After being forced to appear on the cute baby variety show, it became popular [Rebirth]

Fu Xinci never said love, so that when the word popped out of Fu Xinci's mouth, it was strange and fresh.

From the violent attraction when they were young to the tacit tenderness after the reunion, no matter how close the two people are physically, emotionally, they will always maintain a way of getting along with each other that is not warm, polite and does not offend their respective boundaries. .

The reason is that they are too proud, and even the temptation feels cheap.

But Shen Yi didn't feel Fu Xinci's feelings at all.

That's a liking.

But it's just like it.

At first, Shen Yi thought that Fu Xinci's liking came from the fact that their bodies were in harmony, his quiet personality would not be very noisy, and both of them knew how to measure and would not cause trouble for each other.

Based on this, Fu Xinci's feelings seem so unreliable.

When the hormones recede and the freshness disappears, maybe it's just because I don't want to play anymore and I want to settle down, then anyone can replace him.

It was also because of this that when Shen Yi discovered the problem, he broke up with him very simply, just like when he was young, he just found a reason that would not make him appear to be at a disadvantage, and just dismissed Fu Xinci.

But after experiencing this life, after knowing that Fu Xinci has always been his first love, and the person who has posted a profile on Weibo for 12 years is about him, Shen Yi realized later that Fu Xinci's love still hides The deeper meaning is deeper than what he understands.

It's just that Shen Yi never thought about the possibility of "love".

In the alley, under the dim street lights, Shen Yi and Fu Xinci looked at each other for a long time with a distance.

After confirming that there was no joke in those dark eyes, and that Fu Xinci said the word "love" with a fiery but sincere attitude, Shen Yi felt like the building was about to collapse.

Shen Yi regretted not throwing Fu Xinci at the door in the morning, he had never thought about the current situation, and he was helpless.

Then, at the moment when he realized that he might not be able to solve the problem, Shen Yi turned around and left without any hesitation.

Fu Xinci was taken aback for a moment, and couldn't believe that Shen Yi left just like that.

In the next second, the silent disregard after the confession was like a slap in the face on his face, which was hot and painful.

Embarrassed and resentful, Fu Xinci pulled off his mask and shouted at the back of the person in front, "Shen Yi!"

Shen Yi didn't look back, only warned: "Don't follow."

Fu Xinci burst into flames: "Do you want to run away again?"

Shen Yi was silent for a while, and she was still calm: "I'm going to do some shopping, and I'll be back when I'm done shopping."

Fu Xinci still yelled at him: "Then what do you say about I love you?"

Shen Yi blushed and gritted her teeth silently.

House to house in the alley, there is an echo between the narrow walls, especially at night, the movement of a cat overturning the lid of the trash can can be caught by the whole alley, and Fu Xinci shouted at him as if it was not loud enough.

Fucking two hundred and five...

After all, Shen Yi didn't answer, and disappeared at the entrance of the alley.

One big and one small are still standing in place.

After Shen Yi left, Ji Mian put down her little hands covering her ears, and looked at Fu Xinci with an ugly expression.

Although he knew that this was not something children should be concerned about, but the two of them were speaking too loudly, and it was difficult for him not to hear them.

The child lowered his eyelashes, thought for a while, and then, with a bit of pity and sadness, raised his head and said to Fu Xin:

"He doesn't seem to love you."

"You want to tell me!?"

Fu Xinci suddenly exploded.

Shen Yi went to a slightly larger supermarket on the street ahead, the one with shopping carts.

Shen Yi walked around among the three rows of daily necessities shelves. In fact, she didn't buy many things, just toothbrushes, toothpaste and towels.

But he turned around for half an hour.

Shen Yi sometimes holds a bottle of shampoo and looks at it for a long time, and sometimes bends down on the crossbar of the shopping cart, staring at something in a daze, just dawdling like this, taking a step, stopping a step, for a long time Even the tally clerk came over to ask what to buy.

When I passed a basket with the "sale" brand inserted, I saw men's T-shirts piled up in a hill.

Shen Yi guessed that Fu Xinci came overnight without a change of clothes, but Fu Xinci was taller than him, and seemed to be one size bigger, so he couldn't borrow his clothes.

