang Song. Seeing Zhuang Song's stress reaction, the kind of acute hostility aroused in an instant like a wounded little animal because he is afraid of stepping into a trap again, Gu Die realized more clearly. to what I have done.

Then I feel more guilty, so guilty that I feel even more distressed.

In addition, Zhuang Song's new year was approaching, and he was busy with experiments again, and it was difficult to go online once a day. Gu Yi lost the main excuse to contact Zhuang Song, and only had to say good morning and good night to him once a day, and no one might answer.

On the contrary, it looks like another cold war.

Gu Di is very shy in front of Zhuang Song now. Every day, there are countless things in his heart that he wants to say, but he dare not say. On the one hand, he feels that there will be no story if he does not take the initiative, but on the other hand, he feels that he cannot take the initiative. Rhythm.

Later, I was too contradictory and couldn't figure it out. I didn't know who to ask, so I had to spend another 880 questions to find the goddess of love.

Although he knew it was useless, he always wanted to talk to someone.

The sorceress in love accepted him 2640 and gave a suggestion: Both routes are fine, you have to judge by yourself according to the form.

Gu Yan: "..."

money back. (not returned yet)

The strange thing is that Gu Yi actually found some comfort from Zhuang Song's vigilance this time.

Because this is not an attitude towards a friend, there is no need to be on guard against a friend, it is because he is afraid that he will go deeper, so he will draw a stick when he just takes a step.

Not as good as friends, but not only friends.

Gu Di didn't know if Zhuang Song would return to Jiangzhou during the Spring Festival, but he might not be able to meet him when he did.Anyway, he had to prepare with both hands. The worst thing he could do was to go to a small town and continue to work as a watchmaker. There would be no harm other than catching a cold.

As a result, he received a call from Hu Qing before that.

"Zhuang Song is sick and has a fever. He may have to be hospitalized." Hu Qing said, "Can you contact his family or something?"

Three hours later, Hu Qing stared dumbfounded at Gu Yan standing in front of him.

"Don't you have anything else to do?" Hu Qing asked in surprise.

-

Zhuang Song's fever was also because he was busy with his project, and he wanted to reach a node before the year before, so he worked overtime.

He is a bit of a workaholic, and he competes with himself, obviously, this morning Hu Qing went to the market to pick up the wind, bought some drinks and wanted to share them with his old classmates, knocked on the door, and found that Zhuang Song was blushing strangely .

Not only blushed, but also in a trance, his forehead was hot when he touched it again, so he hurriedly dragged him to the hospital.

It's not a serious illness, but it's not too mild either. Zhuang Song has a high fever due to the long-term fatigue.

Hurry up and get him to be given a bottle. If the fever persists, he will have to be hospitalized for observation in order to rule out infection and inflammation.

"Then he is getting injections now?" Gu Yan asked.

"Yeah." Hu Qing nodded, "Get an injection and then go to bed. I've hung up several bottles."

"Is the fever gone?" Gu Yan asked.

"Not yet."

Gu Yan looked at the open door of the ward, and really wanted to go in, but he gave up after taking half a step forward.

Hu Qing looked at him, a little confused.

"You go in." Gu Yan said, "I... didn't tell him beforehand, for fear of scaring him."

Afraid of annoying him.

So the door is so close, the person you can see when you push it open, but you just don't dare to see it.

"That's right." Hu Qing didn't know Gu Di's inner drama, so he said, "Then I'll go and see him."

"Yeah." Gu Yan nodded, reluctantly raised the corner of his mouth.

This feeling of "everyone is better than me and you" has been experienced countless times in the past few months, but it is still not very good every time.

"Then can you do me a favor?" Hu Qing asked again, "He can't do without people here, help me get two coats home, or it's really cold."

Gu Yan: "..."

Gu Yi really wanted to say that you go back and get it yourself!I'm here watching!

But he couldn't, although he was extremely reluctant, but he could only say, "Okay, give me the key."

"Do you know where my family lives?" Hu Qing said, "Oh, you must know, after all, on New Year's Day you—"

He shut up wittily, Gu Yan was so depressed that he didn't want to say a word.