The fate of provoking a mad beauty

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The love that hadn't had time to feel it well was ruined to pieces because of Huo Junxian's restraint.

Gu Siyu talked about her feelings, "You actually don't care if I love you or not."

Huo Junxian also shared her feelings, she raised her eyes, her expression was sad, but also very sinister, "You don't want to marry me."

They looked at each other calmly.

It's fair, if one person says one sentence, the next one will stab each other's wounds.

The wind in April is not so cold, but the two of them are very hurt.

Gu Siyu said incoherently: "Jie, ok, get married now, I want a cruise wedding, invite a lot of people, and then I walk off the cruise ship, everyone is watching, the stars are shining."

"Okay." Huo Junxian responded immediately, and followed her words: "As long as you want, we will hold the grandest wedding. You can do whatever you want, and I will give you everything."

She walked over, held Gu Siyu's hand holding the cup, and kissed Gu Siyu's finger reverently, "I will also prepare a ring for you, just wear it on the middle finger, you have it and I have it."

Her fingers squeezed into Gu Siyu's, and she held each other, fingers clasped tightly.

If it goes on, there will be quarrels, Huo Junxian is so nice and rich, it would be unflattering not to marry her now.

Gu Siyu got drunk, she drank a lot at night, Huo Junxian held her hand, she knew she shouldn't make trouble, this is a big occasion, she followed Huo Junxian to leave.

When she got to the car, she went to pinch Huo Junxian's chin again, grabbed Huo Junxian's neck and said, "Huo Junxian, you are almost taming me, are you happy?"

"Huh?" Huo Junxian didn't reprimand her when she was pinched and hurt. Her voice was muffled, as if she understood it, she answered her with an "um", but she didn't understand it, so she responded with an "um" to perfunctory.

"I used to be so bad. I was really annoying. People would hate me when they heard my name. They didn't even want to hear my words and my stories. Because, because of you, I became better and became me. The most hated old man. Did you know that?" Gu Siyu laughed, reeking of alcohol, "I'm going to become a domesticated child."

Huo Junxian was stunned for a second, she followed Gu Siyu's back and said, "You are not a small animal."

"I am, I am!" Gu Siyu insisted, "It's just an advanced human being, Huo Junxian, you really don't know if you enclose a person, you are taming her..."

She looked at Huo Junxian, put her fingers on Huo Junxian's face, pinched and touched, "Sometimes I think I am very special in your eyes, so special that I am unique in the world, and sometimes I think I am very stupid, because in your eyes I am actually Anyone can replace it."

It is obviously a very happy thing, why is she in such pain.

Marriage because you are not in love, and you haven't prepared a ring in advance because you are going to get married?

Or maybe something else made her so sad.

She just felt that she was very good with this person, and could continue to be happy. Even if she was bound to her and had less contact with others in this life, it was okay, and she could accept it. Why did it become like this.

Maybe it's because of her nature that she can't persevere, she couldn't hold on long ago, because she couldn't bear to be cruel again and again, now she seized on Huo Junxian's fault and hurriedly took advantage of it.

"Are you afraid?" Huo Junxian did not indulge her sadness, coaxing her softly, saying that the ring is being made to order, and that the wedding can be delayed, they don't have to be so anxious.

But there was no way to comfort Gu Siyu, Huo Junxian's result would not change, Gu Siyu moved her lips, she wanted to try to change back to that bad boy.

Before she could speak, Huo Junxian whispered in her ear, "I really want to be with you, I really want to."

She held her hand and tied each other tightly, she kissed Gu Siyu's lips, "I know you will leave me, I know you are looking for someone to investigate me, but I don't want to break it, we are fine like this of."

Gu Siyu was dizzy, she was groggy and wanted to vomit, the secretary hurriedly found a place to park the car, Huo Junxian went to help Gu Siyu get off the car, Gu Siyu vomited all over Huo Junxian before she could stand still, Gu Siyu felt comfortable after vomiting Too much, she looked at Huo Junxian with an evil smile, "I'm sorry."