Shen Yi stopped and rummaged through the basket, regardless of the design and color, only looking for the largest size T-shirt.

After finding a suitable one, he glanced at the "sale" sign again, and "20 yuan" was displayed below.

Fu Xinci has always worn high-end clothes from major brands. Even a simple white t-shirt starts at four figures. The 20 yuan clothes must have wronged him. I don't know if the young master is willing to wear it.

Shen Yi threw the t-shirt into the shopping cart, and continued to walk forward, but caught sight of the words hidden under the price tag due to the angle problem just now.

"/3 pieces".

20 yuan/3 pieces.

"..."

Shen Yi had no choice but to dig out two more pieces from the basket and throw them into the cart.

When Shen Yi checked out, she saw the candy shelf next to the cash register, and grabbed a piece of fruit jelly.

I brought it to Ji Mian.

When Shen Yi returned home, the floor beside the sofa had already been laid.

Fu Xinci sat cross-legged on the floor, with his back to the door, and was playing with his mobile phone with his head drooping. When he heard the door open, he didn't look back.

Shen Yi walked to the table, unscrewed the shopping bag, and glanced at Fu Xinci's back.

"Where's Ji Mian?"

"Uncle is bathing him."

"Oh."

Shen Yi could hear the sound of water coming from the bathroom, so she guessed it, but felt that there were only two people in the living room, and it would be awkward if they didn't say a word.

But Fu Xinci didn't raise his head when he answered, and his voice was very cold, making the scene even more embarrassing.

Shen Yi knew that this guy would be angry, and probably would ignore him for a while.

The two of them just played with their phones for a while, and the bathroom door opened. Ji Mian was wrapped in a big bath towel from head to toe, revealing only a small red face, and came out stepping on some big slippers, like a little Duck.

Seeing Shen Yi's return, Ji Mian's eyes lit up, and he walked faster, and came directly to Shen Yi.

Shen Yi hugged Ji Mian onto her lap, and took advantage of the opportunity to wipe the child's hair with a bath towel.

Shen Xiaoliang then came out of the bathroom and asked Fu Xinci to take a bath first.

Fu Xinci didn't give in, walked to the table, found the toiletries in the shopping bag, and saw the T-shirts by the way.

He glanced at Shen Yi.

Shen Yi is concentrating on brushing Ji Mian's hair.

Fu Xinci lowered his eyes, took one out of the bag, and brought them into the bathroom together.

In Fu Xinci's view, the annoying thing about Shen Yi is that she is too gentle.

It's fine if Shen Yi is completely cold, Fu Xinci will at most hate for a while because of his love.

However, Shen Yi's sense of indifference and indifference did not delay the tenderness in his bones at all.

Gentleness seems to be a habit that Shen Yi has developed since childhood, and it is inseparable from his whole being.

He was rejected by Shen Yi in high school, and then Fu Xinci deliberately downplayed Shen Yi's influence on him. He always detoured wherever the two of them fooled around, thinking that this matter could be solved by forgetting.

When he voluntarily quit the basketball team at the end of the semester, Fu Xinci had to sort out the storage boxes in the locker room, only to find a plush toy dog ​​hidden behind the team uniform in the corner, a smiling Samoyed.

Click on the middle, and what comes out is a deep and clear voice:

"Get up, Fu Xinci."

One night a long time ago, Fu Xinci was lying on the cushion in the equipment room, and he could hear Shen Yi sitting beside him rustling his clothes.

"I'm leaving, don't you go home?"

Fu Xinci put his chin on his arm, looked at the silver moonlight on the floor tiles in front of him, and said lazily:

"No return."

"I had a fight with my mother."

When it came to personal matters, Shen Yi would not answer, so he lost his voice.

Fu Xinci said to himself: "I want to have a dog, but she won't let me."

They have never communicated, Fu Xinci only thought that he was talking to Shudong, and did not expect Shen Yi's reply.

But Shen Yi said at this moment: "Why do you keep a dog?"

"Accompany me."

Fu Xinci thought for a while, then said, "I still want to experience the feeling of being woken up by a dog."

Wake him up with that cold, wet nose that is characteristic of a puppy.

Shen Xiaoliang's bathroom is still too narrow for Fu Xinci.

The man was tall and tall, occupying almost the entire cubicle.

