little beast

Shen Chengan stuffed the flow sheet distributed by the nun into his pocket, Sheng Shuangxu didn't know what to do, so he could only follow Shen Chengan blankly.

Mass in the church is nothing more than reading scriptures and praying. Sheng Shuangxu sat quietly, staring at the stained glass of the church in a daze. The snow outside gradually stopped, and the sun slowly climbed into the sky again. The light reflected down, as if a piece of glass candy paper was pasted on the faces of the people present.

Only after Sheng Shuangxu sat down did he dare to take off his glasses, and carefully wiped the lenses with Shen Chengan's handkerchief.

The front of the field of vision is blurred, and the projection of the flowered glass is blurred and enlarged, like hazy neon lights.

Sheng Shuangxu has a pair of beautiful peach blossom eyes, the end of the eye is slightly protruding, because of high myopia, the eyes can't focus after taking off the glasses, always with moist daze, but his thick lenses cover the eyes.

Sheng Shuangxu was very afraid that he would not be able to see clearly if he took off his glasses, so he wiped them off very quickly, so that this annoying fuzzy feeling would pass sooner - when he finally put on the glasses again, he felt like a new life.

He turned his head, and was about to return the handkerchief to Shen Chengan, but found that he was also staring at him.

Shen Chengan's green eyes melted into the green light of the stained glass, and the ends of his eyes were flushed. I don't know if it was because of the light, his whole face turned slightly red.

Sheng Shuangxu had never seen Shen Chengan like this.

Shen Cheng looked at him calmly, and said in a hoarse voice: "Teacher, I don't want to be here anymore, I'm going to stay elsewhere for a while."

Shen Chengan's expression was too strange. No matter how obedient Sheng Shuangxu was, he was more worried than indifferent. He couldn't let Shen Chengan leave alone, so he followed silently.

Everyone in the church was confessing, and no one noticed the moving two people. Shen Chengan stopped in front of the confession room - it was at the corner of the church, the space was very narrow, the doors and windows were hollowed out, and a wooden board was placed in between.

Sheng Shuangxu looked at the narrow, wooden box-like confession room, and fear arose in his heart. The feeling of suffocation and damp swept him, preventing him from taking another step forward.

Sheng Shuangxu recalled the wardrobe that Sheng Yuwei and Sheng Yuwei hid in when they were children.

Since then, he has been terrified of any narrow, dark space.

The confessional room is designed for this purpose. It is claustrophobic and secretive enough. The priest sits at the other end and never knows who is coming to pray. He only needs to listen to the secrets of unknown people and forgive for the Lord.

The sound of the organ is sometimes crisp and sometimes passionate, and the sounds of the musicians and the choir are getting more and more distant.

The claustrophobia swept over Sheng Shuangxu in an instant, and he could only hear the sound of his own violent heart beating.

Only then did Shen Chengan realize that Sheng Shuangxu was behind him, and he didn't notice Sheng Shuangxu's discomfort, so he said softly, "Teacher, why are you following me?"

Sheng Shuangxu didn't explain, he bit his lower lip tightly, and boldly opened the curtain.

Shen Chengan did not refuse his following.

Shen Chengan seemed to heave a sigh of relief, but fear slowly climbed up Sheng Shuangxu's back. The long-lost memories he thought he had been liberated from were recalled again, not only the nightmare many years ago, but also the fall from the building. And Sheng Yuwei, the mother who cried until she fainted at the funeral.

The light here was very dim, Sheng Shuangxu was in a daze because of fear, he was even so weak that he couldn't confirm whether the person beside him was Shen Chengan.

Sheng Shuangxu forcibly pulled himself away from his memory, he had to pay attention to Shen Chengan's situation.

Ever since he entered the church, Shen Chengan has become very strange. Sheng Shuangxu has never seen Shen Chengan so fragile. The once vicious man seemed to be shattered at the touch of a finger. It made him inevitably think of the phone call he made to Maria impulsively. .

Sheng Shuangxu didn't know much about Shen Chengan, he only knew that Shen Chengan had undergone homosexual correction, moreover, it might be related to his mother's religious beliefs.

Sheng Shuangxu had already made up his mind not to intervene in Shen Chengan's thoughts, so as not to arouse his unreasonable anger, he wanted to be a doll who accepted everything - but Shen Chengan became like this, after all, it was his own fault.

Sheng Shuangxu swallowed her saliva and said, "Are you okay?"

very bad.

Shen Chengan was too confident in himself, he thought he had gotten rid of the past - at least he felt that he had defeated Maria, but it was obvious that he failed.

He will live forever in the shadow of the past.

From the first second he stepped into the church, invisible shackles wrapped around his ankles, because he committed a sin, the sin instilled by Mary and religion.

—he is now fully clothed, yet naked before the Father.

Shen Chengan said expressionlessly: "Sheng Shuangxu, you are the one who insisted on following."

The church will mobilize Shen Chengan's years of experience, automatically replay, and drive him crazy.

He could recite every word of the Bible by heart, yet never gained any faith, nor received any asylum.

Shen Chengan didn't want to expose his fragility in front of others. He wanted to hide, avoid Sheng Shuangxu, and digest this pain alone. Sheng Shuangxu insisted on running over because he wanted to see his ugliness and see him in such pain. And complacent?

Shen Chengan doesn't believe that there is any kindness in this world that is purely towards himself, especially Sheng Shuangxu, who deceived him and betrayed him—he will never expose his ineptitude in front of Sheng Shuangxu, and he will always maintain the pride of a victor in front of him.

In order to divert his misfortune, Shen Chengan drew his attention to Sheng Shuangxu.

Sheng Shuang Xu is the culprit that caused all this.

However, he was bewitched by Sheng Shuangxu, so addicted to the attraction of desire - Sheng Shuangxu must be responsible for this.

Shen Cheng'an wanted to commit taboo sins in such a holy church under the gaze of God, in order to resist the bullying he had endured for many years.

What would Maria think if she found out?Go crazy?Shen Chengan thought, he was already crazy, darkness was growing in his heart, and Sheng Shuangxu became the medium for him to fight against his mother's oppression.

Shen Chengan moved his hand to Sheng Shuangxu's thigh, he clearly sensed Sheng Shuangxu's fear.

Sheng Shuangxu shivered violently.

Why is Sheng Shuangxu so scared?In this dark confessional room, the tighter Shen Chengan's hands pressed, the more painful Sheng Shuangxu would be.

Not only did Shen Chengan not feel sick, the excitement overwhelmed his other emotions, and he felt a secret pleasure.Resentment, jealousy, and unspeakable emotions mixed together, making Shen Chengan want to tear the people around him to pieces and eat them alive.

Sheng Shuangxu is so docile and patient, allowing him to sway, why did Shen Chengan try every means to avoid Sheng Shuangxu before, he no longer wanted to pursue illusory contradictions, as long as he was happy, that was enough.

It seemed that Sheng Shuangxu's misfortune was Shen Chengan's pride in victory.

Shen Chengan pretended to be relaxed and said: "After a person commits a crime, the Lord will often give him the opportunity to repent, and the confession hall exists for this purpose."

"Do you want to repent for Shaoqing?"

Sheng Shuangxu paused, knowing that Shen Chengan was going to bring up the past again, so he timidly said: "...I'm sorry."

Shen Chengan's ears were dying from hearing the three words "I'm sorry".

For him, Sheng Shuangxu's guilt is rampant and cheap, and the only thing worth using is that he can use this guilt to squeeze out all of Sheng Shuangxu's misfortunes.

Shen Chengan said: "Repent, Teacher Sheng, repent for your sins."

"Although the priest is not here, I will always be by your side."

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