Huo Junxian was not angry, and asked the secretary to bring water to rinse her mouth, and then go to solve the mess on her body.

Gu Siyu leaned crookedly against the tree, watching her movements.

Then, she raised her steps and walked forward. Huo Junxian looked at the secretary. The secretary quickly followed Gu Siyu and tried to pull her back, and said softly: "Miss Gu, what's wrong with you? Why do you feel uncomfortable? You can talk to Miss. .”

"Say?" Gu Siyu started to vomit, she drank too much at the banquet, she supported the tree, "What are you talking about, will you turn to me if you tell me?"

Although drunk, Gu Siyu knew very well that the secretary was relying on the Huo family for food, so she would definitely approve of the wedding, there was no way to say it.

My head hurts and I'm so drunk.If you didn't figure out why you were sad before drinking, not only did you not figure it out after drinking, but it inspired the pain.

She used to be so bluffing, waving the flag and shouting that she wanted to escape, and pressing back again and again to bear it, but now the plainness made her collapse.

Gu Siyu felt that she was hypocritical.

She was too involved, forgot the essence, forgot that no one between her and Huo Junxian was willing to give in, if she gave in, she would respond, and if Huo Junxian didn't give it to her, she would be sad.

This is too sad.

She walked a few steps, saw the house in the distance, thought she had reached Huo Junxian's villa, and was going to smash the door.

Huo Junxian pulled her back and said, "You went wrong."

"Aren't they all the same?" Gu Siyu was puzzled, "Do you think there is any difference?"

Huo Junxian held her hand tightly, her face was sullen, her brows were furrowed, she didn't understand, showing faint pain, her tone was still doting, comforting Gu Siyu, "If you don't want to tie the knot, then we won't tie it."

She held Gu Siyu's fingers tightly, saying that she would not get married, but she was unwilling to let her go.

"Do you feel sad?" Gu Siyu asked her.

Huo Junxian nodded.

"Me too. We are torturing each other. In fact, you don't know how to like someone, and neither do I. You see, Chen Tao and his wife, one at home and one abroad, can be happy like this..."

"I think so too." Huo Junxian said suddenly.

Gu Siyu looked at her in surprise, and Huo Junxian said the following paragraph, "They are married."

It seems to be fine.

Gu Siyu was speechless by what she said, "But they agreed to get married, we, don't talk about getting married, don't you think there is something wrong with us, if I go abroad..."

"I can't do anything else." Huo Junxian said, she gritted her teeth, "I really can't do anything else."

She walked forward, holding Gu Siyu's face, kissed Gu Siyu's lips, clasped the back of her head with her hands, and bit her lips gently, as if to prevent her from making a sound, and began to increase her strength, one sentence One sentence blocked her.

They kissed on both sides of the road, and the air carried the fragrance of green leaves.

Gu Siyu didn't push her away, but just resisted and avoided her kiss. Huo Junxian pulled her into the car and pressed her tightly. The two of them sank into the back seat of the sofa, and the narrow space bound them together.

"Let go." Gu Siyu hummed.

Huo Junxian bit the little bit of flesh on her lip, piercing her lip with her teeth, "Don't..."

She kissed Gu Siyu's neck, biting the soft flesh on it, afraid of her pain, and licked it lightly, and finally reached her ear, "Gu Siyu, don't leave me, please... Please."

Gu Siyu didn't make a sound, her heart was so soft that she didn't agree, but her heart was so hard that it made people tremble.

Faced with Gu Siyu's sudden loss of control, Huo Junxian was also at a loss. Her expression failed to adjust several times. She pushed Gu Siyu's hair behind her ears and said, "Don't feel bad, you are drunk, wait until you wake up." It's all right, don't be sad, it's my fault."

