After being dressed as the second male, she was bent by the female lead

In the past few days, Ruan Lin went out to collect the bills and just returned, Ruan Lianyi could only pretend to be well-behaved at home, and could not sneak out.

Of course, Ruan Lianyi notified Shu Qingwan in advance, so apart from going to practice swords in the woods every afternoon, Shu Qingwan stayed in the manor yard as usual to help Nanny Zhang with trivial matters.

On this day, Shu Qing was washing her clothes in the yard at night, and vaguely heard the chattering voices of two nuns chatting under the eaves, mixed with the sound of her washing water, it was not real.

At first she didn't care about what they were talking about, but gradually some content caught her attention, and the more she listened, the more fascinated she became.

Before she knew it, she stopped what she was doing without knowing when.

"Let me tell you, my son sent me a letter a few days ago. Guess what it said?"

"what did you say?"

There was a trace of pride in the nun's voice: "My son said, he is dating the daughter of the old Zhou family next door! Ouch! I'm so happy."

The voice of another nun was a little surprised: "Oh? Isn't that just what you want? Didn't you tell me before that you were worried that your son didn't have a girl he liked? Now you don't have to worry. How is the girl?"

"When it comes to appearance, of course he is not worthy of my son, but that appearance looks like he can give birth, let alone other things, if you can give me a big white grandson, it will be worth it!"

"Hey! Look, you're so happy. You haven't come to propose marriage yet, and you want to know your grandson?"

"Why can't I think about my Dabai grandson first? Although I haven't proposed marriage yet, my son has already received the token of love from that girl. Do you mean that she must be my son?"

"Yes, yes, I will make you happy..."

What the nuns said later, Shu Qingwan didn't listen to much, but the few words in the last sentence of the nuns made Shu Qingwan's heart move slightly.

She thought to herself that if she likes someone, she needs to give her a token of love, so that she can show that she likes her.

If she likes her, besides Nanny Zhang, the first person she thinks of is Ruan Lianyi, but since they have been together for so long, she has never given Ruan Lianyi anything.

Thinking of this, Shu Qingwan soon couldn't sit still.

She rinsed the clothes in the basin several times, picked them up to dry, and then locked herself in the room for several hours, all she could think about was what gift she wanted to give Ruan Lianyi.

But at the end, she remembered an important thing.

What the nun said in the afternoon was that a woman likes a man, so she sends a token of love, but if a woman likes another woman, can she give a token of love?

Yes, she already knew that Ruan Lianyi was a woman before she joined Xuanqing's sect.

Shu Qingwan knew about it during the time when she often accompanied Ruan Lianyi to practice swords. At that time, although she liked Ruan Lianyi wholeheartedly and wished she could stay with her all the time, she also knew in her heart that men and women are "unable to accept or accept". dear".

Although Ruan Lianyi was still young, Shu Qingwan always believed that she was a real man, so she didn't dare to get too close. The deep-rooted thoughts in her bones could not make her accept physical contact with Ruan Lianyi calmly.

Although she is just a concubine who is not as good as a maid, Zhang Nanny has also taught her the basic etiquette that women should abide by since she was a child.

So when Ruan Lianyi sometimes encounters happy things and rushes to hug her and smile carelessly, she is both happy and resistant in her heart.

It wasn't until one day that they encountered rain in the suburbs, and Ruan Lianyi took her to hide under a big rock, that the truth was washed out by the boundless rain.

Of course, she didn't discover it secretly, but Ruan Lianyi took the initiative to tell her, but in fact, no matter whether Ruan Lianyi took the initiative to tell her, all the things that would happen had already happened when she first saw Ruan Lianyi. Doomed.

I vaguely remember that the rain was getting heavier and heavier at that time, but the space under the stone was limited, and the two had to stick close together to avoid the rain.

Although Shu Qingwan really wanted to lean against Ruan Lianyi's arms to hide from the rain, but she always kept in mind what Zhang Nanny said "don't get too close to a man", so she quietly moved to the side Moved, and then one side of the shoulder was exposed under the rain curtain, and it was just right.

