don't you regret

The new house is in good condition, and the apartment size is a bit small. Other than that, it is perfect. The more perfect point is that Hu Qing lives in the downstairs house, and the two old classmates can take care of each other.You can even go to the terrace of Johnson's house to drink some wine and have some barbecue.

Zhuang Song moved in soon.

In the past few days, Gu Yi still sent messages to Zhuang Song in various gestures, asking him how the house looked, whether he needed help moving, and whether he was short of things.

According to the relationship between the two of them who could barely play games and even keep in touch by sending messages, Zhuang Song would theoretically reply to these WeChat messages, but he didn't reply except for the initial "Thank you very much".

After that day, I don't want to lie to myself anymore, I can be friends with anyone, but not with Gu Yi.If he had to talk about friends, it would be at least a few years or more than ten years later. He has forgotten all the sweetness and pain he has had with Gu Yan for so many years from the age of 17 to the present age of 24.

In normal times, Zhuang Song can't accept that he doesn't reply to other people's messages, because he has always been a very gentle person who considers others very much, and he and Gu Yan are two extremes.

He will subconsciously think about whether others will be sad if he does this, and then restrain his behavior.

It was said a long time ago that people with too much empathy will live more tiredly.

At that time, I didn't feel it, but now it is the first time that Zhuang Song has experienced this with Gu Yan.

It was also here with Gu Yi, Zhuang Song didn't plan to worry about this for the first time.

Because he found that every contact with Gu Yan reminded him of the past, and then secretly resented him. He preferred the free and easy a while ago, and felt that he should be happier.

The first time she shelved the news of Gu Yan, the feeling was amazing.

A while ago, Gu Yan frantically sent him messages, Zhuang Song was still in the withdrawal reaction period, he didn't care and didn't want to read it at all, but now it's different, he deliberately ignored it after reading it.

Because that person is Gu Yi, I still feel a faint hatred with pain, but it is also mixed with the pleasure of revenge. On the whole, it is a feeling of pain and pleasure, more pleasure than pain.

Gu Yan, on the other hand, tried his best to please Zhuang Song as always, knowing nothing about Zhuang Song's changes.

The only thing he knew was that when he went to the game and asked Zhuang Song if there was a parking space, Zhuang Song's answer became a permanent "no".

Even seeing that Zhuang Song's team formation status is "4/5", their team would rather wait for more than ten minutes to get the fifth person, and it is not his turn.

This is even more true for single and double rows.

He asked Zhuang Song, "Are you in a double row?" Zhuang Song couldn't answer, and Gu Yi sent any "QAQ", but Zhuang Song ignored him at all, and the status directly changed to "in queue".

It is the same in life.

He texted Zhuang Song good morning and good night, but Zhuang Song didn't reply, and he racked his brains to come up with some questions, such as "Give me the account number for the scorching sun live broadcast?", Zhuang Song would send it, but he didn't reply after that.

The next time he tried to repeat the same trick and asked "Can I play Xiaohan's live broadcast room?", Zhuang Song ignored it this time.

This kind of life lasted for five days, and Gu Yan couldn't take it anymore.

He didn't know what was going on, and felt that he might have made Zhuang Song angry somewhere, but he couldn't figure it out, and wanted to ask someone.

But the few friends around him, Qiu Ri didn't seem to be very smart, they were scorching sun...the scorching sun was not his friend.

As for other people, such as Sister Xinghe Yuyiyang in the live broadcast room, Hu Qing from the school, and even the old man in Dongmen Hot Pot, who seems to have experienced many vicissitudes of life, they should be able to ask, but Gu Yi didn't ask.

I don't want them to know about him and Zhuang Song.

Gu Di is not afraid that others will know that he likes Zhuang Song. He is very calm about this matter, but he and Zhuang Song have been in the same frame too much before, which is easy to lead to speculation.

He doesn't want others to gossip about whether Kitten Claw/Zhuang Song played with him because of his unrequited love for Gu Yan~~

He is an anchor himself, and he is used to being talked about, but he knows that Zhuang Song has a thin skin and cares about what others think.

I don't want Zhuang Song to be used as a talking point.

Day [-].

Going home from the freight station, Zhuang Song found that he had received a lot of message reminders in his mailbox. When he clicked on it, he found that it was an exchange coupon sent by a certain shopping website.

Zhuang Song thought it was an advertisement at first, but soon received another WeChat message from Gu Yan.

- Gu Yan: Happy every day~

Zhuang Song suddenly felt that something was wrong, and turned back to the voucher only to find that it was all useful things.

9.9 The cat food, cat snacks, cat litter that he usually eats, the fruits he likes, Hu Qing posted on Weibo before their balcony barbecue, so there are even some high-quality beef and wine, all in all, they are carefully selected what he has used.

Zhuang Song calculated all the prices on the voucher, and the sum totaled several thousand yuan.

……

Let's stop there.

Without hesitation, he opened the wechat dialog box with Gu Yan, and sent a direct transfer according to the calculated number.

-Gu Yi:? ? ?

- The other party returned your transfer.

Then Zhuang Song sent again, Gu Di retreated again, Zhuang Song sent again, Gu Di retreated again.

Zhuang Song gritted his teeth and sent it for the fourth time. Gu Yi didn't return it, but he didn't answer it either. The ID on the profile picture changed to "The other party is typing...", obviously it took a long time, but he only sent it very briefly a sentence.

-Gu Yi: Why not accept QAQ

Zhuang Song felt that he couldn't understand the typing, so he just dialed a voice.

Opposite seconds to pick up.

"What are you doing?" Zhuang Song asked the moment the phone was connected.

