After being dressed as the second male, she was bent by the female lead

For a long time after that, after Shu Qingwan and Ruan Lianyi returned from Dongyun Temple, they dug out the sword buried the day before in the woods, and then they practiced for a while.

Wait until the sky darkens, then bury the wooden sword in the same place, and wait for the next day to return to continue sparring.

Sometimes, they didn’t even go to Zhuyuan to report for a whole day. The two just stayed in the woods to study sword styles together, and then practiced in pairs. When they were tired, they would lie side by side and watch the The white clouds that drift with the wind.

The days were peaceful and comfortable, and the soil in the hearts of the two girls also sprouted unknown buds.

From autumn to winter, the swordsmanship of the two is increasing day by day, the sweetness accumulated in Shu Qingwan's heart day by day, finally brewed an uncontrollable emotion for one side, and by the time she found out, the emotion had already overflowed and was difficult to take back.

She didn't know what kind of liking that was, but she finally understood that this kind of liking was different from liking for Nanny Zhang.

She will not become increasingly attached to Nanny Zhang, will not feel that the time with her is not enough, and will not have the appearance of Nanny Zhang in her head from time to time, and even wish that she can grow on the other party's body The other party went to Haijiaotianya.

This sticky and somewhat shy feeling can only be given to her by Ruan Lianyi.

She also knew that this kind of emotion might be unusual, but she couldn't suppress it. She could only restrain it distressedly while letting it go. This feeling was calculated carefully, far more than she thought about whether she wanted it or not. Sending out the wooden sword is even more difficult.

Finally one day, unable to control herself anymore, she knelt down in front of Xuan Qing who was in meditation while the other three seniors and brothers were away.

Xuan Qing opened his eyes, looked at the slim female disciple who had emerged from the ground, and said softly: "What do you need to find a teacher."

Shu Qingwan's voice was weak, as if she was trying to suppress something in her heart, she fell on the ground and hesitated to speak, and finally said: "Master,... this disciple has a guilty conscience, and I have come to confess. "

Xuan Qing's voice did not fluctuate: "What are you regretting?"

Shu Qingwan's forehead was on the back of his hand, and it took a long time before he said with difficulty: "Disciple...disciple is sorry for master, disciple has a second heart..."

Xuan Qing was a little surprised, Shu Qingwan had always been more stable than Ruan Lianyi, since she got started, Ruan Lianyi's temperament has become a lot calmer, and she is no longer as jumpy as before.

Although Shu Qingwan is the youngest junior sister, she is actually more like a senior sister, helping him teach Ruan Lianyi and Liao Ming inside and out, and Shu Qingwan is always the one who learns the most seriously when he learns what Hui teaches. At this time, if he wanted to say that she had some other intentions, he absolutely couldn't believe it.

Xuan Qing put down the Buddhist beads in his hand, reached out and touched the top of Shu Qingwan's hair, and said kindly: "What happened."

Shu Qingwan still crouched down and didn't get up, with a hint of sadness in his tone, as if he had something hard to say: "Disciple...disciple, disciple can't...can't concentrate on practicing sword and reading, being beaten every day. Tortured by things in the heart."

Xuan Qing asked calmly: "What's on your mind?"

"...The disciple is trapped by demons and cannot extricate himself." Shu Qingwan said with a trace of apology and remorse.

Xuan Qing patiently said: "What demons."

Shu Qingwan paused for a long while, straightened up as if going all out, and lowered his head: "Disciple... I don't know why, I always think of Senior Sister Lianyi in my heart, and I always want to see her follow her every day. Without seeing her, I just... I feel bad in my heart."

Xuanqing paused for a moment, then comforted him nonchalantly: "When you were young, you had no one to accompany you. Later, you met Lian Yi. After staying together every day for these years, it is inevitable that you will be dependent. This is normal, so don't take it to heart."

Xuan Qing's words did not have the effect of comforting at all. Uncontrollable pain appeared in Shu Qingwan's eyes, and she fell down on the ground again, her voice trembling slightly: "Not only that, but this disciple has a sinful heart. Seeing Senior Sister When I was young, I always wanted to get close to my senior sister... and my senior sister."

"When I'm alone with Senior Sister, I always have evil thoughts, I can't restrain them, I want to touch her, I want..."

"The disciple is guilty, please master to punish, the disciple is really... difficult... hard to get rid of, I don't know why I am like this, I... I have a side-effect, let me down Master taught me, and I ask Master to punish me."

Shu Qingwan frowned and closed his eyes, his small face was very painful, as if he had really done something heinous.

Xuan Qing's surprise deepened. Although he cultivated the Buddha's heart since childhood, he is not a pedantic person nestled in the deep mountains and old forests.When he was young, he also traveled around the world, so he had naturally seen the love and love in the world.

Although what Shu Qingwan said was not obvious, it was already clear in his heart.

Although he accepted Ruan Lianyi and Shu Qingwan as disciples, he never asked them to truly cultivate the Buddha's heart and escape into Buddhism.