Gu Siyu didn't respond, but was trembling by her, tears came out of his eyes, falling little by little.

Gu Siyu was also very tired, and everyone was very tired.

Huo Junxian didn't continue to mention the matter of marriage, she made her own concession, but she watched Gu Siyu more closely, fearing that she would run away suddenly, and basically never took her hands away from Gu Siyu.

They went back to the real villa, kept warm at home, and kept away from outside information at all. No matter what banquet or company work, Huo Junxian would never listen to it. She would not quarrel with Gu Siyu. No matter how angry Gu Siyu was, she would Is docile, according to Gu Siyu.

Huo Junxian also tentatively asked Gu Siyu who was the one who leaked the wedding to her, but she never told anyone.

Gu Siyu did not reveal that it was Lin Ke. She was afraid that if she did, she would not hear any information in the future. The security of the villa is too good.

Gu Siyu didn't tell her to leave, as if he had given up struggling completely, he lay on the sofa every day, like a caged bird.

She thought of the bird she raised. She broke her wing and couldn't go anywhere. She stayed in the box all day, eating and drinking.

After two weeks of waste, Chen Tao came back from abroad to talk to Huo Junxian.

It seems to be talking about same-sex marriage. There is no place in China that recognizes same-sex marriage. Chen Tao went abroad to go through the formalities for them. After the formalities were completed, he went abroad to get the certificate.

The two were talking in the study, and Gu Siyu went to eavesdrop, but Huo Junxian didn't give an answer. Gu Siyu counted to three, she went down the stairs, took her motorcycle from Huo Junxian's garage, and went outside , she keeps speeding up and speeding up.

After 10 minutes of driving, her cell phone rang.

Gu Siyu frowned, not knowing whether to answer the call, the wind blew her hair.

But she kept losing her mind. Gu Siyu knew that riding a bicycle like this was dangerous, and it was harmful to others as well as herself. She bit her lip hard, and soon her lip was broken. During this time, they often kissed, and their lips were red and swollen.

Called the phone three times, but never again.

Gu Siyu drove the car to the beach near the racing track. She took out her mobile phone and looked at the missed calls and sent messages.

Huo Junxian: [If you don't want to get married, then you can get married. I won't force you. 】

Huo Junxian: [Where are you? 】

Gu Siyu: [The beach behind the racetrack [picture]]

Huo Junxian: [I'm here to find you. 】

Gu Siyu replied with a hmm, she knew that she couldn't see Huo Junxian now, and she didn't want to see her, she was so messed up that she didn't know what to do.

The last time she left, Gu Siyu was not firm in her actions, but her goal was firm. This time she hesitated, but became even more sad.

After the message was sent, Gu Siyu listened to the sound of the waves. She didn't play the game of controlling the sea when she was a child. She had fantasies when she was a child. She wanted to live a good life. She firmly believed that it would be good to grow up, but when she grew up, she was hit by reality. None left.

She stayed for a while and left on a motorcycle. She wandered around the city. She went to many places. She went to the pet hospital, the river beach, the playground... and finally went to the stall near the school.

She found a seat and sat down, and asked the boss to serve her dishes, either spicy or numb.

The boss kindly reminded her that she couldn't finish eating by herself.

Gu Siyu said: "If you are in a bad mood, you can go up there."

While waiting for the boss, she had a headache and rested her chin on her hand. The boss brought the beer first, and she opened a can and blew it right away.

Opening one bottle after another, this time she turned on the phone, and no other information came in except for Huo Junxian's.

In the past, Gu Siyu never cared about these things. She used to be accompanied by loneliness and lived freely. Now she is afraid of loneliness, but there is no one around her.

There was no one to drink with her, and she didn't dare to go to the bar to drink like she used to.

She thought again of the banquet yesterday, the cups were mixed, everyone was dressed gorgeously, smiling like peach blossoms, you clinked glasses with me and I clinked glasses with you, but there was not a single good thing inside.