Her small movements quickly caught Ruan Lianyi's attention, and Ruan Lianyi couldn't help but pull her over again, then pressed her tightly in his arms, and said, "What are you afraid of? I won't eat you again." , why are you so far away from me?"

The tips of Shu Qingwan's ears were slightly red, but she kept her mouth shut, and when Ruan Lianyi wasn't paying attention, she cautiously opened up a little distance.

Ruan Lianyi didn't wait for her to pull away, and stretched out his hand to pull her over again.

The two of them seemed to be playing house, pulling back and forth several times, until Shu Qingwan's heartbeat was made faster by these few times of moderate force, and she blushed and whispered the truth: " Nanny Zhang said, women should not get too close to men..."

Ruan Lianyi didn't understand the meaning of the words at first, she blinked her eyes before she realized it, and then gave a "puchi" and smiled without embarrassment.

She couldn't help laughing for a long time, and Shu Qingwan's face became hot when she laughed straight. She didn't dare to look at her, and finally she was willing to tell Shu Qingwan the truth: "What man? I'm a woman! Qingwan, I'm A woman who is as good as a fake!"

Seeing that Shu Qingwan's eyes were still full of ignorance, she hugged Shu Qingwan closer, and handed her ear to Shu Qingwan's: "Look, I still have pierced ears. I'm just like you. It's a woman."

Shu Qingwan has never observed Ruan Lianyi from such a close distance. She used to remember that women should not get too close to men. Although she longed to get closer to Ruan Lianyi, the bottom line in her heart did not allow her to do so.

Occasionally looking at Ruan Lianyi at a close distance, she was filled with guilt, as if she had defiled Ruan Lianyi, and she had no intention to seriously observe whether Ruan Lianyi had pierced ears.

But today is the closest she is to Ruan Lianyi. Not only can she see clearly the small and delicate piercings on Ruan Lianyi's ears, but she can also see clearly the shape of Ruan Lianyi's beautiful and lovely ears, as well as the fair and delicate skin on her neck. And down, into the snow-white collar.

A small half of the thin collarbone was exposed under the collar, as well as a small edge of the scar left to save her.

Shu Qingwan shyly withdrew her gaze. Although she was shocked by Ruan Lianyi's identity, the disappointment in her heart took a bigger place.

There is an unspeakable thought hidden in the most hidden place in her heart, that is, she will marry the person she likes when she grows up, but if Ruan Lianyi is a woman, then she will not be able to stay with her for a long time in the future Together.

But immediately this loss was overwhelmed by another thought in my heart.

She couldn't help but secretly rejoiced, if Ruan Lianyi was a woman, then she could stand up with her now, without having to consider any boundaries between men and women, and without caring about any worldly views.

She was even a little indescribably happy, and couldn't help but thank God for giving her this unexpected "blessing in disguise".

After solving this little misunderstanding, Shu Qingwan never refused any more intimate gestures from Ruan Lianyi, and drowned in this warm pond with peace of mind, enjoying the pleasure for a long time.

But at this time, Shu Qingwan didn't have the joy in her memory. She was a little disturbed by whether she could give Ruan Lianyi a "token of love", but she didn't have anyone to consult. After a long time, she still went to the kitchen in the backyard to find Madam Zhang.

After all, in terms of the degree of liking in her world, excluding Ruan Lianyi who is the number one, the second place is Zhang Momo who has been close to her since she was a child.

It's not that she hasn't read books about gifted scholars and beauties. Although the Buddhist scriptures are full of "color is emptiness", the poems that Ruan Lianyi stole from Ruan Linyi are more or less vaguely described.

But most of them describe the relationship between men and women, and none of them introduce the relationship between women and women, although for her, there is only one kind of like in her world.

If she likes it, she likes it. She can't tell the difference between Ruan Lianyi's and Zhang Momo's.

