little beast

Shen Chengan talked about hugging, but his body was not honest.

Sheng Shuangxu froze his body, allowing the drunken Shen Chengan to press and bite him.

In a daze, Sheng Shuangxu felt that he had become the meat in Shen Chengan's mouth, being chewed and ground by him, and eaten into his stomach.

Shen Chengan likes to bite, like a wild beast marking his belongings and territory.

Sheng Shuangxu should be used to Shen Chengan's actions, and it is his nature to accept it.

Sheng Shuangxu took a breath, he couldn't bear Shen Chengan's bite, so he gently called his name, saying: "...Shen Chengan, you are drunk."

"Wake up, I'm..." He used to want to call himself "teacher", but after a second thought, he didn't want to regard Shen Chengan as his student, so he finally paused and said, "I'm a man , if you touch me like this, you will definitely regret it when you wake up."

Shen Chengan acted as if he didn't hear it, Sheng Shuangxu wanted to persuade him again, but before he could say anything, he bit his arm in pain——Shen Chengan was biting his neck again, even so, Sheng Shuangxu almost fell Cries of pain leaked out of his mouth, blood surged up uncontrollably from his body, and his heart beat violently.

Sheng Shuangxu didn't understand Shen Chengan more and more.

The man who originally hated homosexuality so much that he would retch just by touching it, has been so intimate with Sheng Shuangxu more than once.

Sheng Shuangxu was used to being treated roughly by Shen Chengan, ever since the night in the hotel, Shen Chengan's sudden tenderness always made him extremely uncomfortable.

——No, it's not so much the discomfort after being treated differently, but rather, to Sheng Shuangxu, Shen Chengan's inexplicable tenderness was far more painful to Sheng Shuangxu than his straightforward humiliation.

Men shouldn't do that.

There should be no neck biting between men.

between men...

Sheng Shuangxu's head was dizzy, and the sense of contradiction that he couldn't deal with made him feel miserable.

Apart from Shen Chengan's self-righteous revenge, can they still be regarded as normal people?

They are really like immoral homosexuals, Sheng Shuangxu is unwilling to admit this, and it pulls him farther and farther away from the standard of "normal men".

Sheng Shuangxu hated this kind of Shen Chengan's gentleness that he couldn't deal with. He would rather Shen Chengan beat him a little harder and humiliate him like before.

Pain—should be the immoral price of his homosexual encounters.

He shouldn't be a little depressed, Sheng Shuangxu thought, this is too abnormal, he wants to be a normal man.

That night in the hotel, he blamed alcohol for his loss of control, and alcohol made Sheng Shuangxu's antipathy towards Shen Chengan much duller.

Now his mind is extremely clear, and the sense of shame is imprinted on Sheng Shuangxu's heart extremely clearly.

When Sheng Shuangxu thought that it was a man who kissed him, a man named Shen Chengan who kissed him like a woman, he felt extremely humiliated.

Sheng Shuangxu didn't dare to move his arm, he was afraid of hearing his shameless cry of pain, which was caused by Shen Chengan biting his neck - so he carefully pushed Shen Chengan's shoulder with his other hand, trying to call out He is more sober.

Shen Cheng'an didn't move at all, but his kiss became weaker and softer. As he kissed, his head suddenly sank and fell into Sheng Shuangxu's neck.

Sheng Shuangxu's neck was greasy and sticky to Shen Chengan's tall nose bridge, and there were still hickey marks from Shen Chengan's nibbling - Shen Chengan's breathing gradually became steady, and it warmly swept over Sheng Shuangxu's skin.

The place touched by the exhalation was stuffy and itchy, Sheng Shuangxu wanted to pull away from his body, but he could barely push Shen Chengan to his side, Shen Chengan's arms were still tightly wrapped around him.

That Shen Chengan who was always calm and restrained in front of Sheng Shuangxu was really drunk, he lost his mind, and instinctively longed for Teacher Sheng's embrace.

Only Shen Chengan's soft breath was left in Sheng Shuangxu's ears.

Being hugged like this made him feel extremely uncomfortable physically and mentally, and he couldn't fall asleep normally no matter what, Sheng Shuangxu opened his eyes in the darkness, trying his best not to think about the temperature of Shen Chengan's arms.

His mind was blank, and he lay stiffly in Shen Chengan's arms for a long time, so long that he didn't know how much time had passed, Shen Chengan's muffled and sticky voice suddenly rang in his ears.

Shen Chengan said hoarsely: "Teacher, I trust you so much, but why did you tell my mother?"

Sheng Shuangxu has apologized too many times, and even when faced with any emotional venting, his apology seems to have become much cheaper. He is indeed ashamed of the young man who begged him so hard back then, but he cannot forgive the drastic change in his temperament now. Shen Chengan.

Sheng Shuangxu chose to remain silent.

The drunken Shen Chengan wouldn't get angry, he would just keep talking to himself: "...I don't understand, you are so kind to me, why are you so cruel to him?"

He always tends to become very immature in front of Sheng Shuangxu, and only under the influence of alcohol can the 25-year-old Shen Chengan reunite with the 17-year-old boy, staring pitifully at his teacher who is destined not to respond.

Shengshuangxu will not have any fluctuations in such gazes.

Gone are his once well-behaved and sensible students.

"Teacher, I only have you after Shaoqing's death. Before I escaped from that kind of place, I always wanted to come out to see you alive, but why did you call Maria? Why did you destroy my life?" everything?"

If it was Sheng Shuangxu who met Shen Chengan for the first time, he would use the lowest attitude and beg Shen Chengan's forgiveness amidst endless guilt and remorse. Even if Shen Chengan wanted his life, he would be willing to die to make it up to him.

The current Sheng Shuangxu still didn't say anything, when he faced Shen Chengan, there was only silence left.

An almost callous silence.

"Teacher, why didn't you talk to me?" Shen Chengan muttered to himself, his words were like a stone thrown into a lake, it sank to the bottom of the lake without making any waves.

Sheng Shuangxu felt like he was dealing with an immature child. He was silent for too long. He didn't want to offend Shen Chengan and turn the child into a crazy demon, so he had to say something: "I...I I feel guilty, I don’t know what to say, so I just listened to everything.”

"Teacher, let me tell you a secret of mine." Shen Chengan hugged Sheng Shuangxu's back tightly, as if wanting to melt him into his own flesh and blood, "...I have killed people before."

Sheng Shuangxu was startled, he didn't know whether what Shen Chengan said was nonsense in a dream or the truth, he was so frightened that his back tensed up, and he couldn't help wondering what his purpose for saying these words was.

After Shen Chengan aroused Sheng Shuangxu's suspicion, he remained motionless, his hands were firmly locked around Sheng Shuangxu's waist, and his forehead was pressed against his neck again.

Shen Chengan fell asleep.

The author says:

Shen's past memories will be pushed away little by little when chasing his wife