Even Lin Ke, who has a gentle appearance and knowledgeable manners, said in her ear like a crazy critic: "Huo Junxian wants to marry you, tie you down, and have you forever. I can understand this kind of thinking very well, because I also I have coveted someone for a long time, and I want her to have nothing, so I can only climb into my bed."

Gu Siyu didn't observe how big the banquet venue was, nor did she get to know anyone as Huo Junxian's female companion. She ran around the entire venue, as if she had walked into a foggy forest, unable to find a way out.

Been mourning at Huo Junxian's house for the past few days, and she does everything exactly the same. She has no concept of time, and feels that the days have not passed much, as if it was yesterday.

Memories piled up densely.

She drank for a long time, the boss came over to look at it once, Gu Siyu asked the boss to replace the food on the table and serve her new ones, the boss is good, if she didn't eat, he sent the previous hot ones again.

Later, when the nearby office workers got off work, there were more people on the street, and the sky gradually darkened, Gu Siyu's impetuous heart calmed down.

People are afraid of the dark, but if you want to say where you feel more secure, it must be in a place where others can't see.

Gu Siyu drank three bottles of wine before starting to eat. She really wanted to talk to someone, so she rummaged through her phone and put it back.

She has no friends anymore.

It didn't take long for her to feel that someone was walking towards her again. Gu Siyu was so frightened that he raised his body violently, and the movement moved the table. The wine bottle on it tilted down, and the wine only flowed down.

"Hey, Miss Gu, it's me, did I scare you?"

Gu Siyu was slightly stunned, looking at the person in front of him.

"Tattoo artist." The tattoo artist was very impressed with her, to be precise, he was very impressed with Huo Junxian who came with her.

"Oh, it's you." Gu Siyu remembered, this fate is broken, she seems to have met her last time she ran, Gu Siyu was not very happy to see her, because it means that it is very likely that she Huo Junxian will be caught again.

She gave up struggling and pressed her hands on the table to support her forehead.

The tattoo artist said: "I just saw you for a long time, why are you drinking here alone, my friend."

friend?

Gu Siyu said: "I don't have tattoos."

There will definitely be no tattoos on the back. The money for the design has already been paid at that time. She thought sadly that there was no one around.

The tattoo artist sat down, "I work here, just passing by, not soliciting customers, it feels like a coincidence."

It cannot be said to be a coincidence, because this is where Gu Siyu studied, and this is her psychological safety zone.It was only after she left the society that she realized that the outside world was very big and dangerous. Although she was a gangster at school, at least everyone was afraid of her, and there were a group of younger brothers who sought after her.

She insisted that she was fine and didn't care. She really regretted that she didn't study hard at the beginning. If she insisted on studying No.1, would the tuition be exempted? Why?why?

"Hurt by love?" the tattoo artist asked with concern.

Gu Siyu didn't deny it, she was also tired and wanted to confide, "She wants to marry me."

"Aren't you ready?"

"It's not that I'm not ready, it's that I'm not ready at all. We didn't fall in love, and we will be bound by marriage without any commitment."

The tattoo artist didn't refute her words, and thought about it before replying to her, "Marriage is a big deal, and you really shouldn't be impulsive. Tell her well, and it will be good for everyone if you wait."

"She backed down, but I found that backing down can't make the relationship between us unclear. It's always a chicken and a duck talk, and always maintain the surface calm. I've already made a concession, and she will only take advantage of the victory to pursue her. She loves me, yes I I feel it, but she also suffocates me. She backed down, and I don’t trust her, and now I’m afraid of the slightest disturbance, and she doesn’t trust me, and I don’t trust myself either.”

Gu Siyu said: "I don't understand. I also reflected on it for two weeks. I could bear anything before, but now I can't bear it anymore. To love someone is to sacrifice freedom, but I also have to breathe. Space, I know I want to talk to her, but I can’t go on. Every time I talk, I still go back to the original point. I feel powerless. I want to give her a sense of security, but I don’t have the ability. It’s not her fault, it’s my fault too. ..."

