After being dressed as cannon fodder, I just want to live

The four of them walked side by side at the beginning, but because of the cars parked on the side of the road and the occasional pedestrians passing by, the four of them gradually became groups of two.

Mu Xuerou and He Ziyan, who communicated with each other, naturally walked together, and the remaining two people who talked less tonight walked behind them.

At seven o'clock in the evening, it was already dark, and the shops on the side of the road were brightly lit. In this cold winter, even the light was bitingly cold.

Fang Bai was wearing an off-white woolen coat, loose and mid-length, with a lazy style.She took off her coat while eating, and put it on casually when she came out of the restaurant. At this time, the clothes were wide open, and the cold wind broke into her arms wantonly.

Thinking of the distance of only a few hundred meters, Fang Bai felt that he would enter the room soon, so he didn't care how much cold wind would blow into her arms a few hundred meters away.

Slightly raised his head, the crescent moons were scattered among the depressed branches, his eyes moved down, He Ziyan and Mu Xuerou were talking to each other three meters away, both children had smiles on their faces.

Seeing this scene, Fang Bai unconsciously smiled. She wondered if it was because she had been with these children for a long time that her mind had become much more childish.

What do you care about with Ji Yuning?

Except for Ji Yuning herself, no one in this world knows Ji Yuning better than her.

Fang Bai is very clear about what Ji Yuning is like.

Maybe it's not because of the dispute with Ji Yuning, but because Fang Bai couldn't face her failure. A year and a half ago, she was confident that she could change her destiny, but in the end, it was all nothingness.

Although there was an element of acting in the beginning, it cannot be denied that she has contributed.

Can something be gained?

Maybe there are, such as when Ji Yuning and her acted together, those moments that made her feel delusional.

For example... now.

Fang Bai looked down at the arm blocking her, stopped, turned around and asked the person who stopped her: "What's wrong?"

The voice of the question was soft and soft, like the tail curling up among the clouds.

The hand in front of him did not withdraw, but dropped to his waist, holding the belt hanging on the clothes.

"?"

While Fang Bai was puzzled, Ji Yuning moved to the opposite side of her, and reached out to gather the coats on both sides together.

Holding the belt, Ji Yuning tied the knot slowly, so gently that she seemed to be decorating some kind of artwork, for fear that rough movements would disturb the other party.

Fang Bai watched Ji Yuning tie the knot. From her point of view, Ji Yuning lowered her head, her eyes were downcast, and she kept silent with a... flattering look?

Ji Yuning flattering her?

Fang Bai quickly put away his thoughts, thinking that he might have been confused by the wind, and thought that Ji Yuning was flattering her.

After the coat was folded, it resisted the wind that was still pouring in.

Fang Bai gradually felt the warmth.

As a result, Fang Bai's mind cleared up a lot. Just when Fang Bai wanted to take back the belt from Ji Yuning's hand and tie it himself, before he raised his hand, a cold voice sounded:

"I don't want to go."

Fang Bai stopped moving.

Ji Yuning tied a perfect knot, pulled her slender fingers away from the belt, and continued, "So I didn't tell you."

Fang Bai was silent, not understanding why Ji Yuning would explain.

Ji Yuning thought about it secretly, and continued: "I told Teacher He before, and she agreed at that time, saying that she would discuss with the director and find another classmate to replace me."

Fang Bai lifted his eyelids, raised his eyes and met Ji Yuning's gaze.

Those black eyes were clear and bright, like two stars in the dark night.

"Why don't you go?" Fang Bai asked, "Isn't there a chance for a walk?"

Under Fang Bai's watchful eyes, Ji Yuning slowly brushed Fang Bai's wind-torn hair behind his ears.

When there was no cover on Fang Bai's face, Ji Yuning closed his hands and touched Fang Bai's soft earlobe, and chuckled lightly: "Do I need to be escorted?"

A light sentence, but the content of the words is shocking.

It's obviously an arrogant and conceited sentence, but Ji Yuning's words didn't violate harmony at all.

It's just like the unruliness that a wolf occasionally shows.

Ji Yuning should be like this, confident and proud.

She has her reasons and doesn't need to explain them to anyone.

Inexplicable emotions surged in Fang Bai's heart, and his body warmed up inadvertently.

After a while, Fang Bai's eyes sparkled softly, "Then why are you going?"

Ji Yuning's smile just flashed by, and then she returned to her usual appearance, and she said lightly, "Annoying."

Fang Bai was startled, "Huh? Why bother?"

Ji Yuning has always kept her negative emotions in the deepest part of her heart, including the harm brought to her by those gloomy days, and she has never told anyone about it.