Seeing Shu Qingwan lingering, Zhang Momo seemed to have something to say, so she took the initiative to stop her: "Miss, do you have something to tell me?"

Shu Qingwan's mouth was tightly pursed into a line, she really didn't know how to speak to such a difficult question.

Nanny Zhang smiled kindly. She put down the things in her hands, wiped her hands on the apron on her body, and approached as if whispering: "It's just the two of us here, miss, don't be afraid, just talk to me if you have anything to do." explain."

Shu Qingwan stood outside the threshold, held back for a long time, and then whispered: "I...I heard Su Momo say today that her son received a token of love from a woman. What is a token of love? Love token?"

Nanny Zhang waited for a while, thinking that Shu Qingwan had something important to say, when she suddenly waited for this, she couldn't help joking: "Our young lady has grown up, does she have someone she likes?"

Ruan Lianyi's smile suddenly flashed in Shu Qingwan's head, and his face blushed a lot: "...No, I'm just... just curious about what they mean .”

Nanny Zhang stretched out her hand and pulled Shu Qingwan into the kitchen, handed her a stool, sat next to Shu Qingwan on another stool, and said patiently: "The token of love is a gift from a man and a woman who love each other." A gift that expresses the unwavering affection for the other party.”

Shu Qingwan muttered for another moment, hesitatingly said: "Can the woman give her a token of love?"

Nanny Zhang did not doubt him, and taught earnestly like an elder: "It is possible, but a gift from a woman to a woman is not called a token of love, it is just an ordinary gift."

Shu Qingwan's heart was a little indescribably depressed, as if she had been hit by something heavy, she paused, and asked with some unwillingness: "The gift that the woman gave the woman, why...why can't it be called What about the token of love?"

"They can also like each other, and their relationship can be steadfast."

For some reason, when Nanny Zhang said "A gift from a woman to a woman cannot be called a token of love", Shu Qingwan's heart seemed to sink to the bottom of the lake.

It turned out that she couldn't have such a solemn ceremony with Ruan Lianyi at all, that is to say, without this deeper ceremony, she might not be able to have a more complete emotional bond with Ruan Lianyi.

She didn't understand why there was such a relationship between a man and a woman, but not between a woman and a woman, but she clearly felt that she would never meet someone who liked Ruan Lianyi more deeply than Ruan Lianyi in her life.

She can also love Ruan Lianyi for a lifetime and remain steadfast, but why can't the things she gave be called "tokens of love"?

Nanny Zhang was choked by Shu Qingwan's question, and she thought for a while before replying: "Although there are deep feelings between women, they are still different from men and women. Maybe the feelings between men and women in this world are more harmonious." Impress people."

Shu Qingwan was still puzzled, and said with a serious expression: "What is the relationship between men and women? Why is it different from the relationship between women?"

Nanny Zhang couldn't answer anymore, she patted Shu Qingwan's head, thinking it was just a question asked by Shu Qingwan on a whim.

She was stuck for a while, and finally managed to squeeze out a word of comfort: "Miss, you are still young. When you grow up in a few years and meet someone you really like, you will understand the difference."

Shu Qingwan's heart seemed to be covered with a fine veil, she wanted to break free but couldn't, and felt a bit uncomfortable even if her breathing was blocked.

She has obviously met someone she thinks she will like for the rest of her life, but because that person is also a woman, is it not the person she "really" likes?

Then how does it feel when she meets someone she really likes in the future?

Will I like that person as much as I like Ruan Lianyi?

But no matter what happens in the future, as long as she thinks that she may meet someone who likes Ruan Lianyi more than Ruan Lianyi in the future, she will feel very uncomfortable in her heart.

What made her even more uncomfortable was that she couldn't help thinking that Ruan Lianyi would meet someone she "really" liked in the future, she would laugh at that person, fight with that person, and maybe even have a relationship with that person. People share their dreams.

Thinking of this, Shu Qingwan felt that there was a heavy stone weighing on her heart, and the stone was getting heavier and heavier, until she was almost out of breath.

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