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"You asked me if I would like to have sex with you, I am willing, I am definitely willing, but no, Jiang Huan, I can't, my mental state is not good, you are suddenly looking for me so frequently, follow me, I am really stressed Very big, even if I sleep with you like yesterday, but when I wake up, I am very anxious, I wish I could disappear into this world."

Miao An closed his eyes when he said this, he inhaled slowly, and exhaled slowly, his fingers tightly grasped the turf under him, exhausting all his strength.

"The last time I was like this was when my ex-boyfriend was standing behind me ordering someone to cut my glands out."

Miao An's voice was very soft, not as chic as before. He touched the back of his neck with one hand, and it became smooth again not long after he left Jiang Huan.

"Can't you see that my side has been cut? Do you know why? Because I have money, the doctor can help me cover it well, but the gland inside is bad, that's why I have information Suspension disorder, I am different from sudden illness like yours. You can control it with medicine, but I can’t. I am a real patient. I am physically disabled, and I am damaged psychologically. I don’t know. How much do you know me, maybe you didn’t even think about getting to know me in the past. After all, I seem to be living a pretty good life, but I can tell you clearly that after what happened that year, my defense line in the bottom of my heart collapsed. I used to like it so much He trusted him so much, but I got this result in the end. I woke up many times at night, and I would dream about those things. At that time, a boy who was implicated by me had his glands cut off directly, and he was saved. The kind that doesn’t come back, we have been friends with benefits for a long time after the incident is over, that is the kind you said that we don’t like each other, just pity each other, I thought life could be like this, but the other party left first , he said he had to move forward and live his own life...he was better than me. I tried to get out too, but, Jiang Huan, I found that I failed, and I had another nightmare, which was a dream You said on the plane it was over."

The pink champagne reflected faint light under the moonlight. Miao An moved his fingers from the grass to the wine bottle. He stroked the smooth curve of the champagne carefully, thinking that life could be as smooth as this.

"Jiang Huan, maybe I was okay before, but now, I really can't."

It was already late at night when Miao An drank the wine.

When Jiang Huan left, he didn't know very well, because he sat there and kept his head down.

That's all BaN's vulnerability is, nothing more.

After saying those words, Miao An could no longer look into Jiang Huan's eyes with a relaxed smile on his face as before, all his pretense ended at that moment.

So Jiang Huan's departure did not attract Miao'an's attention, he was completely caught up in his own emotions at that moment, he thought he finally confessed.

He also thought that confession did not mean calmness.

It wasn't until Xiao Hei licked the back of his hand that Miao An slowly came back to his senses.

I haven't seen him for more than two years, and Xiao Hei has turned into Da Hei, but he is still very obedient, lying silently beside Miao An.

Miao An stroked its head as before.

In fact, Miao An didn't treat it very well before. Miao Ran or her servants did it for walks, or Jiang Huan. Jiang Huan would come here specially to play with it for a while. Miao An even seldom touched it. He always felt that Xiao Hei was a real dog, and what a dog needs is loyalty and obedience.

But now Xiao Hei is lying there, wagging his tail lightly, when Miao An touches its head, it will slightly raise its head to meet Miao An.

Miao An wanted to cry a little, he looked down on himself very much, at the age of 30, he still cried.

Xiao Hei fell asleep, closing his eyes and breathing evenly.Miao An got up and put Xiao Hei into its room. It just woke up for a while, and then fell asleep again after finding its own nest.

Miao An picked up his bottle of pink champagne, found a chair and sat down. He shook the champagne violently as he had imagined at the beginning, and the mushroom plug was sprayed out under pressure, and the liquid also gushed out.

A lot of white foam flowed onto Miao An's hands, they exploded violently, and then disappeared instantly.

Miao An holds champagne and pays respects to the bright moon, the moonlight is so beautiful tonight.

The days seem to have really returned to the original track.

Miao An originally wanted to fly back to Italy immediately, but Shi Nian brought people to Sang Yu's engagement banquet, and rumors in the circle were so lively, but Shi Nian didn't care, and invited Miao An to dinner, saying that it was him and Lian Qing Give Miao'an a welcome.

Miao An thought it was good, the meeting and seeing off could be settled in this one meal, and it would save me any trouble with them.

The time was on the weekend, and the venue was booked at Lianqing's winery. Miao An joked on the phone that these two people were stingy, and they refused to even spend some money to invite him out for a meal, so they chose this kind of winery. The territory should deal with him.

At that time, he was not as cautious as he was two years ago. Instead, he asked Miao An generously if he would come. He and Lian Qing were well prepared and promised not to disappoint him.

Tsk tsk, the tone seemed to be the tone of a master, Miao An chuckled, thinking that Lianqing had settled down with Shi Nian in this way.

Miao An went to the appointment on time according to the agreed time, because he was meeting an old friend and was in a private production place, so Miao An dressed very casually, and went with a T-shirt and jeans with a jacket. Startled, he said, I thought you had to wear a suit to the toilet.

The three of them are very familiar with each other. During the two years abroad, Miao An had a lot of contact with Shi Nian. He even introduced doctors to Shi Nian's younger sister. In addition, he often worked for Shi Nian. He was half of Party A's father, so Back then, he was much kinder to him, but they had a party at the winery, but no one prepared wine for him.

"I think you should stop drinking. Lian Qing and I won't drink today." Shi Nian opened a bottle of Coke and poured it into a goblet, "Look, the color is similar to wine, so just drink it. I see that you also like to drink Coke."

Miao An raised her eyebrows when she took the glass handed over by Shi Nian and said, "What? Is it because I drink too much and cause trouble in the winery? Don't worry, my wine is the best. If I drink too much, I will be dead and very good."

"Take medicine and drink less." Lian Qing took a glass and said directly, "Haven't you been taking medicine for the last two years?"

"Miao Ran's mouth is really a colander..." Miao An said with a sigh, "It's a good thing we didn't live in a war, otherwise our Miao family would be ashamed of the world."

"That's fine. At that time, you Miaoran won't grasp anything serious. At most, you'll be worrying about brother every day like you are now."

While talking, Lian Qing took a square box with a chocolate cake in it. He said he wanted to eat this very much today, so he rushed to buy one temporarily.

He divided the cake with a knife, and the three of them drank Coke and ate the cake. It looked like a student celebrating a birthday.

After taking a spoonful, Miao An felt that the taste was very familiar. He glanced at the cake package and found that the peeled sticker was the one that Jiang Huan used to use back then.

At that time, Miao'an hired someone to do the design, and the whole set of designs was complete, but Jiang Huan only printed some sealing stickers. He said that he would use others when it became bigger in the future.

"Is the cake delicious?" Shi Nian said while eating, "This uncle said he wanted to eat chocolate cake. I happened to be near Jiang Huan's shop, so I went to buy one from him, and he opened one a few days after he came back. I didn’t expect the small store to come out. We chatted a few words in the store. He said that it was someone else’s store. Many things were ready-made. He didn’t change much. He said he didn’t want to be a tailor because he really didn’t have much talent, and his family was not happy about it, so he went out to live on his own, and now lives in the shop.”

"Oh." Miao An couldn't help but drank the Coke in the glass, and then poured himself another glass, "He talks a lot now."

"He used to be like this." Shi Nian said while holding a spoon and poking his chin, "He was quite cheerful when he was not sick, but later he became a mouthless gourd, and now he seems to be better. keep in touch?"

"No." Miao An took a bite of the cake and said, "We have lost contact a long time ago, it was Miao Ran who told me."

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Ahhhhh I'm a piece of trash! ! ! !

And the moonlight tonight is so beautiful, ah, this sentence is also really beautiful...