Ji Yuning is a human being, and she also has troubles, and she didn't show her indifference, but she never vented it.

The well in my heart is covered with a heavy cover, which may be made of cement, steel bars or heavy iron, which tightly presses the outlet and is airtight.

And in the well, there is a backlog of darkness.

And at this moment, because of Fang Bai's question, Ji Yuning suddenly felt the desire to confide.

The heavy cover was lifted from the outside.

Light shone into the well.

It's like guiding someone who is going in the wrong direction to the right place.

Ji Yuning frowned, and followed Fang Bai's question and said, "The new person I found was sick a few days ago. Teacher He and the director wanted me to go, and then they took turns talking to me."

Ji Yuning hugged Fang Bai while speaking, and murmured: "I want to be quiet, so I agree."

Fang Bai did not expect things to develop like this, "Today?"

Ji Yuning: "Well, I'm afraid I'll regret it temporarily."

The list has already been submitted, so there is no chance for her to regret it.

That's why Ji Yuning felt annoyed.

Fang Bai put his hands on the top of Ji Yuning's hair, rubbed it lightly, and comforted him: "Mr. He is doing it for you, isn't he?"

Rubbing my head for a long time

Feel the familiar but unfamiliar rhythm above your head.

Ji Yuning pursed her invisible ears, rubbed Fang Bai's palm unconsciously, and said in a low voice, "I know."

She knew, so she said yes.

Ji Yuning: "I wanted to go back and tell you tonight, but I didn't expect you to know first."

Fang Bai lowered his hand and smiled: "It's nothing, it's the same if you know it sooner or later."

Fang Bai felt his little finger being hooked up by someone. The man's hand was very warm, and her fingers, which were a little stiff from the wind, felt a little warmth because of him.

Ji Yuning held Fang Bai's hand naturally, and when she realized that Fang Bai's hand was cold, she didn't hesitate to grab Fang Bai's hand and put it into her own padded jacket pocket.

In the small space, the two hands were tightly pressed together.

Fang Bai was led by this action to move half a step closer to Ji Yuning.

From a distance, they looked like two people hugging each other and warming each other in the cold wind.

But in fact, Fang Bai and Ji Yuning are no different from being hugged together, they are so close to each other, their breaths are intertwined.

Although Ji Yuning's pocket is very warm, but in a large crowd, on a street full of people coming and going, the two of them standing together like this will only attract attention.

Fang Bai's lips parted slightly, he let out a breath, and persuaded, "Someone is watching."

Fang Bai thinks that Ji Yuning also doesn't want to be watched.

But I didn't expect that after she finished speaking, she felt that the hand in her pocket was pinched.

Then I heard Ji Yuning say: "Don't be angry."

Fang Bai is not an angry person, she had already relieved herself while eating, and after thinking about certain things, Fang Bai was not angry with Ji Yuning anymore, but relieved.

But after hearing Ji Yuning's words, Fang Bai's heart softened a bit, and he said softly, "Why am I angry with you, a child?"

The hand was pinched again.

Ji Yuning frowned slightly, "I'm not."

Fang Bai echoed: "Yes, you won't be anymore soon."

There are still two days.

Just come of age.

Ji Yuning's eyes flickered, and said, "Today doesn't count."

Fang Bai didn't react immediately, "What?"

Maybe it was because she opened her heart, or maybe she was about to reach the age of waiting for a long time, Ji Yuning boldly expressed her thoughts: "When I come back, give me another birthday."

"Then why don't you count today?"

After Fang Bai asked, she and Ji Yuning inadvertently looked at each other, she watched Ji Yuning's face gradually enlarged until Ji Yuning leaned on her shoulder.

Ji Yuning's voice was next to her ear: "Like last time, there are only two of us."

Fang Bai blurted out: "If Xiaomu knows that you think so, he must be very sad."

"..." Ji Yuning said, "I will apologize to her."

"No, Auntie was just joking." Fang Bai asked, "Why do you want to do it again?"

Ji Yuning rested her head on Fang Bai's shoulder, just like being coquettish, but said in a very calm voice: "I want to eat noodles."

Fang Bai was stunned for a few seconds, then he smiled and said, "Okay."

Ji Yuning stared at Fang Bai's smile for a few seconds, and let out a "hmm" from her nose.

In the distance, Mu Xuerou's voice interrupted the two of them.

"Yu Ning, Aunt Fang, what's wrong with you?!"

Fang Bai looked in Mu Xuerou's direction, and replied, "It's okay, I'll come here."

The gaze returned to Ji Yuning, who had already retreated from her arms.