He stood under the shower, supported the wall with one hand, wiped the water from his eyelids with the other, and stared at the tiny whirlpool around the floor drain, startled.

Fu Xinci realized that he had fallen into Shen Yi's trap many years ago.

These years of waiting are like the annual rings of a tree, becoming layers of obsessions.

It's a pity that now it's finally time for Shen Yi to wait, but Shen Yi shows a strong desire to escape.

The water drops fell, and Fu Xinci blinked indifferently.

Don't even think about it.

As for why he wanted to escape, Shen Yi said it was Jiang Yunlan before, but in Fu Xinci's view, it was not like that, that was another excuse for Shen Yi.

According to Fu Xinci's understanding of Shen Yi, he doesn't care about anything that can be said by Shen Yi. Shen Yi will always keep the things that he really cares about from the outside world.

Fu Xinci couldn't get close to Shen Yi, but it was also impossible to let go.

Even if Shen Yi doesn't like him, Fu Xinci will try his best to keep Shen Yi by his side.

Don't blame him for being cruel.

It was Shen Yi who was too cruel to him.

Shen Yi took a bath after Fu Xinci, and when he came out after washing, the big one and the young one were no longer in the room.

Shen Yi wiped her hair with a towel, looked around with a confused expression.

Shen Xiaoliang was sitting at the dining table, saw Shen Yi coming out, and said, "I'll close the window and smoke the mosquito coils for a while, the room is not ventilated, let them go to the roof first."

"Oh." Shen Yi didn't feel relieved.

At this moment, Shen Xiaoliang picked up a pot of cut watermelon, stood up, walked over, and handed it to Shen Yi: "Go up and give them some watermelon."

Shen Yi subconsciously refused: "Dad, they want to eat, wait..."

"Ayi."

Shen Xiaoliang interrupted Shen Yi suddenly, keeping his eyes down while speaking.

"From Shenghai, it's not easy to travel so far. If they come with problems, don't let them go back with problems."

Shen Yi shut her mouth and became silent.

Shen Xiaoliang didn't ask the reason in detail, but he didn't know everything. Seeing Ji Mian crying like that tonight, he could guess that there was still something unresolved between them.

But Shen Yi avoids seeing them, it doesn't mean that he really doesn't want to see them.

Shen Xiaoliang knows his son's personality very well.

Shen Xiaoliang sent the basin forward again.

This time, Shen Yi didn't say much, and reached out to take it.

The roof is windy, much cooler than the house.

When Shen Yi went upstairs, Ji Mian was lying on the guardrail, and Fu Xinci was standing behind the child, with his back slightly bent, his forearm resting on the crossbar, and one foot on the raised shelf.

Hearing the sound of going upstairs, one big and one small looked back at the same time.

Ji Mian happily called out: "Shen Yi, you're here!"

Then he got out from Fu Xinci's side and ran to Shen Yi.

Shen Yi put the basin on the small square table at the side, and said to Ji Mian, "Here."

Ji Mian gave a very face-saving "Wow~", picked up a piece of watermelon and took a bite, raised her face, the corner of her mouth was stained with pink melon juice, and smiled: "It's so sweet~"

Shen Yi glanced at Fu Xinci in front of him.

Fu Xinci had already leaned back on the railing to look at the scenery.

Shen Yi said to Ji Mian without distraction: "Eat, eat..."

But just after I finished speaking, I remembered something again, and said: "Only eat one piece, be careful of bedwetting at night."

Ji Mian threw Xiao Nei Ba out with both feet, and said shyly, "Got it."

Shen Yi stood there for a while, seeing that Fu Xinci had no intention of coming over, so she walked to the rooftop and stood at a distance from Fu Xinci.

He looked down at the illuminated street and asked, "My dad cut up the watermelon, don't you want to eat it?"

Fu Xinci rested his cheeks on his wrist, and also looked down: "I'll go in a while."

There was no sound on the roof for a while, only the wind blowing, and the occasional "dong" and "dong" sounds of children spitting watermelon seeds into the basin.

In silence.

Fu Xinci suddenly said: "What do you want to say?"

Shen Yi licked the corners of his lips, took a deep breath in the wind, his heart beat twice, and finally, he asked: "Do you want to know the ending of that dream?"