She talked a lot, babbling and messing about, she couldn't explain it herself, and pulled the fabric on her chest, feeling uncomfortable.

Gu Siyu looked at the sky, the sky was full of stars, and the spring night was infinitely good.

The tattoo artist understood, and said: "Your situation is indeed not suitable for marriage. If communication fails, you should separate for a while to see if you need each other so much. The relationship also needs to be calm and settled."

"Inseparable. If I want to leave, she will stay. Once I leave, she will shrink back. Now there is only so much space around me."

Gu Siyubi showed her that it was only as big as her thumb, and she couldn't find anyone out for a drink today. She had no friends or relatives, and she only had Huo Junxian.But she was sad because of Huo Junxian.

The tattoo artist said: "Then your relationship is very unhealthy."

"I dare not make promises to her. Every word I say is a bondage. What is the difference between me and her ex-husband? I am also a liar. I asked for it. I should end up the same as him."

"Everything is back to the original point. It's my reason. I ran away once and she didn't trust her. I said later that I wanted to run away from her. It was my reason..."

"She also has a reason, you don't have to blame yourself so much." The tattoo artist said: "When you are in a relationship, you will quarrel. Blindly pursuing who is right or wrong, blaming the other party, or self-doubt are inherently problematic."

After Gu Siyu finished drinking a glass of wine, she felt sad again, "I haven't fallen in love yet, but because of squeezing each other, the relationship is gone."

Marriage should be a very happy thing, why did it become such a painful thing, which made her afraid.

When they quarreled before, Huo Junxian asked her to call her master, and she was angry and numb for humiliating her so much. She would not be as wronged as she is now. Yes, she felt a little wronged.

After talking nonsense, Gu Siyu was in a better mood, "She is very good, I want to be close to her, I want to be with her, but I can't give up my freedom. I'm afraid that we will quarrel endlessly afterwards, I'm afraid that I will fight with her It will end like her and her ex-husband, and I am afraid that I will be like my father and my mother, who tortured each other because of doubts and finally turned into violence. I don’t want to marry her.”

"How long have you known each other?" the tattooist asked.

"There are still two months and a year."

"It's been less than a year..." the tattoo artist said, "It feels like you've been quarreling and running around together in a mess this year. Marriage itself requires both of you to be prepared. If you work hard alone, it will definitely be a thousand times." It's full of holes, and the most important thing is that you don't have enough trust in each other."

"You used to run for freedom, but now it's because of love. Love brings people closer, but now it separates people. Do you love her?"

Gu Siyu closed his eyes and slammed his hands on the table.

The tattoo artist leaned forward a little and said, "You hummed."

"Well, I like it, and I love it very much." Gu Siyu's lips moved, her expression was sad, she was just depressed and calm after talking so much, but now she couldn't hold back suddenly, she covered her face with her hands, and said depressingly: "I have been in love, and I started to fall in love with her in high school, but with her, my heart beats faster, I feel throbbing, and I like it very much."

"Have you ever told her? Maybe she doesn't know that you like her and you love her, so she doesn't feel at ease. "

"I dare not." Gu Siyu shook his head, tears streaming down his face, "I really dare not."

"I took a step back, and she took a step forward, getting closer and closer, so suffocating. I think we are very happy together, but when we are in pain, it can outweigh all the happiness."

"I can guess how she feels, she must feel that I gave her hope, and then cruelly extinguished her hope, I feel so sorry for her, I am so selfish, I can't protect her, I can't love her like a lover , I am not very brave. Every time I quarrel, I see her expression is distorted, but she has to remain gentle and tell me it’s okay, and I know something is wrong.”

Gu Siyu raised his hand to wipe away his tears, took a breath, and seemed not to cry.

