Stop fishing, can't stand it

Song Xueyan: I can't bear it anymore

During the lunch break, Xiaobing went out from the lounge, leaving only a takeaway bag.

Yan Qi sat down on the sofa, took out two boxes of glutinous rice with taro sauce, unsealed them one by one, looked up at Song Xueyan not far away, "This is the big meal you want me to treat you to?"

"I think it's pretty good. This one tastes good." Song Xueyan took off her outer robe and inner shirt, temporarily put on a short sleeve, walked over, and moved the small stool to Yan Qi's lap.

He tied up the second half of his long hair and put it behind his head. After sitting down, he said: "This glutinous rice restaurant is in the park of Huaying Media headquarters. The business is very good, and the food is much cheaper than other restaurants. I passed by it several times. , They were all overcrowded. One afternoon, after dinner time, there was no one there, and I happened to be free, so I went in and bought a bowl, which tasted really good.”

This was the first time that Song Xueyan brought up Huaying Media on his own initiative. Yan Qi heard something and didn't answer, but just poured half a cup of warm white water for Song Xueyan.

"About the reason why I terminated the contract with Huaying Media, there are different opinions. Some say it was because of the decentralization within the group, and I stood in line with the higher-ups. The high-ranking chakra couldn't bear the humiliation, so he resolutely left."

Song Xueyan picked up the water and took a sip, sipped the water away, and smiled at Yan Qi.

"Actually, it's not that complicated. It's just that I thought Wang Deqi was too annoying, so I chose to terminate the contract."

Yan Qi took a mouthful of rice, it was soft and sweet, but he couldn't swallow it, and said in a muffled voice, "What did he do to you?"

"According to the relationship between Mr. Yu and the Wang family, you should also be familiar with the behavior of the Wang family brothers. Their common hobby is beauties. To put it bluntly, they are romantic. When they see beautiful women, they want to sleep. Men and women are not taboo. I just joined the company Not long after, I met Wang Ruizhe by chance.

But after all, he is a businessman, he pays more attention to profit, and he is also very sharp-eyed. He knows that I am not a temperament to be rubbed by others, so he prefers to let me be a cash cow instead of his crotch/lower pet. "

Song Xueyan picked open the small plastic box with his thumb, inside was a small pile of side dishes, he took a bite, and then took another bite of glutinous rice.

After swallowing his stomach, he continued: "But Wang Deqi is not as good as his brother. He is a rice bug, and he spends all day thinking about the three-way thing. It was the first time he invited me to dinner with him, and he pretended to be a very polite gentleman. But I didn't like the look in his eyes, so I declined. Later, the second time, and the third time, he turned the corner and changed the invitation, playing a game of coercion and temptation."

Seeing Yan Qi buried his head in the rice, Song Xueyan laughed, poured him half a glass of water, and waited for Yan Qi to drink a couple of sips obediently, before saying, "You know, some people's brains grow in the lower body, and they are born thinking When others refused his courtship, they were seizing Joe, catching him, for more affection and benefits, not simply refusing. Suffering repeated rejections, Wang Deqi couldn't sit still, so he wanted to use that dirty method. "

Yan Qi raised his head suddenly, "He gave you medicine?"

"Yeah, that day, Huaying Media's high-level executives and leading artists were there. He may think it's safer to be dark under the lights, and it's not easy for me to detect it, but I'm very smart." Song Xueyan rolled her eyes and smiled. It was pure kindness and gentleness, "I didn't take a sip of the medicine, but it was poured into his mouth."

When time came to the same fork, Song Xueyan made a completely different choice from her previous life.

In his previous life, he failed to see through Wang Deqi's plot, drank the drugged wine, and almost fell asleep. Fortunately, he met Chen Wanlu when he hurriedly escaped from the banquet hall.Chen Wanlu drove him to the hospital and escaped unharmed.

After this incident, he covered up Chen Wanlu's existence and discussed with his manager and assistants. They told him to calm down and not seek an explanation.

Song Xueyan understood their thoughts, but he didn't want to do this. Later, he went to Wang Ruizhe, hoping that as the company's boss, Wang Deqi's brother, he could give a reasonable solution.But in Wang Ruizhe's eyes, his actions may be naive, or may be a kind of provocation to the superiors. In short, he hit a soft nail and didn't get a useful word.

"I thought at the time, if I could go back in time and go back to the past, for example, when I graduated from university and was about to sign a company, would I still sign with Huaying?" Song Xueyan said, "I would, because I just wanted to pour that drugged drink into his mouth."

To do it all over again, he chose to retaliate, just for the sake of the instant refreshment at that moment.Later, he didn't talk to Wang Ruizhe again, but directly chose to terminate the contract, and he just wanted a more free world.

"Although Wang Deqi has had countless evil thoughts, the truth is not so magical compared to the speculation on the Internet." Song Xueyan shrugged, "I'm just too bored and want to change my life, even if I lose all my belongings , even if I offend Huaying, even if I can't act in the future, I don't care."

He put down his chopsticks, held his face in his hands, and flaunted like he fantasized about being Ultraman and defeating monsters when he was a child: "I've never been so free and easy. The feeling of being unscrupulous is really amazing."

Yan Qi's hand holding the chopsticks froze unconsciously, his heart tightened, and he felt an unspeakable emotion, stuffy and tingling, he couldn't explain it.