Fu Xinci turned his head and looked beside him: "Huh?"

Shen Yi reminded: "500 million."

Fu Xinci pondered for a moment, and unconsciously, his indifference dissipated a bit.

"Didn't you ask my mother to change the 500 million check into cash?"

"She changed it, and brought it to me." Shen Yi said after a moment of silence, "But I didn't take it."

Fu Xinci's eyes lit up, and he changed his previous depression, as if he was about to wag his tail.

He slid along the railing towards Shen Yi and bumped into Shen Yi: "What do you mean?"

Shen Yi uncomfortably took a step to the side, away from Fu Xinci, but his face was slightly hot.

He didn't answer Fu Xinci, and said to himself: "Although I sympathize with her, I don't think a mother can interfere in her children's life so arbitrarily and arbitrarily, so I told her that she should not come to me, but should talk to you... "

Even if you want me to leave, it should be up to you.

But the second half of the sentence was kept silent.

Because Fu Xinci didn't know that they had been together.

Because of Shen Yi's understanding, Fu Xinci couldn't bear the enthusiasm in his heart, and held Shen Yi's hand.

But Shen Yi withdrew his hand and put it behind his back.

Fu Xinci had no choice but to withdraw his hand and calm down a little.

What Shen Yi said was just a dream, it may not have much meaning.

Taking advantage of the opportunity, Fu Xinci said, "What are you still worried about? Or do you simply not like me?"

Shen Yi didn't respond for a while.

Fu Xinci just looked at him quietly.

Shen Yi lowered her eyelashes, and the lights from the street illuminated his side face, the light and shadow outlined the delicate outline, with a kind of fragile beauty.

At this moment, Shen Yi suddenly thought of many feelings that he hadn't studied in detail, and also thought of what he couldn't let go of the most, which was the two rejections of Fu Xinci, the attachment shown by Fu Xinci.

When he was young, in front of his precarious life, Fu Xinci stood in front of him, but Shen Yi had no time to worry about him.

In the past, Shen Yi was not much more emotionally mature than Fu Xinci, he only regarded Fu Xinci as a playmate with whom he had a strange bond, and maybe he had thought about the future of the two of them, but he just planned to continue like this.

Under the reversal of the situation, his self-esteem made him deceive himself, so he didn't even give Fu Xinci his contact information.

Shen Yi thought that one day he would forget it, and this was just a dispensable episode in his life, but when he came back to his senses, he had already kept this person in his heart for 11 years.

They reunited after many years, because the time had passed so long, Shen Yi hardly thought that Fu Xinci could still have the feelings he had for him when he was young.

Under the lingering entanglement caused by impulsiveness, Shen Yi strictly abides by his duty. If Fu Xinci is not spoken, he will not think too much, let alone ask more questions.

Fu Xinci is very proud.

Shen Yi is more proud than Fu Xinci.

He can indulge all of Fu Xinci's emotions, but he just won't admit that he has been moved.

Shen Yi knew that his pride was another expression of timidity and weakness.

He was afraid that losing in the end would be too ugly.

Then Jiang Yunlan appeared, and Shen Yi was troubled for a while because of this, but in the end, selfishness still prevailed, and he did not accept Jiang Yunlan's proposal.

Not long after that, Shen Yi ran into Fu Xinci on a blind date.

Shen Yi understands certain characteristics of Fu Xinci, for example, he is always rebellious, will not be manipulated by anyone, let alone threatened by others.

There is only one possibility for him to sit in front of a woman and listen to her wholeheartedly.

That's what Fu Xinci wanted.

It was also at that time that Shen Yi felt that everything was irreversible.

Perhaps the purpose of Jiang Yunlan's appearance was not to stop him, but to remind him.

Fu Xinci also yearns for a family day.

So when Fu Xinci said he loved him, Shen Yi was shocked and moved in his heart, but he would not change his mind easily.

The 22-year-old Fu Xinci is still too young, maybe he doesn't even know what he wants.

With one hand still resting on the guardrail, Shen Yi spread out that hand, looked at the delicate lines on his palm, and said softly, "Did I mention my mother to you?"

Fu Xinci seemed to realize something, stood up slightly, cleared his throat, and even sounded a lot more serious.

"No."