"I..." Gu Yan stammered on the opposite side. He probably didn't expect Zhuang Song to be willing to make a phone call but with such a cold tone. The voice on the other side of the voice could almost be called cautious. He said, "I'm giving you Give a gift."

"Why did you give me a gift?" Zhuang Song asked.

"Because you just moved, and I haven't congratulated you yet." Gu Yan replied obediently and seriously, "I specially picked the things you like, don't you have barbecue on your balcony? Those meats are very good , it’s not too expensive for me, you accept it, and you can eat together.”

"Then Hu Qing will remember you well, do you think we have a very good relationship?" Zhuang Song asked.

Gu Yan was a little aggrieved by Zhuang Song's series of unemotional questions, "I didn't mean that. If I want to gain a position with Hu Qing, I can just send a courier there, right? I'll send a coupon to You are what you want to change when you want, I just want to treat you well, and I don't want you to owe me any favors."

"Be nice to me." Zhuang Song repeated softly, "Why do you want to be nice to me again?"

Gu Yi was silent for a while.

Just when Zhuang Song felt that Gu Yan was about to lose his temper, Gu Yan finally spoke.

The tone was indeed a little anxious, but it wasn't angry, it was more like an urgent defense after being wronged.

"I don't have wishful thinking, I know I'm easy to be a fool." Gu Yan said, "This time I specially asked someone, especially a famous witch..."

"What? Who are you asking?" Zhuang Song asked in astonishment.

"Witch, 880 is a love divination witch with one question." Gu Yan said seriously, "I don't want to make you angry again by doing something wrong this time, so I made an appointment with her online and paid an expedited fee, just to ask the end How can I make you happy."

Zhuang Song: "..."

He couldn't even speak, he was so angry and really a little funny.

Gu Yi is very naive in some aspects, for example, why would someone ask the goddess of love to ask such a question and then take it seriously.

Because of this, sometimes he touches people frankly, and sometimes hurts people openly.

Hearing that he didn't speak, Gu Yi lowered his voice again, and asked gently: "Did I say something wrong or do something wrong recently to make you angry? I tried my best to change it, but I still can't do many things. Okay, I know, so if you tell me, I'll change it, okay?"

Zhuang Song's mood, which had just relaxed, sank again because of this question.

He felt pain in his heart, but it wasn't because he felt sorry for Gu Yan, he sighed, "No."

"That's it?" Gu Yan asked blankly.

"Why did you give me these?" Zhuang Song asked back.

"Because I like you." Gu Yan replied, "Because I'm chasing you."

"Then don't chase me?" Zhuang Song said.

Gu Yan didn't speak for a while.

There was a long silence, perhaps not even a minute of actual blankness, but at least it seemed long to both of them.

Then Gu Yan asked in a low voice: "Why?"

"Because." Zhuang Song paused, "Didn't you say you always liked me?"

"Yes." Gu Yan said, "I have always liked you, but I just realized recently that I..."

"Then does your liking make sense?" Zhuang Song interrupted Gu Yan, "Don't you know what you did to me when you liked me?"

Gu Yan was beaten speechless by this question. He was silent for a while before he whispered apologetically: "I know. I have been reflecting on myself. I have done many wrong things in the past. I have neglected you and bullied you. I have lost my temper with you so much that I shouldn't have, it's all my fault, I'm sorry."

He added earnestly, "But I have really changed now, and I am working hard. Give me a chance and let me show it to you, okay?"

Zhuang Song said, "But I don't want to give it."

"Don't do this." Gu Yan's heart ached. It was the first time that Zhuang Song treated him so coldly, as if treating him as an unlovable stranger, leaving him bewildered.

"You may have misunderstood, I don't want you to be with me, I know it's not realistic, I just want to chase you, I want you to see me now. How good we were before, I don't want to make trouble like this ,I--"

"I didn't misunderstand." Zhuang Song smiled softly, "You said you didn't want to make trouble like this, so have you ever thought about why it happened like this?"

During Gu Yan's brief stupefaction, Zhuang Song said:

"Because you are hot and cold, because you are good to others, give me your worst temper, because what you call liking is to give me something when you are happy, and you will ignore me when you are happy. This is your liking, Roasting a person on the fire, tossing him, torturing him is called liking, following one's own temperament, forcing a person to obey what you say is called liking, I don't want this kind of liking, but I can't afford it."

"So stop tormenting me with wishful thinking. It will only show me what a bastard you were before. The more you do this, the more I will hate you."

"We used to be good because I let you. We are in trouble now because of you. Do you understand Gu Yan?"

After these words were finished, there was a deathly silence on the other side of the voice.

Including Zhuang Song himself, the words that have been held in his heart for a long time are spoken out, and at the same time he is happy and stung by the surging memories.

After an unknown amount of time, Zhuang Song finally heard Gu Di speak.

"You're right, it's all because of me." Gu Yan said in a low voice.

"How about this, I'll accept the money from the voucher, the fruit, but don't give me the beef and wine. The price/performance ratio is too low, so it's unnecessary. I'll pass it on to someone else, okay?"

"Yes." Zhuang Song said.

There was another moment of silence, and the world seemed to be drowned in the night.

Then Gu Yan finally spoke again.

"I really like you." Gu Yan's voice sounded a little hoarse, "I'm really changing too."

After a pause, he continued: "But I may have been living in a dream, thinking that you will forgive me if you work hard, thinking that as long as I keep getting close, I will always be close. But in fact, you are right, I have made too many mistakes Now, you won't believe me at all, and everything I do will only make you unhappy."

He spoke every word very slowly, with a slight tremor in his voice, as if it was difficult to say every word.

"It's impossible for me to let you go, but yes, I won't chase you or bother you. I'll listen to you, okay?"