It's just that their hands were still in their pockets.

Fang Bai imitated Ji Yuning's movement a few minutes ago, squeezed Ji Yuning's hand, raised his eyebrows, and said softly, "Can you let go?"

Ji Yuning: "Yes."

Fang Bai felt that one hand was loosened by Ji Yuning.

After Fang Bai pulled out that hand, she moved the other hand that was still being held, "What about this one?"

In the next second, Ji Yuning let go of her hand obediently.

But before Fang took his white hand out of his pocket, Ji Yuning said, "It's a bit cold, can auntie help you warm up?"

Fang Bai stopped pulling away.

A gust of wind blew by, and the coldness came oncoming.

In the pocket of the padded jacket, Fang Bai held Ji Yuning's hand instead.

KTV.

Mu Xuerou booked a medium box, which can accommodate up to eight people. After the four of them entered, the room was very spacious.

After the waiter left, Mu Xuerou took He Ziyan to order songs, while Fang Bai pulled Ji Yuning to sit in the middle seat.

Three minutes later, He Ziyan sat beside them, while Mu Xuerou turned her head and asked, "Yu Ning, Aunt Fang, do you have any songs you want to sing?"

Ji Yuning shook her head.

After Fang Bai thought for a while, he announced the title of the song.

Mu Xuerou smiled when she heard Wanran, and said a little happily: "I've heard this before! My mother often sings~"

Fang Bai raised his eyebrows and remained silent.

At this moment, He Ziyan, who was next to her, said to Mu Xuerou: "Xuerou, let Aunt Fang sing first."

Fang Bai tilted his head slightly: "Why?"

"I want to hear what your singing is like, Auntie." After finishing speaking, He Ziyan skipped over Fang Bai, looked at a prudish person, and said, "Ji Yuning must think so too. If you don't believe me, ask Auntie."

Why do you say it's fake?

Because He Ziyan saw it.

On the way here, when she realized that the two people behind her hadn't followed, He Ziyan turned her head and took all of Ji Yuning's actions as she folded Fang Bai's clothes and hugged Fang Bai.

At that moment, the impact on He Ziyan was not small.

She didn't expect... Ji Yuning would do something like caring about other people's intimate contact with other people.

To exaggerate, it subverts He Ziyan's perception of Ji Yuning.

When the two came to them and saw Fang Bai put his hands in Ji Yuning's pocket, He Ziyan deliberately asked why, but Fang Bai's answer was to warm Xiao Ning's hands.

If it was placed before, and told her that Ji Yuning would let other people warm her hands, He Ziyan would not believe it when she thought of that cold face and the defensive wall that kept strangers away.

But now, seeing is believing, He Ziyan can only believe.

I believe that some of Ji Yuning's appearances are just a disguise.

warm hands?

Really pretend to be pitiful!

Fortunately, in order to give Ji Yuning and Fang Bai a chance to be alone and explain, she led Mu Xuerou forward...

He Ziyan doesn't feel very good now.

Listening to He Ziyan's words, Fang Bai turned his head to Ji Yuning again, but he didn't speak, but asked with his eyes.

Ignoring He Ziyan's angry eyes on her, Ji Yuning looked back and curled her lips at Fang Bai, "Yes, I want to hear it."

Seeing Ji Yuning's smile, Fang Bai's eyes curved, "Don't tell me if you sing badly."

Mu Xuerou has already cut the song.

What Fang Bai ordered was Teresa Teng's "I Only Care About You", an old song.

The prelude sounded, and Fang Bai focused his attention on the screen.

After a few seconds-

"If I didn't meet you

Where will I be…”

Fang Bai's voice is very suitable for this song, as gentle as water, with indescribable affection.

Ji Yuning's heart beat suddenly.

"...

如果 有 那么 一 天

你 说 即将 要 离去

我 会 迷失 我 自己

走入 无边人 海 里

... "

Hearing the lyrics, Ji Yuning looked at the singer. Under the dim light, the lines of Fang Bai's face were covered with a layer of illusory light and shadow, and he couldn't see clearly, as if when the light went away, Fang Bai would disappear into the darkness.

Suddenly, the surface of the lake where Fang Bai leaned against the wall a few days ago came to mind, as well as Fang Bai's somewhat abnormal response...

Ji Yuning's heart was inexplicably empty, and the hands hanging by his legs couldn't help but clenched.

A sense of panic spread to every corner of her body, and subconsciously, Ji Yuning reached out and grabbed Fang Bai's corner of his clothes.

It wasn't until the end of the song that Ji Yuning's palpitations slowly disappeared.