Huo Junxian doesn't have the temperament of being bored. In the past, if she slapped Huo Junxian, Huo Junxian would definitely slap her back. If she scolded Huo Junxian, Huo Junxian would slap her back.

Because of that quarrel, Huo Junxian was holding back. She could have said, "Gu Siyu, you are mine, and I will surround you. You walked in. I will not let you go. I will catch you at the ends of the earth." You", now say "It's okay, it's really okay".

This is not progress, it is stifling.

She wanted to fight Huo Junxian to the death.

To put it bluntly, it was the last straw that broke the camel's back.

Turning over old accounts, both of them have done a lot of mistakes, and no one can tolerate the other.

The tattoo artist is the most normal one she has met so far.

"You love her so much," the tattooist exclaimed.

Gu Siyu was not surprised, she had said so long ago, she looked at the tattoo artist, and said weakly: "Do you think you should continue to torture like this, or let it go."

The tattoo artist clicked her tongue. She does tattoos, not as an emotional mentor. From her normal thinking, such a distorted relationship, it is reasonable to think about each other quietly.

But they can't even move the space to be alone.

The tattoo artist opens a bottle of beer and says, "Follow your heart."

Gu Siyu didn't get an answer, so she thanked her anyway, it was enough for someone to listen to her vent.She continued to drink until she was drunk. The tattoo artist called a car for her. The motorcycle stopped at the door of the boss. The tattoo artist asked her where she was going and whether she should call a friend to pick her up.

"no friend."

"family?"

"nor."

The tattoo artist didn't say any more, and called the female driver's car.

"go back."

Gu Siyu reported the name of the place, and the driver drove all the way back. Seeing such a luxurious building, he sighed and said that every inch of land here is expensive, and he can't afford a toilet for a lifetime.

Gu Siyu got out of the car and waved his hand, entered the password, the lights in the villa were all off, Huo Junxian should go to find her.

She lay at the door, and when the phone rang, she picked it up.

"Where are you?" Huo Junxian said in a serious tone.

For Huo Junxian, he had to hold on tightly and not let go. Gu Siyu just ran away when the wind blew.Possession is the best way to relieve anxiety. I want this person, I want her body, soul, and everything to belong to me.

She loves her so much that she no longer feels safe.She loves the way this person stays by her side, likes her promise, and covets her tenderness, even if she can't do it, even if she lies, she still loves her very much.

Huo Junxian is not so arrogant, she also knelt down when dealing with feelings, "Gu Siyu, where are you, I want to see you."

"Huo Junxian, let's be separated for a while, and think about what we are going to do..."

Huo Junxian was interrupted before she finished speaking, "Are you leaving?"

Huo Junxian exposed the words, very essential.

"If this continues, I may leave..."

"possible……"

she pondered.

Gu Siyu felt that she should not lie to her, "Yes. I want to leave, so..."

"Gu Siyu."

Huo Junxian asked her, "Is it because I am not so sad, you are going to go when I get better, if so, then I am sad every day, you continue to be with me..."

"No more." Gu Siyu knew clearly, no more.

The fact that she left Huo Junxian cannot be rationalized, she will definitely be hated and hated.

But it doesn't matter, she also hates herself and hates herself.

Huo Junxian said: "I hate you, Gu Siyu, I really hate you."

She tore off the disguise, showing an uncontrollable madness, "If you dare to leave, I will bring you back after messing up the world..."

Gu Siyu hung up the phone.

She thought, if Huo Junxian came back today, Huo Junxian believed that she would not leave, that she would come back, so she would not leave and continue to torture her.

If Huo Junxian still frantically looks for her outside, she will leave.

Really, really gone.

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The author has something to say:

I'm ready to be scolded, you don't have to suppress yourself

This time the straw for both of them has collapsed, we have to leave T_T

After leaving and coming back, both of these should be carefully considered, so we won't torture each other.

As for how we will be together in the future, you will know when Xiao Gu comes back.

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