Shen Yi also knew that there were some things about his mother that he had never mentioned to anyone.

Shen Yi didn't evade this time, and said: "I always felt that my life before the age of 19 was a dream, except for some headaches in the exam, but basically I didn't have any troubles. My dad is very handsome, everyone says he is a successful person, and he also Always on the cover of magazines, my mom is beautiful...she is really beautiful, I have seen her videotapes of that pageant many times...they love me so much, they have a good relationship, almost never happened The quarrel, the previous home, looking back now, is like utopia..."

Speaking of this, Shen Yi raised the corners of her lips from the bottom of her heart.

Seeing Shen Yi like this, Fu Xinci felt better for no reason.

Only gradually, Shen Yi's smile faded, as if thinking of something unpleasant.

"My dad's business failed, and his property was seized one by one. During that time, the family was in chaos. There were always different people coming in and out. Either this court or that bureau came to liquidate the property. My dad was exhausted in the company. There was a I haven't been home for many months, and my mother is in charge of affairs at home. One day when I came home from school, when I opened the door, I saw her sending a man out. When my mother saw me, she..."

Shen Yi closed her mouth, as if something was stuck in her throat, it was difficult to speak.

Fu Xinci looked at him quietly, but didn't make a sound.

"She..." Shen Yi said with some difficulty, "There was a moment of panic in her eyes, she concealed it, but I saw it... two weeks later, the court's verdict finally came down, the day the house was sealed, that day The man I met once appeared again and sent a divorce agreement for my mother. She didn't even meet my father face to face, so before my mother..."

Shen Yi paused again.

He didn't want to use the word "hook up", it was too ugly.

Shen Yi slowed down, her voice was much calmer, close to objective: "During the time when my dad was the busiest, my mom had already found a new home. I didn't mean to condemn her. It was her choice, but they had Almost made me believe that there is eternal love in the world, but it is not, everything will change... people will also change."

Fu Xinci was thinking deeply.

Shen Yi suddenly said: "Don't put everything on yourself, I'm not asking you, I just think I should tell you something."

"..." Fu Xinci said, "Oh."

How did Shen Yi know, he almost wanted to make a promise, but he was still thinking about how to say it to make himself more convincing.

Shen Yi said again: "Did you ask me what I want before?"

Fu Xinci: "So what do you want?"

Shen Yi wants a life without pain.

He thought he had done it, but no, what he was doing now was just escaping.

Even after leaving, there are still regrets in my heart that cannot be bridged.

It wasn't until Fu Xinci talked about love that Shen Yi really realized that what she wanted was to have emotional feedback and never be let down.

Instead of pretending to have no feelings.

Reliving this life should not be to avoid the possibility of all pain, because that means that he has to give up all possible moments of joy.

In her previous life, Shen Yi had experienced too many regrets, the meaning of rebirth should not be to continue to live in such a numb and empty way.

Shen Yi gradually clenched his palms.

I want……

was firmly chosen.

Shen Yi raised his head, and a summer night wind blew in his face, he said: "I will go back and continue to participate in Hang Bao."

Fu Xinci was startled for a moment, before he got an answer, he heard Shen Yi agreeing to go back.

"you……"

Shen Yi turned her head to look at him, smiled slightly, and said, "But it's not for Ji Mian or you, it's for myself, I hope this matter can continue from beginning to end."

At the same time, Shen Yi didn't want to run away anymore, at least she didn't want to quit early because she was afraid of her uncontrollable heart.

Shen Yi patted the railing, turned around: "Let's go, go eat watermelon."

Fu Xinci frowned. The conversation seemed to have just begun, but it ended unexpectedly.

He hasn't asked the most crucial question yet.

Fu Xinci followed behind Shen Yi, dissatisfied: "Then what about I love you? You won't give me a response?"

Shen Yi walked to the wooden table, pulled out a small stool and sat down. "ah?"

Fu Xinci squatted in front of Shen Yi: "I love you."

Shen Yi stuffed a watermelon into his mouth: "Eat the watermelon."

"Well……"

Fu Xinci took down the watermelon and wanted to say something.

At the side, Ji Mian slowly shook his head, sighed, "Uncle, you might as well lift the sand that you can't hold."

Fu Xinci: "...shut up."