He also understands that everyone has emotions and desires, so he naturally knows that feelings are the most difficult thing to contain in the world, and many things will naturally come to fruition when they are destined, but he did not expect that Shu Qingwan would have such emotions for Ruan Lianyi.

He slowly digested the surprise in his heart, and sighed softly: "Since you are trapped by demons, it is not your original intention, and it is not considered to have other intentions. Naturally, as a teacher, I will not blame you."

"Do you still remember the sentence I asked you when the teacher accepted you?"

Shu Qingwan replied in a muffled voice: "Remember, Master asked me, if dew is like electricity, how should I understand it?"

Xuan Qing nodded: "All conditioned dharmas are like dreams and bubbles, like dew and electricity, and should be viewed as such. Do you remember how you answered at that time?"

Shu Qingwan immediately replied: "Remember, my disciple said that everything in this world is changing, so don't be attached to the appearance of things."

Xuan Qing: "Yes, so you are now obsessed with its appearance."

Shu Qingwan was taken aback for a moment, then raised his head ignorantly.

Xuanqing lightly twisted the Buddhist beads in his hand, and said calmly: "Since you have a demon, you can accept it calmly, go with the flow, and learn to live in peace with it. After all, the demon is also a part of yourself."

"But remember, don't be drawn too much by it."

Although Xuan Qing's main principles were not clear, there seemed to be a place in Shu Qingwan's heart that had been blocked for a long time, and it suddenly cleared up without warning, and his heart became more at ease for no reason.

She had never told anyone about these things before, but now that she said it, she seemed to have gained an unspeakable relief.

In particular, Xuan Qing didn't blame and punish her because of this, but instead let her accept her inner demons calmly, which gave her a little bit of confidence in her heart, and felt that she was not an outlier, and it was not unforgivable.

With the passage of time, Shu Qingwan's 15th birthday is approaching, and this is also her age.

Nanny Zhang told her that she can decide her own affairs in the future, and if she has someone she likes, she can also form a relationship with him, because after a woman reaches Ji, she will be an adult.

Because of this, she was secretly happy for a long time. Although she knew that she could not truly establish a relationship with Ruan Lianyi, she could put Ruan Lianyi in her heart openly, and she felt as if she had gotten a little closer to her.

Ever since Xuan Qing told her to accept her inner demons calmly, a few cracks in the emotional wall in her heart have cracked for no reason.

When it was really hard to restrain, she let those fiery emotions slowly flow out from those gaps.

As the yearning grew stronger, Shu Qingwan even began to be dissatisfied with it. Occasionally, she boldly wondered whether she should secretly reveal this love to Ruan Lianyi, although she also knew that such emotions might scare her. But she still wants to play a game for her own adulthood.

But her heart was disturbed. After all, there was no precedent for women and women in this world.

And she didn't know whether Ruan Lianyi, who was so clean and pure, was willing to accompany such an embarrassing self to walk such a filthy road despite the rumors.

The day before his birthday, Shu Qingwan became more and more troubled and depressed as his birthday was getting closer, even during the daytime he was a little depressed.

The two rode their horses to the foot of Dongyun Temple Mountain. After tying up the horses, they walked up the steps together.

Shu Qingwan climbed several steps on his own because he was worried. He heard Ruan Lianyi complaining, and he came back to his senses immediately.

Standing seven or eight steps away from her, Ruan Lianyi stretched out her hand towards her panting, and said with aggrieved eyes, "Wan Wan, why didn't you pull me today, I feel like I'll be angry if I climb ten more steps." Absolutely dead."

Shu Qingwan turned around and saw Ruan Lianyi's pitiful eyes and outstretched hand, and walked down guiltily.

But as she got closer and closer, for a moment, she wanted to hold hands with Ruan Lianyi.

She was taken aback by her bold idea, and her heart beat up nervously. She stood in front of Ruan Lianyi and endured it for a long time before she suppressed the demons in her heart that were urging her.

Finally, under Ruan Lianyi's suspicious eyes, he pretended to reach out and hold it naturally, then turned around and went up.

Her evasive gaze was naturally caught by Ruan Lianyi, who followed behind her, a little elusive: "Wanwan, I found that something is wrong with you today."

Shu Qingwan's footsteps paused for a moment and continued to go up, guiltily said: "What, something is wrong."

"You kept looking at my hands just now, what's wrong? Are my hands particularly beautiful today?" Ruan Lianyi smiled heartlessly, "Oh... I remembered, last night, I went to my mother's room, she was soaking her hands in morning dew, and then I soaked it too, did it work so quickly?"

"Touch it quickly to see if it's smooth."

After Ruan Lianyi finished speaking, she moved her little paw, which was held by Shu Qingwan.

Shu Qingwan suddenly felt a tremor in her heart, and then her steps became sluggish, and she couldn't walk anymore, so she simply stopped, trying to test Ruan Lianyi's intentions.

Unexpectedly, because she stopped suddenly, Ruan Lianyi behind her bumped into her back unexpectedly. Before she had time to react, Ruan Lianyi's body rebounded, her heel stepped on the air, and then the whole body People fall backwards.

