The principle of keeping the heart of the blackened housekeeper

Why do you say that the person who likes you always looks like he doesn't lack you at all.

I read such a sentence when I was a teenager, but I didn't understand it at that time. When I remembered this sentence, Jiang Ruosui and I had reached the end.

He said he wanted to break up because of my nonsense.

I just vented my anger, and Jiang Ruosui said that I wanted to separate when I couldn't even take it back.

This period of life made me think that he and I are a very ordinary couple, we will be sweet, quarrel and miss each other, even though it is all my self-righteousness.

Jiang Ruosui said that he thought I would be smarter than Zhang Yuan, but now it seems that I am still just as stupid.

I didn't go home the night I was abandoned by him, I couldn't find the address of my home, maybe I didn't have a home from the beginning, I thought to myself.

At that time, I only had 300 yuan and an ID card. I should be glad that I was because the company needed an ID card to sign in, otherwise I wouldn't even be able to buy a ticket.

The mobile phone was broken when I was trying to keep Jiang Ruosui. I watched him drift away. I tried to pull him and grab his leg. I wished I could forcefully drag him away on the road, but in fact Facing Jiang Ruosui's relentless eyes, I flinched.

When I turned to leave, I met Cheng Huan's eyes, I couldn't help being furious, I wished that the group of dudes around Jiang Ruosui would die.

If it wasn't for them, if it wasn't for them, Jiang Ruosui wouldn't have broken up with me, I naively thought.

But in fact, the only person who can change his mind is himself, and everything is my self-deception.

The short-lived dream was shattered and then glued on with tape, maybe it was not strong at the beginning, so why bother to complain.

I blame myself for not being able to live up to expectations, I blame me for staying by the beauty's side only by kneeling. For the first time, I have a desire for money and status that exceeds that of a beauty.

I contacted the one who appeared to talk to Bai Nian, and they were happy to take me in, and I wouldn't be useless.

I was walking aimlessly on the street, and all I recalled in my mind were Jiang Ruosui's heartless words.

I feel so sad.

Every time I feel like my heart is being cut with a blade, I really want to cry.

I didn't feel so bad about my time in the orphanage with no clothes on.

I think I'm still a strong person, the huge impact made me no longer have the right to resist, maybe Jiang Ruosui just has no heart.

I left the city and went to a new environment, and I still use that shameful and delusional name, maybe because of the characteristics of an orphan, I can adapt quickly to any place.

I entered the training camp arranged by the state, and I met Xiao Zhao in it. At the beginning, it was not an acquaintance, but he was very upset with me unilaterally and always made me embarrassed on purpose. Later, I realized that his talent was originally unique. Just go, because if you have me, you will be forced to cooperate with me, and he can't accept it.

I appear here like a special recruit. Xiao Zhao heard that although he has a strong record and has several criminal records, he was originally not wanted to be accepted here, but he made an exception to let him in because of his own perseverance.

When I heard the introduction from the introducer, I was afraid that he was a troublesome person, and I didn't want to cause trouble, so I just nodded and prayed that this person would not bother me.

I was also a loner in the training camp, and sometimes the teacher who taught them to recognize the equipment wondered if geniuses were so strange.

Until I got into a fight with Xiao Zhao, he laughed at my name, and tore up the notebook that I wrote down Jiang Ruosui's name because I missed him too much that day. After treating myself like this, my anger rose to the point of unreasonable, I grabbed his hair and started hammering him.

The two boys are both very strong, and he and I are hammering at the dead point every time, he gets excited when he sees me resisting, but when he is enjoying the violence, I only think about whether Jiang Ruosui will think of me.

What is the difference between me and those exes who were left behind by Jiang Ruosui, they may still find someone who loves them next, but I have nothing left.

When I watched the people who were left behind by Jiang Ruosui with cold eyes, I had already been punished like this.

I suddenly stopped resisting, and my fists hit me one after another. The pain in my body was far less than the pain in my heart. Xiao Zhao thought I was beaten and cried by him, so his fists loosened at once, and he rushed from me in a panic. Get up: "Cao, why are you crying? You hit me so hard just now and I haven't cried yet. Cao, are you a bitch!"

His aggrieved crying made it rare for me to relax my tense mood. I wanted to laugh at his brain, but I couldn't laugh, so I had to simply answer that I was fine.

I pushed him away and went back to my lounge.

