Yu Louran, the tiger of another world

In a blink of an eye, Lou Ran had been in the cave for half a month.Except for going out once a day and daily eating, drinking, and sleeping, the rest of the time can only be curled up in the cave. It was fine at first, but as time went on, Lou Ran felt more and more lonely and cold.

The outside of the cave is like a mountain of knives and a sea of ​​fire, full of "traps and tricks". Well, they are actually beasts and birds.The cave is like a prison, and he is the only one in this prison.No one talks, no one communicates.My hands are inflexible, so I can't do manual work to pass the time.All day long, I was either staring at the flames or listening to the movement outside in a daze, or looking at the white world outside through the gap left between the branches blocking the entrance of the cave.

In the next few days, Lou Ran was really bored, so he walked back and forth in the cave.As he walked, he thought, and regretted while thinking, how stupid was he to choose such an opportunity to come out?Don't choose the season when the birds are singing and the flowers are fragrant, but choose a season when it's freezing and you can't walk?During the four-month cold winter, if he was in the tribe, he would be able to communicate with others without starving or freezing. A dangerous beast.When the winter is over, if you are lucky enough to meet one or two wandering orcs on the road, maybe you can invite them to take an adventure in the Niya Forest, so that there are companions to reduce the danger, right?Also, life in the tribe is actually very difficult, so why didn't we try our best to come up with something to improve their lives and repay them for saving their lives and taking them in?

It's good now, sneaking out, like a thief, dragging the people in the tribe to come out to find it hard, and I have also ended up in such a difficult situation.

The more Lou Ran thought about it, the more he regretted it, the more he thought about it, the more he despised himself, and regretted to the extreme, he couldn't help but yelled hard at the cave: Lou Ran, you idiot!The super invincible idiot in the universe!What can you do with your life?

Gradually, Lou Ran realized that she was out of control, so she tried to calm herself down.He tried to control his emotions, and began to think about the people and things he encountered after this world, and by the way, make a good plan for the future journey.

But somehow, the brain automatically recalls the painful past that it has been unwilling to reveal for many years.

When Lou Ran was a child, he was a very smart and well-behaved child, who was beautiful and cute. His parents, grandparents, uncles, aunts, teachers and classmates all liked him when they saw him.But the world is impermanent. When he graduated from elementary school, the family surrounded by happiness bubbles fell apart in less than half a year.

Lou Ran graduated from elementary school and was admitted to a key middle school.In order for Lou Ran to spend a different summer vacation, Grandpa Lou and Grandma Lou decided to take Lou Ran back to their hometown by car, and called Lou Ran's parents who were still working.Just do what you say, and within an hour, the three of them happily drove on the road.

Unexpectedly, before leaving the urban area, the red light came on at the intersection. When Grandpa Lou stopped the car, the brakes suddenly failed, which eventually led to a serious car accident.Grandpa Lou and Grandma Lou protected their grandson in panic, but both died.Although someone was protecting him, Lou Ran still broke two ribs, injured his head, and suffered a slight concussion, but fortunately he survived.

The passing of the two old people cast a deep shadow on the family. Lou Ran was lying on the hospital bed, hiding under the quilt and crying to death.Later, he sat in a wheelchair, attended the funeral of his grandparents, and spent half a month in the hospital before being discharged.

After being taken home by Lou's mother, Lou Ran did not expect that the storm would not stop.

At the beginning, he found that his parents no longer had the love they used to have. Apart from saying a few words in front of him, the two behind him seemed to be strangers.After observing for a while, Lou Ran concluded from the obvious sadness in the eyes of the two that they were sad because of the death of their grandparents.

Suddenly one day, Lou Ran found that Lou's father started to stay out at night, sometimes even returning home only once in two or three days, and often took work on business trips.Once home from school, Lou Ran discovered that Lou's father, who never quarreled, yelled at Lou's mother, saying that it was because of her that he lost his parents, and then found out more and more frequently.

From Lou's father's few words, Lou Ran gradually learned that before the accident, Lou's father had already noticed that the brakes were malfunctioning, but because he was going on a business trip, he asked Lou's mother to send it to be repaired.As a result, Lou's mother was too busy with work, so she forgot about it.When the two old people drove back to their hometown, no one thought about it, so this tragedy happened.

Because Lou's mother felt guilty, she just silently endured Lou's father's insults.But the development of things exceeded expectations. Lou's father, a teetotaler, started to drink heavily.After waking up, he was full of guilt towards his bruised wife and frightened child.But because of the grief in his heart, he didn't know how to face the two people he loved so much, so he simply kept silent, and then the cycle started again and again.Lou's mother blamed herself for being haggard, lost her job, and suddenly aged twenty years.

Later, Lou's father became more and more alcoholic, and there were more and more violent incidents.In the end, he turned his gun on Lou Ran, calling him a loser, saying that if it weren't for his grandparents not going back to their hometown, not knowing how to drive, let alone going so early.During the most serious period, Lou's father slapped Lou Ran's mouth at every turn, and even moved his belt. Lou Ran often went to school with injuries.

The mentally immature Lou Ran also thought that he had killed his dear grandparents, and he blamed himself endlessly. Coupled with the shadow of his family, he locked himself in the self-organized world before entering the rebellious period. For a long time, he didn't talk or laugh, his academic performance declined, he lost all his friends, and his teachers gradually lost patience with him. Since then, Lou Ran has become an out-and-out loner.