Fortunately, Shu Qingwan reacted quickly, turned around and pulled forward with the hand he was holding, and reached out with the other hand, which was enough to hug Ruan Lianyi.

The two staggered up two steps before barely standing still.

Ruan Lianyi was so frightened that she stretched out her hand and patted her chest, shouting, "Wanwan, you're going to murder your husband!"

"If you want to stop, why don't you say it? Is there any chance I'll survive? If I die, let's see who will take you to ride a horse every day and take you to eat delicious food every day."

Shu Qingwan, who was hugging Ruan Lianyi tightly, suddenly felt her heart burn, she let go of her hand immediately, and stepped back up a step nervously.

Her people backed away, but the touch of Ruan Lianyi's body was still sticking to her.

The soft body, the slender waist, and the cotton-like touch made her feel a strange longing, which spread the heat from her heart to her cheeks, making her feel ashamed.

The crimson color on this face was quickly noticed by Ruan Lianyi, who was still afraid, and said strangely: "What's the matter with you? Why is your face so red."

Shu Qingwan didn't dare to look at Ruan Lianyi, so he could only turn around and whisper, "It's okay."

Ruan Lianyi explained to herself: "Oh, are you scared?"

"Oh, I'm fine. I just said it casually. I didn't mean to blame you. Are you angry?"

Shu Qingwan shook her head angrily: "I didn't."

"Oh, let's go." Ruan Lianyi stretched out his hand to hold Shu Qingwan's hand and walked up, "Then let's find a place to rest and calm down, it makes your face turn red."

Shu Qingwan couldn't bear to let go of her hand, so she let Ruan Lianyi hold her hand, followed behind her and softly replied, "Yes."

She walked a few steps, and remembered the question she was going to ask earlier, so she said in a voice like a mosquito, "Lian'er, what kind of person do you like?"

"Ah? Why did you ask that suddenly?" Ruan Lianyi didn't stop, and said casually, "I don't know. I haven't passed the ceremony yet. My mother said that only after the ceremony can I have someone I like."

She pulled Shu Qingwan towards the direction of the stone next to her: "What's the matter? Do you have someone you like?"

The blush that had just faded on Shu Qingwan's face rose again, she pursed her lips and shook her head: "No."

She hesitated for a while, but still asked with modest hopes: "Lian'er, if one day a bad guy fell in love with you, would you choose to like her?"

Ruan Lianyi pulled Shu Qingwan to sit on the rock, not knowing why: "He is a bad guy, why should I like him?"

Shu Qingwan choked for a moment, then lowered her head in disappointment.

Ruan Lianyi said thoughtfully: "It depends on what kind of bad guy he is. If he's not particularly bad, hasn't killed anyone, and likes me very much, and will change his ways for me, maybe I will like him."

"Will he know martial arts?"

"Is he a chivalrous man? Will he venture into the world with me?"

Shu Qingwan didn't know how to answer, so she could only follow her words: "Maybe, yes."

Ruan Lianyi frowned slightly, and smiled happily: "Then he is willing to travel the rivers and lakes with me, and then be a good person, I should like it?"

Shu Qingwan raised her head, her heart slowly cooling down, she looked at Ruan Lianyi with a complicated expression.

What you like is him after he has corrected his evil ways, but what if he can't "correct his evil ways" at all for this bad thing he did?

The only bad thing he did was knowing that he was a woman but still fell in love with you.

Ruan Lianyi noticed Shu Qingwan's gaze, and smiled brighter: "What's the matter? Are you unhappy?"

"Let me tell you, if you are a man, I will definitely marry you in the future. No matter what bad things you have done, I can forgive you, and then we will go through the rivers and lakes together and fight for justice."

"However, you can't do bad things that are too bad, otherwise it will be difficult to correct."

Shu Qingwan's eyes lit up slightly, and he said in a daze, "Then what if I'm a woman."

Ruan Lianyi grabbed her shoulders: "You are a woman now, but don't worry, even if you are a woman, we can travel the world together, fight for justice, and stay together forever."

Shu Qingwan's heart beat two beats faster: "After that, what if you meet someone you like?"

Ruan Lianyi thought for two seconds: "Then we'll talk about it later when we meet. Anyway, before we meet, you have to accompany me to explore the rivers and lakes. This is what we agreed, and you are not allowed to go back on your word."

Shu Qingwan responded softly with a "hmm".

Ruan Lianyi became happy on his own: "Then you must not go back on your word."

"In the future, let's make two identical swords, and then..."

Shu Qingwan listened to Ruan Lianyi's imagination about the future, his heart that had been cold before suddenly warmed up again, and the decision that was stuck in his heart before finally came to the ground.

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The author has something to say:

The one who gets enlightened early is always the one who suffers the most.

You guessed right, she was about to confess.

In the next section, I will abuse Shu Qingwan a little bit, and after the abuse, I will slowly send out sugar.

Thanks to all the little cuties who voted for Bawang and the nutrient solution, today is long and thick, and I will repay everyone, ok!