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"I didn't expect you to be a Holy Father."

Miao An parked the car on the side of the road, opened the window on his side, and lit the cigarette.

He quit smoking when he was with Jiang Huan, and smoked hard for a few days after they separated, but the addiction was gone, and the number of times he smoked in the past two years can be counted on dozens of fingers.

However, he saw that Zhou Xiaoke was very proficient in smoking, and he was afraid that he had become an old smoker.

"It's useless to say, can he not know that I like him? He is not a silly white sweet on the side of the road, he doesn't like me, what can I do?" Zhou Xiaoke licked his dry lips, " Do I want to be the Holy Father? Do I want to? Besides, am I worthy to be the Holy Father? I asked you to get the money for his surgery. When I talk to you, I don’t want to lose my face. I want to be a Holy Father Am I not for him? But what to do? I told him that you like me because I have taken advantage of you, can I say that? I can't, right, shouldn't he be more sensible Don't worry about me? But he turned around and got involved with someone else, what should I do? What should I do? Miao An, let me ask you, what do you think I should do?"

Zhou Xiaoke was very emotional when he said that, his hand holding the cigarette was shaking, Miao An sighed, and brought Zhou Xiaoke a bottle of water. When he handed the water to Zhou Xiaoke, he found Zhou Xiaoke's The corners of my eyes are red.

It is said that men don't flick their tears easily because they haven't reached the sad place.

The real mother is uncomfortable, and there are too many places where they are sad.

"If it were me, I would arrest him and lock him in the room." Miao'an tapped his steering wheel and thought for a while, then said, "Or kill him, and then I don't want to live, of course I The idea is wrong because I'm sick, you know, I'm not normal, you don't do that."

"What's the use of locking him up?" Zhou Xiaoke calmed down after drinking the water, "Should he become a patient with himself? Besides, do I have this ability? Where should I lock him up? Lock him up in our hospital? Besides, Miao An, you have been talking for a long time, did you do this? Isn’t Jiang Huan still doing well? He came back from Japan and asked me for a follow-up visit. He is much more active than you, and he talks more than before. , do you know how surprised I was? I wanted to ask him what school he went to study in Japan, and it still has this effect. It’s too late for me to give up medicine and become a cook. I don’t know what happened to you at the beginning, but you locked him up Did you tie him up? Did you kill him? You didn’t, why didn’t you? Do you think he’s not worth it? Or is it just because you don’t want to?!”

Tsk, why did Zhou Xiaoke want to hurt others when she lost her love?Miao An also suddenly felt thirsty, he guessed that Zhou Xiaoke didn't really need his answer now, so Miao An also opened a bottle of water for himself.

The two big men held a cigarette in one hand and water in the other, and drank water while smoking. Zhou Xiaoke drank fiercely, with the momentum of drinking boiled water as if it were an Erguotou. Put real wine.

After drinking a bottle of water, Zhou Xiaoke also finished smoking his cigarettes. Although it looked cooler to throw the mineral water bottles and cigarette butts out through the window, he still sorted out the garbage obediently, and then leaned on the chair Started to be in a daze.

The wind came in through the window, causing Miaoan a headache. He felt that he and Zhou Xiaoke were like tramps in a bustling city, passing by the love of the whole world.

"I know he is quite selfish." Zhou Xiaoke said.

"Who? Jiang Huan?"

"... May I know Jiang Huan?"

Zhou Xiaoke couldn't help giving Miao An a blank look.

"I said I know the teacher is selfish, I know it all..." Zhou Xiaoke looked out of the car window, and the rows of small shops were basically closed. Although the whole street was brightly lit, it looked very depressed, "He actually You all know, you know my feelings, you know my dilemma, but he just pretended not to know... He took advantage of it, but he didn't pay for me. At that time, I would also think about you and Jiang Huan. I think I'm far worse than you, you and Jiang Huan still maintain a sexual relationship, but I didn't even sign his hand, I changed him from alpha to omega, and then I got nothing, I still owe You don’t have to tell me that you don’t have to pay it back. You have to use something. I’m not a fool, right? , he knows that I am embarrassed, but I still like him, right, Miao An, people are so strange, they always know what they should want, but few people can do it."

Listening to Zhou Xiaoke's words, Miao An couldn't help but fell into deep thought.

Just like Xiao Ke said, his teacher is selfish and very calm, but Xiao Ke just likes him, just like his feelings for Jiang Huan, he can't explain clearly, doesn't Jiang Huan know that he gave him all the benefits? ?How could he have the nerve to break up with himself?The key is that after more than two years after the breakup, I ran to find myself again.

It's as if you will soften your heart if you are sure.

Miao An was thinking wildly. In fact, he had thought about many things countless times in the past two years. He would always review every detail and wonder where he made a mistake.

But it's useless, just like Zhou Xiaoke said, everyone knows a lot, but it's all useless, it can't change any results, just let yourself regret it.

So Miao An and Zhou Xiaoke were like two sluts, each guarding a car window, staring at the cold wind in a daze, until a policeman came and asked them if they had been drinking and let off the smell, Miao An started driving again hit the road.

Zhou Xiaoke had completely calmed down, he didn't say a word along the way, he just said "thank you" when he got off the car.

Seeing him enter the community, Miao An suddenly felt a little indescribable.

Zhou Xiaoke is obviously a very good person, but he also suffers from the pain caused by the relationship. Miao An thought that maybe tomorrow Zhou Xiaoke would pretend to be nonchalant and go to work and live until he can completely let go of this relationship. .

But letting go of feelings, how easy is it?

Miao An drove the car to the old town. When she left, she looked like she was going to be demolished. I don’t know if it has been demolished now, and I don’t know if the food stalls that only open late at night are still there. .In the past few years abroad, except for the occasional thought of Jiang Huan, most of his thoughts are dedicated to those few stutters.Especially the wonton stand on the burden, he has never eaten such delicious wontons.

But when the car arrived, Miao An also gave up.

The original old community has been turned into ruins, and the food stalls no longer exist.

There are no more old men and down-and-out young people cooking wontons.

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After I let fly to write, I feel that feelings are really complicated and simple things...