In the end, it was Lou's mother who discovered the abnormality. For the sake of her beloved son, she resolutely divorced Lou's father and took Lou Ran to live in another city.

The new environment slowly pulled Lou Ran out of her own world, but Lou Ran still seldom spoke, and most of the friends around her were casual acquaintances.He also inquired about Dad Lou's situation, but only heard that he resigned from the company, and there has been no news since then.Later, when Lou Ran went to university, Lou's mother passed away due to physical loss, and Lou Ran has no home since then.

With the end of the world approaching, Lou Ran also looked for Lou's father, but found nothing.When he met Lu Haoyuan, Zhang Qiang, Wang Xinxin, and Zhang Yue, and gradually integrated into the group of five people, Lou Ran felt like home, and his temperament became much more cheerful.Although he still doesn't talk much, he can occasionally open up a corner of his heart with others.

Zhang Yue made Lou Ran see her mother's appearance in those happy days. Lou's mother was also active and strong in the past.Getting along with Zhang Yue made him feel that he was back when he was a child, and he was still the child surrounded by happiness.Such a heartbeat became inevitable, so under Zhang Qiang's instigation, even though he was shy, he still accepted Zhang Yue's request for a relationship.Because he wants to have a home, a home as happy as when he was a child.

Lou Ran's childhood experience was once a heart disease that Lou Ran couldn't tell others. Even his closest teammates just told them that he had a father who was lost, and showed them the photos. Please help and pay attention to them if they meet.

Survival is difficult at the end of the day, and they are struggling desperately for food and drink.Unexpectedly, in the blink of an eye, he came into this world.Surviving in the forest for three months, living in the tribe for more than two months, counting the time he came out, it has been almost half a year.Although I regretted my reckless decision before, my belief in going back was still so strong.

At this moment, in this lonely environment, recalling that dark experience again, Lou Ran found that she had let go of it unknowingly.Maybe it's because after the apocalypse, life and death are underestimated, or because I have grown up and understood the things at that time, it doesn't matter who is right and who is wrong, it's just good luck.I haven't seen my dad for so many years, I don't know how he is now.Is it remarried and have a happy family again?Or live alone?Or, to reunite with grandparents and mothers under the onslaught of the apocalypse?During the years of separation, did you ever remember that he had a son named Lou Ran?

Thinking of this, Lou Ran's tears could no longer be stopped, and the longing that had been suppressed for many years burst out, "Mom and Dad, I miss you so much!"

Lou Ran murmured to the fire over and over again, the jumping flames seemed to depict the appearance of her parents.

When I was young, the whole family played and went out for picnics. The family of six sat at the dining table and talked about family affairs. His parents "cede land and pay compensation" to him because he was late, and his grandparents took him to show off in front of a group of old men and women. Sent to the hospital, thick red envelopes during Chinese New Year...

After the death of grandparents, the expressions of parents' grief, the sound of father crying in the room after beating and scolding each time, his mother's guilt to the point of wanting to commit suicide and apologizing, he curled up in the quilt and secretly prayed for the time to start again ...

Those happy and painful memories played back in my mind over and over again, and the things I thought I had forgotten, unexpectedly appeared bit by bit clearly, and even automatically added a lot of details.No wonder people say that the past is unforgettable and cannot be forgotten.

After recalling the past thousands of times, maybe it was too many times, Lou Ran suddenly realized that he couldn't remember the faces of his parents, the appearance of his teammates, and even the disgusting zombie. Two clean.Lou Ran started to panic, started to be afraid.

In the forest, he can still spend time on adventures and find his teammates. This firm belief supports him.But at this moment, he confirmed that the way back was separated by time and space.And his strength value is low, so he can't go out frequently. He used to rely on his memories to get by, but he found that his memory was empty after being recalled countless times, and the things he cared about had no concrete appearance.The unprecedented fear made Lou Ran almost collapse.If he hadn't been woken up in the middle of the night because he was absent-minded and forgot to add firewood that night, he might have fallen into a demon and couldn't extricate himself from it.

After that, Lou Ran didn't dare to think about it every day, he was afraid that one day he would really go crazy.

Therefore, he stayed outside for a long time and added a few more traps.Whenever I feel bored, I open the hole halfway, spread a thick layer of snow, and write stroke by stroke with my left hand, his name, parents' names, teammates' names, impressive poems, and history. Celebrities, names of friends from the White Tiger Tribe...

Occasionally, he would also consider whether the flow of time here is the same as the original world.In case he went back, would it still be a familiar scene?

He even imagined that there was a possibility that he could travel to time and space many years ago, prevent the family tragedy from happening, and then the family would live happily together.

Lou Ran counted the time day by day, praying that the four months of winter would pass quickly, so that he could reach Niya Forest smoothly and find a way to go back.Even if the dream can't be realized, he still has a lot of things to do. He hasn't found his father yet, he has not yet married Zhang Yue and formed a happy family; he hasn't visited his grandparents' graves yet; Didn't give Zhang Qiang the "matchmaker gift" he had been asking for for a long time; still haven't...

But time passed so slowly, there were only sixteen lines drawn on the cave wall.If it wasn't for the change of day and night, Lou Ran would have doubted whether he had passed his whole life, no, maybe he had passed several lives.