"At that time, some people persuaded me, ex-managers, ex-assistants, and high-level executives of the company. Some wanted to conquer me ideologically, and some confided in me. No matter what method they used, the most they said was: Hey, why bother so much , you are in Huaying, you are well-cultivated, and your future is boundless. Besides, you can enjoy the shade with your back against a big tree. That's the truth. You just offended Wang Deqi, then turned around and ran away from Huaying, how will you mess around in the future?"

Song Xueyan felt like laughing in retrospect, "Actually, what they said made sense, but—"

He wiped his face, put down his hands, and said in a brisk tone, "I just hate it, I just don't want to be wronged. If I am forced to the point where I can't act, then I will be behind the scenes. If I can't do it behind the scenes, then I will Just quit the circle. I went to the dance studio as a teacher and as a self-media dance blogger.

If that doesn't work, I go to the flower shop, or I just do nothing and go for a drive.I drive wherever I want, and when I get there, I play there, stay in a hotel, continue driving the next day if I am in the mood, and spread my corpse when I am not in the mood. In the end, when I am tired from playing, I can die on the way, or I can die when I go home. "

Yan Qi was short of breath, raised his hand to pinch his face, and coaxed a child to say: "Hey, don't talk nonsense."

"But survival is a human instinct. How can I ensure that I don't ask for help before I die, and die completely instead of being rescued and becoming inhuman?" Song Xueyan's tone was light, as if exchanging secrets, "I have to cut off all the chances of survival and throw away all the tools. I calmly watched the blood flow out, and then I would panic, fear, and struggle uncontrollably, but I was prepared in advance, so uh—"

Yan Qi suddenly pinched Song Xueyan so hard that it hurt so much, he stretched out his hand to hug Yan Qi's wrist, scratched it coquettishly, and was forced to pout and cry out the pain.As soon as Yan Qi let go, he said triumphantly, "I'm still dead."

"Song Xueyan." Yan Qi paused, "Fuck you."

"I was just joking!" Song Xueyan smiled, "Later... it was so long that it seemed like a lifetime, and it seemed like a blink of an eye. I thought about it. If it really doesn't work, I'll go to Beicheng."

His eyes were soft, and he was reluctant to take his eyes away from Yan Qi's face, "My online friend is very nice, he will definitely be willing to help me."

"You don't like asking others for help." Yan Qi let go of him and stroked the red marks on his face, "Why are you willing to ask him for help?"

"Because he has a kind heart." Song Xueyan got up, sat next to Yan Qi, and stared at him curiously, "Don't you also have an online version of the little bamboo horse? If he has the same predicament as me, he will come to find him too. If you ask for help, will you help him?"

Yan Qi nodded without hesitation, "Yes." He put down his chopsticks, "Actually, think about it, you are quite similar to him."

It's just that Suiqiong is like glutinous rice balls, soft, and Song Xueyan is more like sandwich ice cream. It's cold outside, and you have to sip it to taste the sweetness inside.

"Hey, but I'm pretty lucky." Song Xueyan took Yan Qi's hand and asked him to continue rubbing her face, "Fang Zhouji is so young, he wants me to be the male lead, just like "Dangerous Situation" It was a cooperation project between Huaying and Zongchen, so Huaying didn't dare to touch me. At the casting meeting, I met Yanle, and we hit it off. I am older than him, but in fact he always takes care of me."

Song Xueyan glanced at Yan Qi, with a guilty conscience, "I don't know if Yan Le told you, anyway, let me confess to you first. My mental and physical conditions were not good before, but Yan Le scolded you That’s right, I did it myself. But I don’t want to, and the insomnia group isn’t all active insomniacs. Yanle helped me find a psychiatrist, treated me regularly, changed my medicine, bought vegetables and cooked meals for me. , chat with me, take me out to play, and always want me to get closer to An Shigou and the others, and want me to have more friends. In short, he can worry about it."

Yan Qi had tasted the jealousy of Fu Yanle and An Shigou before, but now, and in the future, he can't and will never eat it again.

"Thinking about it this way, your brother once protected me in a roundabout way, and Yanle is still my umbrella until now, and then you appeared, and you also protected me." Song Xueyan rubbed Yan Qi's hand, "Your family is really nice .”

"I'm sorry." Yan Qi pressed his forehead against his hand, his voice hoarse, "I came too late."

"No." Song Xueyan looked at him through her fingers, and there seemed to be a thousand words in her eyes, "Actually, you are not late at all, without you..."

Song Xueyan rolled her Adam's apple, tried her best to suppress the second half of the sentence, and said, "You are so handsome and tall, very much like the savior I imagined when I was a child, my own savior."

"But I," Yan Qi said in a difficult tone, "didn't show up when you needed me the most."

"Then you have to show up when I was five years old." Song Xueyan said softly, "The savior has to grow up to save me. You were still a kid in diapers at that time, so you have to learn to save me first." Your little ass."

Yan Qi groaned and rubbed against his palm, "Don't despise me!"

Song Xueyan's palms were itchy, "I don't dislike you for being young, I have never disliked you. Attaching to the past is worse than looking to the future. I need you very much now."

He got up suddenly, fell into Yan Qi's arms, hugged him, leaned on him, like half yellow and half green branches entangled with a majestic tree.

"I need you to forgive my rashness last night."

The author says:

I also really want to travel by car, wherever I go, it’s a pity that I can’t, I’m afraid of driving, and I’m afraid of crossing the road when I walk.