Unexpectedly, Xiao Zhao started to roll over like a clingy bug, bringing me food, inviting me to dinner, even going to the restaurant for lunch at noon, he would stick to me.

The two of us were quickly rumored to be bad, and I couldn't help asking him what he wanted to do.

Although I have always been by Jiang Ruosui's side, I have been confessed to many times. This is not showing off, but just stating a fact. I am not as elegant as Jiang Ruosui, and I will choose whether to date or not based on people. I'll just leave indifferently, as long as it's not about Jiang Ruosui, I don't care at all. As my reputation gets worse and worse, my hatred for me has changed from being interested to looking at me.

I don't thank anyone who would come near me and give me the courage to climb out of the dead, their eyes with pity revealing to me all the time that I am a poor person, they feel that I am being bullied and that I don't deserve to suffer like this Criticism.

But if I step back more than ten years and Jiang Ruosui doesn't choose me, I will die.

Maybe you have heard the same words from many people, saying that I am the survivor he chose.

I can't help but feel guilty and thankful for the man who gave me my new name.

In the first half of life, people are always ignorant to learn how to be kind to others. It is said that people are kind, so what kind of monster is he who is exuding crazy words from the bottom of his bones.

I don't know what's going on in my own head, but I think it's time for me to understand him and use his thinking to get a new life between me and him.

The reason why I thought so much was because Xiao Zhao, who was also reckless and didn't know right or wrong, appeared, and he approached me proactively and said he wanted to try to make up with me.

Why do you say it's reconciliation? Obviously, I didn't take him to heart at all.

But in this case, I missed an opportunity. I wisely stopped saying these unpleasant words. I learned that Xiao Zhao is also an orphan, because Xiao Ye is used to him being vague about laws and policies, and he even said that he doesn’t care if he knows. , but he is surprisingly smart, especially when it comes to creation and mechanical transformation, he is unique and simply smart.

I was in charge of brain hole and design chemistry, and he turned my abstracted machine into reality. Sometimes our thinking is at the same time, and we are simply the best partners.

But we also have times when we hit a wall. He has always listened to me, but I asked him to listen to me about the design of machinery, and he began to argue with me. The opposite is also the same. We fought a lot. In the end The outcome is whoever wins the point of view.

For a while, I experienced the feeling of a friend. Maybe one day Xiao Zhao has difficulties, and I will try my best to help him. ) is really fancy.

A heartless person like him also has troubles, and he also gets drunk because of troubles. I just sat on the sidelines and listened to complain, but his grievances are usually the harsh opinions of others on him. Many people, they all hate someone like Xiao Zhao who is capable but extravagant. Such a person also cares about other people's opinions. My impression of him has changed.

He asked me about my life experience and how I got here, but I kept silent. Finally, when I felt that my relationship with him had reached the point of life and death, I was willing to share Jiang Ruosui.

That is my dream, and that is my unique secret, I have no reason to share it with others, but I still can't help it.

Maybe I really need to listen to other people's opinions. I told Xiao Zhao what happened to me. Many elements were smoothed out by my lies. I don't want others to speak ill of Jiang Ruosui, maybe it's because I deliberately concealed him. I can also hear it, he didn't intentionally say bad things about Jiang Ruosui, he suddenly realized why I was angry when I first met him, because he tore up the book that said my favorite person, he is now with me Apologize, I said no need to apologize, it was originally my own over-emotional, he analyzed the thoughts of a wave of such people to me.

Jiang Ruosui probably enjoys bullying others and enjoying the pride of a superior, so when facing Xu Wang, he will use a unique way to express the scene he wants to see. What shocked me even more was that Xiao Wang What Zhao said may not mean that he has no nostalgia for you.

Such words are completely rekindling the hope of my dead branches like a raging fire. In fact, I can't hear a word that I still have hope with him.

This will only make me entangled and stalked.

Subconsciously, I wanted to cover Xiao Zhao's mouth, but I didn't do so. I knew what I was hesitating for. I was despicable, and I was looking forward to meeting him again.

Xiao Zhao's analysis may not have been verified, and it may be an idea that is simply out of reach for people like me, but I am willing to believe that Jiang Ruosui may think so.

I started to work hard with him, my fighting spirit was ignited, even when he was resting, I was still in contact with other experimental research, I wanted to make him unable to get rid of me when I met Jiang Ruosui again , Let him never think about leaving me for the rest of his life.

A year is really fast, I miss him.